A thousand fingerprints on the surfaces of who I am
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We're swallowing light, 'til we're fixed from the inside by SkyScribbles
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
01 Apr 2020
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Choose to do something, Caleb said. Leave it better than it was before. And Essek imagines closing his hands over those scarred wrists and pleading, how?
He hovers a moment longer. Then he drifts into the kitchen.
This is ridiculous. This is pathetic. Caleb told him to do something, and he’s chosen baking.
(In which, if Jester Lavorre asks for cupcakes, you provide cupcakes. Even in the midst of a morality crisis.)
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He almost laughs. Summon a familiar, Essek. It’ll help you unlearn a century of selfishness; it’ll let you forget that you started a war. It’ll fill the space left behind when we are gone.
But he’s being ungenerous, and Caleb is being so kind.
(In which Caleb, for once, is the one to teach Essek a spell.)
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There’s something new in the air, something obvious yet intangible, like a rise in temperature, a shift in scent.
It’s her. It’s the familiar. A fey spirit in the form of a bat is chewing at Essek’s earrings, and for the first time, his towers are home to a living creature aside from him.
(In which Essek adjusts to life with his new familiar.)
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‘Essek.’ Jester draws out the second syllable, and the tension in the air dies down from boiling to on a low simmer. ‘Why do you keep calling her ‘the Umavi’? She’s your mom, right?’
Essek’s smile softens slightly, but it's still thin-lipped. Mirthless. ‘You will not be there to meet my mother, Jester. You will be there for a formal introduction to the head of Den Thelyss.’
(In which the Mighty Nein have dinner with Deirta Thelyss, and learn where the venom in Essek's veins came from.)
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A hundred miles through the desert repenting by SkyScribbles
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
02 Oct 2020
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‘I would not hurt any friends of yours, Beauregard.’
‘You already did.’ Beau gestures to the list of names, slowly crumpling in Essek’s fist. ‘So go meet them. See what you did, and decide whether you’re going to keep running from it.’
(In which Essek encounters some other honorary members of the Mighty Nein, and comes to a decision.)
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And I will try to breathe, 'til it turns to muscle memory by SkyScribbles
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
30 Mar 2020
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‘I don’t trust you to die for us.’
Essek wants to look away. But there is something about Beau's gaze, even through the goggles, that grips more ruthlessly than any gravity well he has ever conjured.
‘I mean,’ she says, ‘we’re trying to build up some honesty here, so – would you die for us, Essek? Would you die for Jester? For Caleb?’
(In which Beau and Essek discuss loyalty, and Beau shares stories of a fallen friend.)
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'How do you give back to a man who – changes you? Who writes something new and different over the surface of who you are? Who gives you – ’
Essek stops. Because his voice is splintering, and because he could live a thousand lifetimes and never find words for what Caleb has done for him.
‘Hope? Well, you say thank you, for starters.’
(In which Caduceus and Essek discuss growth, and wanting things, and green beans. And Caleb.)
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Acknowledge the past as lessons exquisitely crafted by SkyScribbles
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
10 May 2020
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‘You recall the Resonant Echo spell that you learned? Some time ago, now?’
Caleb sits up a little straighter. ‘Of course. That is your spell?’
Essek nods, feeling – he isn’t sure. Peculiar. Vulnerable. Naked, even, like he’s back in the hold of that ship with his soul cracked open, like he’s torn off a layer of skin and handed it to Caleb along with this information.
(In which Caleb and Essek discuss two unique spells, shared between them.)
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Essek Thelyss has never heard anyone tell him that they love him.
Until now. Until every member of the Mighty Nein says it, one by one, each in their own strange way.
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The weight of family and the pull of gravity by SkyScribbles
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
07 Aug 2020
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Verin Thelyss has spent a lifetime in the shadow of the Shadowhand. If he and Essek ever had a chance to be brothers, it died almost a century ago.
So he isn't entirely sure why Essek has invited him to dinner with some friends of his. Some group of foreign mercenaries called the Mighty Nein.
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As you orbit, gravity throws me to the ground by SkyScribbles
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
04 Sep 2020
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Caleb has a mind that counts things.
He counts coin. The passing hours. His remaining stocks of spell components. And, right now, the number of seconds since Essek Thelyss met his eyes and died.
(In which Caleb makes use of his transmuter's stone.)
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In that moment when Caleb squeezed his arm, something electric punched through Essek’s veins, spreading out from the point of contact - and he wanted, so badly, to believe that some part of it was real.
Now, Caleb’s hand rests warm over his heart, and Essek thinks, numbly, that this is very real indeed.
(In which Essek falls in love over a series of touches.)
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Essek extends a hand towards the base of Caleb’s neck. Then freezes, as if he doesn't quite dare to touch. His fingertips hover over Caleb’s throat, a breath away from the pale streak of a scar, the place where a Sourger’s shiv struck home and sprayed blood over the walls of the Dungeon of Penance.
‘I did this,’ Essek says. His voice is quiet enough to scrape in his throat. ‘I allowed this to happen.’
(In which Caleb and Essek confront demons - in more ways than one - and discuss forgiveness.)
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I shine only with the light you gave me by SkyScribbles
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
10 Jul 2020
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There are certain things that an Umavi's son should not do, if he wishes to avoid his mother's rage and the disgust of his Den.
Dancing with a human is most certainly among them.
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