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These days, Till finds solace in the fact that he was right in his suspicions. The violin may have disciplined Ivan, but the guitar pushes his throat past the limits their old world had imposed on him.
On the stage, the heat makes Ivan's hair curl, allowing him to look as ragged as he did during all their childhood tussles. His leather jacket, which now lies discarded somewhere near the entryway, still smells like the hotteok Till burned in their kitchen a couple of nights ago. There’s a tiny brown smear near the zipper of his pants where he spilled a little bit of sauce from the kimchi okonomiyaki he had been eating before rehearsals, because Ivan is the kind to spill things on himself without consequence now.
(Or: When it comes down to it, there's not that much difference between making music and making love.)
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20 Jan 2026
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Placing a thumb over Ivan’s pulse, Till continues pulling at the skin, elated when it goes along with his whims. Ivan’s heart seems to increase its pace. Eleven, twelve, thirteen, Till counts each thud in his head. Then, there’s a pause. Fourteen arrives a beat too late. Satisfied, Till moves to suck on a spot close to the vein. Fifteen, he counts, also a couple of beats delayed.
When he lifts his head, he finds Ivan’s skin already changing into a deeper shade. Hickeys and black eyes follow the same principle, Ivan had told him, in the aftermath of the first time they had done this. The pressure above the skin causes the delicate capillaries underneath to shatter, which then results in the blood gathering in the surrounding area. Of course, only one of these actions is more societally acceptable than the other, although they both carry a fair degree of shame. A little fitting for us, don’t you think?
(Or: Every Tuesday, Till practices giving Ivan hickeys.)
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20 Jan 2026
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Steal my heart, save me yours for dinner by theboynamedcrow for heartofartichokes
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
14 Feb 2025
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Ivan is an acquired taste, like roller-coasters. Scary and confusing the first few times until one grows addicted to the thrill.
Liking him is a bit of a vice, is what Till is saying. He doesn’t know just how many more times his heart will be able to handle the ride at this rate. Especially with Ivan being this fucking dense for a straight A student.
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In which Ivan's obsessive pining is a little more obvious than he thinks, and against his better judgement, Till is very much into it.
That alone wouldn't be as big of a problem, if only Ivan actually made a move on him.
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09 Jan 2026
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Till gets back from his shopping trip and lays face down on the floor for a solid ten minutes while he considers whether or not he is really going through with this. He has mentioned this to no one, there are zero expectations. If he decided to throw everything he just bought into the nearby dumpster none would be the wiser, the waste of money between him and god and the judgmental fuck from the hardware store.
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Happy Birthday Ivan
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- Part 5 of covet
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05 Jan 2026
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“You’re wearing my suit,” Ivan says when he sits down.
“Your underwear too,” Till replies, and then they both miss the first dance because Ivan must check for himself after an invitation like that and it would be rude not to blow him while Ivan’s down there.
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Seven years after high school, a reunion at a wedding
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- Part 4 of covet
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05 Jan 2026