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Xiao Zhan’s POV
Filming The Untamed was a rollercoaster. They had little time, a lot of things to shoot and not a big and promising fanbase. The original story was after all, a bit controversial and maybe, too challenging for the conservative society of China.
They changed the concept. The romantic relationship between Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji became a brotherly bond. That was the only way for the series to air. And Xiao Zhan was ok with it. He was more than ok with it.
He himself was a fan of the story before he got the part. Some of his own urges were partly enhanced while he read the novel and watched the animated characters develop on the screen. He knew that the original story would never air, without twitching a few things and when he got the part he could not believe he was going to portrait one of his favorite fictional heroes.
In the beginning, he did not know who was going to land the role of Lan Zhan. And honestly, he did not really care. He was too focused on thinking about his own performance. It was not until he was called in the producer’s office that he realized that he might have been a little screwed.
Wang Yibo!
Xiao Zhan knew who he was of course. A handsome young prodigy, nation’s sweetheart, great singer, rapper and dancer. And as he came to find out later a huge tease with a kind heart.
Xiao Zhan remembered the first time he had seen the young boy, during an event. He himself was already of age but Yibo was not. He had felt bad for thinking about the younger in a luscious way back then. He was still a child. He was not acting like one though. He knew that he was sexy. He knew that he could play everyone around him by simply batting his eyes and grinning a little bit.
Xiao Zhan had mentally slapped himself and moved on pretty fast. He had not even thought about the younger in years, seeing as they never met after that. Not until the day they were both in the producer’s office.
Wang Yibo was no longer just a boy. He was a man. A handsome man with a keen sense of style and a bright smile. Only his eyes betrayed his young age. Those eyes that were looking at Xiao Zhan with utmost admiration from the moment he walked in the room that day.
It did not take long for them to get to know each other well. In the beginning, Yibo was shy. He would not talk a lot and keep to himself mostly. After the director and the rest of the producers urged Xiao Zhan to talk to him more and actually establish a relationship with his co-star, things changed. He kept following Xiao Zhan around, listening to every word he said like they were the wisest of words. Xiao Zhan would lose count as to how many times they had to stop filming because Yibo would have been too emerged in the older’s performance, he would forget how to say his own lines.
Xiao Zhan would lie if he said that he did not enjoy being idolized by the younger. China loved Wang Yibo and Wang Yibo loved him. Just maybe not in the way Xiao Zhan would want.
After spending months together filming and hanging around on the set, even staying together in the same hotel room, Xiao Zhan realized that for him the younger was not just a co-worker. He was more.
‘’A good friend.’’ He would tell himself in the beginning. They had fun. They laughed together, they even had their own private jokes and would smack each other often making everyone smile with their childish playful relationship.
Xiao Zhan would always pretend to vomit when the younger would tell him that he loved and admired him and would proclaim his wish to take more pictures with him. It was all fun and games.
Some scenes were the most difficult. When they had to gaze into each other's eyes and say something deep. Those important moments that had to build the relationship between the characters. Moments that seemed to build something more than just a brotherly relationship.
Xiao Zhan thought he had caught Yibo linger a little longer sometimes. Smile a little wider when the cameras were not rolling. Those moments were always followed by a snarky comment or a playful prank. Always to keep reminding Xiao Zhan that Yibo was still a child sometimes. A young man that admired and idolized him and that was it.
If someone was to ask him Xiao Zhan could pinpoint the exact moment when he realized he was feeling something more about his younger co-start. It was a few months into filming.
The first pictures were out for the public to see. Some videos and a couple of trailers. Wang Yibo’s fans were going crazy about their Idol in the Lan Zhan costume. And they were right. He was so handsome in those clothes. Xiao Zhan had taken a few of these pictures on his phone. It felt safe looking at them when no one was around.
One day it was announced to the two of them that they were not going to film any scenes. Instead, they were going to put on their costumes and do an array of interviews for a variety of different shows. Xiao Zhan knew that they were going to spend the entire day answering the same questions over and over again, playing a few silly games in the process. But spending the day with Yibo was worth it.
It was during one of their final interviews for a popular online show. The young journalist that was sent to do the interview was not hiding the fact that she was enamored with Yibo. During the interview she would giggle with everything the younger would say, giving him heart eyes and praising him.
She was not rude to Xiao Zhan. Not by a long shot. And later when they were watching the video of the interview everyone on set was teasing Xiao Zhan about the angry way he was looking at her, claiming that the older was angry she was not paying any attention to him.
Only Xiao Zhan knew how much he had felt his blood boil as he saw the girl flirting with Yibo and how low his heart sank when she handed him her number after the interview, Yibo taking it with a polite smile. That was the moment he knew he was jealous. And not because Yibo seemed to be more popular than him, which really was not true. It was just that, the idea of Yibo with someone else, anyone else, made his chest hurt a little bit.
So Xiao Zhan was sad when the filming ended because he was not going to see his co-stars and Yibo every day. He would not even have a reason to contact him that often. But he was also kind of relieved. He would not have to go through the day, trying not to linger, not to smile without a reason every time he saw him, to fight back the urge to stare at his beautiful lips every time he licked them, bit them or smirked at him.
Wang Yibo had never given him a reason to believe that he was interested in him, or men in general. He was always shy with girls but he had never given any sign of being flirtatious with men. It was just guys being guys teasing each other and having a laugh, as he would always say.
Xiao Zhan was of course too scared to try anything that would satisfy him, in general. The society in China would never accept his homosexual tendencies. So he kept it a secret. He had only dated girls and only a handful of his closest friends knew about him. People he knew he could really trust.
Those same friends were the ones that insisted on Yibo being gay, at least for him.
‘’Look at the way he is looking at you,’’ his friend Lin Na had told him one night. ‘’I am not even talking about the scenes. Look at those backstage videos. The guy is undressing you with his eyes.’’
‘’He is only teasing. Besides he admires me you know that.’’
‘’Oh no.’’ she had said. ‘’My little brother admires you. This guy here,’’ she had said and tapped at Yibo’s face on the screen. ‘’This guy wants you.’’
At the time it had been almost a month since the last time they had seen each other. A month of no communication at all. Everyone was busy promoting their own work along with The Untamed. The show had started low and within only a few weeks it was met with more popularity than anyone could imagine.
Soon, more promotional actions started. Xiao Zhan and Yibo had to travel all around China to promote the series. They were also scheduled to do shows in Thailand and Japan. The people loved them.
‘’You are leaving in a week.’’ His manager had told him on a Monday morning. ‘’You will meet Wang Yibo in Japan for a few shows and then you are off to Thailand.’’ Xiao Zhan remembers being so happy that he was going to see the younger again. Between promoting his other works, shooting Joy of Life and getting ready for more projects, he had no time at all.
They had spoken that night on the phone.
‘’Zhan-ge, we are going to travel together.’’ A very excited Wang Yibo had nearly screamed on the phone. ‘’This is gonna be so fucking fun.’’ Xiao Zhan had scoffed.
‘’Watch your language you over-grown child’’ he had said. ‘’You are too young to talk like that’’
‘’I am not a fucking child and I will talk however I want. You try to stop me and I will kick your ass.’’ Had answered the younger, holding back his excitement. They were starting again and it was clear that Yibo had missed that about them.
When Xiao Zhan arrived in Japan, there was a car already waiting to pick him up from the airport and take him straight to the hotel. Some fans had spotted him as he arrived of course. So much for flying under the radar. It took half an hour to get to the hotel and within that half an hour social media blew up with knew of his arrival in Tokyo.
‘’You did it,’’ was what Yibo had told him the moment they met in the hotel lobby. ‘’People were not supposed to know we are here.’’
‘’Shut up, it’s not like I did it on purpose. They recognized me’’ Xiao Zhan had said.
‘’Zhan-ge is so handsome, he is getting all the attention the moment he walks into the room. I should have known.’’ Yibo had said teasingly, pretending to be a crazy fangirl asking for a hug. Xiao Zhan had laughed at his imitation, ignoring his heart skipping a beat at the compliment.
They were not staying in the same hotel room this time. Not with the budget they had. The series was making money and the production company was going out of its way to make the stars feel comfortable. When Xiao Zhan walked into his 5-star hotel room he understood the meaning of luxury.
A massive bed and a bigger bathroom than what he was used to. He was going to spend ten days in Japan living like a king.
He did not get the opportunity to relax a lot, however. Only one hour after his arrival he and Yibo were rushed in a studio, not very far away from the hotel, for a series of interviews and a quick photoshoot.
During the interview, they put on a show for the people there. Everyone was expecting to see Xiao Zhan and Wang Yibo tease each other as they had seen in the backstage videos and the two men would not disappoint. They would smack each other, pretend to ignore each other and play pranks all day. All for the good of promoting the series. The fact that Xiao Zhan enjoyed every second of it and Yibo seemed to enjoy it just as much had nothing to do with how happy Xiao Zhan felt at the end of the day!
This was how the first three days of their promotional tour in Japan had gone. Teasing and laughing a lot. Almost good enough for Xiao Zhan to forget about his feelings. It was not until Thursday night came that Xiao Zhan would be brutally reminded of how he felt for the younger.
It was almost seven in the afternoon. There was a Gala of some sort. Some rich guy had invited a bunch of celebrities over to his penthouse and the two men were expected to attend. It was all for show but there would be a lot of people from the industry there and it could be great for the series as well as their careers to meet a few of them.
Xiao Zhan was in his room, the hair and make-up people were going to be there in half an hour and the two of them were tasked with dressing themselves up. Xiao Zhan liked it when he was given the option of choosing his own clothes. He went for the classic suit and tie with a white shirt. Elegant and simple. Able to point out his most attractive features.
He was checking himself out in the full-sized mirror when someone knocked on his door, furiously. He moved and opened it fast, only to be met with the sight of Yibo wearing the pants of the suit and dress shoe and a hoodie, holding two hangers with clothes in his hands.
‘’Help’’ he said and rushed in, leaving Xiao Zhan confused in front of the open door. The older blinked twice before he closed the door and turned to the younger who was now laying the clothes down on his bed!
‘’What’s wrong?’’ asked the elder as he started walking towards Yibo.
‘’Help me choose. I need to look my best tonight.’’ Said Yibo as he laid down the clothes, flat.
‘’Is tonight something special for didi?’’ asked Xiao Zhan, resuming his teasing but not really sure if he wanted to hear Yibo’s answer. The younger only pursed his lips without dignifying Xiao Zhan with an answer and he stared and the two pieces on the bed.
One was a simple black suit with a white shirt and a bowtie. The other was a black suit with a deep red wine shirt, a black tie, and a black vest. Xiao Zhan took his time admiring the second piece which was truly elegant. He could not understand how Yibo had not already chosen.
‘’This one, of course’’ said Xiao Zhan and he pointed at the red shirt.
‘’Are you sure?’’ asked the younger. ‘’I don’t want to look too cold and distant with darker colors. Maybe I should go for the white.’’ He said and looked at the other suit.
‘’With the white, you will look like a waiter.’’ Said Xiao Zhan and looked at Yibo.
‘’You are wearing white.’’ Said the younger.
‘’Yes but I am not wearing a bowtie.’’ Said Xiao Zhan and pointed at his tie.
‘’I can wear the tie.’’ Said Yibo and took the tie in his hands.
‘’Then we will be wearing the same. Although you will definitely not look as good as me. You know what they say, the taller the better.’’ Xiao Zhan said with a smirk and earned an angry look and a smack in the arm from Yibo which he of course reciprocated.
This started another two-minute fight between them before Xiao Zhan stopped them.
‘’Ok enough. I don’t wanna mess up my suit. Just trust me and put on that one.’’ He said pointing at the outfit he liked. ‘’Whoever is it that you want to impress tonight, will definitely be impressed.’’
He saw Yibo’s cheeks turn red as he lifted his eyes and looked at the older.
‘’I don’t wanna impress anyone. But this is a nice event. I wanna look good.’’ He said and looked down.
‘’Yeah, yeah right.’’ Said Xiao Zhan with a smile. ‘’You can tell me who she is.’’ He said as he looked away.
‘’N-no one.’’ Said the younger obviously flustered. Xiao Zhan took a quiet breath. So there definitely was someone then. He gave himself a small bitter smile. He knew that this was going to happen sooner than later. But he did not expect to feel this sad.
He shook the sad expression off his face and turned around only to have the air punched out of his lungs.
Yibo had halfway taken off his T-shirt. The image of Wang Yibo’s firm naked torso sent jolts down Xiao Zhan’s spine, towards and area that should stay asleep right now.
‘’W-what are you doing?’’ he asked sounding almost terrified. Luckily Yibo did not notice his tone.
‘’What does it look like I am doing?’’ he said and he discarded his t-shirt and the bed. ‘’I am putting my clothes on.’’
‘’Well why can’t you do it in your room?’’ asked Xiao Zhan and willed himself to turn away.
‘’Why, are you shy?’’ asked Yibo and from the sound of his voice alone, Xiao Zhan could turn he was smirking. ‘’You have seen me without a shirt on hundreds of times.’’
‘’It’s not the same. We were staying together. This is weird, you have your own room.’’ Said the older refusing to turn around.
‘’Yeah, but I have no time.’’ Said Yibo as he struggled to tuck the shirt in his pants. ‘’The hair and make-up people will be here any moment now,‘’ he said.
Xiao Zhan closed his eyes and took a deep breath. Why was he affected by the sight of a shirtless Yibo so much? The younger was right. They had seen each other like this many times. And he was able to contain himself all those times so why was he so shocked this time?
When he turned around, Yibo was putting on the vest, finally fully covered. Xiao Zhan felt like he could breathe again. But the way Yibo looked in that outfit. The pants were tight, showing off his toned dancer’s legs. The vest was hugging his torso perfectly and the shirt was showing off his arms. He must have been working out lately. Clearly since he like someone he was going to want to look better so it made sense to work out some more these days. Xiao Zhan knew that this was going to be a difficult night.
The two of them did not get the opportunity to talk at tease each other for much longer. The hair and makeup people arrived soon after and only about an hour later they were getting in separate cars, to drive to the venue. The traffic was insane and it took more than an hour to get there. Fashionably late, as Yibo would always say when he was not on time.
By the time Xiao Zhan arrived at the venue, Yibo was already inside. His manager told him when the older was asking for him. It was a bit silly but he kind of wanted to walk in there with Yibo.
The moment he walked in, he saw at least thirty people had already arrived. Men and women for Japan, China, Korea, and other countries. All dressed up nice and elegant. This seriously was the good kind of party.
As he started walking in, he saw a lot of heads turning his way. Xiao Zhan always drew attention. Yibo was not wrong about that. It made him feel kind of proud really. But at that very moment, he did not really feel the need to boast at how good he looked and much all the women in there were looking at him with hungry eyes, giggling as they whispered thing to each other like schoolgirls. His eyes were scanning the large room and soon enough they landed on the back of a head that he was rather familiar with.
Yibo had his back turned to him as he was chatting up with a cute young lady who was holding a glass of champaign, a little too close to her lips as she was smiling seductively to the younger, obviously flirting with him. And judging by how vivid the conversation was between them, it seemed like Yibo was really enjoying himself.
‘’That must be the one’’ Xiao Zhan thought to himself and he could not help but feel jealous. ‘’She is not even that pretty’’ he caught himself thinking, knowing that it was just pettiness that was making him think like this. The girl was actually very beautiful.
He was about to start walking towards them, feeling the need to interrupt whatever was happening between them when he heard his manager speak in Japanese, right behind him.
He turned around and saw that his manager was fast approaching him, followed by two men. An older one, the one his manager was talking to, who was clearly a businessman, and a younger that Xiao Zhan was sure he recognized from somewhere.
Soon enough the three men were standing in front of him and the manager introduced them. The businessman was actually a hotshot film producer in Japan by the name of Kita Akio. Xiao Zhan had heard about him. He was not afraid to produce even the most controversial of films and series, introducing Japan to the kinds of ideas that were really not accepted in China. Like the idea of homosexual characters.
Beside him, the younger man, maybe a couple of years younger than Xiao Zhan was smiling brightly. ‘’Handsome’’ thought Xiao Zhan as the younger introduced himself. His name was Raku and the moment Xiao Zhan heard his name he recognized him.
He was a rapidly growing star in Japan. He had started as a singer at a young age and he had now moved on to acting. His fans were crazy about him. He was a great singer and dancer and he was winning one award after the other or his acting skills.
Raku seemed exhilarated to meet Xiao Zhan.
‘’I am a huge fan of yours Xiao Zhan-ge.’’ He said in Chinese. ‘’I hope you don’t mind the term.’’ Xiao Zhan smiled.
‘’Not at all’’ he said. ‘’I have heard a lot about you too. It is a pleasure.’’ The two men shook hands smiling at each other and Xiao Zhan now knew what his manager was doing.
As they started to talk, it was clear that the producer valued Raku. He had signed him for at least the next four productions and he was looking to sign more actors.
‘’I could really use a guy like you’’ he told Xiao Zhan. ‘’You are a natural talent. And that role of yours as Wei Wuxian. Amazing. You need to start building an international career and I am just the guy for you.’’ Xiao Zhan smiled.
‘’If you are looking for fresh faces then Wang Yibo is the one you should be looking for’’ he said and he glanced back. Yibo was still talking to the girl, although now a bunch of people had gathered around him.
‘’Yeah, he is good and handsome. But you, my friend. You are something else. There is so much talent here. I can tell. And you are Raku’s personal favorite. I want my star to be happy.’’ He said and made Xiao Zhan turn to look at Raku.
Although the younger was blushing just a bit, his eyes did not falter. On the contrary, he looked in Xiao Zhan’s eyes and there was a fire there. Xiao Zhan did not know if he wanted to run, look away or play along. He was not an idiot.
He could tell that Raku was not just a fan of his work. He was a fan of him, in the most general sense. Xiao Zhan blinked a couple of times and gave a shy smile as he looked at the floor. If Yibo was not there, he would most likely succumb to the younger’s flirty eyes. He was still too young after all and had needs. And Raku was certainly not one to go by unnoticed. He was handsome. Very handsome.
But Yibo was standing just a few feet away and, although nothing was ever going to happen between them, it just felt wrong.
‘’Well, why don’t we let you two young rising stars chat a bit. You and I can have a drink at the bar.’’ The producer said to Xiao Zhan’s manager. The other nodded cheerfully and winked at Xiao Zhan before he followed the producer.
Xiao Zhan was left alone with Raku, whose piercing gaze was all over him. And maybe the silence was making Xiao Zhan feel a little uncomfortable.
‘’So’’ he said breaking the silence. ‘’How long have you been doing this? The acting I mean.’’ He asked trying to engage in a conversation that would make him feel less uncomfortable.
‘’A little over three years.’’ Answered the younger. ‘’I was a singer before that. Well still am technically, just don’t have the time for it anymore.’’ Like Yibo, Xiao Zhan thought.
‘’I was in a boy band myself. Still, am actually.’’ He said with a smile.
‘’Yeah, I know X NINE. You have an amazing voice.’’ He said with a smile. Ok, he was flirting and not subtly. Xiao Zhan knew that in Japan things were not as conservative as China. The society still did not accept homosexuality openly but it was not nearly as bad as China.
‘’Thank you.’’ He answered. ‘’I’ve seen some of your work as well. You are good.’’ He said. He was not lying. It was impossible to not to have seen something of Raku. Xiao Zhan could not really recall if he was indeed talented but he was going to humor the younger.
Raku seemed excited to hear that Xiao Zhan had seen his work.
‘’That is amazing. I appreciate you taking the time to see what I can do. As an actor I mean.’’ He said and took a small step towards the older. Xiao Zhan swallowed hard but he did not move.
He could hear Yibo laugh along with the people that were around him. The distinct sound of female laughter pierced his ears. Yibo must have been having an amazing time. Flirting and all. Xiao Zhan knew that there was no point in stressing over it. After all, he always knew that the younger was straight so why let this get to him.
He looked at Raku as if he was looking at him for the first time. His bright smile and dark eyes full of obvious want were not helping Xiao Zhan think clearly. He took a big gulp of his champaign and he smiled back. And it seemed like Raku was not going to miss out on his opportunity.
‘’You wanna go somewhere quieter? There is a lot of people here.’’ He said with a low voice. Xiao Zhan threw a glance behind him to where Yibo was still talking to people and nodded.
‘’Yeah, yeah, lets’’ he said and let Raku lead him out of the room to one of the halls. He missed the way Yibo’s eyes followed him with a frown on his face until he left the room with the young actor.
Wang Yibo’s POV
Yibo would never admit that he liked men. His first time liking a guy was when Uniq was still active. Living with the rest of the boys in a dorm really did something for him. He never let it get any further off course. He knew that this was not acceptable on any level. So he just buried it. He fooled around with girls almost provocatively sometimes. He did not know who he was trying to fool. The public or himself.
Meeting Xiao Zhan was the blow he was never expecting. That day in the producer’s office for their first official meeting, he did not expect the older to be so handsome and so elegant. Something that made Yibo unable to deny obvious feelings and the reactions of his body.
However, he was not going to jeopardize his career, the series or his fast-growing friendship with Xiao Zhan. He put all of his energy in admiring and teasing the older man, making sure that he would never know. There were times when Yibo was certain that all it would take was one look from Xiao Zhan and he would fall to his knees for the man. And there were more than enough cases during which he was certain Xiao Zhan was looking at him with the exact same want. But they were running on thin ice and he was not going to risk it all for something that might as well be in his head.
He was happy that he would get to spend time with Xiao Zhan promoting The Untamed. Just the two of them. And maybe taking his shirt off in front of him was not completely accidental. And maybe he thought that he could perhaps make Xiao Zhan leave earlier that night. Enjoy a drink together alone, in one of their rooms. Bond some more.
He did not expect to see Xiao Zhan leave the room with a very flirtatious Raku. From the moment Raku approached him, Yibo could not focus on anything else, his eyes fixed on the two of them. He was certain Raku had seen him staring but he did not really care.
And now they are leaving together. Where are they going? And why does Raku seem so pleased with himself? Yibo excused himself in the most polite way possible, claiming that he had to go to the restroom, much to the dismay of the men and women gathered around him and walked towards the way Xiao Zhan and Raku had gone.
He left the big room only to find himself in a long hallway with doors left and right.
‘’Where the hell are they?’’ he asked himself as he started walking down the hallway. At the end of the hallway to the right, he saw the curtains move. A balcony.
He started walking there, slowly, almost inaudibly. Soon enough he heard Xiao Zhan’s heartfelt laughter.
‘’It was a lot of fun. We always did things like that’’ he said and Yibo froze in his place, trying to listen more.
‘’You must have had a lot of fun on set,’’ said Raku.
‘’We did. Everyone was so amazing. And so fun. You really get to bond when you are filming a series. You have more time than when you are filming a movie, I think.’’ Said the older and Yibo smiled. He loved the idea that Xiao Zhan spoke about their filming days with so much love.
‘’It is, I can vouch for that. I can’t wait for the two of us to bond while filming.’’
Yibo’s ears started to ring. They were going to film together?
‘’Don’t get too excited.’’ Xiao Zhan said. ‘’Nothing has been agreed yet. Let the managers do their work.’’ Raku gave a small laugh.
‘’Yeah, you are right. It’s just that I think you are so amazing. I can’t wait to spend time with you.’’
Yibo took a small step and looked out on the balcony from the corner. Raku was taking a step towards Xiao Zhan who was looking at the floor. Once Raku was in front of him, his hand brushed Xiao Zhan’s that jolted.
The older lifted his gaze and looked at the Japanese actor. Raku seemed to lean in. Yibo saw Xiao Zhan’s eyes drop to the younger’s lips. They were close. Too close. Close enough to…
Yibo did not stay for the rest. As fast as he could, he turned around and practically ran into the other room, not really caring if the men on the balcony heard him.
Right before he entered the large room where the gala was taking place, he took a moment to compose himself and will a single tear away. Xiao Zhan, the man he has been crazy about for almost two years, was a few feet away, kissing another man. And Yibo knew that if he was just a little braver all this time, just a little bolder, maybe it could have been him on that balcony with Xiao Zhan. Maybe even take him back to the hotel room.
But no. Yibo was certain he was going to return to the hotel alone and that Xiao Zhan was going to walk in, the next day, a little bit of a different man.
It took more than twenty minutes for Xiao Zhan to return to the room, followed by Raku. Yibo knows because although he had returned to the people that he was talking to before, his attention was not with them. His eyes would wander towards the door for Xiao Zhan to appear.
When he did enter the room again, his face was a little flushed and his lips seemed a bit redder than before. Yibo swallowed hard at the sight of his friend. He could feel the blood boil with jealousy as he saw Raku enter only a minute after, looking more than satisfied. Yibo felt like he was drowning. He felt like he could not breathe.
Without losing time his eyes searched for his own manager who was only a few feet away. He excused himself again and went to him.
‘’I am leaving.’’ He said and the man turned to look at him.
‘’Why?’’ he asked.
‘’I am not feeling so good. I have to go.’’ He answered, clearly not wanting to talk about something like that with his manager. It seemed like the older man was about to protest but Yibo did not give him the opportunity.
He past through the guests, politely bowing to a few of them. Once he was at the door, he got his coat and asked the employees to inform his driver to come to pick him up.
He was out in the cold waiting for the driver to arrive when he felt an arm on his shoulder. He turned around startled. Xiao Zhan was right behind him, his eyes looking a bit worried as he searched for any signs of discomfort on Yibo’s face.
‘’Your manager said you were not feeling well. What’s wrong?’’ he asked. He did not miss the way Yibo’s face slowly hardened.
‘’Just not feeling this party anymore. I don’t wanna be here.’’ He said and looked away.
‘’Did something happen with that person you wanted to look good for?’’ asked the older and did not miss the way Yibo bit his bottom lip. The younger did not answer.
‘’Dude come on. You can tell me. Did she do something?’’ Yibo turned and looked at him, his eyes filled with fire.
‘’Why the hell would you think that I am interested in some girl? I never said that I am.’’ He said, sounding bitter. This was not their typical quarrel, Xiao Zhan noticed. Wang Yibo was angry and it seemed like he was angry at him.
‘’Why are you talking to me like this?’’ he asked.
‘’What, you don’t like the way I talk to you now?’’ asked the younger, clearly trying to provoke him. Xiao Zhan could not understand what was happening.
‘’Did I do something?’’ he asked his voice low. ‘’We have not spoken all night. I did not mean to annoy you in any way.’’
‘’Of course, we did not speak all night. You were too busy talking to your new co-star and best friend to talk to me,’’ said Yibo. He knew he sounded like a brat but he did not really care.
‘’Is that what is wrong? You are mad at me for not talking to you tonight? Or for talking with Raku?’’
‘’Oh is that his name? I had no idea.’’ Said Yibo with a scoff.
Xiao Zhan took a deep breath.
‘’We are here to make new friends. Collaborations. You spent the entire night with a bunch of people around you. You are allowed to do that and I am not?’’ he asked, obviously getting agitated as well.
‘’It’s not the same’’ answered Yibo, his voice threateningly low.
‘’How is it not the same?’’ asked Xiao Zhan.
‘’Well for starters I did not let any of the people, I only just met, explore my tonsils out on the balcony now did I?’’ he said.
It was like an electric shock. Xiao Zhan was taken aback. He took a step away from Yibo whose face was like a stone.
‘’What?’’ he whispered.
‘’I saw you. You…you were… fuck’’ said the younger and turned away.
At that moment, time seemed to stop. The car arrived and Yibo, without even a glance, moved quickly. He got into the car and left the venue, leaving a confused, frustrated, angry and sad Xiao Zhan on the top of the stairs.
So Wang Yibo had seen him kissing a man. And he was disgusted by it.
Third Person POV
Xiao Zhan felt as if his legs could not support him anymore. He never expected Yibo to have feelings for him, but he also never expected this. He had not told anyone about his preferences but he always thought that Yibo was a modern guy. He was an actor after all. And Idol. His entire professional life was built around controversy. From all the people he ever met in the industry, Wang Yibo was the last person he expected to be a homophobe.
He felt mad. He wanted to talk about this. To ask for explanations. He was still the same Xiao Zhan. Nothing had changed. If Yibo was going to judge him by something like that then maybe he really was not the guy Xiao Zhan thought he was.
He went back in, to search for his own manager. He was still talking to the producer. Raku had joined them. When he started to approach them the young start smiled.
‘’Hey,’’ he said when Xiao Zhan arrived. ‘’Is everything ok?’’ he asked.
‘’Yeah, yeah everything is fine. It’s just, Yibo was not feeling well and he had to go. And I can’t just leave him alone.’’ He said looking at his manager, hoping the guy would take a hint. ‘’He is my friend after all.’’ He said.
‘’He is a big boy, he can take care of himself, right?’’ asked Raku and Xiao Zhan felt him get a little closer. Out of instinct, he took a step away.
‘’No, I need to go. He is…he is sensitive right now.’’ He said and looked at his manager again. The man nodded and excused himself as he went to pick up Xiao Zhan’s coat and call for his own driver. Xiao Zhan turned to the producer.
‘’I do hope we get to talk again sir. Maybe somewhere with less noise. But for now, I have to go.’’ He said and gave him a small bow. He turned to Raku.
‘’I can call you, right’’ said the younger, before Xiao Zhan had the chance to talk. ‘’Or you can call me.’’ He said.
‘’Now is not the time. I can’t think clearly. It was nice meeting you tonight. We’ll talk.’’ He said and turned around. As he started walking towards the door, he saw his manager there with both their coats in hand.
‘’You stay. There is no need for you to spoil your night. Talk business or whatever you want to do. I’ll go alone.’’ He said.
‘’Are you sure?’’ asked the manager. ‘’You don’t look good Zhan-di.’’ He said.
‘’I am fine. Or, I will be. I’ll call you later ok?’’ he said as the car arrived in front of the venue. The manager nodded and Xiao Zhan entered the car.
He felt lucky that the gala was in closed quarters and that there were no paparazzi around. He was sure that if anyone caught the eye of him at that moment, the media was not going to let it go for weeks.
Throughout the entire ride to the hotel, he kept thinking about Yibo’s angry face. About the ferocity of his words. He could not believe his friend was like that. He wanted to clarify things with him but he felt so scared that the person he had feelings for not only would not reciprocate but would also be bothered by the idea.
Once he arrived in the hotel underground parking lot, he tried to compose himself, making sure that none of the hotel employees would realize something was wrong.
He got into the elevator, thinking about the conversation he was going to have with Yibo. Better yet the fight. He arrived at the hotel lobby and went straight to the reception desk. The older man behind the desk greeted him with a smile and handed him his key.
‘’Is Wang Yibo back yet?’’ asked Xiao Zhan before he left. ‘’He was not feeling very well.’’ He said.
The man nodded.
‘’Yes, he came back a good ten minutes ago.’’ Xiao Zhan smiled at him and wished him a good night before he started walking towards the elevator again.
His and Yibo’s rooms were close to each other, at the end of the hall on the fifth floor of the hotel. Xiao Zhan questioned himself on whether he should go to his own room and not talk to the younger at all only for a moment. But as he approached Yibo’s door, the need to confront him grew.
He stood in front of the door and took a deep breath. He blinked twice and with all the courage he had he banged on it rather hard. There was no response. He did it again. No response.
‘’You are going to ignore me like a coward?’’ he said, loud enough for Yibo to hear. ‘’If you wanna be a fucking homophobe, own your decisions and man up to talk to me about it. Cause we are talking about it whether you like it or not.’’ He said.
Immediately he heard footsteps behind the door. It opened violently and a hand pulled him in the room fast. Yibo looked out in the hallway for a moment before he closed the door.
‘’Are you insane?’’ he asked with a shocked expression. ‘’Why would you call me a homophobe for everyone to hear? Do you want them to know that you are gay?’’ he said and walked into the room.
‘’What I want is my own choice. You are afraid that people will find out you are a homophobe?’’ asked Xiao Zhan. Yibo turned and looked at him, his expression still shocked.
‘’Why would you call me that?’’ he asked.
‘’A homophobe?’’ said Xiao Zhan and Yibo nodded. ‘’Because you are.’’ Yibo’s eyes were stern.
‘’Where the fuck did you get that fucking idea?’’
‘’Given the way you reacted, where do you think?’’ said Xiao Zhan and walked towards him.
‘’You think that I reacted like that because I am a homophobe?’’ said Yibo with a scoff. ‘’Fuck you really don’t know me at all, huh?’’ he said.
‘’What the fuck? Can’t you just be clear for once?’’ said the older who was now standing in front of him, fuming with anger.
‘’I am not a fucking homophobe. That is not why I got upset.’’ Said the younger and tried to move away but Xiao Zhan followed him.
‘’Then why?’’ he insisted.
‘’Because…’’ said Yibo and swallowed hard. ‘’Because you just met him. What were you thinking, making out with him.’’
Xiao Zhan knew Yibo enough to know that he was lying.
‘’You are way too obvious when you are full of bullshit. Tell me the real fucking reason. ‘’
‘’That is the real reason.’’
‘’So you are mad because I made out with him although I just met him?’’
‘’Yes’’
‘’So If I go on a date with him and then another and then I do a movie with him and get to know him, you will be ok with my new relationship. Even if it is with a man?’’
Yibo blinked a few times and swallowed hard again.
‘’See, you cannot even stand the idea. Because you are a fucking homophobe who only cares about his image and does not care about a person he claims to be his friend. You are judging me for something that does not affect you and has nothing to do with you.’’ Said Xiao Zhan and saw Yibo’s eyes widen.
‘’It does fucking affect me’’ he said.
‘’Oh yeah? How? What, you are afraid the series is going to plum it if people find out? Or that it will affect your career? Don’t worry Wang Yibo I am not really planning on letting people know. I do have a career of my own you know and I…’’
He was not able to finish his sentence. Not when his lips were suddenly shut by a pair of soft wet lips. Yibo’s lips.
Xiao Zhan’s eyes opened wide before they fluttered closed as Yibo pressed his lips on his keeping him there in a slow frightened kiss.
Yibo’s hands were on his neck, his own limp by his sides. Their fronts were slightly pressing together and through their clothes, Xiao Zhan could almost feel how fast Yibo’s heart was beating. He was lost in that kiss. Neither of them moving, both afraid of what was to come next.
It was Yibo who broke the kiss first and moved away, much to Xiao Zhan’s dismay. As he spoke, his hands slowly dropped from his neck.
‘’I wanted it to be me’’ whispered the younger, almost faintly, enough only for Xiao Zhan to hear. ‘’Out there on that balcony with you. I wanted it to be me. Not him.’’
Xiao Zhan took a short breath.
‘’You wanted to…’’ he said and Yibo nodded. He did not finish his sentence.
‘’I got jealous. You only just met him. What does he have that I don’t?’’ asked the younger, the honest question leaving his mouth without him realizing.
‘’He doesn’t…what are you…Yibo I’’ Xiao Zhan could barely talk. He could not believe what was happening. Yibo was…he was jealous…He liked him. Xiao Zhan could feel his heart, beat so fast.
Yibo hands released Xiao Zhan completely and the younger turned away, breathing fast.
‘’I am sorry,’’ he said. ‘’I should not act like this. It’s not your fault I feel this way, you did not know. But I mean even if you did, you are not obligated to like me back or not get a boyfriend because I feel this way about you. I mean you have every right.’’
‘’Since when?’’ came Xiao Zhan’s stern question. Yibo shivered a bit in the roughness of the older’s voice. It was rational for Xiao Zhan to be mad at Yibo for acting like such a child. But Yibo did not want to turn around and face him.
‘’Since…that first day. When we met in the producer’s office.’’ He said.
‘’Look at me.’’ Said Xiao Zhan but Yibo shook his head. ‘’Yibo turn around and look at me.’’ He said again, voice a bit more demanding.
‘’Please’’ whispered Yibo but Xiao Zhan was not having. He grabbed him by the shoulders and spun him around. Yibo still did not look at him, his eyes fixed on the floor. Xiao Zhan slowly approached him, and faintly wrapped his arms around him, bringing him in for a hug. Yibo was still too scared to react, taking his time breath.
It was not until he heard Xiao Zhan’s voice next to his ear that the air was punched out of his lungs.
‘’Do you have any idea what you are doing to me, right now?’’ breathed Xiao Zhan, sending jolts down Yibo’s spine. The younger moved his body to stand up a little straighter.
‘’Zhan-ge’’ he mouthed his own face close to the curve of Xiao Zhan’s neck. He could smell the cologne and his friend’s natural perfume, mingle together like they were made for it. He felt the need to bury his face in there and take deep breathes as if he no longer needed oxygen to survive. Only Xiao Zhan’s scent.
‘’I want you’’ said the older and drew him closer. ‘’I have wanted you for so long. I never thought…never dared to imagine that you might want me back.’’
Yibo let out a shaken breath that tickled the older man’s neck. Xiao Zhan brought their bodies closer. His heart was beating fast. Faster than he thought possible. There were so many things he wanted to say. So many questions he needed answers to. But he settled with the hug.
They stayed like that for a while. Not moving away from each other. They just stayed there, feeling and breathing.
‘’Zhen-ge’’ whispered Yibo, after a while. Xiao Zhan felt like he could not really talk. He was in some sort of stasis. He hummed lightly, his eyes closed and his nose buried in Yibo’s hair.
‘’Zhen-ge, I want…’’ whispered Yibo but stopped his sentence and took a short breath. Xiao Zhan slowly opened his eyes but did not break the embrace.
‘’What do you want, sweetheart?’’ he asked in a gentle voice, right next to Yibo’s ear. The younger shivered but did not answer. Slowly as if not to scare him away, Xiao Zhan lifted his head. His hands cupped Yibo’s cheeks and he signaled the younger to look at him. Yibo was still resisting and Xiao Zhan could finally tell why.
Yibo’s ears and cheeks were a bright red color. Xiao Zhan wanted to laugh and coo at how cute the younger looked all shy like that. Yibo could be shameless, Xiao Zhan knew that. He had experienced it during their teasing on set. Never in a million years would he think that during the actual thing, he would be so shy.
‘’Baby,’’ he whispered and Yibo lifted his eyes to look at him as slightly surprised by the pet name. ‘’Tell me what you want,’’ he said and Yibo bit his bottom lip.
‘’I-I want to touch you, more.’’ Said the younger and blinked a few times. Xiao Zhan smiled on of those wide beautiful smiles that no one could ever resist. Yibo’s eyes immediately fell to the older’s lips and he felt the need to claim them again.
Instead, Xiao Zhan dropped his hand and grabbed Yibo’s. He brought it from his waist to his chest and rested it there.
‘’Like this?’’ he asked, the smile never leaving his face. Yibo’s palm laid flat on Xiao Zhan’s chest and the younger could feel his heartbeat. He gave him a small smile. He knew that Xiao Zhan was teasing him and he was not going to lose the game. The old Yibo was back.
‘’No’’ he said gently and took a final step forward, what little space was between them no completely gone. He touched their fronts together, not an inch apart and dropped his other hand, that one that was still on the older’s waist, on his ass, grabbing him firmly and pushing him, making sure that the older would feel his growing clothed erection. ‘’Like this’’ he said and smiled wide when Xiao Zhan’s eyes fluttered shut because of the contact.
Yibo rotated his hips and was happy to feel Xiao Zhan’s own cock grow hard. The older was responding so well to Yibo’s antics. Xiao Zhan’s head dropped to Yibo’s shoulder and he moaned lightly.
‘’You like that?’’ asked the younger, who was getting his courage back.
‘’Mmm’’ was the only response Xiao Zhan was able to give before he started to move his hips along with Yibo. ‘’More’’ he whispered and started to leave small kisses on the younger’s neck. Yibo was feeling lost in the sensation of the older man glued to him.
‘’Bed?’’ he said, not able to continue standing anymore. ‘’Please Zhan-ge, bed?’’ he begged, and his desperate voice did wonders to Xiao Zhan. He did not wait any longer. He brought his hands on Yibo’s face and drew him in for a passionate kiss as he started to lead them towards the bed.
It was made, obviously room service, but some of Yibo’s staff were there. As Xiao Zhan pushed him on the mattress, not breaking the kiss, he tried to push all the stuff off the bed, resulting in him almost falling over as well. It made Yibo laugh.
‘’You are an idiot’’ said Yibo, a smile on his face and his lips still claiming Xiao Zhan’s.
‘’You are the one who wanted to move to the bed. It’s my fault for trying to satisfy your desperate ass.’’ said the older. He had pushed Yibo’s coat and some other things off the bed and was now flat on top of him. He brought his face to the younger’s neck to continue kissing him there as we pushed his legs apart to settle between them and start grinding again.
Yibo’s breath was caught in his throat. The feeling of the older on him was overwhelming. His hands were on Xiao Zhan’s shoulders in an effort to steady himself. His eyes were closed and he was sure he must have been murmuring Xiao Zhan’s name, but his mind was too fuzzy at that moment.
‘’God, I want to fuck you so bad,’’ said Xiao Zhan and rotated his hips again, this time pressing his fully hard cock on Yibo’s. The younger moaned loudly, both his hands cupping Xiao Zhan’s ass to push him harder.
‘’Zhan-ge’’ was all he said before he moaned again.
Xiao Zhan started working on the younger’s shirt. His movements were rushed as he undid his buttons. His lips followed the trail from his collarbone down, as the shirt was coming off. Yibo’s hands went to his head, guiding him lower.
When he reached his crotch, Xiao Zhan looked up waiting to get Yibo’s attention. The moment the younger’s eyes were on him, his smiled lewdly and mouthed the younger’s hard cock over his clothes.
‘’Ah, fuck’’ moaned Yibo, his head falling back as he moved his hips trying to get even more friction. The movement made Xiao Zhan laugh.
‘’Jesus, how long has it been since the last time you got laid?’’ he asked and looked at the younger. At the question, Yibo looked at him, his face turning red and his mouth opening slightly as if he was trying to say something.
Xiao Zhan’s smile slowly disappeared from his face as he started to do the math.
He knew for a fact that Yibo had not had sex during the year they filmed together and he was fairly certain that he had not had any during the promotions. That was close to two years of not having been touched.
Also, since he had absolutely no idea that Yibo was gay or at least bi since that moment, he was not even certain if the younger had ever been with a man before.
‘’Yibo’’ he said and immediately went back to facing Yibo completely. ‘’Have you ever…you know…with a man, before?’’ Yibo bit his bottom lip and looked down shaking his head.
‘’Fuck’’ whispered Xiao Zhan who immediately rushed to kiss him. ‘’Baby, you should have told me. I was not going to go easy on you.’’ He said and gave him a sweet kiss.
‘’You don’t have to go easy on my, gege. Do it as you please, I can take it.’’ Said the younger but Xiao Zhan shook his head.
‘’No, no your first time will be the best first time. I will not hurt you. I will make it so good for you, baby boy.’’ He said and kissed him again, sweet and calm. They kissed again for a while before Yibo started to squirm under him.
‘’Ok, but do something, yeah?’’ he said, obviously not as innocent as Xiao Zhan thought. ‘’I am having a real problem down there.’’ Said the younger who started to buck his hips against Xiao Zhan’s. The older laughed and stood up taking his shirt off.
‘’Ok, baby, ok. Calm down,’’ he said, discarding his shirt on the floor. ‘’I got you,’’ he whispered and dropped his hands to Yibo’s trousers, unbuttoning them. The younger looked in awe as Xiao Zhan pulled his pants down along with his underwear and freed his aching cock. Yibo moaned as it slapped against his tummy.
‘’You too,’’ he said signaling Xiao Zhan to take off his pants. The older did not need more convincing. He got off him but only for a moment. Soon his own pants and boxers were on the floor, his erection standing against his own stomach. It made Yibo, swallow a couple of times at the older’s size. He was not that much bigger than Yibo himself but he was big enough. And Yibo had never been fucked before so the idea of it going inside him was still kind of scary.
He looked at Xiao Zhan and saw the worry in the older’s face.
‘’We don’t have to do this if you are scared.’’ He said but Yibo shook his head.
‘’I want to. I have been thinking about this for so long.’’ He said, his eyes growing big. Xiao Zhan could not help but get even more turned on at how innocent Yibo looked. The boy was basically untouched and it was Xiao Zhan who would be the first one to ‘’taint’’ him. And he could not help but moan at the idea.
He bent over and captured the younger’s lips again, tugging on his bottom lip lightly. He pressed his cock on Yibo’s are rolled his hips.
‘’I wanna go slow’ he said between kisses. ‘’Make sure you are stretched out all nice. I want to look at your face as I take you. ‘’ Yibo let out a trembling breath and nodded furiously.
‘’Yes, please just…do it, take me’’ he said. Xiao Zhan smiled. His snarky kid friend was no longer there. He was replaced by a horny young man, desperate for him.
‘’Baby, we need…’’ he said and looked at the younger who seemed to be in ecstasy. Yibo opened his eyes and stared at him for a moment before he realized what Xiao Zhan was talking about. ‘’We can’t go on unless we have lube. And maybe condoms.’’ Said the older.
If possible, Yibo blushed even more as he turned his gaze to the small duffel bag by the table. Xiao Zhan turned and looked at it. He then looked at Yibo with an amused look.
‘’Now why would you have these things here, baby boy?’’ he asked and rotated his hips again, sending jolts of pleasure down both of their spines.
‘’Fuck,’’ cursed Yibo. ‘’I thought…I mean I just…fuck’’ said the younger who was obviously too turned on and too embarrassed to complete his sentence.
With a throaty laugh, Xiao Zhan gave him one more kiss before he stood up and went for the duffel bag.
‘’Under the clothes, to the right’’ Yibo managed to say as he wrapped his hand around his cock and gave it a slow tag.
Xiao Zhan smiled at how horny Yibo was, as he fished out the lube.
‘’No condoms?’’ he asked. Yibo bit his bottom lip and shook his head. Xiao Zhan stared at him. ‘’Fuck’’ he said, ‘’You are a vision,’’ and he moved towards him.
He was on top of him once again, kissing him as he stopped him from jerking off. Yibo was about to complain but he did not get the chance. Xiao Zhan started to kiss down his throat and chest, going back to continue what he was doing.
‘’I’m not gonna last.’’ Said the younger. ‘’If you do that I am not gonna last.’’ Xiao Zhan smiled as he reached his cock.
‘’Maybe just a taste.’’ He said. ‘’Please? I have been dying to know what your cock would feel like in my mouth.’’ Without warning, he grabbed the younger’s cock by the base and gave it a sensual lick from the bottom all the way to the tip. Once he reached the sensitive head, he swirled his tongue around it, earning a hiss from Yibo, before he engulfed it with his lips and sucked.
‘’Fuuuuck’’ said the younger whose hands immediately went to Xiao Zhan’s hair. ‘’Ah fuck this feels so good, gege’’ he said. Xiao Zhan never thought that hearing Yibo calling him gege, would get him so turned on. But then again he always liked the idea that he was older. In a way, he always wanted to discipline Yibo and now he would get to do it.
He took the cock out of his mouth with a loud pop and smiled at the younger who whined.
‘’Why did you stop?’’ he asked.
‘’You said you would not last long. Unless you want me to get you off like this and fuck some other time.’’ He said teasingly. Yibo shook his head like a child.
‘’No, no you can stop. You are right. I mean…I was not going to last really. Your lips felt amazing. But please I can’t wait anymore. I need you Zhan-ge.’’ He said and spread his legs. ‘’I uhm…I am clean…from before.’’ He said and Xiao Zhan looked at him with a puzzled look. ‘’No, nothing like that.’’ Said the younger. ‘’I was just…reading on how you clean yourself before…that and… I wanted to try it. I…’’
‘’Wang Yibo I am going to ask you just once.’’ Said the older and popped the cap of the lube, squirting some on his fingers. The younger looked entranced as Xiao Zhan warmed up the liquid. ‘’Did you buy this because you thought I might fuck you while we are here?’’ he said and brought his fingers to Yibo’s hole, spreading the liquid around it.
The younger moaned and threw his head back. He could not answer. Xiao Zhan applied just enough pressure to make Yibo want more and then stopped.
‘’I asked you something, baby. Did you hope I would fuck you?’’ Yibo swallowed hard, something inside him telling him not to answer truthfully because, of course, he had bought the lube thinking about Xiao Zhan, but he did not want to let him win.
Xiao Zhan pressed his fingers on his hole again, and the younger moaned.
‘’Use your words baby. Be a good bay and tell your gege the truth,’’ he said as he let his index breach the tight ring of muscle, just barely. Yibo’s eyes shot open at the intrusion. He looked at Xiao Zhan, have terrified, half horny.
‘’Baby,’’ said the younger who stopped pushing. ‘’Stop?’’ he asked. Yibo shook his head. ‘’Are you sure. Baby if you are scared…’’ he said and tried to pull the finger out but Yibo grabbed his hand.
‘’You, you. I bought it thinking about you. I hoped, no wished you would do this to me. Please, Zhan-ge, don’t stop. ‘’ he said and tugged on Xiao Zhan’s hand. The older smiled.
The naked boy under him wanted him. He wanted him in a way Xiao Zhan could only imagine. China’s sweetheart, the sexy, hot Wang Yibo that everyone fantasized about, was his and only his. With care, he pushed the finger in, deeper than before making Yibo’s head drop back as he moaned again.
‘’Fuck, you are so tight, baby.’’ He said, his eyes focusing on his finger that started to slowly move in and out of him. Yibo made all kinds of noises. Moaning, hissing, maybe even whining a bit. Xiao Zhan kept going like that for a good three minutes.
When he probed the younger’s hole with the second finger Yibo looked at him.
‘’Is it going to hurt?’’ he asked.
Xiao Zhan smiled and leaned in to kiss him.
‘’Only a little bit. But it will feel really good after, I promise.’’ He said and while kissing him he pushed in the second finger.
Yibo was in pain. He could tell by the way he dug his nails in his flesh and bit his bottom lip, making Xiao Zhan moan from the sting.
‘’Fuck, Zhan-ge, it really does hurt’’ said the younger, his eyes screwing shut. Xiao Zhan hissed as the younger scratched him.
‘’Baby, do you want me to stop?’’ asked Xiao Zhan. He already knew what Yibo was going to answer but he wanted to make sure that Yibo knew they could stop whenever he wanted. The younger shook his head.
‘’It’s getting better.’’ He said. ‘’Just keep going.’’ Xiao Zhan smiled and leaned in, pressing kisses to the younger’s neck and chest, moving all the way down to his nipples, taking the left one in his mouth. He licked and sucked it, in time with his thrusts, making Yibo moan, as the pain started to give its place to pleasure.
He slowly started to scissor his fingers stretching him open. With every new move, Yibo would let out a new sound and Xiao Zhan knew that he wanted to hear those sounds for the rest of his life. He kept his fingers steady, trying not to move a lot. Partly because he did not want to hurt Yibo and partly because he did not want the younger to cum too fast.
They had been at it for a good ten minutes. Xiao Zhan took his time and it was not until Yibo started to complain that he slowly took his fingers out.
‘’You are such a baby’’ he said with a smile as he leaned in for another kiss.
‘’I just want you so bad, gege’’ said the younger. They looked at each other with nothing but fondness in their eyes as Xiao Zhan positioned himself between the younger’s legs.
He had been neglecting his own hard-on for a while and it was a miracle he did not cum the moment he started to apply the lube. He hissed at the contact and he went slow, focusing on what was to come next.
He took the base of his cock in his hand and guided it towards the younger’s hole. Both of them took a sharp breath at the contact.
‘’If you want me to stop, at any point, you tell me. No matter what.’’ He sai looking at the younger. Yibo smiled.
‘’I can take you Zhan-ge’’ he said but Xiao Zhan’s serious look did not falter.
‘’Yibo, this is not a joke. I want you to know that you can stop whenever you want. I am not going to hurt you.’’
‘’I know.’’ Said the younger and lifted his head to peck Xiao Zhan. ‘’I know you will not hurt me. I know you will take care of me. That is why I am not afraid of this. I trust you.’’ He said and laid back on the bed, opening his legs, even more, making sure that both of them would be comfortable.
Xiao Zhan looked at him, words right there on the edge of his mouth, but nothing came out. He smiled and with a final kiss, he started to push in.
His eyes were fixed on Yibo. He did not want to miss a single expression of Yibo’s face as the younger was giving him something so precious. Yibo’s own eyes were open and fixed on Xiao Zhan’s face. There were tears in the corners, the pain of being penetrated for the first time, obviously. But he did not stop him. He did not even make a move.
It was slow. Xiao Zhan went as slow as he could. Never before had he felt the need to take care of someone so much. Never before had he neglected himself so much at a time like this. He did not care about his own pleasure. No, his mind was too preoccupied thinking about Wang Yibo and how he had never felt like this for anyone before.
There were so many things he wanted to say. With every thrust, it grew harder to keep quiet. You are beautiful, Thank you for letting me have you like this, I love you, but instead, he settled for burying his face in the younger’s neck and groaning hard as he started to slowly pick up the pace.
‘’Fuck, Yibo, you feel so good,’’ he said and the younger moaned in pleasure. It was no longer painful. Maybe there was still a sting but the pleasure he was feeling was covering that up, pretty nicely.
Xiao Zhan moved his hips like a professional dancer of some sort. Like he knew what Yibo would like. Slow and deep thrusts turning a bit quicker every now and then, a little harder even. It was like the older was looking for something. And indeed he was.
Yibo was not prepared for the wave of pleasure that would run down his spine, nor the violent twitch of his cock and the precum that started to leak out, warning him of how close he was. He barely noticed how much he was moaning as Xiao Zhan started to hit something deep inside of him, sending him to heaven.
‘’Ahh, fuuck,’’ he moaned, not realizing that his back was arching and his nails were digging deeper in Xiao Zhan’s skin. ‘Fuck, Zhan-ge, what are you doing to me?’’ he said pulling him closer, trying to glue their bodies together. Xiao Zhan let himself be pulled, loving the feeling of the younger’s heated body under him.
‘’Baby, you feel so good. So tight’’ he moaned, his lips brushing Yibo’s neck. He wanted to mark him up. He wanted to make sure everyone would know that Wang Yibo was his. That the younger had given himself to him completely. That he had wanted him bad enough to let Xiao Zhan touch him in a way that no one had.
‘’Gege, gege I’m gonna, g-gonna c-cum’’ stuttered the younger. The way their bodies pressed together offered delicious friction to his cock. Enough for him to cum right then and there.
He moaned deeply as he released himself between the two of them, littering both of their stomachs. His body squeezed Xiao Zhan tighter who had picked up the pace, fucking inside the younger with vigor. The tight clench of Yibo around him was enough to bring him over the edge.
He brought their lips together as he spilled himself inside Yibo, kissing him through his orgasm, holding him as close as possible.
They stayed like this, in each other’s arm for a while, both breathing in each other’s scent, none of them wanting to let go of the warmth that their bodies were producing. However, it was Xiao Zhan who realized first that they would have to move sooner than later.
‘’Bo-di’’ he said gently placing a kiss on the younger’s neck. Yibo made an approving sound, clinging a little more to Xiao Zhan. ‘’Bo-di we need to move’’ he said. He felt Yibo shake his head lightly and he smiled. ‘’ Yibo, we really need to move’’ he said again, caressing the younger’s side with his hands.
‘’Why?’’ asked Yibo and Xiao Zhan could hear his pout.
‘’Because there is cum, drying between us and also leaking from places. And we really need to clean it up. You do not want it to dry in there. Trust me.’’ He said and lifted his head to look at the younger.
Yibo seemed content, warm, happy and sleepy. Everything Xiao Zhan had thought Yibo might look like after sex and more. He wanted to kiss him and never stop. But he settled for a smile as he slowly pulled out, extra careful not to hurt the younger, who had grown oversensitive.
He got up and went to the bathroom. He took a cloth and ran it under some hot water. Walking back in the room again, he saw Yibo looking towards him with a smile.
‘’Hi,’’ he said and reached out an arm, signaling Xiao Zhan to come back to bed. The older smiled. He went back and sat next to him.
As he started to clean him up all nice, he could feel Yibo’s piercing gaze on him. He lifted his head and looked at him.
‘’What is it?’’ he asked and smiled.
‘’Nothing,’’ he said and he reached out to caress Xiao Zhan’s cheek. The older looked at him and leaned in capturing his lips again. It was loving and sweet and perfect. Everything he wanted since the moment he met him. He did not even register his words until after they left his mouth.
‘’What?’’ a faint question left Yibo’s mouth and Xiao Zhan’s eyes remained closed, too scared to open them. ‘’Zhan-ge what did you say?’’ asked Yibo, and Xiao Zhan could not pick up the tone of his voice. Was he mad? Scared?
‘’I-I love you’’ he said again, this time a little louder. He opened his eyes and looked at the younger.
Surprise!
That was the expression on Yibo’s face. Surprise.
‘’You…you love me?’’ he asked as if he could not believe his ears. Xiao Zhan nodded, his heart beating fast and scared. He started thinking that maybe, what had happened that night was not what he thought it was, for Yibo. Maybe just a crush or a childish act. Maybe Yibo was operating on hormones alone. But for Xiao Zhan it was not like that.
He was older and he knew what he wanted. Yibo. And he did not dare think of what might happen if the younger only wanted him for a night.
‘’I am sorry,’’ he said. ‘’I did not mean to make you uncomfortable.’’ He tried moving but Yibo’s strong arms kept him in his place.
‘’Where do you think you are going?’’ said the younger who brought their faces closer. ‘’You tell me you love me and then you think you can just leave? Zhan-ge are you going to break my heart like that?’’ he asked. It was Xiao Zhan’s turn to look surprised.
Yibo smiled, his eyes dropping to Xiao Zhan’s lips.
‘’I never thought I’d hear you say this. Not in this context at least.’’ They looked at each other. ‘’I love you too’’ said the younger.
It had been three months. Three difficult months. Learning how to be in a relationship took time. They were both traveling and filming all the time. More than that, their relationship was to remain hidden. No one really knew about them and they preferred it that way. Just good friends. Really good friends that would spend hours chatting, video calling, sleepover at each other’s house when they were in the same city and so on.
It was hard but both of them willing to try.
Xiao Zhan came to learn a lot of things about Yibo. He was an adrenaline junkie, loving everything that had to do with extreme sports. His younger age would show more often than Xiao Zhan might have been able to handle but he loved every moment. He could be very mature when he had to, especially when it came to work, which was something Xiao Zhan loved about him. And he could be a real demon when he was jealous.
With Xiao Zhan’s growing fame, came a lot of flirting and messaging, something that Yibo hated.
‘’Tell them you are not interested. You don’t have to always be polite’’ he would say when someone would contact Xiao Zhan when they were together. Xiao Zhan would always smile and tell Yibo that it was all business and he could not just be rude.
Xiao Zhan knew that the younger man knew how much he affected him. He knew how much Xiao Zhan loved him and he would always use that to his advantage. All he had to do was simply pout or just flirt a little more with Xiao Zhan and he would get anything he wanted from the older.
Xiao Zhan had learned one more thing about Wang Yibo. No matter how much the older proclaimed to love him, he could not compare to how much Yibo loved him back!