We were always going to be us

by Undercovwewr

Summary:

I'm sure this has been done a bazillion times but here is my attempt at an AU fic where Korn and In didn't die. The story follows Dean and Pharm in the same time frame as the series. This time, however, they aren't reincarnated lovers. Also they have two old gays to help them along the way.

Chapter 1: First Sight

~The Past~
Korn woke up in a hospital bed. His head was pounding. He put a hand to his forehead and was surprised to feel thick bandages wrapped around his head. Then it all came rushing back: being with In in their apartment, their dads finding them, holding a gun to his own head. The memories made him nauseous. He moved to find a trashcan and bumped into In instead.

In, who was half sitting in a chair, half laying on the bed, woke up with a start.

"How are you feeling?" In asked, massaging Korn's legs even though they weren't the problem.

"I have a killer headache." Korn tried to make a joke. In frowned.

"You're lucky you have a hard head and terrible aim." In said.

"No. I'm lucky I have someone I love to push a gun away from my head so the bullet only grazes me." Korn replied.

"I love you too. But if you ever think about doing something like this again I will kill you first."

~The Present~
"Uncle In! I need a condom!" Dean yelled as he barged into the room. Korn pulled the blanket up to his neck with an appalled look on his face.

"You have got to set boundaries with him, In." Korn said in a low tone.

"It's fine. We aren't naked or anything." In said.

"We were about to be!" Korn raised his voice.

"Just give him a condom so he can leave." In said in a placating tone. Korn rolled over with a sigh and grabbed the square box off of the nightstand.

"There's only one left. If I give it to him what will we use?" Korn whined. In snatched the condom from Korn and gave it to Dean.

"You will have to go out and buy more. We always use more than one anyway." In said with a suggestive grin. Korn got out of bed and put on a shirt.

"Thanks." Dean said, holding up the condom. He turned to leave.

"Wait! Where is your grandmother?" In called after Dean.

"She's in the garden." Dean replied.

"Do not let her see that." In pointed to the condom. Korn looked over with shoes in hand.

"I thought she was ok with his sexuality." Korn said.

"Of course she is. But she thinks he's too young for sex." In said.

"He's going into his third year of college!" Korn exclaimed.

"But he'll always be a baby to his grandmother. He can't get caught with the evidence." Said In.

"I know. I'm not new to this." Dean said as he walked through the door and down the hallway. Korn followed after him.

"Don't stay out too late. We're having a welcome party for my nephew. In has worked very hard on the menu. He will be upset if you're late." Korn said.

"You are so whipped." Dean said as he put his shoes on at the door.

"You'll be the same way when you fall in love." Korn replied.

"I'll never fall in love." Dean said.

"You will."

"I won't. The closest I've ever come to love is that feeling in the pit of my stomach right before I orgasm." Dean finished putting on his shoes and stood up.

"Wait. It's not the actual orgasm you like most but the feeling right before?" Korn asked with a confused look on his face. Dean nodded.

"The orgasm is a great high but you're up and then back down too quickly. The feeling right before is more sustainable." Dean said. Korn shook his head.

"In raised a weird kid." Korn said.

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Dean was panting. He wished it was from pounding the screams out of a cute guy but his date cancelled on him. Instead he went to the pool and did laps. Win was also there which meant both of them struck out today.

"I can't wait for the semester to start. With a new crop of freshmen coming in it will be much easier to find conquests." Win said as he sat on the locker room bench.

"Agreed." Dean said. He slammed his locker shut for emphasis.

"Do you two ever quit?" Pruk asked as he exited the shower. Dean and Win both jumped. Neither realizes he was in there.

"Quitting is for quitters. I don't quit in the pool or the bedroom." Win said with a smirk.

"Then what are you two doing at the pool on a Saturday night in the off-season?" Pruk's question burned at Dean's ego.

"I never quit but sometimes I get fired." Win said solemnly. "I'm shocked that Mr. Popular is here though." Win pointed a teasing finger at Dean.

"Well my date didn't know they were meeting me." Dean said.

"What? How is that possible?" Win asked with a skeptical look on his face.

"Its this new app that doesn't let your match see your photos." Dean said.

"Then how do you know if you want to meet?" Win asked.

"You meet up if your likes and dislikes match."

"Since when do you care about people's likes and dislikes?" Asked Win.

"Sexual likes and dislikes." Dean added.

"Ok that tracks." Win said. Pruk just sighed and shook his head.

"So since everyone's night was a bust..." Dean began.

"I never said my night was a bust." Pruk defended. Dean and Win both stared at Pruk for a few seconds before turning to look back at each other. Dean decided to ignore Pruk.

"So since everyone's night was a bust, you guys should come to my place. We're having a party." Dean said.

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In and Korn were beaming as they stood together as hosts. Dean's grandmother, Ahn, was seated comfortably on the couch. Dean's parents weren't around. They spent so much time traveling for work. However, his siblings Don and Del were sitting with their grandmother.

Dean saw P'Sorn and P'Sin in the corner and went over to them.

"Hello P. Is your cousin here yet?" Dean asked Sin.

"He just got here. He's upstairs getting showered and dressed." Sin said. Dean looked at the long stairwell in contemplation. Then, before his eyes, appeared an absolute cutie. He was wearing a navy button-up shirt and gray slacks. His shirt was buttoned all the way up and he seemed stuffy. Dean really wanted to loosen him up.

"Don't even think about it." Sin said.

Chapter 2: Party Time

Pharm's layover kept getting extended. At first it was only supposed to be 15 minutes which would mean him racing from one gate to another. So, when the layover Got extended to an hour he was happy. Then it was extended to two hours and then three. By the time the layover was five hours, Pharm was nervous. He hadn't been to Thailand since he was a little boy. His dad didn't like going back.

It had been a year since his father died and his mother suggested he go to university in Thailand. She said school was cheaper there than in the United States. Money had been tight since his dad's death so Pharm wanted to do whatever he could to lighten the load. He was supposed to have a welcome party his first night in Thailand. He was also supposed to have a half day in the country to get used to things before the party started. But, his extended layover ate away at his free time. When the layover stretched to eight hours Pharm was distraught. At this rate when his plane landed he would only have time to hop in a cab and race to his uncle's place.

Pharm was right and he was wrong. His layover did push him into rushing through the airport just an hour before the party was supposed to start. But, he didn't need to catch a cab. His uncle was waiting for him at the gate with a flashing sight that had his name on it.

"Pharm, Pharm over here!" Uncle Korn's partner was yelling. Pharm didn't know them well. He really only knew what they looked like because they sent out a newsletter every month. His family in Thailand was super close knit. The newsletter showed that. Pharm always wondered why his dad never wanted to be a part of it. When he was young, Pharm thought his dad had been cast out of the family and that's why they had moved to the States . But the men in front of him now were so welcoming. How could his dad dislike them so much. Pharm wished his dad was around to ask.

"Welcome to Thailand." Korn said as he wrapped Pharm in a warm hug. He took the large suitcase from Pharm.

"We have to hurry. Your welcome party starts in an hour! Everyone will be there: Krit, Sin, Sorn, San, Sun, An, Alin..." Korn's partner kept saying names, most of which Pharm didn't recognize. He zoned out at the barrage of names.

When Pharm snapped back into it, the car was pulling into a long driveway. A wrought iron gate closed behind them. Pharm's jaw dropped as a large manor came into view. He knew that his family in Thailand was rich. His mom had told him before he left. But the mansion forming in front of him now wasn't rich. This was what rich aspired to be.

"Wow." The word slipped out before Pharm could stop it.

"Isn't it beautiful! We've lived here for almost thirty years. Korn bought this place for me!" Korn's partner beamed.

"That's not quite true, In." Korn said. In! That was his name. Pharm had been trying hard to remember it. "I bought the house for everyone. It may look big but it makes sense considering the number of people who come in and out of this place. You'll understand after tonight." In let out a huff of breath as Korn spoke.

"He won't even let me brag." In said, pretending to whisper. Pharm was in shock. The standard of living here was so different than what he was used too. It wasn't that they lived poorly in the U.S. but it was nothing close to this. Had Korn never offered to give Pharm's father money, or had Pharm's father always refused it?

Pharm was sent to one of the many bedrooms to get changed before the party. The changing was slow going as Pharm spent most of the time inspecting the decor of the room he was in. It was lush. Everything seemed to be made of velvet or covered in gemstones. Pharm wanted to lay in the bed naked and roll around. The sheets had to be a thousand thread count at least. There would be plenty of time to get naked in the sheets, hopefully, so for now he just changed his clothes and headed down to the party.

Walking down the stairs into the party, Pharm felt like a debutante being introduced to society. Everyone was staring at him with glasses of wine in their hands. It was overwhelming. In the sea of faces, Pharm only vaguely recognized some of them. One face, however, stood out against the rest. Piercing eyes, chiseled jawline, and a confident smirk demanded Pharm's attention. So, he gave it. He focused on this face, feeling drawn to it as he descended the stairs.

"Hi Pharm! Do you remember me? I'm your cousin, Sin." Pharm was intercepted at the bottom of the stairwell by a guy with long hair. He was one of the people Pharm sort of recognized.

Sin occupied all of Pharm's time at the party. Pharm couldn't get the hot guys face out of his mind. Every time Pharm tried to look at that amazing face, Sin interrupted him. Sin constantly moved Pharm through the party, getting him drinks and introducing him to everyone. Pharm did get introduced to the face, Dean was his name. They didn't get a chance to talk at all because Sin quickly moved Pharm into a conversation with his sister and brother. By the time the party came to a close, Pharm had no more info on Dean than his name.

"Okay! Who's staying here tonight? We need a head count so we don't have a repeat of the New Year's incident." Korn said.

"We already know Pharm is staying. It's too late for him to go to his apartment tonight." In added.

"Well I live here." Dean said. "Which room are you in?" Dean asked as he sidled up next to Pharm.

"We're staying too!" Sin raised his and Sorn's hands in the air.

"We have a flight to catch in the morning so we can't stay. Bye mama." Alin kissed An on the cheek before she and her husband left.

"I'll stay!" Dell said happily.

"Me too." Don said.

"Alright everyone pick a room. Stay out of the velvet room. That's where Pharm is sleeping." Korn said. Everyone nodded. Dean smiled.

"Separate rooms you two." Korn pointed at Sin and Sorn. "You know how An is."

"Leave those lovebirds alone. They're in a serious relationship." An said. Korn obviously hadn't whispered softly enough. Sin and Sorn both smiled, running upstairs before anyone could change their minds.

Notes:

I don't know Sin's siblings names. I never read the novel and I don't think they were named in the series so I just called them San and Sun.

Chapter 3: Day 1

Dean slinked into the hallway. He hugged the wall as he went, trying not to make noise. It didn't work. Five feet from the door to the Velvet room, Sin sat in a folding chair.

"What did I tell you?" Sin asked.

"You said 'Don't think about it'." Dean mocked Sin's voice.

"I knew you would ignore me so I sat out here to keep watch."

"I didn't ignore you, p. I did this without thinking about it." Dean said. Sin crossed his arms.

"He's my cousin, Dean. And you and I are like family so he's practically your cousin." Sin said.

"The closest we are is second cousins by marriage." Dean said after thinking about it.

A door creaked open to their left and Sorn stepped out.

"Can we go to bed now?" Sorn asked. He grabbed Sin's wrist and swung his arm back and forth.

"But he'll sneak back out here once I'm gone!" Sin complained. Sorn gave Dean a pleading look.

"Fine I won't come back. I'll go to my room and sleep...alone." Dean almost choked on the word alone. He hated the idea of going sexless for the day.

"Good." Sin said. He let Sorn pull him toward their bedroom. Dean was turning to leave when he got an idea. He whipped his head back around and trained his eyes on Sin.

"You shouldn't be so against this you know. I always treat my lovers right. I always make sure they know the deal and that they're okay with it. Everyone I sleep with leaves with a smile on their face. Plus, I never sleep with anyone more than once so there's no relationship drama." Dean said confidently.

"You forget one thing." Sin said. He held his and Sorn's clasped hands up for Dean to see. "I like relationship drama." Sorn's sleepy face suddenly looked offended.

"Hey!" Sorn whined.

"Ok go to bed." Sin pushed Sorn into the room. "Go to bed and stay there." Sin pointed at Dean.

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It was the first day of the new semester, finally. Dean could barely pay attention in his classes. All he could think about was swim team tryouts in the afternoon. Feeling the cool water rush over his shoulders and seeing guys in speedos, what could be better?

The freshmen had to race each other for a place on the team. Only the top five times would make it. The fresher with the fastest time was a guy named Team. He was very cute.

As the team captain, Dean had to congratulate those who made the squad. He would congratulate Team first.

"Good job Team! You did it!" Someone congratulated Team before Dean could. There he was, Pharm. The cutie from the party was smiling and patting Team on the back. Dean walked over and put an arm over Team's shoulders.

"You really did a great job Team. We're lucky to have you." Dean said, looking only at Pharm as he spoke.

"Thank you, p. This is my friend Pharm." Team said.

"Oh, I know." Dean replied.

"You know p'Dean!?!?" A girl shrieked and lightly shoved Pharm. She came out of nowhere.

"Of course. He slept at my place the first night he was in town." Dean said. Pharm's cheeks flamed red.

"Aaaaaaah! You slept at p'Dean's house?" The girl exclaimed as she jumped up and down.

"Shhh Manaow it's not what it sounds like." Pharm talked softly trying to calm her down.

"It sounds like you're living the dream! I need to tell the TeamPharm shippers that there is competition!" The girl, Manaow, pulled out her phone and began rapidly typing.

"We should go now. We have our own club meetings." Pharm said. He pulled Manaow away even though she kept looking back at Dean and smiling.

"Wait for me! I have to get dressed!" Team ran after them.

As the three freshers were leaving, Win and Pruk walked up and stood next to Dean.

"The freshmen are cute this year." Said Pruk.

"They are. Especially in that group that just left." Win said.

"Yes. One of them is particularly cute." Pruk said. He gave Win the side-eye.

"One of them does stand out from the rest." Win returned Pruk's questioning glance.

"I agree." Dean said. He had kept his eyes on the back of Pharm's head as he left the gym so he didn't notice when Win and Pruk took a step away from him to glare.

Dean, Win, and Pruk had been friends since first year. They bonded over their love of swimming and sex. They rarely liked the same person. Pruk was straight most of the time, Win was bi all the time, and Dean did guys 99.9% of the time. But, rarely didn't mean never.

There was one time in second year when Win and Pruk liked the same girl. Pruk was the type to date someone, open relationship style, and Win did fuck buddies only. So, they both tried being with her. It worked for about a week until their egos couldn't take it. The girl cancelled a date with Pruk. He thought she did it to be with Win. Turned out she needed to have emergency dental surgery. Pruk showed up to Win's place to confront her but all he found was Win in the midst of a threesome with two other people. Anyway eventually they all broke up. But Pruk and Win never forgot about it.

"Cute. Yes." Pruk said, his eyes darting from Win to the group.

"Yes he is." Win said. Pruk was visibly relieved.

"I'm talking about the lady." Pruk said with a smile.

"Well I'm not." Win said with an even brighter smile. They walked arm in arm back to the lockerroom.

"Wait...He? Which he? Wiiiiiiiiiin!" Dean chased after them.

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When Dean got home, In and An were in the kitchen. They were laughing and joking with each other as they washed dishes.

"What do you want for dinner tonight, Dean?" In asked.

"Don't worry about me for dinner. I have a.......date." Dean replied. An slapped the counter with the metal ladle in her hand. She turned around and pointed the ladle at Dean.

"Is it a real date? Or are you meeting with someone from one of those sex apps you're always on?" An asked.

"Sex apps grandma? What are those?" Dean put on the cutest puppy dog look he could. He even cuddled up to An and nuzzled his face in her shoulder.

"I'm not some outdated old lady. I know about these things. You should be eating dinner with your family instead of sleeping with some random boy." Even though An was scolding Dean, she continued to let him cuddle her.

"Aw come on grandma. I was raised to be an out and proud gay just like Uncle In." Dean said. Now An pulled away from Dean.

"Don't try that with me. In has been with Korn for over thirty years now..." An was interrupted by In dropping a large pot into the sink.

"How dare you Antika! I'm not a day over thirty-five." In said. An rolled her eyes. Then she trained those same eyes back on Dean.

"Why can't you be more like Korn's nephew, Sun. He has a long-term boyfriend." An said.

"Sun is married with two kids. And she's female. You're thinking of Sin." In said. An shot In a look that said 'why are you correcting me when you obviously know who I'm talking about'. In matched her look with one that said 'get the names right the first time and I won't have to correct you'. Dean slipped away while they were having this stare argument.

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Dean had been messaging his "date" all day. It was the same guy he was supposed to meet before, the only guy to ever cancel on him. The app matched people based on kinks and sexual quirks. This guy's only requirement: I want someone to make me cum. Dean's first message to him was "I can do that for you" .

They made a plan to meet at R Hotel. It was a giant hotel that Korn often went to when he wanted to impress foreign business associates. Dean chose this hotel for the same reason. Something about this guy made Dean want to impress him.

At the front desk Dean received a key to room 1421, the best suite in the hotel. And, he was told that the other party had already arrived. Dean happily took the key and headed to the room.

It was a long elevator ride up fourteen floors. Dean slid the key into the lock and pushed open the door.

"PerfectOmelette are you here?" Dean called out.

"I'm in the bedroom, FastSwimmer69." A voice called back. Dean followed the voice to the tall double doors. Behind them, seated on a bed of pure white sheets with a red satin robe falling off his shoulders, was Dean's desired partner.

"Hello Pharm." Dean said.

Chapter 4: Moans and Groans

Notes:

It took forever but a new chapter is out!

Dean's face was beautiful, especially up close. His eyes were fierce and his jawline could slice a ham in half. He even looked good as he panted on top of Pharm. When things first got hot and heavy, Dean tried to push Pharm face down on the bed. But, Pharm quickly flipped over. He wanted to see his face.

Watching Dean made Pharm think about his own face. He wondered what kind of faces he was making and how strange he looked under Dean's perfect features. Pharm wished there was a mirror on the ceiling so he could see himself and fix his face to the perfect expression. Some of the hotels he met guys in had those. Although, he did spend most of his time looking at his own reflection and worrying about how he looked instead of enjoying himself. Maybe it was good that he couldn't see himself. Now maybe he could focus on the task at hand.

"Are you close?" Dean whispered in Pharm's ear. Pharm's concentration was pulled back to Dean.

"Um yes." Pharm said, but Pharm wasn't close. How could he be anywhere near orgasm when he was so busy admiring Dean's fantastic face and then lamenting his own subpar one? Pharm wasn't just having sex, well his body was, but his mind was everywhere. He was analyzing the room for an escape route if things went south. He was worrying about how soft the sheets were even though they weren't his. He also worried about how tight he was. He wanted to be tight enough. Pharm liked the idea that he was giving his partner pleasure.

"Let's cum together." Dean said. Pharm nodded while avoiding Dean's gaze. Pharm wasn't a great liar and he didn't want Dean to notice. This happened every time. Pharm never came. He always tried but orgasm never happened. So he faked it. Every. Single. Time. He hated the phrase 'let's come together'. Even for people who came regularly, it seemed impossible to Pharm for two people to cum at the exact same time.

Dean's breathing sped up. Pharm tried his best to copy and match Dean's energy. Dean buried his face in Pharm's neck. Pharm could feel him kissing and sucking. It felt good but it didn't bring Pharm closer to orgasm.

A moan escaped Dean's lips so Pharm moaned too. Dean's thrusting sped up and Pharm braced against the headboard of the bed. When Dean let out a long moan and a final solid thrust, Pharm mimicked him. He arched his back and let out an exaggerated moan. Pharm thought it was convincing. He had a lot of practice faking it.

The fake moans worked as Dean collapsed on top of him, none the wiser. Even a sweaty Dean smelled good. It made Pharm self conscious of his own scent.

"Bath." Pharm muttered accidentally as he thought he caught a whiff of unpleasantness wafting from himself. Before Pharm had time to say anything else, he was picked up out of bed and placed in the bathtub. It was a little disorienting but soon became relaxing when the tub started to fill with warm water.

Out of nowhere, Dean's hand slid from Pharm's chest all the way down to his legs.

"You're clean? Where's the cum?" Dean asked.

"I don't normally cum a lot." Pharm said with a nervous chuckle. Dean stood, head cocked to the side in thought as Pharm bathed.

"Okayyyyyy... but you orgasmed right?" Dean asked. Instead of trying to lie, Pharm shrugged.

"That's a no." Dean said. Pharm braced. This was it, the moment Pharm had been dreading most. Now was the time that Dean would undoubtedly get upset. They always did. Maybe it was Pharm's fault for liking cocky tops. Either way, they always got offended and blamed Pharm for his lack of orgasm. Those tops always made their bottoms writhe in orgasmic pleasure. So, they chastised Pharm when it didn't happen for him. As if Pharm wasn't already blaming himself. He wanted to have one even more than they wanted him to.

"Ok." Dean said.

"Ok?"

"Yes."

"It's ok?" Pharm asked.

"Of course." Dean walked out of the bathroom then immediately strutted back in.

"Are you ok?" Dean asked.

"Yes." Pharm said.

"If you're ok then everything's ok. Want me to scrub your back?" Dean asked. Pharm nodded.

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Pharm was sitting in the cooking club room when he got a text from his uncle.

Hello Pharm this is Korn. The text read. Pharm knew who it was, of course. The number was already programmed into his phone.

Hello Uncle. Pharm replied.

Would you like to come to the house this evening? Korn asked. Pharm agreed. He did want to get to know his family better.

At the house, more of a compound Pharm thought, In was in the kitchen. He was making sweets. No one else was around.

"Hello Uncle." Pharm said.

"Pharm! Come in! Have a seat!" In directed Pharm to a chair at the bar where he had a clear view of the kitchen. "Korn is woodworking in his backyard workshop. He should be out soon." In got back to work in the kitchen.

"What are you making?" Pharm asked.

"Leum Kleun." Said In. Pharm watched as In painstakingly created the desserts. In noticed Pharm watching his hands.

"Would you like to help?" In asked.

"Yes!" In practically jumped out of his chair.

"Do you like to cook?" In asked. Pharm nodded furiously.

"I'm in the cooking club at school. My club mates would love to make this."

"You should bring them over some time. I will teach everyone."

In and Pharm spent hours working on the treats before Korn came in. He was carrying a small wooden box.

"What have you got there?" In asked.

"I made this...for Pharm." Korn whispered the name like he was shy.

"For me?" Pharm asked. He picked up the dark brown box. It was smooth in his hands.

"Open it." In whispered." I keep telling Korn that his beautiful woodwork is enough, but he can't give a handmade gift without something shiny inside."

Pharm opened the box and found a simple gold bracelet inside. Korn helped him put it on.

"Do you like it?" Korn asked.

"Yes. The box is especially beautiful. This would be beautiful as a dresser." Pharm said.

"A dresser? I can do a dresser! I have the perfect wood for it!" Korn ran out of the room.

"What is this man doing?" In asked as he looked out the kitchen window. Korn could be seen trying to lug something over his shoulder. "Oh my god! That's an entire tree! Dean come help your uncle before he throws his back out!" In yelled dramatically.

"Do what?" Dean descended the stairs mid-yawn. Upon seeing Pharm he quickly shut his mouth. In pointed to the backyard, pulling Dean's attention there.

"Oh! Uncle, let me help you!" Dean ran outside to help Korn.

"If this day doesn't end in the ER, you should stay for dinner." In said to Pharm.

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The day didn't end in a trip to the hospital. It ended with a delicious dinner made by In. Afterwards, Korn and Dean were doing the dishes.

"You should stay the night." Said In.

"My place isn't far from here and it's not late. I can make it home." Replied Pharm. In shook his head.

"If you leave now your uncle will be pouting all night. He loves to take care of his family. It's better to sit back and let him pamper you." In had a warm smile on his face as he turned to look at Korn.

"Then why wasn't my dad taken care of?" The words slipped out before Pharm realized he was thinking them. In looked stricken.

"The sins of the past are not easily forgotten." In said solemnly.

Chapter 5: The Liked and The Disliked

Notes:

I didn't really proofread this chapter so let me know if anything doesn't make sense.

The delicate shrug of petite, porcelain shoulders plagued Dean's thoughts. He saw those shoulders every time he closed his eyes. Dean slammed his locker again and again to drown out the image. Dean was confident in himself, in his prowess. Those shoulders shrugging didn't matter. It was all...

"Are you okay?" Win asked from behind. Dean swung around.

"Of course! I'm ok if you're ok. Are you ok?" Dean spoke in a shrill tone.

"What?" Win had a confused look.

"Huh? Oh I'm fine. Yeah fine." Dean said. Win gave Dean a questioning glance but moved on.

"What time is the play?" Win asked.

"Seven but it's polite to arrive by 6:45." Dean said. Win nodded.

"You're going to the play tonight too?" Team popped up out of nowhere and gave Dean a shock.

"Yes. My sister's in it. She's the lead." Dean said.

"My friend Manaow is a tree." Team said.

"There are no small parts." Said Dean.

"Only teeny weeny actors." Win said. He moved closer to Team as he spoke until he had Team pressed against his locker.

"P! Don't. Not here." Team whined. Win smirked and took a step back. Team took the opportunity to scurry out of the lockerroom. It made Dean curious.

"You sleep with a lot of people. Do they always cum?" Asked Dean. Win thought for a second.

"The guys yeah but not the girls. They tend to be a bit more finicky. With guys it's always go go go fast fast fast. I'm coming then I'm going. But the girls are different. They like eye contact and sweet words. Sometimes they don't care about orgasm as long as I'm attentive."

"Attentive huh?" Dean asked.

"Why are you even asking? Don't you always leave the boys screaming, shivering, whimpering in pleasure?" Win asked. He jokingly poked at Deans abs. Dean said nothing but his silence spoke volumes.

"Whoa! You left someone wanting? Really! Who?" Win asked, a little too excitedly for Dean's liking.

"Frmmhm" Dean mumbled.

"Who?" Win asked again.

"Pharm." Dean said louder.

"Pharm?"

"Yes."

"The little one?"

"Yes."

"Team's little cooking friend?"

"Yes! How many times do I have to say it?" Dean leaned against his locker.

"Wow. The Great Dean couldn't make the cutie scream." Win said. Dean rolled his eyes. "If we didn't have the pact, I would try him myself." Win continued.

"Don't even think about it." Dean glared at Win.

"We only made that pact in the first place because Pruk gets too jealous. You and I were never an issue. Plus, you only sleep with guys once. Who cares if I sleep with one after you're done?" Win asked.

"I care." Dean said with a stern look. Win was shocked.

"Are you going to sleep with him again? You never do that!" Win asked.

"I...don't know." Dean said.

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Del was perfect in the play. Dean beamed at his sister from the audience. Not wanting to miss a single of his sister's scenes, he waited until intermission to go to the bathroom. On his way there, Dean heard a familiar voice coming from a secluded alcove.

"What took you so long? The play is half over!" Team said.

"I wanted to avoid p'Alex." Pharm replied.

"Is he still bothering you? Why didn't you tell me?" Team asked.

"It's not a big deal. He never does or says anything wrong. But the way he says things sometimes...nevermind it's not a big deal."

"It's a big enough deal that you missed half of the play for it. You missed almost all of Manaow's tree work!" Team said. Pharm laughed softly.

"Ok, ok. Let's talk more about it after the play. I have to pee." Pharm said.

It was Dean's lucky day. He needed to pee. Pharm needed to pee. And, apparently, no one else needed to pee. They were alone in the bathroom.

Dean had already seen Pharm naked, but he still made sure not to look at him as they stood at the urinals. Bathroom etiquette is important.

As they washed their hand at neighboring sinks, Dean realized he needed to say something fast.

"Is Alex your boyfriend?" Dean blurted out.

"What?" Pharm looked up at him with wide eyes.

"Ex-boyfriend?"

"No!"

"Soooo ...boyfriend."

"No!"

"Did you sleep with him?"

"No! He just hits on me sometimes. All the time." Pharm said.

"And you don't like it?" Dean asked. Pharm nodded.

"It makes me uncomfortable." Pharm said. Dean thought of this as an opening and barged onward.

"What do you like?" Dean asked. Pharm gave him a confused look. Dean moved to the right until he was standing behind Pharm. "In bed. What do you like in bed?"

Dean watched Pharm's face in the mirror. The confusion didn't disappear.

"Do you like it gentle?" Dean caressed the top of Pharm's head. "Or rough?" Dean thrust forward and pinned Pharm against the sink. "Do you prefer being on top or bottom?" Dean turned Pharm around so they were facing each other. "Do you like being dominated?" Dean picked Pharm up and set him on the counter. He then pulled on Pharm's hair so that the smaller boy way looking straight up at the ceiling. Leaning forward, Dean whispered in Pharm's ear. "Or do you like when others submit to you?" Dean slowly knelt down in front of Pharm. Now he was eye-level with Pharm's crotch.

Dean ran a hand up Pharm's leg until he reached his bulge. He nimbly pulled down Pharm's zipper and released his erection.

"You obviously like something I'm doing. Tell me what." Dean said. He looked up at Pharm with his mouth dangerously close to Pharm's cock.

"I don't know." Pharm said, a blush growing across both cheeks. Dean stood up, lightly brushing a hand across Pharm's hard member. Pharm shuddered at the touch.

"Well what normally makes you cum?" Dean asked. Pharm looked down, avoiding Dean's gaze.

"I don't know. I've never..." Pharm's voice trembled. Dean grabbed Pharm's chin and gently lifted his head. The smaller guy's eyes were glistening wet.

"You've never orgasmed before." Dean stated grimly. It seemed like a dam broke in Pharm's eyes and tears fell swiftly. The sight broke Dean's heart.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I shouldnt have done this here." Dean moved his hands to zip up Pharm's jeans.

"I can do it." Pharm blubbered. It sounded like his words had to escape five feet of water to be heard. His hands shook as he pushed his erection back into his pants.

Voices came from outside. They were getting louder and Dean knew that some guys would come into the bathroom soon. He picked Pharm up and carried him into an empty stall.

"Shh don't cry." Dean whispered. He placed his finger over his lips in a sign for Pharm to stay quiet. Pharm closed his mouth and held in his sobs. His jaggedly heaving shoulders were like physical sobs, however.

The guys outside joked with each other, shouting and laughing. Luckily guys pee fast and they left quickly.

"Do you want help with that? Blue balls suck. Going to the play with a hard on isn't fun either." Dean said. He made a gesture toward Pharm's crotch. Pharm shook his head vigorously. He covered his crotch with both hands.

Dean knelt in front of Pharm. Pharm's eyes were still wet even though his tears weren't flowing as freely. Dean wiped at Pharm's eyes.

"Is that why your profile says you want someone to make you cum?" Dean asked. Pharm nodded.

"It never works though." Pharm said in a small voice. Dean gritted his teeth and steeled himself. He gripped Pharm's thigh tightly.

"I want to sleep with you again." Dean said. Pharm's eyes widened.

"But your profile says..."

"I know it says I don't sleep with anyone more than once. I never have. But I've also never left a guy dry before. I like trying new things and I want to help you orgasm." Dean said.

Pharm didn't say anything. He stared at Dean with big eyes that were finally dry.

"Unless you don't want to sleep with me again." Dean said.

"I do!" Pharm said in a rush before slumping on the toilet out of embarrassment.

"Good. Tomorrow then. Tonight I have research to do."

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After the play, Dean handed Del a large bouquet of roses. They headed back to the big house for a party to celebrate her debut.

No matter what the occasion, a party thrown by In was never small. Everyone was invited. The entire cast of the play was there. Of course Pharm was there. Korn took his uncle role very seriously an always made sure that Pharm knew he was welcome at every function.

Currently Pharm was sitting on a loveseat with Manaow and and Team on either side of him. Del called Manaow over to take a cast photo and Win lured Team from the couch with a bowl of chips. Pharm was left alone but he seemed ok with it so Dean didn't go over. He should have gone over.

The cast took multiple photos as different people complained that they looked bad in each photo. Once they finally took one that everyone was happy with, a guy broke away from the crowd and sat next to Pharm. Pharm shifted uncomfortably on the loveseat. Dean knew from Pharm's reaction that this new guy must be Alex. Dean headed to the loveseat and sat down just in time to hear Alex say the cheesiest pickup line.

"You look tired nong. It must be because you were running through my mind all day. You should take a break. Let me catch you." Alex smirked as he spoke. Pharm didn't laugh or smile.

"Is there a problem here?" Dean asked. He slid an arm over Pharm's shoulders.

"Dean. What are you doing here?" Alex asked. He eyed Dean's arm. Dean could see through Alex's question. Alex really wanted to know why Dean had his arm on Pharm.

"I own the place. You're the guest." Dean said. He knew it wasn't exactly true. Korn owned the house, but Dean needed to exaggerate to get his point across. Alex seemed to get it. He leaned away from Pharm slightly but did not get up from the couch. Then, Del called to Alex excitedly and he finally left.

Pharm slumped back on the couch once Alex was gone. Dean, with his arm still on Pharm, slumped back as well.

"So no plans to sleep with Alex?" Dean asked. Pharm shook his head.

"Maybe he could get you that sought after orgasm." Dean joked.

"I don't like him." Pharm said.

"Ah! So you know what you don't like. All we have to do is find the opposite of that, and do it until you can't handle it anymore." Dean said. A short gasp escaped Pharm's mouth.

Just then, Sin walked by the couch. He shot Dean a glare that could kill. Dean pulled his arm slowly away from Pharm. Pharm noticed and gave Dean a questioning look.

"Should we meet at your place tomorrow?" Dean whispered. Pharm blushed as he nodded.

"You live alone right?" Dean asked.

"Yes." Said Pharm.

"Where's your apartment?"

"I live next door to P'Sin." Pharm said. Dean wanted to scream.

Chapter 6: Tell Me Softly

Pharm was scrubbing his shower when the knock came at the door. It was the second time he cleaned the shower. He started out the day scrubbing the glass walled chamber. Then he made his bed and cleaned his entire room. He then paused to think if there was anything he forgot to clean. There was, himself. So, he hopped in the shower and scrubbed every inch of himself, inside and out.

He was nervous about tonight. Dean never slept with the same person twice. Neither did Pharm. The two had very different reasons for similar sexual practices. For Dean it was because he had too many options. With so many delicacies at your fingertips, why would you eat the same thing twice? Pharm, on the other hand, never had the same guy twice because they didn't want him after he couldn't come. The fact that Dean wanted to sleep with him again made Pharm happy and nervous at the same time.

So, here Pharm was cleaning his shower immediately after using it so that everything could be sparkling clean for Dean. The knock was so soft that Pharm only heard it because he was on edge.

When he opened the door, Pharm found Dean looking over his shoulder.

"Hi-" Pharm was trying to greet Dean but Dean rushed past him into the room.

"Hi." Dean said as he scanned the room.

"Is something wrong?" Pharm asked.

"How thin are the walls in this building?" Dean asked. Pharm froze in thought. Was Dean expecting him to do a lot of screaming tonight? A shy smile crept onto Pharm's face as he shrugged his shoulders.

"Okay. Okay we can figure this out. Hand me a book." Dean held his hand out.

"A book?" Pharm asked.

"Yeah, like a textbook." Dean said. Pharm looked around and found his science book. He handed it to Dean.

Dean bounced the book in his hands like he was weighing it. Then he dropped the book with a thud by his feet. Immediately after, Pharm's phone began to ring.

"Hello?" Pharm answered.

"Is everything ok? I heard a noise."

"Oh...hi P'Sin." Pharm said. Dean began to wave his arms as he mouthed 'I'm not here'. "I was studying and I dropped a book."

"Do you need company? I can come over any time. Or you can come here. Sorn and I aren't doing anything. Or we could go to Uncle's house. He loves company..."

"I'm fine P. But thank you." Pharm interrupted Sin's rambling.

"Okay... well call if you need anything. Or just knock on the wall! I'll come right over." Sin said.

Dean was shifting from foot to foot as Pharm hung up the phone.

"What did he say?" Asked Dean.

"He was worried about the noise."

"I knew it." Dean growled under his breath.

"Are you afraid of P'Sin?" Pharm asked.

"No way!" Dean puffed out his chest. "I would just prefer to avoid his nagging."

Pharm shifted awkwardly.

"Do you not want to do this anymore?" Pharm asked nervously.

"There's no way we're not doing this." Dean moved close to Pharm and swept his hair off of his face. "You're just going to have to be quiet."

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Dean threw Pharm on the bed. He then turned the lights off in the room.

"Keep them on. I want to see your face." Pharm said.

"Ah so you do know what you want." Dean said. He flipped the lights back on.

Slowly, Dean leaned forward until his face was less than an inch away from Pharm's. Pharm blushed profusely.

"I'm going to kiss you now." Dean whispered. Pharm nodded. Their lips met. Pharm parted his lips readily. Dean's tongue was hot in Pharm's mouth but it was a good heat, a needed heat.

Dean moved away, letting the cool air hit Pharm's lips. Pharm was disappointed until he felt Dean's lips on his left shoulder. Pharm felt like he was melting as Dean's lips trailed down his side.

Worry seeped into Pharm's mind as Dean reached his hips. Was he clean enough? What if he missed a spot? What if Dean didn't like the way he smelled or... tasted?

"Talk to me." Dean said softly.

"What?" Pharm asked, matching Dean's low volume.

"How can I know what you like if you don't tell me how you feel? Talk to me." Dean said.

"Um o....okay. I'm nervous that somethings wrong. If I smell bad or do something wrong you won't like me so..."

Dean let out a huff of warm breath dangerously close to Pharm's crotch. Pharm shivered. Licking from thigh to chest, Dean traveled up Pharm's body.

"Do I look like someone who does things he doesn't like with people he doesn't like?" Dean asked. Pharm shook his head.

"That's right. I do what I want. And when I decide I want something, I don't stop until I get it." Dean said.

"What do you want?" Pharm asked.

"I want to make you scream and shake underneath me." Dean replied. With that he turned his face back to little Pharm.

Pharm took a deep breath and tried to relax. Then he was hit with a wave of pleasure. The warmth of Dean's mouth on his member was...

"Good?" Dean asked. Pharm nodded furiously, wanting that mouth on his dick again.

"Want me to keep going?" Pharm nodded again.

"Then talk to me. I want to hear how good you feel." Dean said. He returned to his blowjob much to Pharm's delight.

"That feels very good." Pharm said. He closed his eyes and sank into the pleasure. Before he knew it, Pharm was flipped over onto his stomach. Dean kissed his back slowly.

"I don't like it. I can't see your face." Pharm said.

"Ok." Dean flipped him back over. "That's what I like to hear." He smiled with his face as close to Pharm's as he could get it without kissing him. "Here's my face, free for your enjoyment."

Pharm ran a finger over Dean's forehead and down the side of his face. Dean had the perfect face. That's what Pharm thought. He liked all of Dean's facial expressions. Although he was stoic a lot of the time, but when he smiled it made Pharm feel like the sun was rising. And when he frowned it felt like storm clouds were rolling in. Pharm loved all of it. He always wanted to see it.

"Do it. Put it in." Pharm said.

"Gladly." Said Dean. He grabbed the lube from the bedside table and put some on his finger. He pushed it into Pharm slowly.

"Ungh!" Pharm moaned loudly. Dean covered Pharm's mouth with his free hand.

Pharm was fully prepared so Dean inserted his full length. Pharm wanted to yell out but he held it in. He was overwhelmed by how good this felt. They had done this before but tonight was different somehow. Pharm felt every thrust like it was hitting him in the gut. Maybe it was. Dean was very well endowed.

"I'm close. Are you?" Dean asked.

"No." Pharm reluctantly admitted.

"Ok give me a second." Dean said. He stopped thrusting. Pharm watched Dean's face. It showed a new expression, one that Pharm was entranced by. It was like a sensual mix of pleasure and pain on his face.

"What is it?" Pharm asked.

"I want to wait and cum with you." Dean said.

Then a frantic knock came at the door.

Chapter 7: Oh Shirt

Notes:

What's this? Two chapters in the same month? I don't know how it happened either. Enjoy!

Dean waited while the almost irresistible urge to thrust harder and faster passed. He was this close to cumming. But he refused to do so without Pharm joining him. It was a strange sensation. He liked the feeling right before cumming but he had never stopped there before. It was bad and good at the same time, strangely satisfying. He couldn't fully think about how he felt because there was an incessant knocking at the door.

"I should get that and face the firing squad head on." Dean said. He stood up and pulled on his jeans.

The knocking didn't stop until Dean reached the door and pulled it open. To Dean's surprise it was P'Sorn at the door and not P'Sin. Sorn sighed at the sight of a shirtless Dean and shook his head.

"You're not who I expected to see, P." Dean said.

"You're lucky it's me. Sin would have dragged you out by your ear." Sorn said.

"And where is he at the moment?" Dean asked, covering both of his ears.

"He went to the big house. Uncle Korn was trying to pick up a tree and he threw his back out. Sin rushed over to help. He asked me to bring Pharm to the house with me." Sorn said.

"Is he ok?" Pharm asked as he slowly sat up in bed.

"I think so." Sorn said. He raised an eyebrow at Dean.

"What?" Dean asked defensively.

"You're too rough." Sorn said with a wagging finger.

"He's small. It's inevitable." Dean said. Sorn just shook his head.

"Please be ready to go in ten minutes, Pharm. I'll apologize now for the bumpy road." Sorn said loud enough for Pharm to hear. He turned and headed back to Sorn's apartment.

"Not everyone can have a mattress wrestling match every night and walk around the next day like nothing happened!" Dean shouted after him.

When Dean turned back into the room, Pharm was pulling on his jeans. A bright red blush was forming all over him and he avoided Dean's gaze.

"Well I guess we'll have to try again next time." Dean said jokingly. Pharm was moving to get up with a solemn expression on his face.

"Are you that sore? Maybe I should go easy next time." Dean said.

"It's not that. You could be rougher even. I'm worried about my uncle." Pharm said.

"Don't be. That old man will be back on his feet no time. He's healthy as an ox."

"That's how it always seems. My dad was always healthy. But one day he went out for a morning run and never came back. They said it was his heart. He was fine before he left. He smiled at me before going out, said he'd bring back doughnuts. He died." Pharm was moving as he talked, picking up clothes from the floor.

"I'm so sorry. We'll go to the house now and check on Uncle Korn, okay?" Dean asked. Pharm nodded.

"You're gonna need another shirt." Pharm said. He held up Dean's blue polo. Some how it had gotten tangled up with the bottle of lube and was covered in the stuff.

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Dean pulled at the neck of an unfamiliar gray button down as he drove behind Sorn's car. He had to borrow one of Sorn's shirts and it was a little stiff.

Pharm was in the car with Sorn. Dean wanted to drive Pharm but Sorn had refused. He said tha Sin asked him specifically to bring Pharm to the house and he wasn't willing to risk a fight with Sin just so Dean could get more flirting time. Dean argued that Sin only said that because he didn't know that Dean was already with Pharm. Sorn politely reminded Dean that if Sin knew he was anywhere near Pharm there would be hell to pay. So, Dean was in the car alone.

When they reached the house, Dean watched Pharm and Sorn go in. He waited another five minutes before turning his car off and heading inside himself.

Inside, Korn was seated on the big fluffy couch. There was a large blanket covering everything but his head. An was sitting next to him. It seemed like she was giving him a lecture. Pharm walked over to the couch and stood awkwardly in front of Korn. An stopped her chastising when she saw Pharm approach. He greeted both of them.

"Pharm! Come sit next to me!" Korn said. His voice was hearty but Dean could see a twinge of pain in his face.

"How are you feeling?" Pharm asked as he sat.

"Just fine my boy. I learned a valuable lesson about lifting with my knees and I'm all the better for it." Korn said.

"You should go to the hospital." Said Pharm.

"No! No hospital!" Korn's voice rose and developed a sharp edge. The commotion caused In and Sin to come out of the kitchen. As he walked by, Sin gave Dean a strange look. Dean wasn't sure what the look was for, but he felt scrutinized by it.

"Calm down you old fool. No one is making you go to the hospital." In said. He handed Korn a steaming cup of tea.

"Why not just go and get checked out?" Pharm asked. In and An shot each other a nervous look. Korn set his cup on the table with too much force for Dean's liking.

"Hospital's are only good for allowing broken men to be rebuilt. I'm not broken. I could run a mile right now if I needed to." Korn said. Pharm looked stricken by the statement.

"Maybe we can call the doctor and have him come here?" Dean asked. He remembered that over the years Korn never went to the hospital. They always paid an exorbitant amount for the doctor to make house calls.

"Yes! I'll call and make an appointment for the morning." In said.

"Fine." Korn crossed his arms and slumped back against the couch.

"Alright everyone to bed. It's late." An said.

"I'm staying over. With dad out of town I'm responsible for keeping him apprised of the situation." Sin said.

"I'm not a situation." Korn said.

"That's right. You're five situations rolled into one." In said.

"Sorn stay with me. We need as many people as possible to keep him from doing something strenuous." Sin added.

"He should probably sleep on the couch then." An said.

"Antika!" In yelled as he slapped her arm playfully.

"Can I stay too?" Pharm asked. Korn's face brightened.

"Of course! You're always welcome!" Korn tried to throw his arms open in a wide gesture but it caused him to wince in pain.

Everyone headed upstairs in a pack, except for Korn who was relegated to the couch. At one point Sin brushed passed Dean and Dean thought Sin sniffed him. But that didn't make any sense. He must have imagined it.

The next morning Dean walked down stairs to see that the doctor was already there. Pharm was watching anxiously as the doctor listened to Korn's chest. Dean followed the smell of eggs into the kitchen. There he found In making breakfast with Del.

"When did you get here?" Dean asked his sister.

"This morning. P'Don left the house to play video games at p'Sin's place. But when he got there p'Sin was not there. So he called p'Sin and found out he was here. Then p'Don came here to play video games." Del said.

"That explains how Don got here not how you got here." Dean teased. He knew his sister often suffered from FOMO. If she thought that everyone she knew was somewhere doing something without her, she would find that place at all costs.
Sin came downstairs with some younger guys in toe. Dean recognized Don's friends. They all scurried toward the food. Sin stopped next to Dean.

"What were you up to last night?" Sin asked.

"I was here." Dean said with an obnoxious smirk.

"I meant before that." Sin said.

"I was doing what I do every night."

"And my cousin? Are you still trying to sleep with him?" Sin asked. Dean thought about it for a second. The definition of trying to do something meant that you hadn't done it yet.

"I can happily say that I'm no longer trying to sleep with your cousin." Dean said. Sin frowned. He didn't seem happy with that response. Had Sin seen through his loophole? Dean didn't want a lecture so he grabbed some toast and ran from the kitchen.

Later that day Dean texted Sorn: I will wash your shirt and return it.

Sorn replied: Keep it.

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Dean was just leaving class when his phone rang. It was Sorn.

"Hello p." Dean answered.

"I need my shirt back."

"Wow p, I thought I could keep it. That lasted all of two days."

"I know. I know. I said you could keep because Sin hates that shirt. I never wear it because he doesn't like it. But suddenly he keeps asking for it."

"Tell him you lent it to me."

"I can't, not without telling him where your original shirt went and why it was dirty." Sorn said. Dean imagined Sin's head exploding.

"You're right. I'll bring you the shirt."

"We need to be discreet. Put it in a paper bag. I'll drop by the house after work and get it."

"That sounds over the top. We aren't spies."

"Listen to me Dean. You haven't seen Sin when he gets angry. I mean really angry. I'm willing to go above and beyond to keep that from happening."

"Okay, okay we'll do it your way." Dean said. He hung up the phone.

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"Uncle In can I borrow a hat?" Dean asked as soon as he got home. In and Korn were on the couch. Even though his back was feeling better, Korn still didn't climb the stairs unless necessary.

"Borrow whatever you like." In said in a confused voice. Dean raced up the stairs. He had never asked to borrow In's clothes. They weren't his style. But In did have the most extensive wardrobe in the house and Dean felt like being dramatic today.
Dean picked the black hat with the largest brim. He also picked a long black trench coat. It was go big or go home.

Dean sauntered back down the stairs, grabbed a paper bag from the kitchen, and posed himself in front of the front door. When Sorn knocked, Dean didn't move from his pose.

"It's open!" Dean called. Sorn opened the door slowly and tiptoed in.

"This isn't discreet." Sorn hissed.

"Why would I need to be discreet in my own home?" Dean asked with a shake of his head. He held the bag out to Sorn.

"Aha!" Sin jumped up from behind the couch. Korn and In flinched. Korn groaned and grabbed his back.

"Sorry uncle." Sin said to Korn. "Give me that bag!" Sin approached Sorn. Sorn dropped his head and handed over the bag.

"Why didn't you tell me Sin was here?" Dean asked In and Korn.

"You didn't ask." In said.

"Sin is always here. It's not news." Said Korn. Dean face palmed hard.

"Explain this to me." Sin said, shaking the shirt violently.

"It's a shirt." Dean said.

"It's my boyfriend's shirt." Sin said.

"It is a generic gray button down. How can you be sure it's Sorn's?" Asked Dean.

"I know this shirt. I've washed and folded this shirt. I hate this shirt." Sin said.

"I might own the same shirt." Dean said.

"It smells like him." Sin said.

"No way! I washed it!" Dean said defensively.

"Two days ago. You smelled like him!" Sin threw the shirt at Dean.

"Is everything ok?" In asked. He hadn't stood from the couch but he was leaning forward.

"It's fine." Dean chuckled. "I just borrowed Sorn's shirt."

"What were you doing that required you to borrow my boyfriend's shirt while I was away?" Sin asked.

"Hold on kids what's going on here?" Korn asked.

"I need to get to the bottom of this." Sin said.

"It's none of your business what I was doing." Dean crossed his arms. Sin walked up to Sorn and studied his face.

"Why did Dean need your shirt?" Sin asked. Sorn opened his mouth like he was going to speak but instead a hiccup came out.

Sin began to laugh hysterically. He rocked back on his heels and almost fell over. Dean felt unnerved.

"My boyfriend, the love of my life, can't lie to save himself! He always hiccups. That's how I know he's lying." Sin turned to Dean. "Why would my boyfriend lie for you?"

"Aw p'Sin you know me." Dean cocked his head confidently. Sin pulled the rubber band from his hair, ran his fingers through it a few times, and tied his hair up tighter.

"I'll kill you!" Sin lunged forward. Sorn was able to grab him but he was having a hard time holding him back. Dean stepped back, his confident smirk fading.

"You could have anyone. Anyone! Yet you sleep with my boyfriend!?" Sin yelled.

"What?" Sorn asked. He was so shocked by the accusation that he loosened his grip on Sin. Sin took the chance to run forward and smack Dean in the face.

"Enough!" Korn yelled. He stood up and marched over to Sin.
"You're an adult. This isn't how you handle your problems. Long lasting relationships are built on communication and understanding. Sit here. Talk to your friend and your love. Figure this out sensibly." Korn said. He grabbed In's hand and the two went out for a walk.

"How could you think that?" Sorn asked. Sin slumped on the couch with a sigh.

"He was wearing your shirt. Both of you were being cagey about it. What was I supposed to think?" Sin asked.

"You were supposed to think that I love you, that I would never cheat on you. You were supposed to trust me." Sorn said.

"I wanted to but I couldn't think straight. We haven't had sex in a month." Sin said. Dean coughed, choking on his own saliva.

"Oh god! A month? How have you survived?" Dean asked. Sin and Sorn shot him death glares. Dean held his hands up in surrender.

"You had bruises all over. I was worried." Sorn said.

"Did I ever complain? Did I ever say stop? No! In fact all I ever did was give as good as I got." Sin said with a devilish grin.

"Good to know. From now on I won't be so careful." Sorn said. He leaned into Sin for a kiss. He had almost reached Sin's lips when he was stopped.

"That doesn't explain how he got your shirt." Sin said. Dean was getting tired of this. Sin had never objected to his lifestyle before and even if he had Dean would have ignored him. He had become timid all of a sudden. He was sneaking around as if he were doing something wrong. He wasn't! And he was going to tell Sin that.

"Two days ago I was in your apartment building. I took off my shirt and in the heat of passion got lube all over it. But I couldn't have cared less. I was too busy sticking my long hard dong into your..... cousin." Dean said.

"You slept with Pharm!?" Sin asked with shocked anger on his face.

"Yes. Twice." Dean put his fingers up in a peace sign and waved them aggressively in Sin's face.

"Wait, twice? Like two times? You had him once and you went back?" Sin asked. The anger in his eyes vanished.

"Yes. That's the definition of twice." Dean said.

"Will you be with him again?" Sin asked.

"Definitely. I have something I'm after." Dean said.

"Ok. Well. Take care of yourself as always." Sin said. His face looked as if he was trying to suppress a smile. Dean was confused.

"Why aren't you yelling? Why aren't you trying to fight me now? We were sneaking around because of this!" Dean gestured to his spy outfit.

"On my way here I thought you were sleeping with MY boyfriend. Considering I'd rather have you sleep with literally anyone else, I can't be mad that it's Pharm you're in a relationship with."

"A relationship!? Ha. Ha! I'm only sleeping with him." Dean said.
"Exactly, sleep-ING. Normally you're a one time pump em and dump em type of guy. The fact that you were with him more than once is...astounding." Sin said.

Dean thought Sin was overreacting. He had slept with someone else more than once. There was that one guy.....uh...and then that other guy......what's-his-name. Dean racked his brain but he couldn't think of anyone else. Pharm was the only one.

Chapter 8: Making up

Summary:

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Sin and Sorn make up after their miscommunication in last chapter.

Notes:

It's been sooooo long since I've updated this story. I've been watching KinnPorsche so I've only got smut on the brain. So uh... I'll just leave this here.

"I love you." Sorn said.

"I love you too." Sin replied. As the elevator traveled up, Sin's hand traveled down. He caressed Sorn's bulge.

"Sin..." Sorn said in a warning tone.

"What?" Sin asked in an innocent tone. He unzipped Sorn's jeans and let the dragon loose.

"We're in a public elevator." Sorn said. Sin looked around the silver box, each wall reflecting his flushed face back at him.

"I don't see anyone but us here." Sin said in a deceptively innocent tone. He wrapped his fingers around Sorn's member and stroked. Sorn moaned and braced against the closed elevator doors.

"These doors could open on any floor and we'll be seen. And you know how I am when I get started. I don't stop until I'm satisfied." Sorn warned.

"That's what I'm counting on." Sin said with a smile. He leaned forward and grazed his lips against Sorn's. That was all it took for Sorn to lose control. He picked Sin up and pressed him against the wall. He kissed Sin from his collar bone up the side of his neck to his earlobe.

"Unngh you know what the earlobe does to me." Sin said. Sorn pulled away and gave Sin a smirk. Sorn went back to nibbling on Sin's earlobe.

"Am I top tonight? I promise I'll treat you right." Sorn whispered. Sin leat out a pleased sigh.

"You have to be on top. You're too much of a screamer when I'm inside. I wont expose my cousin to that." Sin said. Sorn's face flamed red.

"I'm going to get you for that. And you're no mime." Sorn said. The elevator dinged and the doors opened. Sorn, still carrying Sin, surged forward. Sin's back hit the apartment door.

"Open it! Hurry!" Sin hissed. Sorn unzipped Sin's pants and stuck his hand in.

"The door not my zipper!" Sin's voice got louder. He wrapped his legs tightly around Sorn's waist. Sin pulled a key out of his pocket and gave it to Sorn.

"Put it in." Sin ordered. "Put the key in the lock!" Sin added before Sorn had time to misunderstand.

Sorn took the key and opened the door with a trembling hand. Sin grabbed Sorn's unoccupied hand and put 2 fingers in his mouth. That was Sorn's special spot. He always went wild when Sin played with his hands.

Sorn got the door open and barged in. He placed Sin on the counter, knocking off a bowl of fruit. He began to pull off Sin's pants.

"I don't want my bare ass on the counter! We eat here!" Sin exclaimed.

"Fine." Sorn said. He flipped Sin over so his junk met the cool marble countertop. Sin let out a shiver.

"This may be worse." Sin said.

"Your ass, your cock, a loaf of bread. Who cares if they go on the same surface. I put them all in my mouth on the daily anyway." Sorn laughed maniacally as he said this then thrust himself into Sin's hole without remorse. Sin let out a yelp.

"A little warning would be nice." Sin said. Sorn shook his head. Sin could see his reflection in the shiny silver toaster his face was being repeatedly thrust toward.

"You're tighter when it's a surprise. You clench harder when it hurts a little." Sorn said. He continued to thrust with reckless abandon.

"Say my name." Sorn said as he jerked his head back, enjoying every motion.

"S-Sorn" Sin managed to say.

"Good baby. Everything you say sounds so good." Sorn slapped Sin's ass hard enough that it left a red mark. He then stuck that same hand into Sin's mouth.

"Suck." Sorn said. Sin did as he was told. He swirled his tongue around and in between the fingers the way he knew Sorn liked.

"Fuck! I love you so much!" Sorn screamed and he began to thrust even harder.

Sin felt like he was melting. He wanted to feel like this forever but the weight of his numbing legs was becoming apparent.

"B-bed, I need to lay down." Sin said. His legs were visibly shaking. Sorn immediately stopped thrusting. He picked Sin up and took him to the bedroom. He lay Sin on his back and climbed on top. He got close to Sin's ear and whispered.

"I'm so close baby. Where should I shoot? Your chest? Mouth? Inside?" Sorn asked.

"Do whatever you want." Sin said with a devilish smile. Sorn gave Sin a pleading look. It was a look that meant "don't say that. Don't give me so much control in this state. Reign me in a little. Don't let me hurt you."

Sin saw the look. He knew the look. "Cum inside me. I wont break." Sin said. Sorn smiled. He inserted again, leaning forward and placing his forehead on Sin's as he did so.

"I'm close too." Sin said.

"I refuse to cum before you." Sorn said.

"It's not a competition." Sin chuckled. Sorn thrust even harder. He could tell Sin was close by how tight his hole got. He no longer relaxed between thrusts.

"Just let go. Like you said, it's not a competition." Sorn said. So, Sin released. He let out a moan mixed with a string of curses. He reached out his hand to stabilize on the bedside table but instead hit the table lamp and broke it. Sorn came right after. He bit sharply into Sin's right shoulder as his thrusts turned jagged and disorganized.

After he released everything, Sorn collapsed on top of Sin. He rubbed his thumb over the teeth marks in Sin's shoulder and tears streamed down his face.

"Shh shhhh it doesn't hurt too bad. It hurts just enough. I won't let you hurt me more than i can handle. I learned from last time. It's ok." Sin soothed.

Sorn nuzzled his nose into the nape of Sins neck just above the bite mark. His tears dried up and he fell asleep soon after.

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Pharm heard every single thing. And, he took notes.

Chapter 9: Finally

"Can you come over?" Pharm texted to Dean. He hit send and immediately panicked. It was 11pm on a Thursday and Dean might have other plans. Yet, here he was asking Dean to come to his place.

"When?" Dean replied.

"Now?" Pharm sent the text and wished he could take it back. He felt like he would puke. He thought about this for all of 30 minutes before making the call. No, that's wrong, he had been thinking about this for days. Slowly, achingly, the thought of Dean consumed more of Pharm's brain space each day. Dean was so patient and kind. He was waiting for Pharm. Pharm didn't want him to wait any longer. He thought of a plan in the past 30 minutes then called Dean.

Someone knocked on the door. Pharm stifled a yelp as he pulled a dining chair into the center of the room. He answered the door and Dean sauntered in.

"Sit." Pharm said, pointing at the chair. Dean did as told.

"How much self control do you have?" Pharm asked.
Dean shrugged.

"A normal amount I guess." Dean said. Pharm knelt down and crawled on his knees until his face was almost in Dean's lap. He stopped there and stared up at Dean.

Pharm sat there for a few seconds, staring up. Dean looked confused but pleased at the same time. Pharm licked his lips and winked once. Dean placed a hand on Pharm's cheek.

"That's not enough self control. You'll have to be restrained." Pharm said coldly. He went to his closet and rummaged around until he found rope.

"What!?" Dean asked with wide eyes.

"Do you object?" Pharm asked, frozen. He hadn't thought this through. There wasn't a backup plan for if Dean didn't like it.

"You want to tie me up?" Dean asked.

"Just your arms." Pharm said. "But if you don't want to..."

" Do it." Dean said. Pharm took the rope and tied Dean's arms to the armrests.

"I want to make you feel good. But if you don't like it, tell me." Pharm said.

"Tell you how?"

"Say no, stop, don't. Those types of words."

"I might say those things in the heat of the moment." Dean said.

"Pick another word, anything." Pharm said as he tied the last knot on his wrist.

"Ugly. That's a word I'll never say. I don't sleep with anyone ugly."

"Good. Remember it and say it if you want me to stop." Pharm unbuckled Dean's pants and pulled them off.

"No underwear?" Pharm asked.

"You've never complained before." Said Dean.

"I don't think I noticed." Pharm chuckled. He was getting nervous. His plan was half assed at best. He didn't know how far Dean would let him go.

"Don't come." Pharm said.

"I wasn't about to. I'm not a minute man." Dean replied.
Pharm sat on Dean's lap. His silk pajama pants rubbed against Dean's already hard member.

"I meant.... don't come unless I say so." Pharm said. Dean nodded.

"Tell me if it feels like you might come." Pharm said. Dean nodded again.

Pharm slid down to the floor again. He kept his eyes locked on Dean's as he took his entire member in his mouth. Pharm ignored the choking sensation as he bobbed his head in Dean's lap. Dean was breathing heavily.

"Close."Dean huffed out. Pharm stopped and looked up at Dean's face. His eyebrows were scrunched together and his eyes were shut tight. Dean's mouth was open slightly as if a moan or something even more lewd was about to escape.

"Not yet." Pharm said. He scrambled into Dean's lap and kissed him hard on the mouth. Dean's breathing intensified. Pharm kissed Dean's neck, starting from his shoulder and continuing up to his earlobe.

"How does it feel to get so close and then have to stop?" Pharm whispered.

"Maddening, infuriating, and amazing at the same time." Dean answered.

"How many times can you handle it? Almost reaching heaven but not being allowed to enter?" Pharm asked.

"Try me." Dean said.

Pharm used his hand this time. His mouth moved to different areas on Dean's neck while his hand jerked up and down on Dean's member. Dean threw his head back and let out a moan that Pharm had never heard before.

"Close again?" Pharm asked. Dean nodded. Pharm slowed his hand.

"Do you want me to come?" Dean asked.

"No." Pharm replied.

"But you're still rubbing it." Dean said.

"Can't you resist it? Can't you hold it in for me?" Pharm asked in an innocent voice. Dean nodded. He leaned forward and put his head on Pharm's shoulder.

Pharm continued to slowly stroke. Dean inhaled deeply at Pharm's neck. He breathed out raggedly. Pharm felt great. It was a sense of control he'd never felt before. He was so happy. Especially when he looked at Dean's face. The disheveled state he had Dean in was beautiful and Pharm loved it.

"Fuck me now." Pharm said sternly.

"What?" Dean asked, confused. Pharm reached to his desk for scissors. He cut Dean's hands loose.

"Now! You can come just fuck me first!" Pharm said. He leaned back and pulled the two of them to the floor.

"Whatever you want." Dean said. He inserted himself without haste.

Pharm let out a moan. From Dean's reaction, Pharm knew it had been loud but he couldn't hear it well. A shock went through his entire body and his ears were on the fritz.

"Good spot?" Dean asked as he thrust in again. Pharm moaned in response. He knew this moan was loud. He could feel the vibration in his chest.

Pharm couldn't think straight. Every thrust from Dean sent a jolt of electricity through his body. It was unlike anything Pharm had ever felt before. And it was so good. At one point Dean put a hand over Pharm's mouth. Maybe he was screaming too loud. Pharm knocked the hand away. So what if he screamed. He also needed to get breath in. Every jab to his soft spot took his breath away and a hand over his mouth only made that worse.

Finally Pharm began to feel something in his belly. It was a tightness but also a warmth. Whatever I was, it was building throughout his body. Pharm felt so good and so strange at the same time. He couldn't help but curl his toes and grab on to whatever he could with his hands.

Then it happened. The warmth overwhelmed Pharm. His whole body contracted and he came. He sprayed out multiple times. He curled into a ball on the floor as tears of pleasure streamed down his face. Dean placed a hand on Pharm's shoulder.

"Don't!" Pharm said. The pleasure was almost too much. His body was like one big live wire. Touches from Dean now would be overwhelming.

"Are you alright? You came alot." Dean asked.

"Dont talk about it P'Dean! It's my first time." Pharm whined. The tingle in his body was dying down.

"That's why I want to hold and comfort you." Dean said. His hands were hovering over Pharm, just waiting for a chance to touch.

"Can you take me to the bed?" Pharm asked. Dean scooped him up and carried him over. He laid him in the bed gently. He then crawled in next to him.

"Did you come too?" Pharm asked.

"Of course. I always come for you." Dean said.

"Was I really loud?" Pharm asked. Dean was silent which Pharm knew meant yes. He buried his face in his pillow.

"It was music to my ears. We can go to my place next time." Dean said. Pharm looked up at him, horrified. He was already worried about his neighbors hearing him. He would never let his uncle hear him.

"The Uncles are going out of town this weekend. If you come over we can do it for two days straight." Dean said. He pulled Pharm into his chest.

"I don't want to go to their house without their knowledge." Pharm said.

"It's my house and I'm inviting you so it's fine." Replied Dean.

"You don't own it." Said Pharm.

"I'll inherit it some day." Said Dean. Pharm gave him a skeptical look.

"What?" Dean asked.

"Wouldn't Uncle Korn leave the house to P'Sin?"

"Maybe if he wanted it. But P'Sorn plans to be a volunteer teacher and P'Sin wants to travel wherever he goes. The house is too big to be left empty for long. It needs life in it and I plan to live there forever. Plus Korn said I remind him of himself when he bought the house. He says the house needs me and I need the house." Dean said. He looked so proud when he spoke. It made Pharm smile.

Pharm drifted to sleep. He had a nightmare. In it, his dad was in a hospital bed. Pharm tried to get to him but the bed moved away. Next to the bed, Uncle Korn and Uncle Krit were standing discussing with each other. They never looked up at Pharm or his father. They were right next to him on his death bed but they never looked up once. Pharm tried to call out to them but they either didn't hear or they ignored him.

The phone ringing woke Pharm up. He put the phone to his ear without opening his eyes.

"Hello, P'Dean? Where are you? I'm at the house." A voice said.

"Dell is that you? What do you need? Is the cooking class today?" Pharm asked.

"Oh! Sorry no I meant to call P'Dean. Um well oh if he's with you then it's fine. Bye." Dell hung up. Pharm's eyes shot open and he looked at the phone. It wasn't his phone. The background was a picture of Dean's grandma. A ball of anxiety was building in Pharm's chest. Dell couldn't keep a secret to save her life.

A second phone starting ringing. This had to be Pharm's phone. But, before he could grab it, Dean rolled over and picked up the phone. Pharm was pinned underneath him. He tried to warn Dean that it was not his phone but Dean didn't notice Pharm's taps.

"Hello?" Dean answered.

"AHHHH! Is it P'Dean?" The voice was loud enough that Pharm heard it. It was Manaow.
"Uh yes." Dean opened his eyes and looked at the phone. Manaow's voice calmed down. Pharm couldn't hear the rest of what she said. "Yes I'll bring him." Dean said before hanging up.

Pharm snatched the phone away before Dean could see his wallpaper. I was a sneakily taken picture of Dean's abs.

"You're studying with Manaow and Team today? Manaow asked me to bring you." Dean said. Pharm tried to get up but his whole body was sore.

"Are you alright?" Dean asked.

"Yes. I just need to take it slow." Pharm said.
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When Pharm arrived to Team's dorm room, Team and Manaow were there looking like starving puppies.

"Well?" Asked Team

"Did you sleep with P'Dean again?" Manaow asked. Pharm nodded.

"Did it happen?" Team asked. Pharm nodded aggressively with a giant smile on his face.

"Oh! Congratulations Pharm! It's something everyone deserves to feel" Manaow said with a dreamy look on her face.

"Manaow.... have you done it with P'Pruk?" Pharm asked. Manaow giggled as she said yes.

"You sneaky thing! Why didn't you tell me?" Team asked.

"What about you and P'Win?" Manaow asked defensively.

"Snacks! We need snacks! Let's go to the gas station." Team said. Changing the subject.

The trio headed to the gas station. Team ran to the chips section and Manaow went toward the candy at the front counter. Pharm went to the back of the store to look for drinks.

"Do you want any chips?" Team asked. His arms were overflowing with different flavors.

"I think that's enough." Pharm said.

"These are just for me." Team said.

"Let's just check out." Pharm said. They headed to the front where Manaow had candy covering the counter. The thing in her hands drew the most attention.

"I think I'll buy this." Manaow said. She shook the thin white box and it made a rattling sound.

"Is that..." Pharm started.

"A pregnancy test!?" Team finished.

Notes:

I hope yall enjoyed the chapter. I'm trying to watch an episode of the drama then write the chapter the way the episode would happen in this universe. Hopefully the next chapter doesn't take a year. 😅

Chapter 10: The birds and bees?

Swim team practice was on a break. 3 of the team members were whispering to each other and laughing. They weren't as quiet as they thought they were. A name caught Dean's ear.

"My cousin works at the quickie gas mart near campus. She saw Team, Pharm, and Manaow shopping there. You'll never guess what they bought!" Tul said. The 3 of tem were so enthralled in the gossip that they didn't notice Dean walk up behind them.

"It was a pregnancy test! Can you believe it? Manaow is pregnant. Those 3 are so close. Pharm or team has to be the dad right?" Tul was talking a mile a minute.

"Break time is over! Everyone warm up with 10 laps!" Dean yelled. The three members jumped into the pool. Team ran out of the locker room, red faced, and jumped into the pool as well.

Dean stormed into the locker room where he found Win slouched happily on a bench.

"Keep your extra curricular activities for after this activity." Dean said.

"Why? It's a good warm up to keep your heart racing." Win said with a smirk.

"Where's Pruk?" Dean asked.

"Out back I think. He came in earlier but I was otherwise engaged so he made himself scarce." Win said.

Dean grabbed Win's arm and pulled him through the back door where they found Pruk drinking soda.

"Have you and Manaow done it yet?" Dean asked Pruk.

"My sex life is none of your business... but of course we have. You know me." Pruk took a long swig from his drink.

"Your sex life is our business when it affects our sex lives." Dean gestured toward himself and Win.

"Why would his sex affect my sex?" Win asked Dean. He then turned to Pruk. "What have you done? WHO have you done!?!?" Win's eyes widened.

"I've only been with Manaow lately. I'm having fun." Pruk said.

"A kid on the team saw Manaow buy a pregnancy test." Dean said.

Pruk spat out his soda in shock.

"Yeah and the kids on the team seem to think that Manaow, Pharm, and Team are some sort of throuple. They're saying Team or Pharm is the father." Dean said. Win sat up when he heard this.

"You better fix this Pruk! If your misguided sex life affects the great sex i'm having, I'll never forgive you!" Win said. Pruk stood up and guzzled his drink.

"I always use protection. So if my girlfriend is pregnant it's not by me. Maybe I need to talk with those little friends of hers. You know how I feel about sharing my girls." Pruk said. He stomped off toward the other end of the field.

"Why do his open relationships only ever reply to his side of the relationship?" Dean asked. Win hust shrugged.

"Wait, he won't kill them will he?" Dean asked.

"He did try to kill me when we were with the same girl." Win said.

Dean and Win looked at each other wide eyed. Then they ran after Pruk.

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Pruk banged on Manaow's door like he was the police. Win and Dean caught up to him and stood behind him nervously.

"She may not even be home." Win said.

"I called her. She said she was home. She also said she had 'friends' over." Pruk used air quotes with the word friends which made Win even more nervous.

The door opened and Manaow stood there. Her face was at first confused but it quickly changed to a wide smile.

"P'Pruk I didn't think you were coming over!" Manaow said excitedly.

"I missed you so I had to come!" Pruk said. He picked Manaow up into a hug and spun her around. Manaow giggled, having the best time. Dean could tell, however, that Pruk was scanning the room for signs of misdeeds.

Team was on his belly on Manaow's bed. He was kicking his feet in the air and scrolling on his phone. Pharm was nowhere to be seen.

Pruk's eyes locked on Team and he set Manaow down. He then scanned the room quickly again. Pharm still wasn't there.

"I thought the whole gang would be here. That's why I brought my posse." Pruk gestured to Dean and Win. "Why is only Team here?" Pruk's voice tightened when he said Team's name. It was just for a second but his friends could tell.

Win marched over to Team and pulled at his waist. "Up up! Off of the bed right now." Win said as he aggressively pulled Team over.

"Ouch! P! What's wrong with you?" Team asked as he struggled. He was no match for Win and was pulled off of the bed easily. Win pulled Team behind him and held him there firmly.

"We wanted drinks and snacks. Pharm volunteered to go get them." Manaow said.

Just then, the door opened and Pharm came in carrying bags of drinks and chips. He froze for a second when he saw all the seniors in the room.

"MaoMao....." Pruk whined. "You have to keep your door locked! It's not safe for a woman living alone."

"I do keep it locked. Pharm has the key." Manaow replied.

"Why!?" Pruk initially yelled but quickly reeled in his voice. "Why does he have a key?"

"I was running errands. So I borrowed the key to let myself in if Manaow and Team were busy." Pharm said. He handed Manaow her key and her drink. He tried to give Team a bag of Lay's but Win confiscated them.

"What could Manaow and Team be so busy with that they wouldn't be able to open the door?" Pruk asked. His voice hit a high pitch at the end of the sentence which worried Dean.

A beeping noise came from the bathroom.

"My alarm!" Manaow yelled as she ran into the bathroom.

"What's the alarm for?" Pruk asked. There was silence from the bathroom. Pharm and Team looked at each other but stayed silent as well.

"Pharm come here." Dean said. Pharm gave Dean a confused look but didn't question him. Pharm walked over to Dean who threw his arm over his shoulders as if everything was calm. It was far from calm in the room.

Manaow came out of the bathroom with a wide, embarrassed smile on her face. She was holding the pregnancy test in her left hand.

"Hehe it's a funny story. I saw these at the store and decided to get one. You know.... for a baseline." Manaow said, holding up the obviously negative pregnancy test.

"A baseline? Who needs a baseline pregnancy test?" Dean whispered to Pharm.

"I asked the same thing when she bought the darn test. But she was adamant she wanted it." Pharm replied in an equally hushed tone.

"So you didn't think you were pregnant?" Pruk asked.

"No way! I'm on birth control. You always wear a condom. Plus you don't even cum inside." Manaow said proudly. Team choked on some chips he managed to wrestle away from from Win.

"You don't have to cum inside!?" Team asked.

Pharm's mouth fell open. Pruk began laughing raucously.

"Oh Manaow you're so silly!" Pruk said as he picked her up and spun her again. "How about we all go to dinner together?"

Dean sighed in relief. Pharm tensed a little, causing Dean to look down at him.

"I was actually about to leave soon." Pharm said.

"Where are you going?" Dean asked.

"I gathered my nerves and asked Uncle Korn about my dad. He said he will tell me the whole story tonight. He said it was long and he only wants to say it once." Pharms said softly.

A chill went down Dean's spine. He wanted to know the story as well. But, he didn't want to intrude on Pharm's family affairs. But wait, Uncle Korn and Uncle In were together. With Dean being family to In, and living in their house, didn't that make him Korn's family also.  Dean stopped breathing for a second when he realized that being related to Korn would make him related to Pharm also. There was no way he was related to Pharm. He just had to come to terms with the fact that he wasn't a part of this family tale.

"You should come hear what Uncle Korn has to say." Said Pharm.

"Yes!" Dean exclaimed before he could stop himself.

Chapter 11: Everything and nothing

Pharm arrived at his uncle’s house and he felt like he would throw up. His main reason for coming to Thailand was to find out more about his family and why his dad left. But now that the answer was rapidly approaching, he wasn’t sure he could handle it.

When Pharm and Dean entered the home, Korn and In were seated on the couch huddled closely together. An was in the kitchen leaning against a wall with a steaming cup in her hands.

“Pharm, you brought Dean with you?” Korn asked.

“Yes uncle. If it's alright with you I'd like him to stay.” Pharm said.

“Very well. If that's what you wish. I suppose this does affect all of us. I… I wanted to invite Sin as well. This is his family too. None of the other cousins. That would be too much. Sin is like their representative so… But I wasn't sure you would be comfortable. But now with Dean here maybe…” In placed a hand on Korn’s knee.

“You're rambling.” In warned. Korn stopped talking.

“Sin should be here. If what you're about to say is as hard for you as it seems, I don't want you to have to say it twice.” Pharm said. Korn smiled a grateful smile. He picked up his phone and placed a call. Seconds later there was a knock on the door. Sin must have been waiting in the wings.

“You never need to knock.” Korn said. Sin opened the door silently.

“I didn't want to surprise anyone.” Sin said.

“Take a seat.” Said Korn. Sin did as he was told, picking a recliner to the side of the room but close enough where he could hear what was said.

Once Sin was seated, Korn took a few deep breaths. He reached his hands toward his hair line.

“Help me with this will you?” Korn asked In.

“Are you sure about this?” In asked.

“It's the only way I know how to start.” Karn said. In pulled at Korn's hair from the back. The hair popped up leaving behind a bald head with a large scar across the middle.

“You wear a wig!?” Dean screamed then quickly covered his mouth. In shot him a cutting look. Dean mouthed an apology.

“This scar is the beginning of the reason your father left the family. I'd like to tell you a simple and succinct reason. If only it were that easy. But big decisions are rarely made suddenly. Usually it is many small changes. Small decisions are made one after another, and before you know it your brother dies in a foreign country without you being able to say you're sorry.” Korn took a gasp and held back a sob. An came over and handed Korn a cup. He held the sides for warmth but did not drink from it.

“When I was your age,” Korn looked at Pharm. “I loved In so much. Just a day without him felt like torture. Of course our relationship was a secret. Times were different then. Our fathers did not approve of our relationship.” In leaned on Korn's shoulder and closed his eyes.

“When they found out about us…. An eldest son and an only son in a relationship together… they wanted us to break up. But I couldn't fathom it. I didn't see another way out. The life my father wanted for me. I would have rather died than live it….” A sob escaped Korn's throat and tears streamed down his cheeks. He held In close and buried his nose in the top of In's head.

“Wh-what did you do?” Pharm asked in the tiniest voice. Korn sighed heavily like the weight of all his years was being released from his chest.

“I tried to die. A bullet to the head.” Korn traced the scar across his skull. “But In saved me, pushed the gun just high enough. This scar is all that's left of that time.”

Pharm gasped softly. Dean put an arm on his shoulder to calm him.

“I didn't die that night. Not fully. But a part of me died for a long time.” Korn hiccupped and In wiped his tears.

“Take a break. Sip some tea.” In urged.

“It'll only get harder the longer I take.” Korn said. He took another deep breath.

“You can stop if it's too hard.” Pharm said meekly.

“You deserve to know.” Korn said. “I reached a point where I realized that I couldn't live the life I wanted. I also couldn't die. So, I did the only other option left. I lived the life my dad laid out for me. I took over the company. I even got engaged to a woman.”

“What!?!?” Sin blurted out. He was leaning forward in his seat and gripping the arm rests for dear life.

“The engagement didn't last of course.” In said haughtily. He puffed out his chest and held Korn's arm tighter.

“I lived the life my dad wanted for 7 long years. During that time Kard slowly became more distant. Your father, he and I were never super close. I was always protecting him. So much so that I never really took interest in his life. When he wanted to study abroad dad said yes. Dad wanted him to learn business at an American school then come back to the family business. I didn't want that for him. Kard was always a free spirit. I didn't want the light to be drained from him like it had been from me. When he left for school I told him not to look back. I told him I would make sure dad never called him back here.” Korn let out a chuckle that was chased by a breathy sob.

“It's crazy how doing something you believe is right quickly gives way to doing what's easiest.” Korn said. “Dad died while Kard was away at school which left me in charge. He asked me if he should come back for the funeral. I told him not to bother. The old man didn't deserve it. I sent money whenever Kard asked for it. That's all I knew to do. As the years went on, Kard asked for money less and less. We didn't talk unless it was about money so eventually we just didn't talk. By the time I found out he was sick, it was too late. I….” Korn's voice trailed off. He held his hands out, palms up, as if to show Pharm he had no weapons in them.

Pharm stood up abruptly. “Thank you uncle. I'm glad I finally know the truth.” Pharm said. His words came out robotic and stiff. He turned and marched up the stairs before anyone could say anything else.

Dean followed Pharm into the guest room. Pharm was pacing back and forth.

“Are you alright?” Dean asked.

“Of course I'm alright! I got the answer I've been looking for. The answer that I came to Thailand for! Why wouldn't I be alright?” Pharm said. It was a lie.

“OK. Well if everything's alright, why don't we sit down?” Dean asked.

“I can't! I can't sit down because I just found out that my family has been separated for my entire life because what? They just forgot?” Pharm was ranting. “I thought it was something huge. I thought my dad was excommunicated or something! And yes Uncle Korn almost dying is a big deal, but that's not why my dad left! He just went to school and never came back. Life got in the way and he just never called. And then he died. I got the family newsletter every month. I was so jealous. I wanted to vacation with you all! I wanted to be close like you were. And now I find out that I could have just picked up the phone and asked to be included? That's stupid! I thought it was some huge, unbelievable scandal! Instead it was just grown men being dumb!” Pharm began to hyperventilate. Dean pulled Pharm into a tight hug from behind.

“It'll be alright. I'm here. You're with us now. You can stay here forever. We can go on vacation tomorrow.” Dean said. Pharm turned around in Dean's arms and looked into his eyes.

“Fuck me.” Pharm said. “Fuck me right now.”

Notes:

I'm not super sure where this fic is heading so updates may be random. But I'm giving myself a set number of chapters to wrap everything up so I won't write too much.