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Jimin came to an abrupt halt.
Just three more steps and he would be there, right at his doorstep. Nothing unreachable, but he was frozen in place, heart thumping too fast to let him walk any farther.
The door was chestnut brown, he noticed. Fitting nicely with the pale yellow wall and the square clay pot with a big leafy plant sitting at a side.
Oh.... there's a cat meme doormat too.
He managed to take another step as his eyes roamed over every detail, deliberately ignoring the doorbell for personal reasons. He may had come here at his own free will, but with every passing second, the urge to turn around and run away was getting stronger.
A few more moments, and his inspection met a sudden end as the door clicked open, revealing a person who was a bit too beautiful to be real. The guy was tall, cladded in a plaid short-sleeve shirt and grey shorts. Freshly out of shower, Jimin guessed as he noticed his dripping wet hair hanging low over his forehead in messy ebony streaks, letting a few droplets trickle down his temples like glossy beads of dew over his honey skin.
" Are you him? "
Jimin asked, blinking at the godly being standing right in front of his own two eyes. Voice quivering, as he unwillingly caught a glimpse of the mostly unbuttoned state of his shirt.
A playful grin broke over the guy's lips. "I'm him." He answered, stepping aside to let him in.
If Jimin wasn't already stunned by his sudden appearance, he would have become so by this guy's voice. It was deep and rich and soothing, a stark contrast to his face alighted with a carefree grin. But somehow it all was befitting on him.
" Are you coming or... " The guy raised an eyebrow, peering down at a very motionless Jimin.
" No. I mean yes! I was just watchi- never mind I'm here anyways, so- " He hurried past the guy, lowering his head.
Jimin was forever embarrassed of his un-thrilling communication skills, but at least this guy didn't ask him why he was ogling his door standing out there, and he was eternally grateful for that.
" I am Jimin." He said in a small voice once he was in.
" Mhm, it's a pleasure meeting you Jimin. you've got awfully pretty lips. " The guy replied, closing the door behind him.
And then Jimin died. " Uh uhh th-thanks...Tae-taehyung. " He managed to stutter out with the last of his breaths.
" Wow you're...red." The taller guy let out a short chuckle. " Looks like it's gonna be interesting huh? "
you bet.
Jimin gulped down a big lump of nervousness, wondering if it was too late to run away.
It probably was. The front door was already closed and Taehyung had already taken him to his living room. " Do you mind waiting here for a moment? Gotta fix this." He asked, gesturing to his wet hair.
Jimin nodded quickly. He would absolutely love it if this unreal looking person went away for a while. He needed a moment to clear his head.
" Alright then, I'll be right back. "
Once Taehyung was gone, Jimin decided to take a look around the place, glancing around with hesitant little steps. He found it quite nice. The room had ivory walls and those walls were mostly covered with paintigs of swirling blue oceans. To be exact, everything in this room looked kinda blue and watery and beautiful.
Looking around some more, he discovered some white clay figurines arranged prettily on a glass shelf. Intrigued, he walked over to have a closer look. Those were sirens, he found out. Beautiful and intricate, too delicate looking to touch.
The soft creak of an opening door made Jimin pause. Turning around, he found Taehyung stepping out of the door he had disappeared behind earlier.
" Your home is nice." Jimin said with a forced smile. " Do you live here alone?"
" Unfortunately no, I gotta have you done before my wife returns. You see, I was actually out at the front door to check if she was back already. " He paused before gesturing to the slightly ajar door behind him, which probably led to his bedroom. " Anyways, get in sweets. "
Jimin would have complied if he wasn't too stunned to move. Eyes wide in shock, trying to remember why he was still alive in a world that rendered him speechless on a regular basis. He could just gape at Taehyung's nonchalant face until the latter broke into silent chuckles. " So gullible, you're basically every scammer's dream. "
" hh-what.... "
" I was kidding of course. " Taehyung straightened himself, the merriment still alighting his eyes. " I don't have any wife to cheat on, no worries. I'm all yours for now. "
Kidding? Was that supposed to be funny? How? Jimin looked away to hide his frown. "...... your sense of humour is ridiculous." He mumbled in a very low voice.
" I can hear you bun."
The taller guy tilted his head to a side, smile catching a mischievous glint. " Don't worry my kissing skills are not, and..... I'm still waiting. " He added, taking another step back, holding the door open for him.
But it's just one kiss! Why are you taking me to your bedroom please that's so unnecessary! Do it out here dude I just wanna go home!
Jimin's eyes almost teared up as all of the nervousness rushed back in. But he had already come this far, it was no time to be the coward he always had been.
" Um then....you...are you like.....an escort? Do I have to pay you for kissing me?" He ended up asking as he staggered inside.
" Sorry to break it to you but I'm just a plain office worker. " Taehyung snorted, leaning against the closed door." I'm cousins with Jeon, we even work in the same department."
You are whats with who? Jimin went still in disbelief.
Two days ago~
A strange orange glow was dripping down the sunset sky. Trees standing still in the windless evenfall, looked like statues made of bronze. Jimin was watching the little birds dance around their branches perched on a bench under a big oak tree.
" Yo loser. " The sudden greeting made him startled. Looking back he found Jungkook striding over to him with a bored expression. " You got half a day off and came to sulk at this wretched park?"
" Hi ugly." He greeted back with a wave. " And this park isn't wretched, neither I'm sulking."
Jungkook plopped down onto the bench with a loud sigh. " But I saw your mopey tweets. You dying or something? Can I read your old diaries once you're gone? "
" No and no. " Jimin mumbled in an uninterested voice, turning his eyes back at the birds. The other guy groaned at his subdued reaction. " Come on dude, you've been a sad panda since yesterday. Did you accidentally killed some of your sick folks or something? "
"........you're close." Jimin let out a soft sigh, watching the yellow of sky melt into somber scarlets around the drowning sun. " There was an old lady in neurology ward you know, whenever I was on my round to check her charts she would give me a jellybean from her secret stash...but her health was getting worse and sudden surge of glucose could harm it farther......so I had to inform the nurses and they took her jar. " He paused to breathe out.
" She died a day ago..... I didn't get to say sorry for taking away her jellybeans....."
Once Jimin had finished, there was nothing but the soft rustle of leaves above their head. Making the silence more prominent, until the other spoke up.
" You're too soft for that profession you know? " Jungkook shook his head slowly, expressions growing soft." Jimin.......these kind of things will always be a part of your life, but you can't bring them home as your personal grief."
Jimin stayed silent. He knew that, he knew he was supposed to discard those sorrowful feelings the moment he took off his white coat. But still, it wasn't just as easy for him to erase those dead faces.
" Enough of that! I don't want to go- get a life, but maybe you need to." Jungkook tried to sound brighter, smacking the back of Jimin's head playfully. " My loser, you need other things to focus on once you're out of that gloomshack....how about you start dating or something?"
" You think?"
Jimin turned to him with an unimpressed look. " I work 8 to 10 hours shifts a day and two night shifts a week, remember? I don't have time for relationships.....besides, you know how I suck at conversing with new people." He added with a sigh." Who's gonna date me? "
" You're too busy, that's one thing. But what kind of question is who's gonna date me! " Jungkook scoffed. " You are- "
" Kook, I'm about to turn 25 and I don't even have any kissing experience. People will treat me just as a bizarre specimen who has fallen far behind in life.......they might pity me, but won't want me.....and I can't fix this now, it's too late. I- you know how it have been...."
Jungkook did know. He had been Jimin's only friend since middle school and had watched that guy grow up doing nothing but staying buried in books for years. And by the time he got into med school, he was already too accustomed to his secluded life to focus on anything else, neither he ever had the time.
He had his priorities straight and never really felt like he was missing out or anything. But sometimes Jungkook wondered if Jimin had willingly avoided it altogether just because these things involve another person and he had been too scared of that notion.
" Dude you're thinking too much!" He said in an exasperated voice. " It's better late than never, Ohh how about I get you a kiss for your birthday present!" He added, suddenly wide-eyed with excitement.
" Ew!" Jimin made a gagging face. " I better die unkissed than kissing you. "
" No need to go ew bastard it's equally ew on my part! " Jungkook scoffed." I didn't mean me of course, I'll find you someone. "
Jimin's eyes went wider. " No way! I can't just kiss some stranger! "
" No listen, this way you don't have to worry about things like impressing them or shit. Besides, it's not gonna be a complete stranger since it's- "
" I'm not kissing any of your cousins!" Jimin hurried to refuse before the other could complete his suggestion.
" I was thinking about a friend but what do you have against my cousins dude! " Jungkook asked squinting at the shorter guy." I've got lots of cousins. You don't know them but some of those fuckers are even nice to look at."
" Uh...whatever. I just don't want them. It'll feel weird. " Jimin answered in a small voice, fiddling with the hem of his shirt.
But Jungkook had already stopped listening. He had pulled out his phone, fingers moving fast on the screen, with a big grin plastered across fis face.
" Listen loser, I've got it! Here, I've sent you the name and address. You just gotta take yourself to there. "
Jimin's face paled. Talking about it was one thing but now it was getting too real. " Who....wh- why would someone just agree to- "
" Leave the who and whys on me my loser. " Jungkook patted his shoulder with a smug smile." Ohh- bro it's just an address! Why are you blushing at it like someone's virgin bride from Victorian era! "
" I was not- " Jimin tried to hit Jungkook but he had already jumped away, laughing.
~⚘~
His bedroom was blue. All the walls, smeared with more and more blues. Blurred by the dense shadows, they looked like encased oceans. Waiting patiently to break free and flood the floor.
Jimin's mesmerized eyes lingered over them for a moment, but soon the reality rushed back. There was no mystic ocean, it was just him locked in a room with Jungkook's cousin.
" I- I need a moment." He said frantically and without waiting for a response, he turned to the wall to rest his forehead against the cool surface. Eyes clenched shut, trying to hold in his breath to calm himself.
He would have asked Jungkook for more details, but he had been too worried about looking eager and being teased. Breaking in cold sweats, now he was trying to remember why he even agreed to this in the first place.
After a few moments, when Jimin turned back with a less crazed heart, he found Taehyung perched on the edge of his bed, watching him curiously.
" Are you done? " He asked with a head -tilt.
" Y-yes I'm sorry I'm such a mess... " Jimin managed to answer, rubbing his sweaty palm on the tight fabric of his pants.
" Happens. " Taehyung shrugged, pushing back the short dark strands of hair out of his forehead. " Now come here, get on my lap."
On your what?
Jimin helplessly blinked at the guy who just sat there in silence, waiting. Like a predator who could lure in his preys just with his eyes. And it probably worked that way. When Jimin walked over to him and dropped himself on Taehyung's lap, he was hardly aware of what he was doing.
" Oh you actually did it."
Taehyung's amused chuckle brought Jimin back to reality.
" Y-you told me to... " The smaller guy looked up at his face, eyes nothing but innocent.
" Mhm I did. " Taehyung smirked, his canine twinkling in the semi-darkness.
" Are you always this obedient bun? "
Jimin tried to ignore the tingly sensation running down his spine as the taller's eyes settled over his lips.
" Anyways, let's get to the kissing hmm? " Taehyung suggested before raising an eyebrow at him. " How would you like it? "
" I don't really know... " Jimin shifted nervously. " I'm pretty much clueless. "
" Still, any preferences?" Taehyung asked and Jimin shook his head almost immediately.
" Alright let's see. " Taehyung leaned back to have a better view of the smaller guy. " From the looks of it, you might like it slow and gentle....but also, tiny looking things like you are often found to be pretty wild..."
Jimin could ignore being called tiny looking thing only because his heart was being too loud to let the words go through to him as the taller guy sat there watching his lips thoughtfully.
After a few moments of fruitless speculation, Taehyung clicked his tongue. " Fuck it just pick one. " He breathed out, holding up four slender fingers in front of Jimin's face.
But the shorter guy just sat still, watching the hand. His hand was large and too pretty not to stare at. It even looked warm. Jimin wished he could hold it and rub his cheeks against the back of his palm.
" Um....you there Jimin?" Taehyung asked, angling his head to peer down at the dazed guy.
Jimin was startled once his face was too close. " oh huh yes...so...uh... there are four kinds.... of kisses?" He asked, eyes going big with amusement once he had caught up with the situation.
" Pick already? " Taehyung sighed. " Come back later if you want a detailed lesson on classification of kisses. I'll teach you. "
"....... alright. " Jimin licked his lips nervously, looking at his options. " This one?"
As Taehyung looked down at Jimin's small-ish fingers wrapped around his pinky, an unreadable smile slowly spread over his lips.
" W-what is it?" Jimin stuttered out, looking scared.
" You'll see. " Taehyung said in response, leaning down until his lips were just a touch away. "...breathe. " He whispered.
His palms cupped his cheeks and Jimin's eyes fluttered close, anticipating the kiss.
It was as tender as a lingering whisper when Taehyung took Jimin's bottom lip in between his gentle warm lips. Sucking it softly, letting him feel the amorous wetness. His breath hitched as Taehyung's tongue trailed the shape of his upper lip, still as soft and patient. But then he grabbed the back of Jimin's neck and leaned farther to seal their lips all the way in.
Jimin's inside was burning with unspeakable things as Taehyung sucked his mouth deeper and harder. Making him breathless and heady. And he was still in that burning haze when Taehyung pulled away, leaving his lips glistening with spit.
He couldn't remember his surname anymore, or the reasons he was sitting on some guy's lap. Jimin just wanted to have that delicious warmth back on his lips.
" W-why did you stop..." He whimpered, going limp over the taller's chest.
" It was supposed to be just your first kiss, remember bun? " Taehyung said in response, his voice raspy and breathless.
" But I need more kisses!" Jimin lifted his head up to look at the taller with pleading eyes. " Just one more... "
Taehyung grabbed his chin, thirsty eyes trailing down the curve of Jimin's throat. " If I kiss you one more time, you'll end up fucked sweetcheeks, I'm already hard. "
Jimin knew he was sitting on something. But the confirmation made him gulp nervously under Taehyung's gaze. He shifted awkwardly over his lap, gripping at his shirt.
" Don't-" The taller guy sucked in a quick breath. " - fidget on a guy's boner. "
" I'm s-sorry! "Jimin gulped hard. " sorry I'm sorry! I didn't mean to- what do I do now! "
Despite his situation, Taehyung let out a short chuckle looking at Jimin's panicked face. " You don't have to do anything. Get up and go home maybe....or I might lose it. "
" But I want to help you! " Jimin insisted, instead of evacuating his lap.
" Help? " Taehyung tilted his head questioningly.
" Um I mean...if you tell me how- " Jimin looked away to hide his flushed face. " Never mind. I don't even know.... I- I'm just so pathetic sorry I'll leave. "
The smaller guy hurried to get up, but the other grabbed his waist and pulled him down. " Wait up you dummy...." Taehyung took a deep breath, before continuing in a calmer voice. "It's okay to walk at your own pace. No need to feel ashamed for choosing other things first..... you're almost a doctor right? "
Jimin gave a little nod. " I'm an intern now. "
" See? "
The taller guy added nonchalantly. " You maybe don't know how to fuck, but you can save a whole fucker."
Jimin couldn't help but laugh at that, shaking his head a little.
" Whoa hold on! " Taehyung's voice startled Jimin and his smile faltered. " You've got an ice-cream like smile bun!" The Taller guy said in an amused voice.
" What's an......ice-cream like smile?" Jimin asked, wondering if it was another part of his weird pep talk.
" The best kind of smile of course. It comes with ice cream effects."
The taller guy answered with a smile of his own. " A glimpse of it is equivalent to a whole strawberry cone when it comes to healing properties..... and just like ice-creams, it can cause a brainfreez if experienced abruptly."
Jimin was about laugh agin, but he was thoroughly interrupted as Taehyung's thumb stroked his lips open. " And what in hell is this cute little crooked tooth...who allowed you to be this fucking adorable huh? "
Taehyung's voice dropped to a whisper when he lowered his head, peering down at Jimin's flushed face. " Darn I gotta kiss it..."
Without waiting for Jimin to process what he was talking about, he tipped Jimin's chin up and pressed a little delicate kiss on his incisor, mouth brushing past the inside of Jimin's upper lip.
But even that little touch was too much for the smaller guy. He pressed himself over Taehyung's chest, moaning against his mouth.
" You are in trouble you know...." The taller guy uttered, just before intertwining his lips with Jimin's.
Jimin knew. He was very much aware of the hard bulge he was sitting on. But he was too far gone, the entirety of his inside was already aching to burn more.
" Are you... up for... another...first time... bun? " Taehyung asked between kisses, but he already knew the answer.