Lean on Me

by Wildmoore_lover

Summary:

Sophie has everything she could want in life right now, so what could possibly go wrong?

Notes:

After reading all the amazing Batwoman fan fics, I wanted to add one of my own and contribute to the badass show CW just fumbled! The formatting may not be great but I hope you enjoy the story. I haven't written in eons so I hope it's worth the read!

Chapter 1: Life Comes At You Fast

-ping-

Picking up her phone opens a text from her baby sister Jordan.

“Hey Soph! Everyone has the schedule so today should run smoothly. Thanks a million again for doing this!”

It’s 7:30 in the morning and Sophie is setting up to start shooting for the day. She’s moving soon and finally has the space in her apartment to set up her old studio lights. They’ve been sitting tucked away for what felt like forever so popping them out to get some practice before the big move seemed ideal. When Jordan called her about taking some photos for a group of young actors she’s helping out, shooting them at home seemed like the perfect thing to do.

“Not a problem sis! I’m just about ready so I’ll look out for the first person.”

Sophie’s sister Jordan is one of the kindest and most giving people around. The work she does to help at risk youth at the community centre was absolutely admirable. Plus she uses her free time to pay it forward to anyone she can and Sophie is always down to assist her when she asks.

“I’ll swing by later to pick you up for dinner, I can’t believe you talked me into paying AND driving too! Love you!” Jordan’s message read.

Sophie rolled her eyes and smiled. Jordan was always her annoying little sister but watching her become the woman she is, has been the best part of Sophie’s adulthood.

Sophie sent a bunch of heart emojis and rested her phone down. Looking around her apartment she could feel the stress building in her chest, there was so much to do in such a short space of time but doing this job for Jordan was the calmest she had felt in weeks.

“Alright Soph, you got this. This ain’t nothing but some photos and you do this all the time. Don’t overthink it, don’t put pressure on yourself. Just go with it. This is a good thing you’re doing.” Standing in the mirror she’s giving herself the usual morning pep talk to calm her anxiety. Under normal circumstances, she would never have strangers in her space like this but soon it won’t be, so that was helping calm her nerves.

She was wearing her favorite black hoodie with a soft black cotton sweatpants to match. She over analyzed herself a few times before deciding she was just going to leave her hair down and let her curls do what they do. Under normal shoot circumstances she would have made more of an effort but she felt like being at home warranted more comfort than business. Plus she wanted everyone to feel comfortable.

Sophie checked the schedule Jordan previously sent and I was about 20 minutes before the first person was set to arrive so she decided to text Kate. “Hey babe, I hope the trip is going well. I miss you waking up next to you”

Kate and Sophie have one of the most complicated relationships ever. No one understands it, especially Jordan. They’re moving in together and for the life of Jordan she doesn’t understand why because Kate is almost never in town. She always has some excuse of why she has to run off and leave Sophie.

Looking at her phone, waiting for a reply Sophie sees the typing bubbles appear and then nothing. “Sigh.. don’t stress Soph you guys are fine. It’s different this time. It’s going to be ok.” A loud knock on the door pulls Sophie out of her thoughts. Checking the time she realizes the first person is early. She springs up and opens the door for a Ms. Ryan Wilder.

Sophie opens the door and freezes instantly, hoping that the younger woman doesn’t notice and she plants an unusually large smile on her face.

“Hi there, I’m Sophie Jordan’s sister and you must be Ryan. Come in it’s nice to meet you.”

Jordan promised to send profiles of each person so that Sophie had an idea of how to set up the lighting based on skin tone as well as height but she was so busy Sophie told her she would manage without them.

“Hi, it’s nice to meet you too. Jordan doesn’t stop talking about her big sis. I feel like I already know you. I know I’m a little early but I’ve been a nervous wreck since Jordan told me she organized this.” Ryan smiled shyly trying not to make eye contact with Sophie.

Ryan was short, with the prettiest brown skin tone Sophie had ever seen. Her big brown eyes glistened and Sophie found herself staring intently at the younger woman. Her hair was curly and soft and fell to the side of her face with a bounce that was hard to ignore. Plus as she walked past Sophie, she caught a whiff of the younger woman’s scent.

Damn she smelled good. What was that? Vanilla and honey? She couldn’t place the scent but it totally wrapped up her thoughts.

“That’s ok right? I’m sorry I didn’t mean to be so early.”

Sophie’s gaze broke as she smiled at Ryan to respond.

“No that’s completely ok, maybe you can rub some of that off on Jordan, that girl is never early for anything.”

Ryan chuckled and Sophie felt a churn in her stomach over the cute giggle the younger woman let out.

“Uhm, you can put your stuff over there. I’m all set up all you have to do is tell me what kind of music you’re into and we can go ahead and get this thing started.”

Sophie watched as Ryan nervously shuffled around her living room area before she took a seat on the stool in the middle of the lights.

“I usually have a playlist of my own but you seem nervous so I’m down to help you feel more comfortable and play what you like.” Sophie said.

“Are you sure? I don’t want to throw you off. I don’t know why I’m so nervous, I’m sorry.” But deep down Ryan knew why she was nervous. She had seen Sophie a few times with Jordan so when she mentioned her sister would be the one taking the headshots Ryan couldn’t help how nervous it made her. She had seen Sophie’s work and she’s hands down the best in the country. There’s a unique vulnerability in her work. From the simplest of things she captured there was a big story being told.

“Of course, unless you’re about to blaze some heavy metal up in here. Then I’m going to have to revoke your Bluetooth connection from my speaker.”

Ryan giggled again and Sophie tried super hard to compose herself but she couldn’t help but smile back at the younger woman.

“How about I just connect and we see if you have to throw me and my apple music out the door? Deal?” Ryan could feel her nervousness dropping but she couldn’t help but yell at herself in her head to buck up.

“Alright deal. Hold on one second, I assumed you would be short but not this short so let me make some adjustments to the lights while you connect.” Sophie smirked.

“Oh we’re taking short shots now are we! Alright bet Ms. Moore!”

Ryan wasn’t sure what it was about Sophie but she was so personable, she felt a calm reassuring energy that made it easy for her to let her guard down.

Sophie laughed as she began lowering and adjusting her current light set up. As she got close to Ryan it was hard to ignore how pretty she was and how good she smelled. It was like a breath of fresh air that Sophie didn’t know she needed.

As she adjusted the lights she’s giving herself a strong pep talk. Soph, 1. You have a girlfriend, she’s the love of your life and 2. This straight woman would not find it kind of you ogling at her like this. Get it together!

As the thought left Sophie’s brain the intro track to Jazmine Sullivan’s new album starts and Sophie glances at Ryan.

“What do you now about that? I’ve had that album on repeat since it dropped.” Sophie nodded.

“Oh yeah? She’s my favorite artist. I’m such a huge fan girl. Her music has really gotten me through some things.” Ryan said as she looked up at Sophie.

There was a sad look in Ryan’s eyes that Sophie didn’t miss after Ryan spoke. Her eyes fell deep like she was still hurting over something very recent.

Sophie immediately changed the direction of the convo. “Same girl. Look at you having taste in music. Looks like you passed the Bluetooth vibe check.” Sophie smiled.

Ryan smiled picking up on Sophie’s attempt to change the topic and appreciating the older woman for it. Ryan knew Sophie was at least 6 years older than her but damn she did not look it at all. She was tall and fit like she worked out often. Ryan caught herself watching the way the sweatpants hugged her ass but darting her eyes back up to her light brown eyes before Sophie could notice her ogling.

“Alright Ms. Wilder now I anticipate this is going to be quick and not require much effort from you.” Sophie showed Ryan the test shoot she snapped.

“Damn you’re really making me look good!” Ryan squealed

“How long have you been an Artist? Because that’s not even just taking photos, that’s art. You’re talented.” Ryan cooed.

There was a stare between the two of them before Sophie answered. Rubbing the back of her neck she replied feeling embarrassed by the compliment.

“Uh probably about 10 years or so.. I’m alright there’s a lot more I should be doing honestly but-“

Before Sophie could finish her sentence Ryan grabbed her arm and looked into her eyes. “Hey, don’t sell yourself short, you’re talented. I’ve done a lot of shoots and none of the photos straight out of the camera have ever looked so good.”

“Oh so that nervous act was all a ploy huh?” Sophie said trying to change the topic.

Ryan giggled. “No I actually do get really nervous when I have to take photos but you did a great job of making me comfortable.”

Sophie could still feel Ryan’s hands on her as she walked back in position to continue. She couldn’t help how smitten she was by the younger woman. Her laugh was intoxicatingly cute and her smile took up the entire room as it met her eyes.

The session went smoothly as they chatted about music, fashion, sports, plants, food, movies. It seemed like they were caught up in conversation for hours although it had only been a short space of time. The last frame was Ryan pulling her hair back in a messy bun to really show all of her face. The lingering looks that passed between the two of them made Sophie very confused but she just went with it. Ryan did say she gets nervous.

At the end of the session Sophie walked Ryan to the door still deep in conversation this time about a workshop Ryan was hosting soon. The younger woman seemed passionate about it and Sophie loved how excited she was talking about her own work.

“So this was nice, I’ll definitely be booking your services in the near future.” Ryan smiled as she thanked Sophie.

“Anytime, I’ll put these images on a google drive link and send to Jordan that way you can choose the ones you like the most, then I’ll edit and have those final images available for you.”

-pings-

Sophie pulls her phone from her sweatpants pocket and checks the message. It’s probably just Jordan telling her the next person is on their way.

Kate Kane. “I miss you too and I promise to call you later babe.

Sophie smiled as she read the message and tucked the phone back into her pocket.

“Hot date?” Ryan teased. The smile not quite meeting her eyes anymore. Before Sophie could answer there was a knock at the door.

The second actor had arrived. Sophie greeted him and welcomed him inside as she said goodbye to Ryan.

“This was fun I hope you enjoy the rest of your day whatever you get up to.” Sophie smiled as she watched the younger woman walk around the corner to the elevator. Not being able to help how sad she felt that her session was over.

The rest of the morning ran smoothly, there were two guys and one more woman that came through. All good fun. Sophie was glad she decided to do this, it’s the most fun she’d had shooting in a while. After everyone left she cleaned up then uploaded all the photos and sent them off to Jordan to distribute to everyone. Once those selections were made she would retouch the images and send back.

As she’s swinging her feet in her office chair looking at the boxes around her she couldn’t help but smile. Things with Kate had been tough over the past few years but they had significantly improved after the last massive fight they had a year ago. To tell the truth this relationship was a rollercoaster ride that had really hurt Sophie over and over again but she loved Kate so much she kept going back. She kept forgiving her. But all of the old shit was behind them and they could finally be happy and move toward the future. She opened her desk drawer and took out the engagement ring Kate had given her the month prior. She hadn’t even told Jordan she was engaged but she wanted to wait until the right time and share the news with Kate on her arm. The problem was that since then Kate had been out of town a lot for work but she would be back next week and they would share with Jordan then. Sophie couldn’t remember the last time she had been this happy. Finally everything was coming together for her, she couldn’t wait to spend the rest of her life with Kate.

She closed the engagement ring box and tucked it back into the drawer to check her messages. Her phone was on silent for the duration for the session after Ryan left. Sophie grabbed her phone to make sure Jordan confirmed getting the images before she moved from her work space to finish packing.

She unlocked her phone and as it vibrated in her hand her face immediately expressed a string of emotions. She wasn’t sure if to be sad or angry but her heart broke. Sadness filled her spirit and tears filled her eyes.

Kate Kane. “You left your purse here, if I didn’t know any better I’d say you wanted to CUM back again. I miss you already baby see you tonight.”

There was a photo of a purse right next to lingerie that accompanied the message.

Sophie’s heart sank as she re read the message over and over. She saw typing bubbles a few times and then they disappeared.

She immediately got numerous calls from Kate that she ignored as she tried to process what was happening. Pacing in her office all she could think was that she was packing up her entire life to start fresh with Kate. How could this be happening?

Sophie’s phone vibrated one more time.

Kate Kane. “Soph.. Baby please pickup. Fuck…….”

Chapter 2: This is Already Wild

Telling Jordan she didn’t feel well would only prompt her sister to come over regardless of how much she reassured her that she was fine. So it just made sense for Sophie to pull herself together and go to dinner. Since the message she received from Kate, she couldn’t focus on anything else. She turned off her phone after the 30th call from Kate and focused on the images from earlier. She was so bent on not thinking about Kate that she edited all of the photos without waiting for Jordan to send through the selections. By the time she tuned back on her phone, there were 60 voice messages waiting for her all of which she ignored.

Standing in the mirror looking at herself, Sophie took a deep breath.

“Tonight is about enjoying a nice dinner with Jay, nothing more nothing less.”

“You got this, Soph. You fucking got this.”

Sophie applied the last touches of her makeup before walking out of her ensuite bathroom to grab her phone and purse. As she walked pass the full length mirror she caught a glimpse of herself behind the sticky note which initially caught her attention.

For someone who was always behind the camera, Sophie definitely belonged in front of it. She would constantly shoo her photographer friends away from her when they begged her to be their muse for their own personal projects. As much as she would like to help, she hated having anyone take her photo. However, she had to admit, she looked damn good. Jordan picked a casual spot for dinner so she threw on a black high wasted jeans, a beige and black patterned blouse with ruffles and her black leather jacket over it. Her hair was tied back in a messy bun that really showed the beauty of her features.

She picked the note off the mirror and read it out loud.

“Always ask yourself, why am I so eager to accept this?”

She scrunched the note in a ball as water welled within her eyes. Things with Kate have always been up and down but she never imagined that Kate would cheat on her.

-Knock knock-

Sophie checked the time, Jordan’s early? Today really is an interesting day she smiled to herself but Jordan had her own key to Sophie’s apartment and always just barged in. Maybe her hands were full, she was always bringing something over to Sophie’s apartment.

She picked up her keys and headed for the door and was shocked when she opened it.

“Ryan Hi, what are you doing here?” Sophie couldn’t help the joy that she felt from seeing Ryan at her door. Although she wasn’t sure what she was doing there.

“Uhm, Hi, Jordan didn’t talk to you? She asked me to drop this off for her.”

Ryan pointed to a box with at least 100 basketball jerseys and a smaller box which seemed to have tickets inside of it.

I’m travelling tomorrow and she needs it urgently. She said she was going to dinner with you tonight so I could meet her here. I guess she neglected to give me the correct time, although I added 10 more minutes because as you said. She’s never early for anything.” Ryan laughed.

The two women locked eyes and Sophie cleared her throat to break the gaze.

“Trust Jordan, sometimes I don’t know how she manages to adult so effectively that girl is a conundrum sometimes.” Sophie laughed.

“Come in sorry, you can rest it over there. I can’t believe you lugged that box all the way up here, you could have called. Sophie lived at the very top of the building and her large apartment was pretty far from the lift. “My company number is pretty public.” Sophie smiled.

Ryan dropped the box in the corner of Sophie’s empty living room among all the other boxes that she didn’t notice earlier.

Flexing her arms she smiled at Sophie. “Woman don’t you see how strong these arms are, there’s nothing I couldn’t carry with these bad boys!”

Sophie laughed as Ryan leaned her arm toward her mouth and kissed it. Suddenly the calm comforting energy she felt from their session earlier settled in her spirit and it was just as warm as it was earlier.

“Easy there short stuff you’re barely taller than those boxes.”

“Oh more short jokes huh! Watch it now Moore, you don’t want none of this.” Ryan beamed.

Her smile was absolutely captivating. Sophie found herself getting lost in it and coupled with her big bright brown eyes, she was finding it hard to focus.

“You’re just a ball of fire aren’t you?” Sophie asked.

“Life is too hard to not enjoy yourself and be happy. I’m just being me but nice of you to notice.” She smiled.

“Speaking of noticing, looks like you’re heading out of town also?” Ryan asked as she pointed to the plethora of boxes around Sophie’s apartment.

Ryan immediately spotted the sadness in Sophie’s face and how glassy her eyes became.
Rubbing her hand at the back of her neck, Sophie looked down at the floor. “Not quite, I uhm.. Well..”

Before she realized it tears were streaming down her face. Ryan’s heart sank and she closed the distance between the two of them. She held Sophie’s hand with one hand and used her other hand to wipe the tears away and tilt her chin up enough to meet her face.

“Hey I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to pry.”

Through the sadness Sophie felt the churn in her stomach as Ryan held her hand and looked into her eyes. What the fuck was happening to her. Why was this woman the center of her comfort right now.

Ryan pulled her into a hug and rubbed her back.

“Hey it’s ok, whatever it is. It’s going to be ok.” Ryan said softly.

Sophie pulled out of the hug feeling way too vulnerable in front of Ryan.

“No I’m sorry you had to see that.” Sophie smiled shyly.

Ryan held both of her hands and looked at Sophie. “Don’t you ever apologize for feeling your feelings.”

Before Sophie could answer there was a knock at the door and then keys jingling on the other side as the door was unlocked and opened.

Sophie froze and then instantaneously pulled her hands from Ryan’s grasp.

“Who the fuck is this?” Kate spat angrily.

Sophie didn’t respond. She looked at Ryan, took her hand and led her to the door.

“Sophie! I’m talking to you ,who the fuck is this and where are you going?” Kate was getting angrier.

Sophie still doesn’t respond as she grabs her phone and purse.

Kate quickly shuffles in front of the two women and blocks their path to the door.

Sophie takes a deep breath, glances at Kate and then looks down at Ryan.

“To answer your question, I’m packed because I WAS supposed to be moving in with my girlfriend after she got back from her trip.”

“Soph..” Kate interjects

Sophie doesn’t look at Kate as she continues talking to Ryan.

“A trip she was supposed to be back from next week so why is she back so early right?

Sophie pulls out her phone and gives it to Ryan so that she could read the message from earlier.

“Looks like she should be tongue deep in whoever this bitch is right about now right?”

Ryan’s heart broke for Sophie and anger rose in her for Kate.

“Soph..” Kate reached for Sophie’s hand and Sophie recoiled.

Ryan tuged Sophie’s hand, “let’s get out of here.” Sophie wasn’t sure if she meant to the restaurant to meet Jordan or elsewhere but she didn’t want to be in the same room as Kate.

“Hey look, I don’t know who you are but can you leave and mind your business? I’m trying to talk to my girlfriend.” Kate snarled.

Normally Ryan wouldn’t get in the middle of people’s relationship spats but she for one hated a cheater and maybe her own trauma was making her have Sophie’s back. Also, who the fuck would cheat on this woman.

“From the looks of it you mean ex-girlfriend.” Ryan raised her eyebrow at Kate.

“Sophie do you want to leave?” Ryan asked.

“Yes, let’s get out of here.”

Ryan walks by Kate and Sophie followed behind her. As soon as she’s soon out the door. Kate grabs her hand eyes pleading with her to stay.

“Soph… please, it’s not what you think.”

“What’s not what she thinks?” Jordan looks pissed as she stands in the doorway.

Water streams down Sophie’s face as she looks at Kate. Sophie spoke softly as her voice broke.

“Seriously Kate? After 7 years that’s what I get? It’s not what I think? That’s what I’m worth to you? Not even the truth with your chest?”

Sophie pulled her hand from Kate’s grasp and walked out the door continuing behind Ryan.

Jordan is still standing in the door glaring at Kate.

“Come on Jordan, I promise you she’s not worth it I wish I realized that sooner.” Sophie said.

Jordan gave Kate a death stare, eyes only leaving her until she’s out of her sight as she walks with the others to the elevator lift.

They get off the elevator in the building’s low level car park and without even thinking about it, Sophie hops into her own car and drives off after apologizing profusely to Ryan. She told Jordan she loved her but she just couldn’t do dinner and needed some time to clear her head.

Ryan looked at Jordan. “I know she said she needed space but shouldn’t we go after her? I don’t think she should be alone right now Jay.”

Jordan looked at Ryan seeing the concern on her face. “I know my sister better than anyone, she needs this, I’m probably going to wake up to her snuggled in my bed with me.”

She smiled at Ryan giving her a reassuring look that Ryan accepted.

“Would it be ok if you gave me her number? I know I’m leaving in the morning for my audition but I’d feel better if I could at least check in on her.” Ryan smiled shyly.

“Of course, just don’t expect too much. If my sister was a wall she would be the great wall of China. Over the years she’s gotten better but I can only imagine how this is going to stuff her back into herself” Jordan sighed.

Both women knew Kate wouldn’t leave until the coast was clear, so they chatted for a couple more mins so that Jordan could give Ryan Sophie’s contact details. That girl went all out, giving Ryan both business and personal details. Most of the information Sophie didn’t share with just anyone. They hugged goodbye and Jordan wished Ryan well on her audition before they both drove off. Jordan decided she would pick up the box from Sophie’s the next morning when the coast was clear.

Jazmine Sullivan is blazing and Sophie is speeding down the highway with every single thought possible bouncing around her head. The more she gassed the louder she raised the music.

"You said that I've been actin’ different, yeah
Funny how I finally flipped the script on you
When you the one who's double-dippin', yeah
You so sloppy, how I caught you slippin’ up"

Sophie banged her hands on the steering wheel with tears in streaming down her face. She attempted to close her eyes wanting the pain to completely end but as soon as she closeed her eyes a notification alert plays over the music twice. She checks the display screen in her car.

Unknown. “Hey I got your number from Jordan, I hope that’s ok. If you want some alone time I have a cabin at this address. The keys are in the security box and this is the code.” – Ryan

Sophie slowed down and pulled off the road. Realizing what she was about to do and immediately bust into bigger tears. She took a deep breath and responded to Ryan’s message.

Sophie Moore. “You don’t know it but you literally just saved my life. Thank you. I’m going to head there now.”

Ryan immediately responded. Ryan Wilder. “Anytime Soph. Take care of yourself!”

Sophie took a deep breath. Put the coordinates into her GPS and made her way to what seemed like an hour’s drive up north.

“Things are bad but you got this Soph, you got this babe.” Sophie turned up the music and started to process her thoughts.

Notes:

If there's one thing women will always have is the audacity. Poor Soph, she deserves better. Hopefully she finds it. :)

Chapter 3: The Morning After

Sophie woke up with puffy eyes and a tear stained pillow. The cabin Ryan sent her coordinates to was really easy to find. It looked like it was beautiful on the outside but Sophie was too upset to take in anything besides her pain. She got inside, took off her clothes and climbed into the king sized bed upstairs in the cabin. Ryan didn’t give her any instructions on what was off limits so Sophie just navigated on her own.

When she got there she texted Jordan that she was ok and would be around to see her in a few days. After that she didn’t think a text was enough so she called Ryan hoping to just get her voicemail. She had made a few stops for wine but to her surprise there were so many bottles and the place was well stocked with food. Did Ryan live here or did she know Sophie would have an impending crisis soon after they met.

When Ryan answered on the first ring it took Sophie by surprise.

“Hey.. I’m sorry I didn’t mean to wake you. I know you have an early flight in the morning” Sophie said softly.

“I can never sleep before a big audition so you didn’t wake me.” Ryan reassured her.

“Oh damn. I can’t believe I added so much stress to your life right before something major. I’m sorry. We just met and I don’t know if I deserve how nice you’re being to me.” Sophie’s voice broke as the words left her mouth.

“Hey, stop that. You’re always good with me. If I was in the position you were in. I’d hope someone could offer safety and solace to me if that’s what I needed.”

A smile etched onto Sophie’s face. Ryan’s voice was soft and sweet. It was like music to her ears the way her voice calmed her.

“Sigh. Either way I just wanted to say thank you for this. This was.. I can’t thank you enough and I’m terribly sorry for tonight I -”

Before Sophie could finish, Ryan interjected.

“Sophie please stop apologizing it’s alright. I promise you it is. I’m happy to do this. We’re officially friends now and this is what you do for your friends babe.”

Sophie knew she was wrong to put more than was there behind Ryan’s words but the way she said babe made Sophie’s stomach churn.

“Well thank you. I owe you Wilder, big time.” Sophie said.

“Oh I plan to exploit that by getting in front of your camera every chance I get. You’re gonna have to beg me to stop asking you for photos” Ryan laughed.

Sophie’s stomach was doing back flips at the sound of Ryan’s giggle. Who was this woman and in the midst of her hurt how was she able to get under her skin in this way.

“All the photos you want Wilder. I got you.” I hope the nerves get better.” Sophie said softly knowing that Ryan was probably nervous.

“Knowing you got there safely was a big help. Thanks for calling. Enjoy the place and take all the time you need. “

After they hung up Sophie turned off her phone and tossed it across the large bed. The only thing she remembered was crying profusely looking at the message from Kate. While drinking wine straight from the bottle. By midnight the bottle was empty and she was fast asleep.
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Sitting up on the bed, Sophie immediately felt a pounding in her head. She looked around the room. It was a sight to see. The curtains were still drawn but her eyes darted around the ridiculously large room. She hadn’t noticed until now but the room smelled much like Ryan did. She inhaled deeply and then got out of bed and walked over to the curtains to open them. Realizing they wouldn’t budge she glanced to the corner looking for a switch realizing they were electronic.

“Why do I suddenly feel like I’m at Luke’s house.” Sophie whispered. Luke was Sophie’s best friend. He was the CEO of a multimillion, soon to be billion dollar tech company that he started in his late teens. He was the smartest person Sophie knew.

She remembered how fancy the security box was to access the key to the Cabin. The only other home she’d been at that was crazy tech savvy was Luke’s house. She turned around looking frustrated and spotted a huge square device that could only be a remote control interface. She picked it up and it was the same one Luke had which made it easy to understand. She pressed a few buttons and the curtains drew from the middle ending at both sides of the room. It was a beautiful sight. The windows were large and clear displaying a breathtakingly stunning view of the mountains and trees in the distance with a few other houses in the midst.

Sophie stood in awe and as light filled the room her eyes darting around enthusiastically taking it all in. There were plants that looked well taken care of. A corner with a yoga mat, blocks, candles and some other crystals and emblems Sophie didn’t quite understand but was somehow drawn to. The entire room was calming, the earth toned décor was filled with beautiful pieces of art that Sophie couldn’t stop looking at. As she walked around and took in the room she came across a piece of art tucked in the corner of the room covered with a white cloth. Ryan didn’t say anything was off limits, it wouldn’t hurt to look. Ryan was already being generously kind to her so Sophie thought it best not to invade her privacy in that way. She ignored the urge to uncover it and walked toward the patio door.

“More plants Wilder.” Sophie smiled as she ran her fingers over the petals of a sunflower. Sophie loved sunflowers, they have always been her favourite flower. She smiled again as she remembered the really close sunflower portrait she took at the sunflower meadow in England last year. She thought after editing it, that it would make a good piece for her upcoming gallery show but maybe it would make a good thank you gift for Ryan for this kind gesture.

Putting her hands on the railing of the balcony Sophie closed her eyes and inhaled deeply before walking back inside and grabbing her phone. She took another deep breath before turning it on. Before it was even on properly the notifications started flooding her phone. 187 voice messages, and 150 unread messages. There were messages from Jordan, Luke and Mary.

What caught her attention was the string of messages from Kate. The majority of the messages were from her chat. Sophie decided that she wasn’t dealing with that right now and kept scrolling. There was one message from Ryan.

Ryan Wilder. “Sophie Badass Moore. I absolutely LOVE these shots. My manager does as well! She apparently got them from Jordan yesterday. I’m sending you this yammer (yammer means overly excessive rant in case you’re too old to know to know that.”

Sophie dropped down on the bed laying on her back and smiled as she read Ryan’s message.

“This particular audition was a pretty big deal, they usually pull up your photo on a monitor as you audition. I walk into the room and I see a Sophie Moore original. I thought that the raw images were good but damn girl! You did that! Got me out here looking like a snack. Not only did the executives, writers and show runners love the photo, they also loved my audition. I got the part! That’s the first time I’ve ever gotten a call back within the same day that wasn’t to tell me I either had made it to the next round or they would be going in a different direction. My manager loves you, she wants us to work together more if you’re ok with that. She’s been trying to find a fit to revamp my image for months now. So totally let me know. Either way I’m hoping this puts a smile on your face. You’re so fucking talented, no honestly Soph. You’re everything! Thank you again.”

There it was again, that churn in Sophie’s stomach. In the midst of everything going on Ryan was somehow the sunshine Sophie needed. If she was honest, she was going to spend the day drinking and crying. It was Monday which she usually took off so day drinking and drowning her feelings was the only thing on the agenda.

However, Ryan’s message lit a creative fire up under her the only problem was that this trip was not planned so she didn’t have her MacBook or her external drive with her. So much for wanting to drown herself in work.

Suddenly the glass window directly in front of the bed brought up a video of Jordan outside the door and a telecommunication started.

“Jordan Alexis Moore is at the door, would you like to grant her access?”

“Oh wow so I am at Luke’s house,” Sophie muttered as she got up and grabbed the remote control.

“Yes.”

“Access granted, Ms. Moore.” Sophie looked puzzled. “What in the hell?!”

Jordan came running up the stairs and threw herself into Sophie’s arms hugging her and knocking her onto the bed.

“You’ll see me in a few days? Girl what, the last time you told me that you fled the country for a year.” Jordan screamed.

“First of all inside voice, secondly how did you know I was here.” Sophie raised an eyebrow.

“Now don’t be mad at me or Luke but I had him track your phone. When he gave me the location I knew exactly where it was. I’ve been here a few times to housesit for Ryan.” Jordan said.

“I was worried Soph.. and judging from the way Kate has been harassing me for your whereabouts I knew it had to be pretty big.” Jordan looked sad.

“Hey, I’m never leaving you again.” Sophie knew how hard it was on Jordan when she fled the country all of last year. She got into a pretty big fight with her parents which spun her into a really bad depression. She needed a different environment and to figure some things out.

“How about I promise to always tell you everything if you never track me down like that again?” Sophie smiled.

“Just don’t be mad at Luke, I uh kinda hustled him.” Jordan said as she sat up on the bed.

Sophie knew Luke didn’t stand a chance, Jordan was pretty persistent when she wanted something and getting in her way was not an option.

“Poor Luke,” Sophie said. “I’m not sure if to be mad at him or to apologize.” She laughed.

She nudged Jordan. “I’m sorry about last night, I just needed to clear my head.”

“I know Soph, you don’t need to apologize, I didn’t come all the way over here to bombard you. I’m here for you when you’re ready to talk.” Jordan said.

“I figured you’d be here for a few days so I collected some things for you when I picked up the box Ryan left last night.” Jordan pointed to the duffle she dumped at the door before she hugged Sophie.

“Your MacBook, iPad and hard drives are in there and I brought some camera stuff I just in case the spirit moves you to get creative. As well as clothes, which was a task considering you had most of them already packed up.”

Sophie sat up as her eyes got glassy and she pulled Jordan into a hug. “Thank you little girl, you’re my favourite sister you know that?” Sophie pulled away and kissed Jordan on the cheek.

“I’m your only sister and I’m grown!” Jordan protested.

“Sure you are.” Sophie smiled as Jordan pulled her into a hug.

“So wait a minute, how close exactly are you with Ryan. Has to be pretty close if you housesit all of this for her.” Sophie outstretched her arms and gestured to the house.
“She must really trust you, I’ve never heard you mention her.” Sophie looked at Jordan curiously.

“Well… had you accepted any of my invitations to The Hold Up, you would have met her by now.”

When Sophie got back from England there was a new bar in town. Every time Jordan tried to get Sophie out, she was too busy held up in her studio working on her gallery show pieces.

“Ryan is the best, funny enough I met her the day you left the country. I’ve never told you this but this isn’t the first time I’ve gotten Luke to track you.” She looked at Sophie with an apologetic sad look in her eyes.

“When he told me, I rushed to the airport to either stop you or go with you but the plane was already moving off.” A sadness filled Jordan as Sophie watched her speaking.

“As I was leaving with snot filled tears, I bumped into Ryan and knocked her vegan cupcakes out of her hands.” Jordan laughed as she remembered their introduction.

“Ryan is a sweetheart but tip number one? Never get in between that girl and her treats.”

“After screaming What the FUCK! Viciously at me. She noticed that I was crying and immediately came to my support.”

Ryan had literally picked Jordan up. She was way too nice of a stranger. She took Jordan to the airport bar and bought her all the drinks they could manage while they got to know each other. Ryan had just returned from a yoga retreat she was at for 6 months in Thailand and she told Jordan all about it. Ryan’s driver brought them back to the cabin and they remained close ever since. Ryan is the only one who really knows how much Sophie being gone for a year affected Jordan.

Sadness filled Sophie’s eyes. “Jay.. I’m sorry I know I can’t go back and change the past but I’m here now and I promise your big sis is always going to be here.”

“I know Soph, I want you to stop feeling guilty, I meant it when I said I understand and I forgive you. Let’s move on.” Jordan stood up and glanced around.

“Uh I know Ryan is letting you crash here but did she specifically tell you to crash in her bed?” Jordan had a sly grin on her face.

Sophie stood up off the bed looking mortified. “Oh shit.. I didn’t mean to. I just came in upset and walked right in here. My brain was so scattered I didn’t even think to look around. Shit”

“Girl calm down, you’re always wound so tight. What are you gonna do? Go back in time and sleep in another room.” Jordan laughed.

“Come on, let me show you around. You can move into one of the guest rooms later. Phillipe will be here soon. Ou I’m so getting those vegan pancakes he makes for Ryan.” Jordan squealed.
“Phillipe? Who?” Sophie asked. Suddenly remembering the text she got from Ryan while she was more than half way through a bottle of Cabernet.

Ryan Wilder. “My Butler Phillipe will be around in the morning. He knows you’re there. Sorry I forgot to mention I hope that’s ok. If you need anything he will be more than happy to assist you.”

Phillipe came prepared to make lots of breakfast options not knowing what the older woman would prefer. “How’s Maddie doing?” Jordan asked Phillipe as she sat on one of the bar stools in the kitchen waiting for Sophie to come down from her shower. Jordan absolutely loved Phillipe he was such a beautiful and kind man. He was at least 6’7, dark chocolate skin with a beard that Jordan always swooned over. He kept his hair cut short with a fade and loved him a button down that showed his muscular chest and layered neck jewellery. His jeans always hung off his waist slightly and Jordan always found herself trying to sneak peaks at his v line whenever he raised his arms. The man was fine for his age, he was 38 years old but could pass for a strong 27. Every time Jordan saw Phillipe she remembered the many dreams she’s had with him as the main man in her life but she could never find the courage to ask him out on a date. He also had never asked her so she figured he wasn’t interested so she always kept it cute and just enjoyed the little flirt here and there.

“She’s good but you can ask her yourself. Her mom is dropping her off soon We’re going hiking today.” Phillipe smiled as the words left his sultry lips and voice.

Maddison was Phillipe’s 7 year old daughter who he shared joint custody of with his ex-wife Melody.

“You should come with us when you have some free time. I think you’d really love the view overlooking the lake.” He said as he walked over to the table placing a stack of pancakes down. A Kitchen towel was flung over his shoulder, he walked by Jordan and she couldn’t help but mutter. Damn fine.”

“What was that?” Phillipe cocked an eyebrow Jordan’s way but she had already turned back to facing her pancakes.

“Oh, nothing. Jordan said with a mouthful of panckes.

Phillipe shook his head, and pretended he didn’t hear Jordan not wanting to make her any more embarrassed. “Maddie keeps pressing me to ask.. She asks about you all the time.” He continued rubbing the back of his head shyly but Jordan didn’t notice.

Jordan’s face saddened, from where she sat Phillipe was only asking because Maddie wanted her there not because he wanted to spend time with her.

“Uh.. I’ll see. Things have been really busy at the Community Centre but I’ll let you know.”

Jordan was already eating the pancakes while she spoke to Phillipe. She turned around on the stool to face him and he smiled deeply at her. She loved the way it always met his eyes when he smiled at her.

“What?” She asks

Phillipe closed the space between them, placing his hand on the side of Jordan’s face then wiping syrup from the corner her mouth with this thumb. His eyes never leaving hers as he sucked the syrup off of his finger. Jordan’s stomach was doing back flips as they air left the room and the gaze between them remained.

Sophie had been standing at the corner of the room right before Phillipe invited Jordan hiking with Maddison. She was on her way down when she got a call from Kate that she contemplated answering before she sent it to voicemail. The call reminded her of everything she was trying to forget until she walked in and saw the way her sister and Phillipe were hot for each other.

“ehhmmmmm” Sophie cleared her throat before she walked into the room. She looked directly at Jordan and smiled before walking toward them and greeting Phillipe.

“Hi you must be Phillipe, it’s nice to meet you I’m Sophie.” Sophie held out her hand and shook Phillipe’s.

“Finally, I get to meet the notorious big sister. You’re even more beautiful in person.” Phillipe smiled.

Sophie had a confused look on her face as she glanced to Jordan.

“Jordan talks about you all the time, I hope I can give my daughter a sister that she loves as much as Jordan loves you.” Phillipe walked back to the kitchen packing up the last of the dishes.

“Since she found out Jordan has a big sister she doesn’t stop nagging me to find a girlfriend so she can be a big sister.” He laughed. “As she puts it. It won’t be the same because she will be the big sister but she’ll be kinda like Jordan.” Phillipe said as he and Jordan locked eyes.

Sophie had never heard Jordan mention anyone she was remotely interested in. As far as she was concerned, Jordan got hers when she felt like it and was mostly focused on work. She remembers the boy toy she had that told her he couldn’t see her anymore because he felt like a piece of meat. Sophie smiled to herself remembering Jordan ranting to her about it over drinks.

“Well it’s nice to meet you, maybe you should get on that.” She gave Phillipe a smile as she glanced to Jordan. It wasn’t lost on Sophie how attractive he was. He was stinking hot and absolutely Jordan’s type.

“Well I’m going to leave you ladies to it but I’m available if you need me for anything.” He looked at Sophie and smiled and then glanced at Jordan before leaving the room.

“Now now now. You’re going to have to spill and big spill because who is that and why were you guys eye fucking each other in front of me. I don’t think I’ve ever seen you like this Jay. Do you like him? Sophie teased.

“Gosh Soph can you wait until he leaves the room properly. Maybe I do, but I don’t think he’s interested in more than a flirt every now and again so I’m just enjoying what he’s offering.” Jordan shrugged her shoulders.

“Jay, you’re an amazing woman. You have got to stop downplaying what you have to offer.” Sophie smiled at her.

“Anyhow, there’s nothing to talk about there. So what do you want to do today besides get in my business.” Jordan rolled her eyes.

“Seriously? That can come from anyone but you. You literally tracked my phone to find me here. Plus, you are my business.”

Sophie looked around the kitchen and noticed the spread of food. In here smells good, so come sit and tell me all about that chocolate drop who has you blushing every time I mention him.”

Jordan rolled her eyes as she walked toward the table with her plate in one hand and half a pancake in the other.

“Fine, but no teasing and absolutely no ouuing and ahhin.” Jordan said as she gave Sophie a look.

“I can’t promise you that but I’ll try.” Sophie looked excited for the distraction and to spend time with Jordan. This wasn’t planned but it was exactly what she needed.

It reminded her of when they were little. Jordan would always sense when Sophie was stressed out and she would come lay on her bed and get her caught up in conversation. Before Sophie knew it she was laughing and the stress on her shoulders always seemed easier to carry. Jordan would fall asleep in her bed and Sophie would always kiss her and whisper. “Thank you baby sis, I love you.”

The two spent the rest of the morning talking and having a good laugh at Jordan’s expense before they decided that they both would join Phillipe and Maddison on their hike. She had mentioned to Jordan that she overhead the conversation and was not going to miss a front row seat to seeing Jordan and Phillipe together. Plus it gave Sophie the chance to find out more about him seeing how she knew Jordan was definitely interested.

-ping-

Sophie checked her phone.

Ryan Wilder. “Looks like someone’s morning has improved. You guys are so cute.”

The message was followed by a photo of Jordan and Sophie sitting at the table mid laugh that only Phillipe could have taken.

Sophie Moore. “It improved from the time I got your message earlier if I’m honest, but Jordan has been a sweet surprise. Plus we’re heading for a hike with Phillipe and Maddison soon.”

Ryan Wilder. “Oh I’m jealous! You guys will have to come back so I can go next time.”

Sophie Moore. “I’d like that especially cause judging from the Cabin that’s not so much a Cabin and the butler. There’s a lot to know about my new friend.”

Ryan Wilder. “I’m looking forward to it Moore. Have a great time, call me later if you feel like chatting. I’ve got a number of interviews today but then I’m free tonight. I’ll probably just be at the hotel watching Netflix. Maybe we can watch party something?.”

Sophie Moore. “I’d like that, talk to you later Wilder and go kick ass.”

Sophie didn’t realize how long she had been smiling before Jordan tapped her on her shoulder. “Who was that?” Jordan raised an eyebrow as she tried to take a peek into Sophie’s phone.

“Nobody, mind your business.” Sophie said as she pulled her phone away and pushed it into her pocket.

“I am… minding my business so who...” Before Jordan could finish Maddison came darting into the room and threw herself into Jordan’s arms.

“Jordannnnnn!!!! I’ve missed you so so so so much!!” She squealed.

Sophie couldn’t help but smile at the sweet moment taking place. Maddison had a rich chocolate tone like her dad with long brown hair that was braided into single plaits and dropped down her small frame. Her big light brown eyes were just like Sophie’s and they glistened as the light in the room hit them from the window. Her dimples were big and deep as she smiled and Sophie could only swoon at the sweet child.

“I missed you too Maddie and guess what I want you to meet someone.” Jordan glanced over her shoulder to Sophie.

“This is my big sister Sophie that I’m always telling you about.”

“Hi Ms. Sophie, you’re really tall and really pretty just like Jordan. No wonder you guys are sisters!” She smiled.

“It’s nice to meet you too Maddison and you’re beautiful yourself. Also you can just call me Sophie.” Sophie smiled as she walked toward Maddison and shook her little hand.

“Uhm, maybe if I get to know you better first because I don’t know you all that well so it’s polite to call you Ms. Sophie for now.” Maddison looked matter of fact.

Sophie laughed a bit. “Very well then I’m going to have to make sure you know me really well while we’re on the hike together. So by the time we’re back, I’m just Sophie. Deal?”

Maddison shook Sophie’s hand to confirm the deal between the two of them before doing a double take.

“Wait you’re coming on the hike? Jordan does that mean you’re coming too?” Maddison looked excited as Jordan shook her head to confirm that she was coming as well.

“DADDDDYYYY Jordan and Ms. Sophie are both coming with us!” Maddison ran to her dad screaming.

“Yes they are nugget.” Phillipe smiled down at Maddison and looked at Jordan and Sophie.

“Ladies all ready to go?” Phillipe asked while picking up Maddison in his arms.

“Yes please.” Jordan replied. Sophie looked at her with a teasing statement on her lips but decided not to say anything. Sophie grabbed her bag with her camera and the supplies she needed and they were all out the door. As they walked through she whispered to Jordan “Yes please huh, who are you and where is my baby sister?” Sophie teased.

“Shut up.” Jordan said embarrassingly. “Not a chance, oh and thank you baby sis. I love you.” Sophie smiled and hooked her arm into Jordan’s as they made their way toward the car. All she could think was, Ryan Wilder. All of this is because of Ryan Wilder.

Notes:

I’ve been enjoying writing this. Should I continue? Let me know in the comments!

Chapter 4: So What's Next?

The hike with Phillipe, Maddison and Jordan was a breath of fresh air. Sophie got some amazing photos during the trail and even spotted some interesting spots that Phillipe himself had never noticed. The view overlooking the lake was to die for. Sophie had never experienced anything like it. Growing up in the city didn’t afford her many country moments to swoon over. She always thought she had to travel to experience such things not knowing they existed an hour away from her apartment. The hike really gave Sophie the space to think about what she was going to do about Kate, her art, just her life on a whole. It really gave her a whole new perspective. Plus, it was added fun and sweetness capturing Maddie every time she jumped in front of Sophie’s lens with a cute pose. She also caught many candid photos of Jordan and Phillipe in very intimate moments that also included Maddison. Some of them Maddison quietly found her and told her to take once she spotted them close enough to almost kiss at one point. At this point the only people stopping Jordan and Phillipe from giving it a shot was Jordan and Phillipe so Sophie decided that she wasn’t going to interfere. During the hike she had learned a lot about Phillipe and although he was a bit older, she would happily welcome him into her life if either of them ever made a move.

Once they got back to the house Phillipe and Maddie said goodbye to the women as Maddie had swim training. Sophie learned that at just 7 years old she held the country’s national record in three events for the age group above her. The 100m freestyle, butterfly and breaststroke. She was a speedy little thing in the water.

“I had a really fun time Sophie, I can’t wait to see the photos you took.” Maddie winked at Sophie and then gave her a huge smile.

Jordan and Phillipe looked between each other and then looked at Sophie. “Hey she took lots of photos, they’re the cutest! Right Maddie?” Sophie smiled.

“Yeah they’re sooooooooooo cute!”

Phillipe laughed and said bye to the women as they made their way back into the house.

As they got inside Sophie turned to Jordan “Hey Jay, can we talk?” Jordan noticed the hesitant sadness in Sophie’s face as she asked.

“Sure sis, how about we have some tea out in the garden?” Jordan smiled sweetly.

Before they could sit securely amongst the fruit trees and flowers Sophie began. “Look, I know you don’t like Kate and I’m not sharing any of this for you to pick up fire rage for me, I’m not. Because if I’m real with myself, I have to be honest about the role I’ve played in my own suffering in my relationship with Kate.” Sophie said softly.

“Soph, it’s not that I don’t like Kate. I think that she’s giving, kind, and very generous but when it comes to you,” Jordan’s voice trailed off as she spoke.

“She’s never treated you like she’s supposed to. She’s always in make up with Sophie mode because she’s never considerate of you. That’s hard to watch as a sister Soph.” Jordan said.

“I know Jay, I know.” Sophie sighed.

“Like do you remember when you were dog sick with pneumonia. Kate popped in for like 2 hours and then said she had a really important meeting in Boston and left. We both knew that you would have cancelled your entire life and took care of her. Not that I wasn’t happy to be there for my big sis but that was vile of her Soph.” Jordan said angrily.

“I know Jordan the list is never ending.” Sophie said as she picked up her tea and took a sip.

Jordan looked intently at Sophie. “Then I don’t understand what you mean by the role you played in your own suffering. All I have seen you be is a sweet, loving, caring and the best fricking girlfriend to her so what exactly am I missing Soph?!”

Sophie could feel her baby sis getting angrier as they spoke. “What you said there is a good example sis. Kate has always shown me who she is. At every turn she wrongs me and I forgive her. I believe her when she says that things are going to change that she’ll be more supportive, that she’ll show up for me. That she’ll make me a priority. It’s also on me for giving her the benefit of the doubt for this long.” Sophie said with tears in her eyes.

“Soph.. I’m sorry I didn’t mean to yell. It’s just that I want the best for you. You deserve the world. There’s nobody in this world that has your heart, your kindness, your compassion. You would give a stranger the shirt off of your back and I love that about my big sis. But you need someone around who would take theirs off and give you after giving yourself to the world like that every day.” Jordan smiled.

“I understand all of that so what’s different this time? Is this where you tell me in all of that you love her so you’re going to try to make it work because I would so throw this good honey lavender tea on you.” Jordan looked down at her cup of tea and then looked at Sophie.

Sophie wiped her tears and laughed, “why is your first instinct always violence?” From the time Jordan could speak she was always at Sophie’s defence. You couldn’t say anything about her big sis. Sophie’s friends always joked that Jordan was the Solange to her Beyoncè and you should never mess with Beyoncè unless you want to answer to Solange.

“No Jay it’s not. Because… Well. It’s gone way too far now. I can’t even stomach this one.” Sophie took out her phone and handed it to Jordan. At this point they were so many unread messages from Kate that Sophie neglected to read. She scrolled pass them all and showed Jordan the message that started it all.

“I haven’t read any of the other messages but I got this right after I sent you the photos yesterday.” Sophie held her head down and looked at her hands after she handed Jordan her phone.

“What in the fuck! Is she for real?” Jordan flew out of her seat immediately.

“Jay sit and calm down.” Sophie pleaded.

“Calm down?! This is why she’s always away isn’t it? I knew something wasn’t right. Who the fuck has all those meetings every month?!” Jordan was livid and through the anger Sophie saw the pain in her eyes.

Sophie took a deep breath and stood up taking Jordan’s hands into hers and looked at her. “Listen to me, promise me that you won’t do anything stupid Jay.” Sophie pleaded.

Jordan looks away with anger in her face.

“Jordan Alexis Moore, promise me right now or we’re not continuing this conversation.” Sophie begged.

“Fine, you have my word.” Both women sat back down as Sophie continued. “I’m totally done with Kate, even if I’m alone for the rest of my life and never find someone. I’d rather be alone than be played with like that. Especially by someone who proposed to me and asked me to marry them.” Sophie stopped to get Jordan’s reaction. Jordan’s mouth was open in shock as Sophie kept taking. “We were going to tell you next week when she came back from her trip. So even though you’re mad, I’m glad that I found out before I got married because I don’t know what I would have done then.” Sophie’s voice trailed off.

Jordan was silent after she closed her mouth and just stared at Sophie. “Jay can you say something please?”

Jordan got up, pulled Sophie out of her seat and hugged her big sis long and hard but yet soft. “I love you so so much Soph. I’m sorry you had to go through this and I’m going to be there for you in the best ways I can. You want to stone that bitch? I’m your girl. You want to slash her tires? I’m on it. You want to get someone to beat the shit out of her? I know someone who can do that too.” Jordan smiled against Sophie’s shoulder.

“How about you just help me find a really good therapist? I don’t want to bottle this up and I for sure don’t want to run away. I want to really face this head on so I can move forward in the healthiest way possible.” Sophie said while hugging Jordan.

“I got you sis but if it comes down to it, you know I got your back if you choose any of those options. I’d do anything for you.” Jordan pulled away and wiped Sophie’s tears while Sophie wiped hers.

Sophie wanted to tell Jordan that last night on the drive after leaving her apartment she for a second almost took her own life but it seemed like something better suited for therapy than to lay on her baby sister. For now, Jordan knew all she needed to.

“I actually have perfect therapist recommendations for you and honestly Soph, I hope you go for more than just Kate.” Jordan smiled and Sophie knew that Jordan understood that there was so much more to unpack than just her relationship with Kate.

“So what now?” Jordan asked as she sat back down and sipped her tea.

“Well, I think I’m still going to move. I’ve wanted to for a while anyway, I feel like I’ve outgrown that place. Plus, I can most definitely afford to buy a house. Maybe I should look into that. Something just for me with my baby sis in mind.” Sophie smiled and then the smile left her lips. “That place has so many memories of Kate and I really don’t want to be feeling her presence in every room in walk into. It’s definitely time to go.” Sophie nodded.

“Well I’m proud of you Soph, I know it’s not going to be easy but if anyone can do it it’s you!”

As soon as the words left Jordan’s lips she felt light drops of rain. “Uh oh no, let’s head inside I’m not in the mood to wash this hair today” Sophie said.

“That’s not necessary, look at the sky it looks like a just a pass over and I’m enjoying hanging out here with you.” Jordan stopped Sophie before she could start making her way inside.

“While that may be true, I don’t want to get wet waiting for it to pass by.” Sophie look at Jordan annoyed.

Jordan rolled her eyes and yelled. “Mack, can you raise the glass please?”

“Sure thing Jordan.”

Sophie watched as a glass structure raised up from the ground and surrounded the entire garden area with her and Jordan inside. It was beautiful the way the rain fell on the glass. “What in the hell?” Sophie looked at Jordan.

“I told you, I housesit sometimes for Ryan.” Jordan smiled.

“No honestly, when I was in the bedroom that thing came on, the only reason I knew how to open the curtains and let you inside was because the remote looked just like the one at Luke’s house.” Sophie mentioned.

“Oh yeah, all of this is Luke’s design.” Jordan looked at Sophie and noticed she was waiting for more information.

“What?” Jordan asked with a smile.

“So let me get this straight. Ryan is your friend. So good a friend to where you’re around enough to fall in love with her hot butler and house sit for her. Additionally, my best friend clearly also knows her too. Like a why does it feel like I’ve just escaped from living in a bunker and come out to find that life has changed. It’s like I have to reintroduce myself to society.” Sophie said sadly.

“Why are you always so dramatic, you don’t know one person and you’re behaving like the world is ending.” Jordan laughed.

“So how does Ryan know Luke?” Sophie asked curiously trying to hide that smile on her face.

“After Ryan came back from Thailand she kept mentioning wanting to renovate the place and add some cool tech stuff she had been reading about on Luke’s blog. So it was a thrill to find out that Luke is like my big brother. She made a big donation to his kids programme last year without even knowing it was his so I was happy to introduce the two.” Jordan said as she watched how intently Sophie took in the information.

The rain quickly stopped as Jordan yelled for Mack to take down the glass. “So what can you tell me about her, I don’t even know her like that and she really came through for me in a big way.” Sophie said.

“Listen Soph, I love you but Ryan is kinda private. Actually you two have that in common but she opens up easier than you do. So if you want to find out more about Ryan you’ll have to ask her yourself.” Jordan gave her a cheeky smile.

“Cause by the looks of it, I don’t know what Sophie voodoo you worked on her so quickly but she clearly took to you.” Jordan smiled.

Jordan always knew how people quickly fell in love with Sophie. From one conversation with her, people were always asking Jordan for Sophie and enquiring about how she was doing. She just had a way with making people feel seen and comfortable. It was one of the reasons why her schedule was always booked. Everyone wanted to be in the company of Sophie Moore.

“Whatever, the rain is finished and I’m hungry. Let’s go, I want to get some work done. Oh and thanks for sending off the photos apparently Ryan’s got her a pretty big role.” Sophie smiled.

“Shut up! She did not get that leading role. She has been meditating and praying about that for months now. Wait, how do you know that?” Jordan raised an eyebrow at Sophie.
“Uh.. she texted to tell me thanks for the photos you sent that I didn’t know you sent! That’s all” Sophie couldn’t help the blushing that took place on her face and Jordan immediately noticed.

“What’s that smile for? You’re cheesing super hard there sis.” Jordan got up and began to follow Sophie inside.

“Nothing, I just thought it was nice of her to uplift me like that. She didn’t have to you know? Speaks to her character. I can see why all of you really like her.” Sophie said softly.

“Uh huh.. yeah sure that’s it.” Jordan smiled not saying anything else. Whatever Sophie was fishing for she would have to find out from Ryan herself.

Notes:

We all need a Jordan in our lives. Whether it's family or a friend. We all need someone who has our back!

P.s thanks for the comments! I'm definitely going to keep this going. x

Chapter 5: You Can't Help Connection

The sound of Tevin Campbell singing Can We Talk drew Sophie to the kitchen after finishing up her work. When Sophie arrived downstairs, Phillipe and Jordan were in the kitchen, the two were cooking and dancing together. Sophie had never seen Jordan so happy to be in a man’s company that she wasn’t just trying to take home and kick out before morning. So it was so refreshing to see. How was she missing all of this? If she was really honest with herself. Her relationship with Kate had consumed all of her time and what little time she had was poured into her work and spending time with Jordan. Mary was out of the country for work and she got away with Facetime and phone calls with Luke when they could. She really was missing so much and it immediately made her sad.

Sophie decided she was taking the week off to really start putting things in motion. She would catch up on the messages and voicemails on her business phone and would call Mary and Luke to catch them up. One of the reasons Sophie loved Luke so much was because he always waited until Sophie was ready to talk. For as long as she could remember he was always a soft place for her to land.

Phillipe spotted Sophie, shuffled over and grabbed her and started dancing with her. He spun and twirled her in Jordan’s direction as she did the same to her sister in tune with the music. It was almost 7 in the evening, Sophie didn’t notice how long she was held up in Ryan’s study working. Jordan and Phillipe were half way through a bottle of wine and as Jordan and Sophie danced, Phillipe poured Sophie a glass which she took with glee.

This was the most fun Sophie had in months. The last time she went out was with Kate. they got into it because Sophie wasn’t feeling well and Kate didn’t want to leave. Sophie shook her head as the memory crossed her mind. She raised the glass to her head and joined in the fun, helping around the kitchen.

“Hey Sophie, Jordan is always telling me that you make the best playlists, connect let’s hear what you got.” Phillipe smiled.

“Oh say less!” Sophie grabbed her phone and saw a message from Ryan.

Ryan Wilder. “Hey, I’ll be ready in about 2 hours. I’m heading to pick up dinner at one of my favourite vegan spots and then I’m heading to the Hotel. I’ll let you know once I’ve settled. I want to hear all about your day! Looking like it was fun based on those photos you sent.”

Sophie had send Ryan a link to look at the photos she had taken during the day, she didn’t know if she would have time to see them but clearly she did.

Sophie Moore. “Hey you, I’ll be ready. I’ll set up my computer once we’re all finished with dinner.
Ryan Wilder. Computer? I figure you know about Mack by now, just talk to him. He’ll sort you out.

Sophie Moore. Oh trust I’m learning a whole lot. Talk to you soon Wilder.

Sophie smiled and then spoke. “Mack can you play my This lil Vibe Playlist on Apple music please?”

“Of course Sophie. Great taste if I do say so myself.”

“What in the hell?! I did not expect that.” Sophie turned to look at Jordan and Phillipe.

“Takes some getting used to but you’ll be fine. “Jordan laughed.

After dinner Sophie left Jordan and Phillipe at the table still arguing about who was better, Batman or Superman. She told them she had an early morning and wanted to relax before she went to bed. They asked her to join in a movie but she declined and told them to enjoy as she made her way to the bedroom with a glass of wine in her hand.

-ping-

Ryan Wilder. “Ready! I’m thinking that we could start a series together but I’m not sure what you haven’t seen so we can decide together on video call.”

Sophie got settled on the bed and asked Mack to screen mirror her facetime and pull up Netflix. She wasn’t sure what to expect but with the sound of her voice, two parts of the curtain in the first guest room opened. One with an incoming call from Ryan and the second with Netflix opened and it being scrolled through. Sophie sat back on the bed in her old black company branded sweatshirt some soft cotton black shorts and black socks with a yellow smiley face on each.

Ryan smiled. “Do you wear anything besides black?”

“I mean I try not to but you know, every now and again I have to make an effort.” Sophie smiled.

“Hi by the way.”

“Hi yourself, looking hella cosy in that sweater. How are you doing Soph?”

Even through facetime Sophie could tell there was concerned weight behind her question. She didn’t just want to know on the surface how Sophie was but she also wasn’t pushing in case Sophie wasn’t ready to talk.

“Can I be honest?” Sophie asked sipping her wine.

“Always…” Ryan smiled and took up a glass of wine and sipped as well.

“I’m heartbroken but everything that happened, if I’m honest with myself was bound to happen.”

Ryan had a sympathetic confused look on her face.

Sophie smiled and then sadness filled her eyes “I mean I’ve been stupid and trying to force someone to love me but it was never going to work out. Yesterday on the hike while I was processing everything I could pinpoint all the ways in which God was trying to get me out of that relationship. But every single time I ignored him. No matter how much he showed me how deep Kate could hurt me, I kept going back. So this time I guess it was a sit your ass down let me show you that’s going on dummy lesson. After years of not listening and just constantly accepting hurt, I think it’s time I put me first. Which is very..”

Sophie’s voice trailed off as she used the arm of her sweater to wipe the tears from her eyes.

“Scary.”

Ryan finished Sophie’s sentence with a warm look in her eyes.

“Big scary.” Sophie responded, giving Ryan a smile in return.

Ryan’s heart broke for Sophie, she wanted nothing but to give Sophie a hug.

“Hey, it’ll be alright. You’ve got a whole tribe behind you including me. Plus, from the way Jordan talks about you, I’m sure you’ll bounce back before you know it. You’re beautiful, someone will come along who will give you the world because you deserve it. And look on the bright side, nothing makes art like heartbreak, your gallery show is about to be straight fire!”

Sophie watched Ryan, not being able to get past the fact that the younger woman called her beautiful.

“Beautiful huh?” Sophie smirked at Ryan.

“Well I’m not blind, I know a fine ass woman when I see one and Kate is dumb as hell. As my Mama Cora used to tell me. Baby these girls don’t know what to do with you, someone will come along who knows how to care rare stones.”

Ryan had given Sophie the confirmation she was looking for. At first she couldn’t tell if Ryan was just being nice but the interactions seemed to be a little more than just platonic kindness. From the time she opened the door yesterday she felt a pull that she had never felt before, not even with Kate. Until now, Sophie assumed that Ryan was just another straight girl who didn’t know boundaries with lesbian women. It was no secret that Sophie was a lesbian, two years ago she had a gallery show that was all about queer people of colour during pride month. Not to mention Jordan and Ryan and clearly very close so Ryan would have to definitely know even before meeting Sophie.

Sophie sipped her wine, not wanting Ryan to see her reaction.

“Mama Cora sounds like a very wise woman. I’d be a fool not to take her advice. You can tell her it’s being put to good use.”

Ryan’s eyes got glassy as she told Sophie she needed to use the bathroom. She returned in front of the screen 2 minutes later and apologized to Sophie.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to get so emotional. Needed to get some tissue for the water works.” She smiled.

Sophie couldn’t believe how easy it seemed for Ryan to be open and vulnerable about how she was feeling. Sophie knew had it been her she would have tried to change the topic without having to speak on it. Right now the only reason Ryan knew as much as she did about Sophie was because she was there in the midst of it all.

“She died 2 years ago.. Cancer.” Ryan said softly.

Sophie set her wine down on the bedroom’s side table and sat all the way up.

“Ryan.. I’m so sorry. I didn’t.. I didn’t know. I’m so sorry you’re experiencing that.” Sophie sad with a look of sadness for Ryan in her eyes.

“How would you Soph, we just met but thank you. It’s been a lot to carry around but she fought to the bitter end. All I can do is live my life, smash my goals, pay it forward where and I can and be happy. That’s what she would have wanted. I know that’s what is going to make her proud.” Ryan wiped the tears from her eyes and smiled.”

Sophie looked hurt and it was for Ryan but for her own situation with her mother. Things were so bad that Sophie would gladly volunteer her mother to take Mama Cora’s place so that Ryan could have her back. If anyone deserved to be 6ft under it was definitely Diane Moore.

“Well just know that she’s..”

Before Sophie could finish Ryan interjected. “Are you going to say she’s in a better place?”

“Oh hell no. I hate that saying. A better place is here with you Ryan. I’m sure Heaven is cool and all but it’s not going anywhere.” Sophie grabbed a pillow and squeezed it while talking to Ryan.

“Oh.. now I wasn’t expecting that. Thank you for that, I couldn’t agree more. Lord knows I miss my Mama. Thank you Soph. That’s sweet… You’re sweet.” Ryan smiled shyly at Sophie embarrassed at the words that left her lips.

“I mean.. You’re a sweet person. Like you’re nice. As in it was a nice thing for you to say..” Ryan tried hard to cover her tracks.

“You’re so cute when you’re nervous you know that?” Sophie’s voice was low and husky and oh how it caught Ryan off guard.

There it was again, that churn in Sophie’s stomach as the silence grew between the two women.

Sophie looked away and grabbed her wine. “Short… but definitely cute, Wilder.”

“So about this series you want to watch, you’ll be happy to know that I haven’t been watching lots of television or Netflix recently so the options of what I haven’t seen will be plenty.

Ryan loved the way Sophie was able to change the topic to make things feel lighter for her. She’d be a rambling idiot half of the time if she didn’t and that is not easy to come back from.

“Wellll… actress and all over here so I have my favourites BUT there’s a show Jordan keeps trying to convince me to binge. It’s pretty far down on my list of things because it was cancelled but she swears it’s worth it regardless. It’s called..”

They both reply the same time.

“Sense 8”

Both of the women stare at each other and then laugh.

“Yup that’s the one, I said after my gallery opening I would see why she can’t stop ranting about it but I’d be happy to start it now.”

“How about we talk while I finish my food and then we can watch the first two episodes together?” Ryan smiled. ‘

“Ok I’d like that Wilder.”

“So I wasn’t kidding I want to know all about how your day was!” Ryan squealed as she stuffed a big set of salad into her mouth.

“Damn that’s good.” Ryan sighed.

“You really love your stomach huh?” Sophie laughed.

“Girl food is the way to my vegan heart. That may sound easy but the fact that I’m single says otherwise.” Ryan chuckled to herself thinking about the last woman she dated. The sex was great but she couldn’t hold a conversation and the food was always so nasty.
“Oh by the way how do you like Phillipe?” Ryan asked with a smirk on her face. Sophie knowing exactly why she was asking.

“Oh so you know! Why does everyone know except them!” Sophie laughed.

“No honestly, it was like watching two love stuck teenagers do everything but say what they’re thinking about each other. I’ve never seen Jordan like this ever. He’s got a hold on her. Even Maddison knows, it was too funny watching the stolen glances between them. It made me miss that new crush feeling” Sophie cooed.

Ryan had a curious look on her face and Sophie could tell that she decided not to pursue it. “It’s not just her, he’s so in love with Jordan. When she was seeing Dre last year he was so stinking jealous, it was so cute.”

“They’re clearly a mess but I had such a good day. I don’t know the last time I’ve had fun like that. The hike made me realize how cooped up I’ve been over the last 7 years. It started slowly but it definitely increased as life went on.”

“Oh so you’re missing fun.” Ryan puts down her fork and fake writes in her hand like she’s taking notes.

“Stick around and I’ll definitely show you fun Moore.” Ryan’s eyes got dark as she giggled and took a gulp of her wine.

“If I didn’t know any better, I’d say you’re flirting Ms. Wilder.” Sophie boldly asked. The question definitely caught Ryan off guard.

“What makes you think that? Maybe I’m just being nice.” Ryan said shyly with a smirk on her face that went serious as she continued.

“But what if I were? Would that be a bad thing?” Ryan asked.

Sophie felt a churn in her stomach but also fear in her chest which immediately gave her anxiety. She just got out of a toxic relationship that she still needed to close up by having a conversation with Kate. Ryan made her feel things that were hard to ignore but was this something she should even be entertaining right now? Sophie knew she had so much healing to do and Jordan was right, not just about Kate. Ryan was a breath of fresh air but she needed to be swaddled in the arms of a therapist not a new woman right now.

Why was this question so hard to answer? Sophie thought to herself. She didn’t want Ryan to think she wasn’t interested but she also didn’t want to ignore where she currently was in life. It was such a simple question that ate Sophie up.

“I can see the wheels turning in your head. You do know this is a video call right? Or are you hoping I think the call stuck.” Ryan smiled.

Why was she so infuriately cute? Sophie thought.

“What’s going on in that brain of yours Moore?” Ryan gave Sophie a smile that made being honest with her easy. She took a deep breath.
“It wouldn’t be a bad thing but my brain is all over the place right now. I wouldn’t want to add my stress to your life. I’ve already done enough of that.” Sophie couldn’t help the sadness that overtook her. She hated feeling like she was a burden to anyone.

“Soph.. I think you’re so beautiful and I want to know all of you. The good, the bad and the in-between. I haven’t stopped thinking about you since we met officially yesterday. I’m not naïve I know you have a lot to work through but I’d really like to be there for you as a friend.”

At this point Sophie wasn’t sure if it was the wine talking or not but it didn’t stop the churn in her stomach from deepening.

Ryan continued, “You’re hot as hell, you can’t blame me for flirting Sophie. I’m not blind!” Ryan came closer to the screen once she noticed Sophie went back into her thoughts.

Silence built between them and Sophie could see Ryan get nervous. Almost like she wished she hadn’t said anything. Sophie broke the silence in the room finally.

“It’s funny because from the time I opened my door yesterday I was stuck by how absolutely gorgeous you are and how damn good you smelled. Under different circumstances I would have welcomed a flirt from a fine ass woman like you but that’s not where I am in life right now.” Sophie said apologetically.

“I know Soph, and I’m sorry. That was stupid of me to say… I shouldn’t have.” Ryan looked like she was beating herself up in her head.

“Hey!” Sophie said. “Don’t ever apologize for feeling your feelings.”

The light returned to Ryan’s eyes as she laughed. “Oh you think you’re cute huh?”

Sophie felt lighter. There was just something about Ryan that made her feel calm and assured. She didn’t want to let go of that and here Ryan was offering her more.

“Ryan Wilder, I would love for us to get to know each other better. Once you understand that it’s going to probably be a slow process but I promise to show up and really give this friendship a chance. I do have one stipulation though.”

Ryan cocked her head to the side waiting for Sophie to continue.

“You have to do the same, I want to know everything there is to know about you.” Sophie smiled as she finished the rest of her wine.

“I’m looking forward to it. Now let’s start this series and in the midst of it, you can tell me how great my bed felt last night.” Ryan teased.

Sophie looked stunned. “I’m so going to kill Jordan.”

Ryan and Sophie spent the night laughing and talking about the show they were watching. There were many instances, they paused the episode to ask questions that stemmed from the show. Sharing childhood secrets, experiences and the things they learned in college. Just like the day before, the conversation came easy as they got lost in each other.

There was a loud noise outside the door of the bedroom. Sophie hadn’t quite closed it all the way in.

“Wait what was that?” Sophie asked as she got up to walk to the door.

Ryan grabbed at iPad next to her and scrolled a few times.

“Uh unless you want to see Jordan getting naked, I think you should close the door and get your butt back in bed.” Ryan laughed as she closed the iPad case.

Sophie gasped! “I know you’re lying you’re lying so badly.”

“The noise you heard was my big encyclopaedia drop off the book shelf that’s in the corner of the walk way. Jordan is pinned against it and”

Sophie grabbed her ears as she closed the door and walked back to the bed. “No no no, I don’t need that visual of my baby sister.”

Ryan laughed. “Now where were we Moore?”

“You were telling me how you almost got arrested for having sex in public.” Sophie smiled and raised an eyebrow.

“Oh yes that.” Ryan laughed.

Sophie snuggled the pillows in bed listening to Ryan’s story. She could totally get used to this.

-Ping-

Sophie grabbed her phone whilst laughing at the story. The girl had a way with words.

Unknown. “This isn’t over. Not by a long shot.”

The timing seemed strange but whoever that was maybe just had the wrong number. Sophie felt a weird feeling in her gut and knowing her past with Kate, she probably should get Luke to look into it tomorrow. Kate always brought all types of strange scenarios into her life. What could that be about? She thought to herself. The last time she ignored something strange she ended up with stitches at the back of her head.

Ryan’s voice broke her thoughts.

“So what about you Moore? What the strangest place you’ve got caught being nasty?” Ryan smiled.

Sophie refocused and got lost in conversation with Ryan but something just didn’t feel right.

Notes:

Is there such a thing as moving on too quickly? Also, is drama about to follow Sophie? What is it with Lesbians and drama? Tsk.

Chapter 6: The Calm Before The Storm

With her eyes still closed Sophie reached over to the bedside table and grabbed her phone to check the time. It was 4 in the morning, she had no idea when she fell asleep. She rolled over onto her back and smiled as she saw Ryan fast asleep with her face directly in front of the camera resting very snug on a pillow. Sophie couldn’t help but stare at her with sleepy eyes. A piece of Ryan’s hair fell over her soft brown skin. Gosh she was beautiful Sophie thought to herself. She turned onto her side and snuggled a pillow while she watched Ryan and drifted back to sleep.

Sophie sat up in bed, stretched her arms up and yawned. As her arms came back down Ryan spoke.

“Good morning sleepy head! Nice of you to join us here on earth.” Ryan beamed. She was dressed in an oversized purple plaid flannel shirt with a crop top to match and blue high wasted jeans. She was sitting in front of the screen on the bed putting what looked like the last of her things together.

Sophie grabbed her phone.

“Inside voice, it’s barely 6 in the morning.” Sophie smiled. Ryan was definitely a nice sight to wake up to. Her smile was infectious; the more Sophie saw it the more she wanted to keep seeing it. It made her feel settled. It made her feel calm.

Ryan laughed, “I’m just going to go ahead and guess that you’re not a morning person.”

“Not unless I need to be, otherwise I’m very much a sour puss until I have my coffee.” Sophie leaned toward the end of the bed and grabbed her MacBook so that Ryan could see her closer. “How are you up and so full of life already. You were dead to the pillow around 4AM when I got up." Sophie raised an eyebrow as she tied back her hair with the band on her wrist.

“My body automatically gets up at 5AM. I opened my eyes to you sleeping like a baby. Then you got restless and I watched you for a bit trying to hear what you were saying in your sleep. Do you know that you talk in your sleep?" Ryan asked.

“Uhmm.. Kate mentioned a while ago because it kept her up at night but she bought earplugs and that was the end of the topic. Jordan sleeps like the dead so if I do around her she would never hear it.” She rubbed the back of her neck as she did when her brain was doing somersaults, Sophie felt very exposed and the feeling was hard to fight.

Again, Ryan pulled Sophie out of her thoughts. “Hey, don’t overthink it. You’re good with me remember?” Ryan stopped putting things in her suitcase and came closer to her screen.

“Soph..” Ryan said softly.

“I’m sorry, did you hear anything I was saying?”

Ryan was matter of fact with her details, she wanted Sophie to know that there’s nothing she wouldn’t tell her to make her feel comfortable.


“I couldn’t quite make out what you were saying but you kept mentioning someone by the name of Diane as you tossed and turned.” Ryan’s eyes were soft and calming.

“That’s my mother so it makes sense why I was tossing and turning. I don’t know the devil to keep anyone calm.” Sophie had an anger in her eyes that was coupled with sadness.

“We’re… Uh. Estranged. I promise at some point I’ll tell you all about my mommy issues but that’s not exactly how I’d like to start my day if you don’t mind.” Sophie said with a pleading look on her face.

“I totally get that.” Ryan went back to her suitcase on the bed, putting the last piece of clothing in and zipped it up. She watched her screen as she placed the big suitcase on the floor and kissed her arms like she did at Sophie’s apartment.

A smile formed on Sophie’s face as she shook her head. “You’re about to yammer about these little ass arms aren’t you?”

“Oh so you do think you’re cute huh” Ryan’s eyes even from Sophie’s screen were so beautiful. She leaned forward placing her right hand on her cheek as Ryan continued.

For one, these are guns. Big ass, kick someone’s ass guns. So keep me on the speed dial if anyone messes with you and two, yes. I’m always gonna yammer." She smiled and checked her watch and as it blinked with what seemed like incoming messages, her face and demeanour changed.

Without looking up from her watch, “So I’ll be back in town tomorrow night late but maybe we can grab lunch or something the following day if you’re up to it.” By the end of the sentence Ryan’s eyes were back on Sophie with a smile.

“Oh and my manager is going to give you a call to talk about a proposal, I usually stay out of that stuff so good luck. She doesn’t like taking no.” Ryan laughed.

Sophie sat up off the bed and stretched her arms once again.

“She just hasn’t met me yet but for your sake I’ll go easy on her.”

Sophie looked at the screen watching Ryan. “Ryan are you ok?” Sophie asked, noticing that Ryan’s energy changed after checking her watch.

“Ah nothing I can get into right now but I promise to share when I can.”

Sophie could tell that whatever it was clearly was a pain point for Ryan because it immediately sucked the joy from the younger woman’s face.

“Alright. Well if you need anything, you know I’m here right?” Sophie asked

“Yes I do. Thank you Soph.” Ryan smiled.

“Well I’m going to start my very heavy day.” Sophie sighed.

She had mentioned to Ryan during their call last night that today she was going to contact Kate so that she could get the dreaded conversation out of the way.

“Hey. You got this and if you need anything text me. Have you figured out where you’re going to meet her?”

“Honestly, I’m torn between a public place and just going back to my apartment. I’m probably going to go with the latter so she can get her things the same time.”

“Killing two birds with one stone huh?”

“That’s exactly it.” Sophie sighed once again as she could feel the anxiety building in her chest.

Her and Kate had been through this many times before but Sophie always took her back. Kate always knew just what to say to manipulate Sophie back to her and before she knew it, Kate’s fingers would be deep inside her with her tongue on her neck. This time was different though, she knew she didn’t even want Kate to touch her. She had imagined Kate fucking whoever that woman was more times than she could count. The more she ran it through her head, the more disgusted she was. Especially because she knew how Kate felt about sex.

It’s like Ryan could always see the wheels turning in Sophie’s head and every single time so far she has pulled her out of her head.

“Well, just remember that it’s her loss. You deserve the world and all she’s offering is a ride on the crazy go around. It’s time to get off.”

Sophie loved the way Ryan was able to make a bad situation seem light. She couldn’t understand how Jordan never introduced them seeing how they had so much in common.

“Well Moore, I’ve got to get going. I have a flight to catch in an hour.” Ryan said as she checked her watch once more. “So we’ll be in touch. Remember please text or call if you need me.”

“Will do, Wilder. Safe flight.”

The two starred with a smile on their faces not wanting to hang up the call. Eventually Sophie waved her hand and ended the call.

“Sigh.” Sophie ran her hand through her hair opening it once more and grabbed her cell phone to call Kate.

Kate answered on the first ring which didn’t surprise Sophie at all.

“Soph, hey are you ready to talk now?” Kate asked. Sophie could hear the smugness in her tone. Like she knew the routine of how things always go with them.

“Yeah. Sure. Come by the by apartment at 1 this afternoon, let’s talk.” Sophie said with zero emotion in her voice.
“Great, I’ll pick up lunch. See you soon, Soph..” Kate’s voice trailed off and Sophie could sense the smile on her face. She was so infuriating. This definitely needed to be over today so that she could focus on moving forward. Sophie didn’t want to waste another moment of her life accepting the word sorry from Kate.

“Bye.” Sophie was dry and very curt and hung up the phone while Kate was about to say something.

Sophie made her bed and travelled downstairs for breakfast. Before she even had the door opened properly the sweet smell from the kitchen captivated her nose. Phillipe doesn’t sleep? She thought to herself.

Phillipe was shirtless in a long sweatpants like he just came back in from a workout. Men didn’t tickle her fancy at all but she knew a fine brother when she saw one. He was at the blender pouring a shake into a glass. He looked up and noticed Sophie. “Hey Sophie, good morning. Care for some? If not breakfast is ready.

“Thank you.” Sophie said as she walked toward the bar stools in the kitchen and sat. “How was the movie?” Phillipe smiled noticing the smug look on Sophie’s face.

Phillipe blushed and walked over to the bar stool next to Sophie and sat while drinking his shake. “We uh.. never got to the movie. We ended up just talking and listening to music.”

“Oh that’s all.” Sophie turned to face Phillipe.

“Well yeah and then we called it a night.” He gestured to himself. “Early morning run, I don’t like to stray from my schedule.”

Phillipe was hoping that he sounded casual enough to get Sophie talking about something else.

Sophie was sitting facing Phillipe who was sitting straight ahead not wanting to make eye contact with her. As he raised his glass to his head, Sophie tapped him on the shoulder so he could look directly at her.

Sophie starred at Phillipe searching him like she did everyone she met. When those light brown eyes found yours it was almost as if she could see the depths of your soul. Her gaze was intense but never intruding. As Jordan would put it, it’s almost as if your spirit is giving her the keys to see whatever she wants.

Phillipe sighed once he realized that Sophie had really saw him. His eyes got soft as he spoke. “I promise not to hurt her.”

“Good.’ Sophie smiled and squeezed his hand to show her approval.

“Where is Jordan anyway?” Sophie asked looking curious.

“Oh she’s on a conference call with some of her counsellors from the community centre. She’s trying to engage a big brother and big sister programme. She was telling me about it last night. She’s amazing.” Phillipe looked awestruck as he spoke of Jordan.
“Yes she is. That’s my under 30 bestie, always got her eyes on the prize.” She smiled.

Sophie couldn’t wait to tease Jordan about Phillipe but that definitely couldn’t happen this morning. She wanted to get breakfast and get on the road as early as possible. She needed to separate all of Kate’s things from hers and that would take some time considering all of their stuff was packed in boxes already. Kate drove an open back Bentley truck and should be able to take everything with her after they spoke.

Phillipe noticed that Sophie got lost in thought. “You ok?” he nudged Sophie out of her thoughts.

“Yeah I’m ok, it’s going to be a long day is all. I’m driving back to my place after breakfast, I’ve got to go handle some stuff.”

“Ok well drive safely and make sure you eat well. Good luck Sophie.” Phillipe got off the bar stool and disappeared into the hall way to make his way down to the basement to the gym.

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By 9AM Sophie was dressed and ready to go. Once she got back downstairs Jordan was on what seemed like her third call for the morning. When she spotted Sophie she did a double take. “Hey guys, give me a minute.” She muted herself and turned to Sophie.

“I thought we were spending the afternoon together." Jordan asked. "How about we snuggle up and watch a movie tonight if you don’t have any plans. I’m probably going to need it.” Sophie responded.

Jordan cocked her head to the side.

“I’m heading home to meet with Kate and I want to gather her stuff before she gets there.” Sophie rubbed the back of her neck and Jordan jumped up from the couch.

“Do you want me to come? I can get ready and” Sophie interjected cutting Jordan off.

“I’ve got this Jay, this is something I need to do alone but movie later?” She smiled with a needy look in her eyes. “I promise to come back here, I’m not leaving the country.” Sophie said.

“You better not. I’m serious Soph.” Jordan said.

“Promise, plus you owe me details. Naked in the hall way Jay? Really?” Sophie laughed.

Jordan’s eyed widened and her mouth fell. “Suddenly I don’t know what you’re talking about. Who are you again? Am I in a hospital? Where am I?” Jordan joked.

Sophie pushed her a little. “You’re annoying, I mean it. Details!”

“Once you come back, I’ll tell you anything.”

Sophie could see the fear in Jordan’s face and pulled her into a hug. “I’m never leaving you again. Ever. Now get back to your call. I’ll let you know when I get there. I love you.”

“I love you too Soph.”

Jordan hopped back on the couch continuing her call. Sophie had plans to ask her about the programme later seeing how it sounded like something she’d be interested in. There were many kids there who she would love to help further if she could.

Sophie hopped in the car and called Luke before she pulled off. “Hey sis, how are you holding up.” Luke asked.

“I’ve been better; I need you to come by my place around 3PM today can you do that? I’m going to need you.” Luke didn’t ask any questions. “I’ll be there Soph.”

“Oh and Mary has been texting you like crazy, she just wanted to make sure you’re managing. Kate is her sister but you know she loves you like her own.” Luke smiled at Sophie.

“I know tell her I promise to call when I can.”

Luke and Mary are another great example of friends who just need to kiss. Sophie decided early on that she wasn’t getting in the middle of it. When they were good and ready to take each other out of the friend zone they would.

“Oh and one last thing. I got a strange text last night.”

“Oh boy.” Luke said.

“Exactly and the last thing I need is to be unprepared if something pops off again. I’d like to use my health insurance for simple things like going to the gynaecologist. I’d like to take major surgery and lacerations off the list, thank you very much.” Sophie looked matter of fact which made Luke laugh.

“I got you, send me the number and when I come over I’ll tell you everything I find out.”

“Thanks Luke, I don’t know what I’d do without you.” She smiled as water settled in her eyes.

Luke has always been there for Sophie. He will in the snap of a finger drop everything and come to Sophie’s aid and vice versa.

“You won’t ever have to find out. I’ll always be here for my sis.” He smiled as someone walked into his office.

“Mr. Fox, five more minutes until they’re ready for you, sir.”

Luke looked back. “Thanks Michelle, I’ll be there soon.”

He turned and looked at Sophie, “Soon means whenever I’m done talking to you by the way.”

“You’re a gem, go kick some tech ass, I have to go. I love you.”
“I love you too. Drive safely sis.”

Sophie hung up from Luke and started scrolling through her apple music looking for a playlist for the road and was stopped when she got a message from Ryan.

Ryan Wilder. “I’m not sure if you’re on the road already, if you aren’t I hope this inspires you in whatever way you need on your way back.”

There was an apple music link to a playlist called “Be Present. Be good. Breathe”

Sophie Moore. “Perfect timing as always, thank you Ryan.”

Sophie started the playlist and the bass guitar alone made her shoulders drop.

“Sigh... this damn Ryan Wilder.”

Sophie pulled out of the driveway and headed toward what was probably the hardest thing she had to do in a very long time.

Say goodbye to Kate.

Notes:

Is Sophie really going to follow through or will Kate pull her back in? Toxic relationships are never easy to leave but sometimes you really just gotta rip the bandaid off. Good luck Soph!

Chapter 7: The Breakup Or The Makeup?

Sophie stood outside of her apartment door with her forehead rested on the door and took a deep breath before turning the key to go inside.

Ryan’s playlist really helped her on the hour long drive back. Although she decided she was leaving Kate it wasn’t lost on her that this was the end of the longest and only female relationship she had been in. Kate was the first and only woman who she had let know all of her. She was the only woman who had explored her body, the only woman who knew her deepest darkest secrets and the only woman who she felt understood her. This was not going to be easy but it needed to be done.

Sophie entered her apartment and walked straight into her bedroom and grabbed her journal from one of her drawers. On the ride down she decided that she was going to write down all the points she wanted to make for when Kate strayed and the conversation went down a line she didn’t want to be sucked into. Kate was great at that, flipping the script and making herself the victim. In the times before when they had conversations after arguments, Kate would want Sophie to understand her perspective but when the shoe was on the other foot she always interjected to rebuttal when Sophie was trying to get her experience across.

“Sigh…” Sophie sat on the bed remembering the last argument she had with Kate. Something seemed off with the breaks in her car and she didn’t want to take any chances so she took it to the mechanic. She had an important business meeting 45 minutes outside of the city and Kate promised to take her. Sophie wanted to just use Jordan’s car but Kate was adamant she would take her.

Sophie sat remembering Kate’s simple ass excuse “the time got away from me babe, I’m so sorry.” Sophie ended up missing the meeting and losing the client. A six figure contract that she wanted to use to fund Jordan’s next Community Centre she overheard her talking about. They got into a huge argument about consideration of each other and the importance of showing up. After hours of talking and trying to come to a resolve she still didn’t feel heard. To Kate it wasn’t a big deal because if she wanted to she could fund Jordan’s next centre out of pocket and, there would be other clients but it was the principle for Sophie.

After noting down her points Sophie pulled out her phone and checked the time, it was now 10:20 in the morning. The time was going faster than Sophie’s anxiety could manage. She got up with the book in hand set it down on the kitchen island and walked toward the living room to start sorting Kate’s belongings.

Standing in the middle of her large living space, it was hard to shake the memories that she had built there with Kate. She smiled remembering Kate helpinh her assemble the lounge furniture and mount the television. They then spent the rest of the night cuddled up on the couch talking and just kissing each other in between. Sophie was so in love with Kate. She was just about Sophie’s height with short blonde hair. She had a fit frame with tattoos covering both her arms. She was dirty hot and she knew it.

As quickly as the smile formed on her face from the sweet memory, it left her face. All the kissing and cuddling only took place after Kate had gotten so angry from accusing her of fucking her lighting assistant. She pushed Sophie in the heat of the conversation and Sophie hit her head on the wall.

Water filled Sophie’s light brown eyes. She closed them and shook her head to rid the memory from her.

“Let’s get this shit over with Soph” she said walking and opening the first box. It was going to be a long morning of feelings.

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Sophie took a sip of water and looked at the segregated items in the living room. It was tough but she made it through everything. She even packed all of the stuff Kate had gifted her over the years. She decided that letting go meant letting go fully plus she didn’t want the energy of Kate anywhere near her. Not even in material things regardless of how thoughtful they were.

“Something is missing? What am I missing?”

Her thumb on her temple and the rest of her fingers except her pinky finger was rubbing the middle of her forehead feverishly as she tried to remember what she could possibly be missing.

She stopped suddenly, removed her hand from her forehead and stared at it.

“Oh course you big dummy.” Sophie sighed and headed toward her office. Pulled the drawer and took out the engagement ring. She opened the box and glared at the beautiful diamond cut 11 carat ring. She closed the box. Sophie dropped down in her computer chair as doubt filled her. Letting go of Kate meant starting over. As much as she told Jordan that she would just be alone that wasn’t what she wanted for her life. She wanted children, a few dogs running around and to be married. She wanted a family of her own.

“Maybe realizing that I was about to walk would really change her. Maybe she just needs to be scared a little”

Sophie ran so many justifications through her head. None of them she believed but that didn’t stop her brain from trying to find a way to forgive Kate. Was she really ready to walk away from this? Start over and have to learn someone all over again. A stranger who would possibly also hurt her as well. Sophie leaned back in her chair, head thrown back as water streamed down the sides of her face. She stayed there for a few minutes before she sat up and gathered herself. “Hard decisions are never easy.” She said out loud. She jumped out of the chair and made her way to the kitchen island.

Picking up her phone she typed a message to Ryan.

Sophie Moore. “Hey are you busy? Or can I call?”

Sophie walked pacing in the kitchen until her phone started ringing.

Ryan looked like she was in a very expensive bathroom as she smiled sweetly at Sophie from the other side of the call.

“Hey you, everything ok?” She asked

“Yeah I’m ok…” Sophie’s voice trailed off.

“Actually no, I’m not ok. I’m freaking out over here. My anxiety is eating me all the way up. Kate will be here in 15 minutes and suddenly I don’t know if I can go through with this. Can’t I just disappear for a while? Wouldn’t she get the memo from that?” Sophie was speaking really quickly as she paced up and down in the kitchen.

“Soph stop pacing. Walk somewhere and sit and rest the phone down on something so you can see me.” Ryan’s voice was soft and very soothing. It stopped Sophie immediately and she did what she was told.

“Now listen to me. This is what Kate wants. She wants you to be a ball of anxiety. She wants you to be full of emotion and zero logic. She wants you to spiral so that you can land in her arms. Is that what you want Soph?”

Sophie shook her head to answer no.

“Alright well let’s not give it to her. For one it’s too easy and two she doesn’t deserve the soft contents of you. Not anymore Soph.” Ryan had a soft tenderness on her face as she spoke to Sophie.

“Moving on is scary, trust me I know it’s not easy but you’re a badass. You have to know that, feel that and believe that. If you don’t you will always allow people to treat you like you aren’t.”

Sophie started to feel her shoulders drop. She started to feel her anxiety disappear as each word left Ryan’s lips. Beautiful lips she thought to herself as a small smile etched on her face.

“Am I making sense or am I just yammering a whole bunch of nothing?” Ryan smiled noticing the small smile on Sophie’s face.

“No you’re right. I guess I was having a moment. Walking through the door this morning felt heavier than usual and then going through her stuff. Remembering the memories in this place. It’s been a tough morning.” Sophie uttered in a low voice.

“You wouldn’t be human if you didn’t feel all of those things Soph. You are human and you care. Don’t beat yourself up and what did I say. Feel your feelings. They are yours.”

In this moment Ryan was happy that Sophie decided to make her the call that would calm her down. She didn’t let that information slip her at all. Sophie could have called Luke or Jordan but she chose to call her. Something about that fact gave Ryan the Sophie feels even deeper.

“Now let’s get it together, you deserve more than what she’s been offering. If after 7 years this is it, we both know that won’t change with marriage or kids. Let’s not give your kids trauma because one of their moms is always sad because the other ain’t shit. The world could do with less damaged children” Ryan smiled.

Though Ryan’s words were hard to hear Sophie knew that she was right. It was blunt but in this moment that’s exactly what she needed to hear.

Sophie looked at Ryan and smiled. “Thank you Wilder, you’re a gem you know that?

“I’m just being nice Soph, you deserve nothing but sweetness to match yours.” She smiled.

The two chatted for a few more minutes which helped Sophie take her mind off of the meet with Kate. Ryan was at her manager’s house for their monthly in person meeting. She was using the bathroom when she got Sophie’s text.

“You know I had to turn off my Mack interface? Jordan and Phillipe are doing the complete most. I’m going to have to fully sanitize the place once I’m back” Ryan giggled.

There it was, right on time. That churn in Sophie’s stomach.

Sophie laughed. “Gosh can’t they just get a room”

“Clearly not, they want all the rooms!” Ryan smirked. “I can’t even blame them. They’re both hot and hot for each other. Once they don’t end up in my bed we’re all good on these ends.” She smiled.

“I’m sorry about that by the way.” Sophie rubbed the back of her neck.

“A pretty woman in my bed? I’d never complain about that.”

There was a silence between the two women once again as they stared and smiled at each other. As soon as Sophie opened her mouth to speak she could hear the door opening.

“Sounds like my guest has arrived so I have to go.” Sophie said barely above a whisper.

“Soph, remember everything I said ok? You got this.” Ryan smiled at Sophie and the two women said goodbye.

Sophie ended the call grabbed her journal from the countertop and made her way to the living area to greet Kate.

“Hey Soph, I grabbed us lunch from that Italian place around the corner you love so much.” Kate held up bags in her hands to show Sophie with a sympathetic smile on her face.

Kate looked stunning. Short sleeve button down with most of the top buttons opened. To show her chest. Messy hair, makeup on point. Leather jacket. Jeans hugging her frame just right. She knew exactly what she was doing.

“Uh… thanks. I figured we could talk at the dining table. Seeing how all the other furniture is packed up in storage right now”

Kate titled her head “The bed is still here Soph. We could sit and talk in the bedroom like we usually do.” Kate said with a confused look on her face.

“We could but I’d rather we not.”

Sophie didn’t wait for Kate to respond. She left the empty living room and walked toward the open dining area adjacent to the kitchen. She pulled the chair next to the head seat at the side and sat. Kate took off her jacket, unpacked the food, grabbed two bottles of water from the fridge then sat on the opposite side of the table facing Sophie.

She slid Sophie’s food toward her, pesto pasta with chicken and garden salad in a separate container.

“So where do you want to start.” Kate asked as she began eating her food.

Sophie was already annoyed. “Well, you said it’s not what I think. So here’s where you explain yourself.”

Kate stopped eating her pasta and looked at Sophie. “You didn’t read any of my messages? Listen to any of my voicemails?”

“No Kate. I didn’t.”

Kate looked surprised and a little panicked because after all something as simple as Sophie not reading her messages or listening to her voicemails was very off brand. By the time they got together to talk Sophie was usually calmer having accepted whatever bullshit Kate had bombarded her with. Seeing Sophie with her journal was confirmation that she wrote down points from Kate’s messages that she wanted to go through. So what exactly was the book for this time.

“I deleted your chat so whatever you put in there you’ll have to tell me to my face. So what’s not what I think Kate?” Sophie said with an intense look in her eyes.

Putting down her fork Kate sighed. There was silence for a few seconds before Kate spoke.

“Soph. I’m sorry. It was a one-time thing. It won’t happen again. I promise. She doesn’t mean anything to me. I love you with my everything. I made a mistake and I’m sorry.” Kate watched as Sophie’s eyes got glassy and tears fell down her face.”

“I know you’re hurt and you’re right to be. You didn’t deserve that. You deserve so much more and I promise do better. Baby I’m so sorry.” Kate got up and sat in the chair at the top of the table next to Sophie and turned to face her waiting for a response. Sophie had closed her eyes once the tears started falling.

When she opened them she looked Kate directly in the face.

“Of course I’m hurt; you’re cheating on me Kate. That is hurtful but you know what’s even more hurtful? You’re giving me half of the truth. You’re making it seem like this was a one-time thing when we both know it wasn’t. You’re calling random women baby? Taking lingerie off of them? Do I look stupid to you Kate?” Sophie was getting angry.

“So who is this woman and how long have you been seeing her? Don’t leave shit out Kate.” Sophie said as she wiped the tears from her eyes.

“Soph…” Kate pleaded.

“No, don’t Soph me. I’m listening.” Sophie looked hurt. All of the emotions from the moment she got the message by accident filled her spirit once more. She felt restless, anxious and nervous for what she was about to learn from Kate.

Kate sat back in the chair and looked at the ceiling. This was not how she anticipated this going at all.

I’ve known her for about 6 months now. We met on my trip to Vegas for Beth’s bachelorette party.” Beth was Kate’s older sister. They had recently attended her wedding together.

“We got to know each other. It started with a text to check in and then it just turned into more. You were always held up at the studio and I found myself just having conversations with her. It just kinda happened organically.”

Sophie interjected. “So you just decided you were going to pursue an organic connection while in a relationship?”

“No I didn’t intend for things to get so far.” Kate answered quickly.

“Well you didn’t exactly stop it either now did you?” Sophie stared at Kate.

“Soph..” Kate reached for Sophie’s hand on the table but she withdrew it.

“So while you were making plans to propose to me. Buying a ring, decorating my apartment, asking Luke’s opinion to pull it together. You were seeing this woman?”

“Sophie, can you just hear me out.” Kate leaned forward closer to Sophie.

“It’s a yes or no question Kate. Were you seeing this woman?”

Kate was drowning with each question Sophie asked.

“Yes. Sophie I was but I hadn’t touched her when..”

Kate ran a hand through her hair in frustration. “I wasn’t sleeping with her!” Kate yelled.

Sophie was livid. She got up and banged her hands on the table in anger.

“But you are Kate and that’s not the fucking point! Do you even hear yourself?!” Sophie yelled.

Everything Sophie had written in her journal had gone through the window. The calm peaceful demeanour she wanted to keep left her once she saw Kate getting frustrated with her like she had done something wrong.

“Are you really getting upset with me right now? Did I cheat on you Kate?” Sophie screamed.

“No but you are never fucking around Sophie. You never want to go anywhere or do anything. You spend all your time held up in that fucking studio or at the community centre with those kids! When do I get some attention huh?” Kate got up out the chair and was standing directly in front of Sophie.

The energy in the room was tense and volatile. Sophie was a sweetheart but once she got angry, which rarely happened, her light brown eyes glazed into a hue that said run.

“Kate I have the biggest gallery show of my career in two months. Not once have you asked me how it’s going. Not once have you enquired about my mental space. In all I have going on I always show up for you. Are you really trying to turn this around on me?” Sophie stepped backward and Kate stepped in toward her.

“No baby, I’m sorry that’s not what I mean. I just want to be able to spend more time with you. Erin means nothing to me.” Kate eyes widened when she realized the name left her lips.

Sophie held her head down and chuckled. “Erin huh..” tears ran down her face once more and this time she didn’t try to compose herself.

Kate had her right where she wanted her and she knew it, in an emotional mess.

“After seven years, everything we’ve been through. I can’t believe you would do me like this. Is this what I’m worth to you? Am I not enough?” Sophie’s heart was broken and as she sobbed, Kate closed the space between them and wrapped her arms around Sophie pulling her into a hug. She held Sophie as she cried until Sophie pushed her away and stepped back once more.

“No! You don’t get to do this! You don’t get to keep hurting me and then comforting me Kate, it’s abusive!” Sophie yelled.

“I know and I’m sorry. I want to do better. I want to be better. Please don’t give up on me, Soph. I don’t know what I’d do without you.” Water settled in Kate’s eyes which immediately made Sophie soft.

“I don’t know why I’m like this. I hate this about myself. I hate how much I keep hurting you. I just.. please believe me when I say she doesn’t mean anything. I love you and only you. I know it took me sending that message to you by accident to realize that I don’t want to imagine my life without you but I promise there’s no one but you.”

There was a silence between the two women until Kate spoke again.

“Do you remember when we first met?”

A smile etched onto Sophie face.

“How could I forget? I was stranded in the pouring rain with a dead car and cell phone battery.”

Sophie quickly ran the memory through her brain. It was a tough day that ended with Diane Moore slapping her in the face at dinner when she came out to her parents and Jordan. She fled the dinner and on her way home, her car battery gave out. Everyone flew past her without stopping, until Kate rolled up next to her and asked if she was alright. Sophie barely got out of her mouth that her car battery had died before tears started streaming down her face. Kate pulled over in front of her, ran though the rain and hopped in her car. After getting her to calm down, Kate insisted she buy her dinner. The two ended up talking for hours after. That night Kate kissed Sophie and Sophie felt like the earth beneath her move. She had fantasized many times about kissing a woman but the reality was so much better.

“That night changed my life Soph, I never thought I’d meet anyone like you. Please don’t push me away. Let’s fix this I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I’ll do anything to make this work. Maybe we could even see a therapist together?”

Sophie’s eyes widened, they were back on script. Sophie could count on both hands the amount of times Kate had promised to do couples therapy to mend their bond after something big happened.

“I really mean it this time, it’s 7 years Sophie. I’m not throwing that away without a fight.” Kate looked desperate.

The fire in Sophie’s eyes slowly died as she took a deep breath and rubbed the back of her neck.

“I don’t know Kate; I don’t think therapy is going to fix it. I think maybe it’s time we find the people who are going to treat us right.” Sophie looked down at her feet as she spoke.

“Like who that woman I walked in on you with the other day?” Kate stepped forward toward Sophie and titled her head up to look straight in her face.


“Who was that?” Kate asked ask her eyes searched Sophie’s full of jealousy.

“She’s a friend of Jordan’s, not that it’s any of your business.” Sophie said softly.

“I know but you’re my business and I promise I’m sorry baby.”

Sophie looked away as Kate kept talking.

“I’m sorry, you’re everything to me and I never want to lose you. You’re the smartest, most giving, caring beautiful woman I have ever met in my life.” Kate said softly pulled Sophie’s gaze back to hers.

“Do you love me?” Kate asked.

She stepped in closer to Sophie their lips almost touching.

“Sophie Moore do you love me?”

There it was, irresistible Kate. By this time one of her hands were at the back of Sophie’s neck and the other pulling her waist toward her. Kate was manipulative and she knew it. She always knew how to get Sophie eating out of her hands.

She brought her face next to Sophie’s cheek close enough to her ear that she could feel the heat from her mouth, enough for her lips to touch her ear. “Do you love me?” Kate whispered again and Sophie leaned her ear into Kate’s mouth and then threw her head back. Kate moved her mouth to Sophie’s neck nibbling as she spoke again. “Answer me, do you love me?” she purred against Sophie’s neck. Sophie grabbed the hair at the back of Kate’s neck giving her permission as Kate rolled her tongue from Sophie’s neck up to her ear. She pulled Sophie in closer and asked one more time. “Baby, do you love me?” Kate cooed.

Sophie could barely get the words out. “Uhm.. Y-yes.. I do.”

“Fuck” Sophie groaned as Kate grabbed her ass with both hands and pulled it against her body, tongue exploring her neck softly. She grabbed Sophie by the waist and hoisted her up onto the table. As soon as she set Sophie down her planted her lips on Sophie’s and they both moaned into the kiss while Kate started unbuttoning Sophie’s shirt. As soon as she was about to unclip Sophie’s bra there was a knock at the door.

“You expecting someone?” Kate asked.

Sophie was under Kate’s spell, she had no idea what was happening but she didn’t want to stop.

“Just ignore it.” Sophie moaned in frustration.

As soon as Kate was about to kiss Sophie again the knock was even louder followed by a really loud voice but neither of them could make out what was being said from the dining room.

“Hello!” The person yelled.

“What the fuck?” Sophie found all of her senses quickly. She buttoned up her shirt and marched toward the door with Kate running behind her.

“Soph, wait a minute. That could be a crazy person. Let me get it.”

Sophie nodded and stood next to Kate as she opened the door.

Kate’s eyes widened with horror.

“Is this is the reason you won’t return any of my calls.” The woman gestured to Sophie standing next to Kate.

Sophie had a confused look on her face. “Uh who are you?”

Kate froze, opening her mouth but nothing leaving her lips as she stared at the woman on the other side of the door frame.

“No who the fuck are you? I’m Erin, Kate’s girlfriend.”

As the words left Erin’s lips, Kate’s stoic stance broke and she turned to Sophie.

“Soph…” Kate pleaded.

“ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME KATE?!” Sophie screamed.

Notes:

Toxic breakups can be a vicious cycle. Can you even just cut the chord or does something drastic like your lover's side piece showing up at your door speed up the process? It has to right? RIGHT?!
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Chapter 8: Time is Overdue

Kate stared at Sophie with nothing but sadness and horror in her face.

Sophie turned away from the door and walked deeper into the apartment. Kate’s eyes followed her until Erin brought her attention back to face her.

“Kate what’s going on and who is that?!” Erin looked at Kate confused and flustered, not understanding what was going on.

“Erin what are you doing here? Did you follow me here?!” Kate yelled.

“You know what, never mind that. You need to leave!” Kate ran a hand through her hair in frustration as she looked at Erin.

“NO! I’m not going anywhere until you tell me what’s going on! Why did you leave so suddenly? Who is that? Is she the reason you won’t return any of my phone calls?” Erin’s voice broke with sadness.

As Kate opened her mouth to speak Sophie nudged by her with two boxes stacked on top of each other and dropped them in the hall way.
“Soph! What are you doing! Can you stop so we can talk?!” Kate yelled.

Sophie didn’t look at Kate or Erin as she walked back inside of her apartment.

“KATE!” Erin yelled. Kate stepped forward and held Erin by both arms. “I said you fucking need to leave right now!” She glared at Erin with an anger in her eyes as Sophie walked by them with two more boxes and a duffle bag. As she walked to head back into the apartment Kate loosened one hand from Erin and grabbed Sophie. The look alone in Sophie’s eyes made Kate immediately let her go and her gaze returned to Erin. “I will explain everything soon but you need to get out of here right now!” she whispered sternly.

Sophie returned to the door frame with Kate’s keys, having taken the key to her apartment from the bunch, her phone and jacket in hand that she placed the engagement ring in. She stood staring at the two women standing together before she cleared her throat.

“Ehhmm,” Both women’s eyes darted to Sophie. She tossed everything toward Kate and watched her stoop slightly trying catch them so they didn’t hit the ground.

“Sophie you don’t have to do this.” Kate looked up at Sophie and pleaded as she gathered her things from on the floor. At this point Erin just stood silently observing and listening to the interaction between Kate and Sophie.

“We were just making progress. We can still go to therapy and work this out, Soph. I don’t want to lose you.”

Sophie caught the sheer look of shock and sadness on Erin’s face once the words left Kate’s lips. It was the same emotion she felt when she read the message from Kate a couple days ago. This woman was heartbroken.

“Kate…” Erin muttered with tears in her eyes.

Kate looked back at Erin and back to Sophie waiting for a response. As Sophie opened her mouth, her neighbour walked by giving Sophie a look of deep sympathy. Her eyes also asking if Sophie was ok without saying anything, Sophie nodded. She waited for her to take the corner to the elevator before she spoke.

“These are all of your things, I don’t believe you should have any reason to contact me after today and if you feel like you do, I promise you that you don’t. However, if anything pops up feel free to contact Luke and he will assist you.” Sophie said sternly.

Kate looked at her things in the hall way in disbelief and then brought her eyes back to meet Sophie.

“Looks like you won’t need to take two trips to get it all to your truck.” Sophie glanced behind her to Erin.

As Kate opened her mouth to speak, Sophie slammed the door shut in front of her and locked it.

As she walked away from the door she could hear Erin crying while the two women argued.

Sophie grabbed all the food from the dining table and threw it all in the garbage in one swift movement. She entered the kitchen, grabbed her phone from the island and made her way into her bedroom. She walked into her bathroom, took off her clothes and stood in the mirror.

“She almost had you Soph. Why do you always need a bigger reason to let go?.”

Sophie took a deep breath as a million things swirled around in her brain. For one Kate had her wrapped around her finger, she was about to sleep with her. How many more signs does she need to cut this woman out of her life for good? Why did it have to take Erin showing up at the door with all the information that Kate had left out about their union. Sophie was so disappointed in herself, why was it so easy for her to accept the bare minimum? Ryan was right.

“If you don’t you will always allow people to treat you like you aren’t.” Sophie said out loud with tears running down her face.

She left the bathroom and returned with her phone. She connected to the waterproof Bluetooth speaker suctioned to the wall and turned on the water. She scrolled through her apple music and found the sappiest love playlist she could find. She hit play as stood up in the mirror one more time and took a deep breath. “Feel your feelings but don’t stay there.”

Sophie stepped into the shower and the tears keep running as her face hit the water. She turned up the music from the Bluetooth speaker and restarted the song.

“I've tried


And I've lied to myself


To stop the tears

But it's been too many years


And you keep doing the same thing


Making the same old promises


Before you play with my heart again


I'ma keep it one hundred

It's been on my mind


And before you get to lying..”

Sophie’s cried as the chorus to Monica’s song Breathe followed and echoed in the bathroom. She eventually slid down and sat in the shower as the hot water hit her skin and snot ran from her nose.

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“Ryan! Can you focus? You’re checking your phone every five minutes. What is up with you today?” Kelly asked as she looked at Ryan who was sitting across from her at the table very distracted since she called Sophie.

“Did you hear anything I said just now?” Kelly smiled.

Ryan smiled as she looked up from her phone. “It’s not what you think, I’m just hoping to hear from a friend who has a lot going on. I heard you though.” Ryan smirked as she turned her iPad screen toward Kelly to show her notes containing the last thing Kelly said.

“Well I don’t need you getting distracted right now, I need you to focus on smashing this role. It’s the next big goal on our list, so I need your head on Ryan. I mean it.” Kelly pleaded.

“When have I ever let you down Kelly?” Ryan asked.

“Well never, well except that one time you forgot to wish me Happy Birthday. Broke my little heart.” Kelly pouted as Ryan laughed.

“Girl you are so annoying. I did tell you Happy Birthday. With a trip to the spa, birthday flowers AND a new Gucci bag. Plus I was in Thailand at a silent yoga retreat!” Ryan said smiled shaking her head as she closed her iPad case and shut down her MacBook.

“Well it didn’t come from your lips so it never happened. You still owe me a birthday call.” Kelly stuck her tongue out at Ryan.

Kelly and Ryan absolutely loved each other. They met in one of the longest group homes Ryan was in as a child but disconnected once Ryan was adopted by Mama Cora. The two reconnected at a freshman college party where Ryan spotted Kelly from across the room. Ran up to her and threw herself on Kelly hugging her. Kelly almost laid her ass on the floor until she noticed it was Ryan. The two stood in the middle of the party crying and hugging each other.

“I’m tired of you. Are we done for today? I want to get some sleep before we grab dinner.” Ryan asked.

“I suppose that’s all. Oh we have a tentative meeting with Sophie next Monday. Her assistant said she’s off for the rest of the week but was able to slot us into a 10AM window for an hour.” Kelly said excited.

The sound of Sophie’s name immediately made Ryan blush.

“Ryan.” Kelly stared.

“What?! She’s gorgeous! When DON’T I swoon over beautiful women. Come on now.” Ryan tried to make it sound casual but Kelly wasn’t buying it.

“Two compliments in one sentence.” Kelly made a face as she wrote with an imaginary pen in the palm of her hand.

“There’s no need for notes. Calm down.” Ryan got up from the table with only her phone in hand and walked toward the living room with Kelly right behind her.

Ryan flopped down on one end of Kelly’s large sectional and Kelly joined her sitting not too far away from her.

“You just met Sophie, I know she’s Jordan’s sister but you just met her. Every time I say her name you smile with that tingle in your eyes. I haven’t seen that since..” Kelly’s voice trailed off.

“Angelique.”

Ryan laid back on the sofa and exhaled loudly which prompted Kelly to sit closer to her.

“Fuck Ryan, you like her don’t you?” Kelly pulled Ryan upright to face her.

“I do like her but she has a whole lot going on right now.” Ryan looked sad.

“Like what?” Kelly asked.

Ryan leaned into Kelly. Watching the anticipation on Kelly’s face for the information. “We’re gonna need to open a bottle of wine for this one.” Ryan said.

Kelly sprung up from the chair and returned from the kitchen with two glasses and a bottle of merlot.

Ryan laughed. “Ok flash, nothing gets that ass moving like someone spilling some tea! Why are you like this?!”

“God made me this way, don’t do that.” Kelly said as she sat back down and handed Ryan a glass.

The two women laughed as Kelly sat down. Kelly had a way of always making Ryan laugh. It was one of the many things she enjoyed about her. Her ability to find a joke in anything.

As Kelly opened the bottle she poured wine into her glass and after she finished pouring into Ryan’s she set the bottle down on the table in front of the sectional and turned to Ryan.

“Spill.” Kelly took a sip and sat with her feet lapped on the sectional.

Ryan told Kelly everything from her first meeting with Sophie, the drama at Sophie’s place when Kate popped up, sending Sophie to her Cabin, their time on Facetime, Netflix, falling asleep on the call. Just the entire experience since meeting Sophie. Once Ryan finished she stared at Kelly who only nodded and made facial expressions the entire time. Not interrupting Ryan at all. As Ryan told Kelly the story she realized how crazy it all was. All of this happened in just a matter of days.

“So right now she’s supposed to be breaking up with this Kate for good?” Kelly asked as she set her wine down on the table.

“Yes. So me checking my phone was about her. I honestly don’t think she’s going to follow through. Do you remember how long it took me to cut off Angelique?” Ryan asked.

“Ry, who are you telling? I’ve never wanted to kill a bitch more in my life. The way she just had you wrapped up. That’s some crazy shit.”

“Well, from what Sophie has told me so far, it sounds like she’s in a similar situation. Kate is definitely a grade A narcissist and a master manipulator. Ryan leaned back on the sectional and rested her wine on her chest in her hands.

“So Ang.” Kelly said as she laid back on the sectional on a side and faced Ryan.

“Precisely. So I know exactly what she’s going through. I really hope that she has the strength to leave but the amount of times I packed my things at Angelique’s house, to only end up sitting on her face soon after is too many to count so I totally get it.” Ryan sighed.

Kelly had a look of sympathy on her face. Angelique too was in the same group home as Kelly and Ryan. While Kelly was keen on walking the straight and narrow regardless of her situation, Angelique always found herself in trouble and dragged Ryan along with her. When she got to the group home Angelique and Ryan were already very close having been in previous homes together. She was sad when Mama Cora adopted Ryan but knew it was the best thing for her.

“Oh trust I remember; I’d always get a text a day later telling me ya’ll worked everything out. Knowing damn well I wasn’t believing that shit.” Kelly rolled her eyes at Ryan.

“Exactly so I’m trying not to get my hopes up, whatever happens I’d just like to be there for her if she lets me.’ Ryan said while circling her finger about the ring of her wine glass.

Kelly poked Ryan. “Hey what’s going through your head right now?”

Ryan turned her body to face Kelly. “That relationship with Ang broke me down, you know it. You were there to help me pick up the pieces. After that it took me a really long time to put my foot back into the dating pool and even when I started I didn’t trust anyone.”

“That’s true Ry but you didn’t meet anyone like you. She’s got it so good right now and I hope she realizes it. If I liked women, I’d be outside your door everyday asking what you need!”

Ryan laughed. “You’re such a mess. You know damn well you’d be outside my door for Phillipe.”

“I mean true but still! What I’m saying Ry is that you’re a phenomenal woman. From the time I met you I knew that you were special. You’ve been there for me in ways that I didn’t think possible for a human being. Seeing you in college was legit the happiest day in my life. You just have an aura about you, it’s not normal. The way you love and take care of those you love, you’re everything sis. She’d be lucky to have you in her life.”

Ryan’s eyes got glassy as Kelly spoke. If there was anyone who she trusted with her life besides Mama Cora when she was alive it was Kelly. Kelly has always matched Ryan’s friendship energy and sometimes even surpassed it. Paying special attention to details that only Mama Cora knew. When Kelly finally met Mama Cora, Ryan had talked so much about Kelly that she felt like she knew already her. After that Kelly became her second daughter.

“I love me some you Kells. Thank you for always speaking life into me. I don’t know what I’d do without you.” Ryan smiled.

“Let’s hope you never have to find out, because I don’t know what I’d do without you either Ry.”

“Ok so let’s figure this out.” Kelly said as she took the wine from Ryan’s hand and pulled her forward to sit up.

“There’s nothing to figure out if she stays with Kate. I like her but I don’t need that kind of drama in my life. I can offer friendship if she needs it but I’m not putting myself in the middle of anyone’s relationship.”

Ryan was smitten and really liked Sophie. The night they spent on facetime gave her the opportunity to learn a lot about Sophie. The two had so much in common and wanted a lot of the same things in life. Their morals lined up. Their values lined up and they seemed like the perfect match but right now the ball was in Sophie’s court and Ryan had no intentions of pushing her. All she wanted to be was a soft place for Sophie to land if she wanted it. She was prepared to take it slow, she felt within her heart that Sophie was worth it. She just wasn’t interested in doing that while Sophie was still in a relationship.

“You could want to give someone the world but it won’t matter if they don’t want it from you.” Ryan said to Kelly.

“Sigh that’s true, I’ve been trying to give all this to Phillipe for years now but he wants to give it to Jordan.” Kelly held her head dramatically.

“You know what!” Ryan giggled as she nudged Kelly away from her.

“Well let’s hope she follows through because I haven’t seen you this excited about anyone and all I want is for you to find someone who will make you happy. Someone who deserves you and God knows I don’t think anyone does.” Kelly smiled at Ryan.

“Now where’s your phone, I want to see what Kate looks like.” Kelly reached on the coffee table and gave Ryan her phone.

“What makes you think I have a picture of her?” Ryan squinted at Kelly.

“Ryan please, stop playing with me. Pull up the socials. Tell this tale to someone else. We both know you’ve peeped her socials online.” Kelly grabbed Ryan’s phone from her, unlocked it and went straight to Instagram.

As soon as she hit the search bar Kate’s name was amongst the recently searched accounts.

“Kate Kane.” Kelly looked at Ryan. “Got that ass!” She squealed.

Ryan rolled her eyes and drew closer to Kelly so they could both look at the phone screen.

“Well damn.” Kelly said eyes widened.

“Hot right?” Ryan replied as they scrolled through Kate’s photos.

“Sure she’s hot alright, but she’s no damn Ryan Wilder. You’ve got her beat on your worst day Ry. I’ll slap Sophie myself if she doesn’t leave this toxic shit alone.” Kelly said as she continued scrolling.

“Well a girl could only hope.” Ryan sighed as she rested her head on Kelly’s shoulder.

They came to a photo of Kate and Sophie together and Kelly moved from Kate’s account to Sophie’s. Ryan sat up. “Wait a minute they were at least 20 more photos on there this morning.” Ryan said.

Kelly looked at Ryan. “Oh you have got it so bad.”

“Shut up, scroll down let me see.” Ryan looked at the phone screen intently as Kelly scrolled.

“It looks like all of the photos of her and Kate are gone.” Ryan’s eyes sparkled as she smiled.

“But wait, that doesn’t mean anything. She might just be upset and archived them all, we’ve all done that before.” She looked at Kelly.

“We have but maybe it means things with her and Kate are over.” Kelly said looking at Ryan with optimism in her eyes.

Kelly scrolled back to the top of the account and noticed Sophie’s story highlighted. “Uh wait that wasn’t there just now.” Kelly said. Kelly looked at Ryan and the two stared at each other before Ryan tried to snatch her phone from Kelly’s hand.

“Do not open that!” Ryan squealed!

“But I want to see what it says! And you know you do too!” Kelly whined as she tried to fight off Ryan while holding her hand out to keep the phone out of Ryan’s grasp.

“Sure I do, but in a couple hours! She just posted that I don’t want to be the first person who looks at it! She’ll think I’m stalking her accounts or something. What is wrong with you?!” Ryan threw herself on Kelly but she was still too short to reach the phone.

Kelly was 5’9 to her 5’3 frame and much stronger than Ryan.

“You gotta be way quicker and way taller sis!” Kelly brought her hand from up over her head so that the phone was in the air right above her face. Ryan was on top of her and she wrapped her legs around her small frame to keep her from moving.

“Oh I’m so not paying you this month!” Ryan said as she tried to free herself from Kelly’s hold.

“You say that every other day, that’s not even a legitimate threat anymore.” Kelly laughed.

Kelly tapped Sophie’s story and gasped.

“Holy Fuck!” Kelly screamed loosening her grip from Ryan’s waist.

“What?! Kelly what happened?!” Ryan yelled as she scrambled from Kelly’s hold to lay next to her.

“What let me see!” Ryan said.

Kelly handed Ryan the phone so that she could reopen the story and view it on her own. On opening the story Ryan sat up as Kelly watched her closely with her eyes glued to the phone screen.

Ryan took a screenshot of the screen and threw her head back.

“Well damn, Sophie.” She whispered.

Notes:

I couldn't leave you guys hanging like that! That last chapter was a lot, I know I know. Sophie is clearly a glutton for punishment but maybe the healing can start now. What's next for Sophie?

P.s Kate's strap game must be immaculate because the women are following her! LOL. :)

Thanks for the comments, you guys are hilarious! Thank you so much for sticking around! xxx

Chapter 9: Hell Hath No Fury Like a Sophie Scorned

Luke entered Sophie’s bedroom and walked over to the bed, setting the two bags in his hands at the foot of her king sized bed. Usually he would have put them on the couch in corner of her room but it was mostly empty because Sophie had packed up majority of the room two days prior.

He could hear music blasting from her AirPods under the sheets as she sobbed loudly. He sighed, took off his jacket and shoes and climbed into bed with her. Luke reached over to her and took the barely exposed pod out of her ear which prompted her to turn around.

She shuffled underneath the sheet for her phone and stopped the music.

“Hey..” Sophie said wiping her nose with a very used tissue. She turned her body and snuggled into Luke who kissed her on the forehead.

“Hey you. I brought supplies.” Luke smiled and gestured to the bags on the bed.

Luke attempted to move but Sophie held onto him. “Not yet Luke.”

Luke laid back as Sophie rested her head on his chest and he wrapped his arms around her. Luke looked up at the ceiling, “You know this will never not be creepy right?” Luke said.

“You should get you one, it’ll change your life.” Sophie smiled against Luke’s chest.

“Uh, I’m pretty sure I’m awkward enough in bed. I definitely don’t need to be watching myself have sex.” Luke laughed.

There was a large diamond cut ceiling mirror in Sophie’s room that reflected more than the entire king sized bed. Sophie had it installed several months ago hoping that it would spice up her sex life with Kate. Unfortunately, Kate hadn’t slept over very much since then and when they did have sex, it was at Kate’s apartment.
“Well how would you know? The last time I checked you haven’t been able to use this with Kate.” Luke said.

“I can do bad all by myself.” Sophie smiled. Kate hadn’t been able to experience the view from the bed but Sophie had definitely put it to use pleasuring herself when she got frustrated.

“Ok, that’s enough.” Luke moved Sophie and got up off the bed. He fixed his shirt and walked toward the bags he had placed not long ago. “Like I said, I brought supplies. I’ll be right back.” Luke disappeared into the kitchen and Sophie couldn’t help but smile as he walked away.

She sat up in the bed and gathered the sheet toward her chest and checked her phone. There were messages from Jordan and Mary. Jordan was checking in to make sure she was alright and she responded immediately not wanting Jordan to get too worried. Sophie absolutely loved Mary but right now she didn’t want to talk to anyone related to Kate. She knew she was being unfair because Mary had never given her a reason to question her loyalty but there was just too much happening right now.

Luke returned to the bedroom with two bottles of wine opened and handed them to Sophie who tossed her phone aside and took them with a smile on her face. Luke left the room once again and returned with two takeout containers from their favourite Chinese spot. Whenever Sophie needed to talk or vent, she usually met Luke at a cosy hideaway just outside of the city with two bottles of wine in her bag.

Sophie set the wine down on the side table in her room and took one of the containers from Luke who crawled into bed and sat next to her. “You know the drill. Come on now.” Luke said. Sophie passed him a bottle of wine and took the other in her hand. The two clicked the bottles together to cheers and took a gulp.

On lowering the bottle from his head Luke turned to Sophie. “I take it from the boxes outside, things didn’t exactly go as planned?” He asked with a raised eyebrow.

“Wait what?! She didn’t take her shit with her?” Sophie looked angry and annoyed.

“Uh no, she didn’t and there’s a note on the door addressed to you. I’m just going to go ahead and assume it’s from her.” Luke took another gulp from his bottle of wine and Sophie did the same. “Well after your text rant, I didn’t think I’d walk pass a bunch of boxes in the hallway.”

After Sophie got out of the shower she sent Luke a tearful rant about everything that took place. The talk with Kate ended quicker than she thought it would so she had plenty of time before Luke was set to arrive at her place. After texting Luke, she cuddled up in bed listening to music sobbing further into her pillow. The same position Luke found her in once he entered the bedroom.

“I don’t have time for this. I should be at my studio working on my pieces. After all of this I’m way behind now.” Sophie sighed and placed the bottle of wine on the side table, took up her food and took a bite.

“Ouh, that’s good.” Sophie threw her head back in enjoyment. “Wait how did you manage to drive out of the city and back here so quickly?” Sophie asked giving Luke a confused look.

“Oh I left as soon as you were on your fourth paragraph and the typing bubbles were still going. I know a Sophie SOS when I see one. I didn’t think ice cream and hugs would have done the trick this time.” Luke smiled in between bites.

“Thank you and for the record ice cream and hugs from you are always more than enough.” The two smiled at each other and Luke gave Sophie a playful nudge on her arm with his elbow.

The smile from Luke’s face disappeared after. “What’s wrong?” Sophie asked looking concerned. Luke wasn’t one to wear his emotions on his face for others to see unless it was serious.

He composed himself and put down both his food and wine and turned to Sophie.

“Oh this is serious.” Sophie followed him and emptied her hands.

Luke sighed. “I know normally I just let you vent or do whatever it is you need in order to get through whatever you’re going through and I’m always going to be that for you. I promise. But Soph, enough is enough. You deserve so much better than this. Especially because now Kate could very well be putting your life in danger again.” Luke said with a concerned look in his eyes.

“I promise you this time I’m done. There’s no coming back from this and I honestly feel like I need to be setting a better example for Jordan as a big sister. She hasn’t said it but I know one of the reasons she hasn’t been in a serious relationship is because of me.” Sophie looked sad as she spoke to Luke.

“Self-awareness.” Luke smiled. “Well I really hope all of that is true. If this woman wants Kate, let her have her Sophie. Take some time for yourself, maybe have some fun. Fall in love with Soph again.”

Sophie smiled, acknowledging Luke’s words. “Wait a minute, what do you mean she could be putting my life in danger again?” Sophie asked confused.

“Oh you’re gonna need to take back up that bottle for this one.” Luke sighed grabbing his wine and taking two large gulps gesturing for Sophie to do the same. The two stared at the bottles in their hands and then laughed. “It’s a good thing I’m taking the rest of the week off.” Luke said.

He quickly refocused as the conversation was serious. “I did some digging on the number you sent me and it was the first time I had to work so hard. So here’s the deal, Erin’s real name is not really Erin, it’s Jackie. There’s a warrant out for her arrest and the information is so classified that I had to move from my office to the cave.

To the world Luke was just the brains behind Fox Enterprises but Luke did private work for the governments of many different countries. Once the level of his work increased two years ago he built an underground fortress under his company’s building that could only be accessed secretly from his office. The only person who had been down there and knew how to get in was Sophie.

“Listen Soph, she is dangerous. She is wanted in eight different countries for a range of things like attempted murder, arson, assault with a deadly weapon, kidnapping just to name a few. Plus, she’s listed as a sociopath and a psychopath with multiple personality disorder.” Luke took another gup of wine and Sophie did the same.

The more Luke said the more Sophie got a bad feeling in her gut. She remembered Ryan’s words “All she’s offering is a ride on the crazy go around.” Sophie said out loud which got her a confused look from Luke.

“Nothing just something Ryan said.” Luke noticed the smile on Sophie’s lips with the mention of Ryan’s name but now wasn’t the time to mention, this was way more important.

“So I know you’re planning to move still but I don’t think you should stay here tonight. Actually I think we should clear out before we leave. Do you want to stay with me until you find a place or with Jordan?” Luke asked.

“Well Ryan said I could stay at the Cabin until the end of the week or until I found a place. She has a ton of business to do in the city so she will be at her place across town for a few days before heading home.” Sophie again blushed at the mention of Ryan’s name from her lips.

“Ok so for the rest of the week we’re house hunting, my agent already has a bunch of places lined us for us to see.” Luke smiled. He knew how much Sophie had going on already and as always he wanted to take some of the pressure off of her shoulders.

“Luke I don’t even know what to say, all of that is crazy. Trust Kate to find the craziest of crazies to bring into my life. Well once and for all I’m done, she can keep the crazy.”

The two clinked bottles. “To moving on and never looking back.” Luke said. “And to never settling for less again.” Sophie followed. The two smiled as Luke pulled out his phone.

“What are you doing?” Sophie asked.

“Oh I’m confirming the movers to get the rest of your stuff when we leave.” Luke smiled. “There, it’s done.” Luke tossed his phone on the large bed.

“So Ryan.” Sophie said as her light brown eyes twinkled.

“What about her?” Luke raised an eyebrow.

“Actually it doesn’t matter.” Sophie took up her wine and took another massive gulp. As she was about to take another Luke grabbed the bottle and looked Sophie in the face.

“Arguably it matters even more now.” The two stared at each other.

“Fine.” Sophie pulled the bottle from Luke’s grasp and took a sip.

“Why do I feel like she’s connected to everyone around me but I had no idea who she was?”

“Kill the dramatics, Jordan and I hardly constitute as everyone you know.” Luke said.

“Whatever! How have you never mentioned her? Or introduced us?”

“I think that’s more of a question for Jordan. Sure Jordan introduced us and I did the design for her Cabin but I don’t really know much about Ryan. Everything I know I learned during the few times we saw each other.” Luke said.

“Oh so it’s Jordan’s fault I didn’t meet her sooner.” Sophie said raising the bottle to her head.

“Uh maybe you should slow down. Also what exactly do you mean by that?” Luke leaned in with waiting for Sophie’s response.

“Yes I know I’m in the middle of a chaotic breakup and I probably shouldn’t be even letting this this run through my brain.” Sophie sighed and rubbed the back of her neck.

“I can’t get her out of my mind. From the time I opened my door and saw her and smelled her, I can’t stop thinking about her. Her big brown eyes are so dreamy and that smile. Fuck Luke her smile is beautiful. She just has a calm reassuming energy about her.” Sophie smiled.

“Wait you got all that from one photo shoot session?” Luke shook his head. “Maybe all of this stuff you have going on with Kate is making Ryan seem extra appealing?” Luke asked.

“I wish that was it, cause then these feelings would be easier to identify. We’ve been texting and uh… we kinda spent hours talking on FaceTime and watching Netflix last night. We fell asleep on the call together.” Sophie smiled remembering the night she had with Ryan.

“I don’t know; I feel like I wish I didn’t have all of this going on. I would have asked her out the same day I met her. The energy was that deep.”

“So what exactly is stopping you from doing that after you move and get situated?” Luke asked.

“She’s amazing and fun. Which I agree with you, I need something light and fun but I don’t want to bring drama to her life. Based on everything she told me about her so far, sounds like she’s had enough drama for a lifetime.” Sophie sighed.

Sophie ran her hand through her opened hair as Luke just listened silently.

“I’m committed to working through my crap in therapy but what if when I’m all healed she’s in a relationship? What if I’m too late?” The terrified look on Sophie’s face prompted Luke to interject before Sophie went any further into her brain.

“Your ability to overthink everything never seizes to amaze me. Soph, you just met Ryan. Slow down. You’re right. Ryan is beautiful, I mean she’s no Mary but she’s gorgeous.” As Sophie was about to interject, Luke cut her off.

“We’re not talking about me! Zip it.”
“Fine but we’re definitely circling back there.” Sophie teased.

“I know you spent a lot of time on this rollercoaster with Kate but it doesn’t mean that you have to rush. Right now let’s focus on finding you a house, getting you a therapist and killing this gallery show.”

“Just be honest with Ryan as you two get to know each other. Even when you’re overthinking, tell her what’s going on in your head. Let her really know the true you. Let her decide what’s too much.” Luke gave Sophie a warm smile.

“Now if only you could take your own advice?”

‘We’re still not talking about me! Eat your food.” Luke smiled.

Luke was very much planning on telling Mary how he feels about her when she returns from her trip. He’s not quite sure how he’s going to do it but he needs Sophie in a better head space to talk him into it when he starts to back out.

“So spill, I want to hear everything about this Netflix and virtual chill.” Luke smiled.

Sophie got lost smiling and laughing telling Luke all about Ryan. From the first time they met, the conversations they had, the cute banter and how nice she was to offer up her home to Sophie when she was in need. Luke watched Sophie swoon over Ryan while he interjected to ask questions about the events that transpired over the last two days.

“I learned so much over the last couple days. Jordan has a whole crush.” Sophie said.

“Oh yeah, Phillipe. Great guy.” Luke sipped his wine looking away from Sophie.

“Wait YOU know about Phillipe?!” Sophie gasped. “What else aren’t you telling me Luke Fox!” Sophie threw her phone at Luke.

“Seriously?!” Luke caught the phone and laughed. ‘

“I saw the way they interacted with each other when I did the walk through at Ryan’s with some of my guys. It’s really hard not to notice. They stare at each other like they’re both naked. It’s kinda disgusting.” Luke scoffed.

He saw Jordan as his baby sister and watching her and Phillipe flirt endlessly without either of them saying anything was enough for him.

“Right?! It so caught me off guard.” Sophie laughed, almost spilling her wine.

“Ok, maybe we’ve both had enough. They both looked at their bottles noticing that they both were more than half way gone.

“The movers will be here soon and I take it you’re not taking Kate’s things with you so what are you going to do?” Luke asked.

Sophie grunted in annoyance. “Why would she do that?”

“Come on you know the answer to that. It’s because she doesn’t think you’re really done this time Soph. Like all of the other times. You throw a tantrum, she begs and you forgive her. Honestly. I really hope you meant everything you said and you’re really done.” Luke said as he got off the bed.

“Wait a minute don’t drop a bomb and walk away, come back here.” Sophie yelled.

Luke laughed, “Bombs are usually unexpected, I’m pretty sure you saw that coming. I need to use the bathroom, that wine is running through me.”

Luke disappeared into the bathroom and Sophie took a sip of her wine throwing her head onto the soft backboard. She looked at her refection in from the ceiling mirror as a million things swirled around in her brain. Luke was right, Kate probably thinks that she’s a joke. She’s probably expecting a call at some point to continue the conversation they were having in the kitchen. Sophie rubbed her forehead remembering Kate whispering in her ear and immediately cringed at the thought. This was it though, she was done. It would be tough to get pass but she would do everything she could to move forward.

Sophie hopped out of bed and headed toward the living room, she opened the door to her apartment and saw all of the boxes in the same place she left them a couple hours ago and rolled her eyes. She grabbed the envelope that was stuck onto the door and went back inside. Walking back to the bedroom Sophie began to open the envelope and was stopped suddenly when something fell out. “What the fuck?!” Sophie yelled and Luke came running out of the bedroom to meet her.

“Soph you ok?!” Luke looked alarmed like he was ready to throw down.

Sophie grabbed the engagement ring from the floor and showed Luke who sighed. She pulled the piece of paper out of the envelope and read it out lout.

“Soph, things have gotten crazy and I’m sorry for that but I meant it when I said forever.”

Sophie sighed. “I guess me putting her things out in the hallway wasn’t clear enough.” Sophie marched past Luke into the bedroom giving him the note and the ring. “She returned with her keys and phone dressed in long sweats, a hoodie and slides. “Put on your shoes. I’m gonna need your help. Oh and grab the marker from the bathroom sink and bring those with you.” She said as she gestured to the note and the engagement ring.

Both Luke and Sophie were pretty buzzed by now from the amount of wine they consumed. Luke didn’t think twice, he rushed and grabbed everything and met Sophie outside of her apartment door with two boxes of Kate’s things in hand and the duffle on her shoulder. “Grab those and let’s go.” Sophie smiled using her head to point to two remaining boxes.

Luke raised his eyebrows in shock. “Soph, what are you doing? Given the amount of wine we both drank, maybe whatever you’re planning to do isn’t a good idea?”

“Maybe not but I’ve made up my mind, now grab those boxes and move your ass!” Sophie darted toward the elevator. Luke sighed and grabbed the boxes and followed behind her.

On their way down the elevator lift. Luke and Sophie looked at the stuff in their hands, looked at each other and then burst into laughter. The realization of what was taking place was serious but after having downed almost a bottle of wine each, laughter just jumped out of them.

They got to the ground floor and exited the building as the building receptionist watched them confused.

“Sophie this is a terrible idea.” Luke stopped in front of the building and dropped the boxes on the curb.

Outside of Sophie’s apartment was never very busy because she didn’t live on a major street. So while there were cars and people passing by it was much less in comparison to where Jordan lived in the city.

Sophie turned around. “It is but you’re right, I’m not taking this stuff with me and I don’t want to have to deal with it after I leave. She chose to leave it when I specifically asked her to take it. So grab your bundle and come on.”

Luke sighed and grabbed the boxes and followed Sophie to the end of the curb and around the corner where she came to a halt by other boxes that were packed up behind a locked enclosed gated area marked “Donations.”

Sophie looked at Luke. “Mr’s. Allen who lives in this building runs a huge donation charity for inner city kids. I donate all the time and Jordan sometimes collects for her kids at the community centre. She has a truck come every Wednesday at noon to collect so Kate has until then to get her stuff from here.”

Sophie dropped the boxes and duffle in the front of her and started digging into the pockets of her sweats.

“Uh, it’s locked with a key so what am I missing? How is she going to get it? Call Mrs. Allen and convince her that this stuff is hers?” Luke looked very confused until Sophie pulled out her keys and walked toward the doorway.

“Kate donates every other Wednesday; Mrs. Allen loves her. Kate outfits all of the children in her programme with electronics and whatever school supplies they need. She’s a huge donor. She has a key as well.” Sophie opened the door. “She can have fun explaining to Mrs. Allen why her stuff is in here if she sees her removing it. I don’t care.”

“Ok this is crazy but it’s clever. Her stuff is safe here and we don’t have to do too much. Who are you and where is Sophie?” Luke laughed as he walked by pass Sophie and set his boxes down amongst the others. Sophie followed and did the same.

“Give me the marker and the envelope with the ring.” Sophie looked at Luke.

Luke handed the envelope to Sophie. “Soph.. I know you’re upset but that’s a $300,000 ring.”

“She spends that in a week sometimes, with everything she’s put me through I could care less what happens to this ring.” Sophie snarled.

“Forget I even said anything.” Luke smiled and watched Sophie as she pulled out the note and left the ring in the envelope.

She popped the cap off the marker and wrote clearly on the blank side of the paper.

“You know where this is. Pick up your shit or it will be donated.”

Sophie closed the marker shoved it her pocket and pulled out her phone. She rested the note down on one of the boxes and took a picture clear enough to see the words on the paper. She put the envelope with the ring inside of the duffle and tucked the note in the outside pocket slightly exposed. She exited the gate and locked it as Luke drew close to her and watched her. She opened her Instagram and added the photo to her story. Luke gasped.

“Sophie Moore you wouldn’t!” Luke yelled as a laugh followed right behind. “Ok we definitely had too much to drink because I can’t even stop you. I don’t even want to stop you.”

Sophie held up her head and gave Luke a face that he knew meant not to interfere. She tagged Kate in the post and looked at Luke.

“Here goes nothing.” Sophie hid her eyes with her finger hoovering over the action to post. She started overthinking and second guessing but Luke quietly got closer to her and sent the post to her story.

“There it’s done!” Like grabbed Sophie’s phone tucked it in his pocket and smiled. He knew there was a huge possibility that she would go back and delete it but this was the bravest thing she had done in her relationship with Kate. He was so proud.

“Oh my God, what did we just do?!” Sophie yelled as she removed her hand from her face.

“We’re setting you free, sis. By any means necessary. Now let’s get out of here.” Luke threw arm over Sophie as the two walked back to her apartment.

“Thanks for always being down for whatever Luke.” Sophie hugged Luke as they walked.

“Thanks for always trusting me to be there for you.” Luke kissed Sophie on her head.

“Damn that felt good. Way to go Soph! Sophie yelled as the two laughed hand in hand.

Notes:

What ya'll think? Was Sophie right for what she did? Did she go too far? My answer is NAHHH cause I personally was putting them all in the trash. Lol :)
P.s. Luke is the true definition of a ride or die!

Sorry I disappeared, it's been a busy last few days but I'm back! Thanks for sticking around! xxx

Chapter 10: The Start Of Something New

It’s 10:30PM and Sophie is lying in bed replaying the contents of her day. Once she and Luke returned to her apartment they finished their wine while directing the movers on what to take into her storage unit. They were quick and quite thorough even uninstalling the mirrors from the ceiling. Sophie packed up what little stuff was left in a carrying case and brought it with her back to Ryan’s. Luke drove behind the movers to the storage unit to make sure everything went smoothly. He called Sophie once everything was done and told her he would pick her tomorrow to see the first of five homes.

Once Sophie got back to the cabin she avoided her social media apps. She turned off her notifications to avoid the chaos she knew was taking place in her DMs and iMessage. However, once she settled into bed she wanted to see if there were any messages from Ryan. Although she knew there wouldn’t be any as she had a busy day and a really late flight. Sophie opted not check her messages but instead pulled up her emails. Her assistant Drew sent her the the schedule for the following week. They had spoken briefly on the phone on her car ride to her apartment to meet Kate so she already had an idea of what to expect; smiling seeing Ryan’s name being her first meeting on Monday with her manager Kelly.

Suddenly there’s a knock at Sophie’s door. “It’s me Soph.” Jordan whispered from the door and pushed it open.

“Hey Jay.” Sophie smiled sweetly at her sister. “How did it go?” Sophie asked.

While Luke still had Sophie’s phone pocketed. Jordan called to tell her that she had an emergency while leaving the community centre. There was an incident involving one of the girls and she needed to rush to the police station so she wasn’t sure how long she would be.

With an exasperated sound Jordan threw herself on the bed next to Sophie. “Jake picked up Joey in front of the corner store on Drax Avenue.” Jordan sighed.

Sophie had an alarmed look on her face.

“Yes that corner store and yes, yes she was but cocaine this time not weed.” Jordan threw a hand on her forehead.

Joey Chesterfield was one of the many teens at Jordan’s Community Centre. A year ago her grandmother brought the now 14-year-old by hoping it would keep her out of trouble. Unfortunately, she seldom came unless she got into trouble and was forced to. She would then show up for a couple weeks and then disappear. However, since Sophie started teaching photography at the Community Centre she came for all of Sophie’s classes and workshops. Sophie was quite fond of Joey. When she came to the class for the first time, afterward she spent an hour talking to Sophie and showing her the photos she took with her phone. She really had an eye much like Sophie did at her age for art. Once Sophie mentioned her excitedly to Jordan, Jordan was surprised, asking Sophie countless times if they were talking about the same person. She was that much of a troublemaker that Jordan couldn’t believe the sweet interaction the two shared, let alone her not disrupting Sophie’s class and getting kicked out.

“She’s lucky it was Jake this time, he totally saved her ass.” Jordan continued.

Jake was a local detective officer who volunteered at the Community Centre.

“So he didn’t book her?” Sophie asked with worry on her face.

“No he sat her in his office until I got there and of course she refused to say where she got the drugs from or who she was selling them for. I don’t know what else to do with her. When I dropped her home her grandmother looked so tired, like she also didn’t know what else to do.” Jordan had a sadness on her face.

“I’m really hoping I can convince her to join the mentorship project I’m starting in two weeks. The only problem is that I don’t know any of my counsellors or teachers who won’t fight me about taking her. She’s burned the bridge with every last one of them.” Jordan looked stress, making sure everyone at the centre was accounted for was always one of her goals but this one would prove difficult. Joey hadn’t been to the Centre in a while and she knew it was probably because Sophie didn’t have time to conduct her class. However with everything Sophie had going on she couldn’t possibly ask her sister for help.

“Actually. How about you add me to the project? I would only be able to take on one person either way and I love Jo. I’d be happy to.” Sophie smiled.

“Soph you don’t have to do this just because I’m venting.” Jordan’s face was soft.

“It’s not that at all. Phillipe mentioned at breakfast this morning. He said it was something you guys talked about. I’m assuming before or after you were naked in the hallway.” Sophie raised an eyebrow.

“After but that’s beside the point.” Jordan said.

“Well from the time he mentioned I knew I’d be interested. I just figured someone would be assigned to me but if I had a choice I’d definitely choose her.” Sophie knew Joey on a much deeper level than everyone did. Their after class chat even sometimes turned into dinner and a movie before Sophie dropped her home.

Jordan threw herself into Sophie’s arms. “Thank you Soph, you’re the best.” Jordan yawned as she released Sophie.

“I’m too tired for the movie sis, I have an early meeting but I do need to hear about everything that went down with Kate. I saw the post and gasped but I’m so proud of you Soph. I’m glad you’re finally standing up for yourself.” Jordan smiled.

“Thanks Jay. I promise to dish tomorrow. Plus, you owe me details. Don’t think you’re getting off that easy.” Sophie nudged Jordan.

“Yeah I promise. Plus, I need your advice.” Jordan smiled.

“I got you, maybe you can also give your big sis some as well.” Sophie hugged Jordan goodnight and she left the room for bed.

Once Jordan left the room Sophie grabbed her computer in hopes of going through the paces to get back to work on her upcoming pieces. After seeing places with Luke tomorrow the plan was to head to her studio and stay there until the last piece was finished and ready to print. It would be a very long day and night but she was prepared for it. Nothing made Sophie’s heart sing like throwing herself into her art.
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After finishing her own work Sophie still couldn’t get to sleep, so she decided to grab her computer once again and edit the sunflower image she wanted to print and gift to Ryan. She saved the file once she was finished and packed away her computer. By the time she finished it was just after midnight and she still wasn’t feeling very sleepy. Sophie hopped out of bed and headed downstairs to make herself some tea. She slowed her steps as she got closer to the kitchen because she picked up a familiar scent. She entered the kitchen to see Ryan at the cupboard trying to reach a box on the top shelf. Sophie stopped and took in the sight.

“Oh Phillipe, can you please stop putting stuff out of my reach. A girl just wants some damn tea.” Ryan mumbled as Sophie stifled her laugh.

Sophie watched the younger woman taking small jumps trying to reach the highest shelf. She was wearing nothing but a black strapless crop top with no bra, having taken off the black checkered flannel shirt she wore over it and a pair of black jeans that were definitely made for her ass. Sophie watched the sexiness of her small but extremely fit physique as she jumped up and down. Her soft brown hair bouncing as she tried relentlessly to grab the large pack of bulk unopened tea.

This was the first time Sophie was getting to admire Ryan for longer than two seconds in person. This was the first time she really let her eyes wander as she took in the younger woman. Sophie shook her head and walked slowly behind Ryan. She grabbed her around the thighs just under her very round ass and hoisted her up so she could reach the packet.

Ryan was startled at first but then giggled as she grabbed the pack from the shelf and Sophie lowered her back down. Their eyes met once Ryan’s feet touch the ground and the gaze remained between the two as Ryan put the packet on the counter top.

“Hi.” They both said at the same time which made both women laugh.

“Thank you for that but I’m pretty sure I had it.” Ryan smiled at Sophie melting the older woman.

“Sure you did.” Sophie said as she walked over to a stool and sat.

“You know I could have been an intruder. Who laughs when someone accosts them in their home after midnight and lifts them up?” Sophie shook her head as she watched Ryan get two cups without asking.

Ryan laughed. “I knew it was you.” Sophie noticed the shy look on her face before she turned around to grab the hot water.

“You knew it was me? How?” Sophie asked.

“You always smell really sweet. It’s hard to forget, it’s unique.” Ryan smiled as she walked toward Sophie with both cups. She placed Sophie’s in front of her and got up on the stool next to her.

“I don’t mean to ask what you’re doing here because this is your place but I thought you’d be in the city for a few days?” Sophie asked turning to face Ryan.

“That was the plan. I barely finished taking a shower before the electricity went out. The generator never kicked in it seems to have some issue they’re still trying to rectify. After waiting 20 minutes they had no idea how long it would be back up so I dressed with my phone light and left. I should have called I’m sorry, I just figured you’d be sleeping from the day you had.”

Ryan had a soft concerned look on her face. She knew shit had to have popped off for Sophie to make the post she did. However, she didn’t want to bring it up unless Sophie did. She wanted to give her the space to have whatever kind of night she wanted.

“I tried my best but the sleep wouldn’t come. I even worked hoping that it would tire me. I just finished up and came down here for some tea thinking it would smooth my brain. I didn’t expect to find a jumping midget.” Sophie teased.

“I’m never gonna live down you helping me there am I?” Ryan cocked her head to the side with a smug smile on her face.

Sophie’s body against hers was now imprinted in her brain. Ryan got hot just thinking about how Sophie had just effortlessly picked her up. She knew she was fit but damn, it’s going to be hard to focus for the rest of the night.

“Never.” Without thinking about it Sophie reached in and tucked the hair on the right side of Ryan’s face behind her ear.

It took both women by surprise but as always Ryan quickly grabbed Sophie from her thoughts before she spun them too far left.

“Hey. You’re always good with me remember? That was sweet. Thanks for moving my hair. I always get it in my mouth with my tea.” Ryan’s words immediately put Sophie at ease.

“Of course you do.” Sophie laughed and the smile immediately disappeared from her face and Ryan grabbed her hand.

“I mean it, you’re good with me.” Ryan said softly.

“It’s not that…” Sophie’s voice trailed off.

Ryan stayed silent giving Sophie the chance to get out whatever she was running through her brain for approval.

Sophie came out of her thoughts and brought her eyes back to Ryan’s. “I think you’re so beautiful. I knew it was you even before I entered the kitchen. Your scent has been wrapped around my brain since you showed up at my door. I think you are brave, strong, resilient and just a gem of a woman.” Ryan attempted to talk but Sophie stopped her.

“Wait let me finish.” Sophie noticed how soft Ryan’s eyes got and it gave her the courage to continue.

“I don’t know where you came from but somehow I think you’re right on time. As I say this I’m battling in my head if I should even be saying any of this but Luke told me to be honest with you about how I feel and everything going on in my head.” Sophie paused again and Ryan began caressing her hand in hers to soothe her.

“I don’t want to bring drama to your life. I think you’ve had a lifetime of that already. I know we’re just new friends right now and this is probably the most unfair thing I could ever ask but will you wait for me? I know I have a lot to work through but I’m committed to giving myself permission to see what I look like at my very best. Through all of that I want you around with the knowledge that I want more than friendship with you Ryan.” There was silence between the two women. Sophie looked down at Ryan caressing her hand and sighed as her brain started to run.

Ryan used a hand and lifted Sophie’s gaze to meet hers. As she stared into Sophie’s light eyes, she spotted the fear in them. Ryan smiled at Sophie and then pulled her seat closer toward her.

“Soph, that was unbelievably honest and brave. I love that you’re telling me what’s going on in your head. Luke is right because it’s what will bring us closer together. You can trust me; I want to be there to help you through all of this. You deserve to have someone there to uplift you, support you and be a shoulder for you to cry on if that’s what you need. If I’m honest one of the reasons I never pushed to meet you or be around you was because I knew you had a girlfriend but these past few days have shown me that no matter what I did, this was probably inevitable.” Ryan stuck her hand out and caressed Sophie’s cheek and the older woman leaned into it and closed her eyes.

“I’d be happy to continue this friendship to MORE.” Ryan smiled and raised both her eyebrows as Sophie stifled a laugh.

“See what I did there? Dang, I’m funny.” Ryan laughed as Sophie shook her head. Ryan removed her hand from Sophie’s face and held both in her hands.

“You’re worth the wait, Soph.” Ryan leaned in and kissed Sophie on both cheeks and her forehead.

“So are we good?” Ryan pulled away looking at Sophie.

“Yes, we’re good but if it gets to be too much..” Before Sophie finished Ryan interjected.

“Let me decide what is too much. If things get overwhelming, we will communicate and work through it. I’m not going anywhere.” Ryan’s words were enough for Sophie in the moment. Ryan just had a way of making her feel like everything would be ok.

Sophie got off her seat and gave Ryan the same kisses the younger woman had just given her. Sophie held her lips on Ryan longer for each kiss and then grabbed her face with both hands and stared into her gorgeous brown eyes.

“I could get lost in these eyes.” Sophie said softly.

“That makes two of us.” Ryan whispered.

“Thank you, you’re everything Wilder.”

The two stared at each other until Sophie broke their gaze and sat back down grabbing her tea and taking a sip. She smiled over the cup to her face at Ryan who blushed deeply at the older woman.
“So I met the other woman today.” Sophie said randomly.

“I uh.. almost slept with Kate but this woman Erin, wait no Luke said her real name is Jackie, showed up at my door looking for Kate. Now that I’m thinking about it. I’m really glad she did.” Sophie sighed.

“How did she know where you live?” Ryan asked looking concerned.

“She followed Kate to my apartment.” Sophie laughed.

“Oh wow. Wait what do you mean by her real name is Jackie?” Ryan asked looking confused.

“Oh Ry, there’s so much to tell you about today.” Sophie said putting down her tea.

Sophie rattled off the contents of the day down to getting a little wasted with Luke. She watched the first frown on Ryan’s face when she told her everything that happened at the table between her and Kate before Erin knocked at the door. Ryan was in disbelief; she couldn’t believe what Kate had put her through. She was further stunned to learn about who Erin really was. The more Sophie spoke Ryan’s heart broke for her, in just a few days her world had been turned upside down. As she got to the end of her story, Ryan could see the sadness leave Sophie’s face as she talked about how Luke had been there for her. The two broke out into laughter when Sophie mentioned that Luke posted the photo and then snatched her phone away and pocketed it.

“Wow, every time I think your stories can’t get any crazier you prove me wrong. That was a lot to have to go through.” Ryan said as she rubbed Sophie’s thigh, soothing her.

“It was but I’m glad it’s over. I can’t believe Bette was right. Some lesbians you really do have to break up with them more than once.” The two women laughed as they finished their tea.

“Well I’m glad I came home tonight; I can’t imagine missing this.” Ryan smiled.

“Me either Ry.” Sophie smiled as Ryan got down from her seat taking both their cups and washing them up.

“I can never sleep when I get in from a late flight, so I’m heading up to my room to watch a movie. Would you like to join me?” Ryan asked as she grabbed her phone from the counter and walked toward Sophie.

She noticed the indecision on Sophie’s face. “Hey, there’s no pressure. It’s just a movie, plus it’s not like you haven’t been in my room before.” Ryan raised an eyebrow and smiled deviously at Sophie.

“Hey you have two more times to bring that up!” Sophie teased.

“Or what?” Ryan asked.

Sophie grabbed Ryan and started tickling her. The giggles that left her were cute and the sweetest noises to Sophie’s ears. She could definitely get used to this.

Sophie pulled Ryan into a hug from behind and whispered into her ear. “Exactly, that’s what I thought.”

Ryan rested her head back on Sophie and the two stood in an embrace for a few seconds.

“Come on, let’s go. Let’s watch Sense 8 though, this time we get to watch it in person. Oh and you can tell me all about your trip.”

The two went up the stairs and made their way to Ryan’s room. They were lost in conversation before they started the show only pausing to stray once so that Ryan could command Mack to do a full shutdown for the night and secure the property. Ryan got into bed and held her hand out to Sophie who stood at the side of the bed. Sophie smiled giving Ryan her hand. The younger woman pulled her onto the bed and Sophie got closer to her and Ryan rested her head on Sophie’s shoulder.

“Sure you’re alright?” Ryan asked.

“Best I’ve felt all day.” Sophie smiled as the show began.

Notes:

Sophie better not mess up this friendship with Ryan. I have a feeling Erin/Jackie whatever her name is chyle, is about to become a menace.

Chapter 11: Pillow Talk

The urge to use the bathroom woke Sophie from her sleep. She opened her eyes to see Ryan cuddled on the other side of the bed away from her. She checked the time on Ryan’s phone on the bedside table and it was just minutes away from 3AM. Sophie tried to make as little noise as possible as she got out of bed not wanting to wake Ryan. She used the bathroom quietly and started to tip toe her way out of the bedroom to her own room.

“You don’t have to leave.” Ryan said in a low voice but loud enough that Sophie could hear her.

Sophie smiled and walked toward Ryan’s side of the bed and sat on the edge.

“I thought I’d let you get some rest.” Sophie palmed Ryan’s hair and removed some strands from her face.

“I wasn’t sleeping, I’ve been up. I don’t exactly get great sleep these days.” Ryan said in a low voice.

“Can you please stay?” Ryan’s voice was low and now needy as well. Each word pulled at Sophie’s heart strings as they left Ryan’s lips.

Without responding Sophie climbed over Ryan and into the bed. She pulled the younger woman onto her chest and wrapped her arms around her.

“What’s keeping you up?” Sophie whispered into Ryan’s hair.

Ryan sighed. “I think my birth mom is alive.” Ryan muttered.

Sophie knew Ryan’s entire back story so she knew this was a huge deal.

“Ry that’s major, what’s given you that idea.” Sophie asked.

Although she didn’t want to Ryan untangled herself from Sophie’s warm embrace. The older woman felt so good that she felt her entire body relax once she was cuddled in Sophie’s arms. The two were lying facing each other with only a small space between them as they spoke.

Sophie searched Ryan’s eyes and saw the hesitancy to continue.

“You’re good with me too Wilder, I promise.” Sophie smiled.

There it was, those eyes, even in the darkness undressing the deepest parts of Ryan.

Ryan bit her bottom lip and then continued. “A few weeks ago Kelly dragged me to a huge charity event over in Rosewood Hills. There were some directors and television executives there that she thought it would be a great idea to rub shoulders with. I didn’t really want to go but I sucked it up and went.”

Sophie stayed totally silent giving Ryan the space to get out everything she wanted to.

“Kelly walked us over to an older group of black women while giving me their background before we reached them. These women were fly as hell and all billionaires. She thought it would be great to meet them seeing how they made big contributions to inner city programmes and community centres to help at risk kids. One woman in particular, was a huge financial donor toward foster care kids who aged out of the system. Kelly said she spent millions every year making donations through her company Jeturian Industries. “

Ryan paused and Sophie watched the confusion in her eyes as though she was reliving the moment. Sophie softly caressed Ryan’s arm and the younger woman continued.

“She shook my hand and introduced herself and it was like someone poured ice water down my back. The floor suddenly didn’t seem sturdy but I did everything I could to hold it together so that Kelly wouldn’t notice.” Ryan sighed.

Knowing she was keeping this from Kelly was bothering her deeply but she knew Kelly would jump right on it and she needed time to process. There was no closing that door once it was opened.

“I know it’s not enough to go on but since meeting Jada Jet, I can’t help but wonder.”

Ryan was told that her birth mom died during childbirth and the story surrounding her entry into the world always seemed strange. She poked all the holes in it as a child but once she was adopted by Mama Cora she totally let it go. She had mentioned all of this to Sophie during their very long FaceTime conversation.

“If you have another family out there.” Sophie said softly. She knew that Mama Cora was Ryan’s family first and she wouldn’t dare suggest otherwise.

“I wish I didn’t go to that damn event. I would have avoided all of this.” Ryan said.

“I can’t put my finger on what it was but even her voice unravelled me.”

There was silence between the two while Sophie caressed Ryan’s arm waiting to see if the younger woman had more to say. When Ryan didn’t continue, Sophie knew that was her window.

“Hey do you want me to ask Luke to look into it. On the DL?” Sophie smiled.

Ryan’s eyes perked up. “Sophie I couldn’t ask you to do that.”

“You’re not asking, I’m offering. It’s really the least I could do for someone who saved my life.” Sophie smiled placing a hand on Ryan’s cheek.

“So it’s settled. I’ll ask Luke today while we’re house hunting.”

Ryan smiled. “Thank you.”

Ryan scooted a little closer to Sophie, closing the gap between the two.

“Is it terrible that I don’t want you to find a place so that you can stay here?” Ryan said with a smile.

“Not terrible but eventually I’d like to at least take you out on a date, kiss you for the first time, meet your friends. You know, how this really should have gone?” Sophie smiled.

“There’s a few things I’d love to do with you before we start living together.” Sophie couldn’t help the smile on her lips.

“This has all been so upside down and it’s not how I’d like to find myself in a woman’s bed twice in a row.” Sophie chuckled.

“So we’re doing things differently what’s wrong with that? Does it all seem too fast?” Ryan asked.

“It’s not that at all. I know we just met but somehow it still doesn’t feel fast. It feels like it’s going like it’s supposed to, so I’m just letting it happen. I also feel like though I’m hurt by what Kate did, if I’m honest with myself I feel a sense of relief now that I no longer have to force her to want me in the ways I need.” Sophie sighed.

“It’s like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders huh?” Ryan asked.

“I do feel lighter and much safer.” Sophie threw an arm across Ryan’s waist and Ryan did the same.

“So none of this is weird for you?” Sophie asked.

“Wait hold a second.” Ryan said leaning back enough to tap a button on the large remote on bedside table. A ring of yellow lights immediately surrounded the bed frame illuminating the two women in low light. It was beautiful.

Ryan shuffled herself back to the position she was with Sophie. “There that’s better, I always want to see this face, those eyes.” Ryan whispered.

Ryan wasn’t ready for the way the light bounced off Sophie’s eyes. It was like staring into a rich golden sunset with beautiful sprinkles of rich bronze and brown. It was like watching a meteor shower up close as the reflection of the lights twinkled in Sophie’s eyes.

“Fuck, you’re beautiful.” Ryan said softly drawing her face closer to Sophie’s so that their noses were almost touching.

“So are you Ry.” Sophie stared into Ryan’s big deep, bright and wanting brown eyes as she spoke. She pulled away a little but Ryan grabbed her.

“I just want to drink you in. Smell you. Rub my face on yours. Since you scooped me up in the kitchen I don’t ever want you not touching me.” Ryan smiled with her lips not far away from Sophie’s. The two inhaling each other with each breath.

“It’s funny you’d say that because my face is still tingling from those kisses you gave me in the kitchen. Those lips are dangerous aren’t they?” Sophie’s voice was low and husky.

“Be careful Moore. Between those eyes and your voice, I’m not sure how much more I can take. I know you lingered those kisses on purpose. Sent chills down my spine, it took everything in me not to grab your face and kiss your lips.” Ryan said softly.

Sophie drew closer so their lips slightly grazed as she spoke. “Oh really, so what’s stopping you now” Sophie purred, she knew exactly what she was doing to Ryan.

Ryan smiled softly rubbing her nose against Sophie’s. Sophie inhaled and released her breath with a low moan. Who was this woman, where did she come from? Sophie’s moan was one of content and bliss. Like she just walked in from a long day, she felt at home. She felt like she belonged. Like Ryan housed a space that was made only for her and that nose rub gave her a full view. It give her spirit, her heart and her body a front row seat.

Ryan giggled low and soft sending a massive churn through Sophie stomach.

“I know we’re doing things backward but when I put these lips on yours for the first time.” Ryan paused with a devious grin on her face as she slid a leg between Sophie’s and lowered her hand slightly above Sophie’s ass pulling their lower bodies together. The two were wrapped up together like they had been together for years.

“I want to put them on all of your lips. I want to spend time exploring every crevice of your body. ” Ryan rubbed her leg along Sophie’s inner thigh, as Sophie failed miserably at stifling her gasps and moans against Ryan’s lips.

Sophie held the side of Ryan’s face as to put their lips together but Ryan took her hand from Sophie’s body and placed a finger between their lips to stop her.

“There’s lots of time for that.” Ryan whispered.

“Promise?” Sophie’s eyes pleading with Ryan.

“I promise beautiful.” Ryan smiled and kissed Sophie on the corner of her mouth. Sophie leaned into the kiss and gave Ryan the same.

The two pulled away and starred at each other, both eyes wanting more.

“I meant it when I said I want to drink you in and smell you up.” Ryan said softly in Sophie’s ear.

“I’d like that Ry.” Sophie smiled and pulled Ryan on top of her wrapping both hands around her body kissing her bare shoulders, thankful for the small camisole top Ryan wore.

Ryan planted her face in Sophie’s neck and inhaled deeply getting lost in her scent. “You smell so good.” Ryan whispered.

“So do you. I could get used to this Wilder.” Sophie smiled against Ryan’s skin.

“Please do.” Ryan smiled planting a kiss on Sophie’s neck as Sophie rubbed soft circles on Ryan’s skin.

The two spent the next 30 minutes rolling round kissing on each other’s skin wrapped up in each other. Ryan as the little spoon and Sophie the big one. Sophie peeked over when she realized Ryan hadn’t responded to the last thing she said and noticed the younger woman fast asleep with a smile on her face. Sophie kissed her temple. “Sleep well baby girl.” Sophie whispered into her hair before snuggling against the younger woman and drifting off to sleep as well.

Notes:

I felt like this interaction deserved its own chapter. :)

Are you guys a stickler for doing things the traditional way? Or it doesn't matter as long as the feelings are mutual? Also, would ya'll have given in?

Thanks for the comments and for still reading!!! xxx

Chapter 12: Intimacy and Insecurity

Ryan opened her eyes still wrapped in Sophie’s arms. During the night the two slept as though they were one person, whenever one moved the other adjusted so that they stayed connected. As much as Ryan didn’t want to move it was 6AM which meant she needed to get ready for her morning yoga session.

To help her calm down as a young teen Mama Cora introduced Ryan to yoga and meditation. The two did it every morning together. Even when Ryan moved out, she video called Mama Cora so that they could keep their tradition going. Since Mama Cora passed, Ryan imagines and visualized Cora right alongside her flowing in each pose with her. It was her way of starting each day by honoring her Mama and feeling her energy close to her mind, body and soul.

Ryan gently untangled herself from Sophie’s embrace and sat up staring at the older woman. Sophie mostly kept a silk press because she always felt it easier to manage but for the past week after missing her appointment, she opted to pull her soft curly hair back into a ponytail or let it hang loose. Ryan swirled a few of Sophie’s bleached ends around her fingers and smiled before kissing Sophie on the cheek. “I hope you keep these out.” Ryan whispered.

The older woman looked so youthful and peaceful as she slept and Ryan didn’t want to wake her. She felt like Sophie had been put through the ringer the last few days and could use the sleep. Ryan grabbed a change of clothes from her walk in and disappeared into the bathroom.

Ryan stood in the mirror of her huge bathroom brushing her teeth with a smile on her face. She smelled like Sophie and she loved it. She stood reminiscing on every kiss Sophie gave her face, neck and shoulders. How gentle and soft her hands were and how each word she whispered into Ryan’s ears created a warmth in the younger woman she had never experienced. Not even with Angelique. Sophie was as much as a surprise for Ryan as she was for Sophie. She had been on many dates but all of them were missing something that she found when Sophie opened her door to greet her a few days ago. Sophie doesn’t know it but she’s been caressing parts of Ryan that the younger woman didn’t know existed.

After pulling her thoughts together, Ryan got ready, grabbed her mat from the corner of the room and quietly went out on the patio doing her best not to let in any light. Out on the large patio Ryan rested her towel on a nearby chair, spread her mat down and stood watching the view as she inhaled deeply. She closed her eyes listening to the birds and centred herself as she began her session.

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Sophie stretched and yawned as she opened her eyes. She immediately noticed she was alone in bed and groaned as she sat up. She scanned the room and there was still no sight of the younger woman. She got out of bed, opened the curtains with the remote close by and stretched one more time.

“What time is it?” Sophie muttered as a yawn left her mouth.

“Good morning Sophie it’s 8:05AM” Mack said.

“Uh thanks.” Sophie smiled. Jordan was right, that’s going to take some getting used to.

Sophie left the bedroom and immediately picked up the smells from downstairs. She grabbed her phone from her room and made her way down to the kitchen.

“Well nice of you to join us.” Jordan smirked with a plate full of pancakes in front of her.

“Good morning to you too.” Sophie smiled and walked over to sit next to Jordan on one of the bar stools. She smiled as she remembered the kisses she shared with Ryan the night before in the exact same spot.

“Are you gonna eat pancakes every single day while you’re here? Phillipe is spoiling you.” Sophie grabbed the pancake from the fork Jordan was about to eat and tossed it in her mouth.

“Holy shit, that tastes like the best orgasm I’ve ever had” Sophie swooned.

“Nuh uh, do not ruin these pancakes for me!” Jordan nudged Sophie playfully.

“I’ll take that as a compliment.” Ryan walked in from another room and tucked her phone in her pocket like she had just came from taking a call. She smiled sweetly at Sophie which immediately made the older woman blush.

“Good morning, Soph.” Ryan said softly walking back into the kitchen.

“How did you sleep?” Ryan asked.

The two women without even noticing it, sucked up all the energy in the room. Jordan sat quietly, not that they would have heard anything she said.

“The best sleep I’ve had in forever, what about you?” Sophie smiled.

“Same here.” Ryan made eye contact with Sophie in between preparing tea for the older woman. She was still wearing her leggings and sports bra with her hair pulled back as she moved around the kitchen.

“Wait I expected Phillipe to be the chef this morning.” Sophie said looking confused.

“He was here when I came down this morning but Melody called. She’s sick so he’s gone to get Maddie. Looks like she’ll be around for a little while. Melody doesn’t want her to get sick, she has nationals coming up soon.” Ryan said.

“Oh is it serious?” Sophie asked looking concerned.

“Nah seems to just be the flu.” Ryan smiled.

“So Ryan when do you start filming and how excited are you? Since the story was published the kids from acting class can’t stop talking about how they know a superstar.” Jordan smiled.

“6 months from today actually, they’re making tweaks to my character and the surrounding characters so that’s it’s written specifically for me.” Ryan smiled.

This lead role was important to Ryan she was going to be the first back queer character in a leading movie role. It was exciting and a big responsibility.

“I’m very excited. I can’t wait to come see them!” Ryan beamed. She loved the kids in her class, it wrapped a couple weeks prior but she made donations when she could. Like the basketball jerseys and tickets, she dropped off at Sophie’s place.

“Did they enjoy the game?” Ryan asked.

“Are you kidding me? They haven’t been able to shut up about seeing someone dunk in person. They were mad hype. I’m not gonna lie I was too. Thanks for always thinking of us.” Jordan smiled.

“Anything for you Jay.” Ryan smiled.

“I still can’t believe I’ve never ran into you at the centre.” Sophie said looking at Ryan.

Ryan shrugged her shoulders with a smile on her face.

“So what do you say Ryan, would you have time to mentor or are you Beyoncé level status now?” Jordan asked.

Before Ryan slipped away to take a business call Jordan was telling her about the meeting she’s off to after breakfast to get started on the mentorship programme that she’s launching. She was just about to ask Ryan to be a mentor before the younger woman’s phone rang.

Ryan laughed. “I’d love to Jay but between preparing for this role and the projects I’m working on I wouldn’t have the time. Not that I can’t make time, I totally could but I’m more concerned with when I do leave to shoot that I’d be leaving my mentee hanging. I could never do that. I don’t want to get invested if I can’t fully commit.” Ryan eyed Sophie.

Jordan sighed and Ryan walked over to her. “That doesn’t mean I won’t be there in other ways. You know I’m a call or text away and I make whatever you need happen whether I’m there or not.” Ryan smiled touching Jordan’s arm to reassure her.

Sophie couldn’t help but swoon watching Ryan uplift Jordan. Jordan and Kate never got along, whenever Jordan was around Kate she was painfully cordial. Every time Sophie invited Jordan to dinner with Kate she always brought a date who engaged in convo with Kate so she didn’t have to. Sophie watched as Jordan got down from her seat and threw her hand around Ryan’s shoulders as they made their way around the kitchen talking and laughing.

Sophie couldn’t help the smile on her lips as she watched them.

“Ryannnnnnnn!” Maddison burst into the room and jumped into Ryan’s arms.

“Ryan I missed you so so so much. I missed you more than all the trees on earth!” Madison squealed as she hugged Ryan tightly.

Ryan pulled away to look at her. “Hi Queen, I missed you too. How’s my favorite recording holding badass.” Ryan smiled.

Phillipe cleared his throat as he entered the room. “Language please?”

“Dad I’m not a little kid, I know not to use bad words.” Madison looked at her dad as Ryan lowered her to the floor.

The women in the room couldn’t help but laugh.

“I’m great Ryan! Coach Barnes said I’m on track to set a new record. I’m even moving up an age group. He said I can beat that record too if I work a little harder.” Maddison was bouncing up and down with excitement as she spoke to Ryan.

Ryan gave Maddison a high-five. “Way to go! That’s my girl.” Ryan smiled.

Maddison looked around and saw Jordan and Sophie smiling at her.

“Jordan! Sophie!” Maddison ran over and hugged both women. As Sophie lowered down to hug her, Maddison whispered in her ear softly.

“I think they kissed, you’d tell me if they kissed right?” Sophie smiled as the attention on the room moved to her and Madison. Staring at Ryan with a smile she whispered in Maddison’s a ear. “Can you keep a secret?” Sophie said softly. Maddison nodded frantically to gesture yes and Ryan swooned watching them.
“They totally kissed and more than once.” Sophie said.

Maddison pulled away and jumped fist jumping the air. “Finally!” She screamed. Her eyes darted to Ryan, Jordan and Phillipe who were watching in confusion.

“I promised her a Sophie Moore original, she’s excited.” Sophie laughed.

“Uh huh. Sure.” Jordan looked at Sophie suspiciously.

Sophie lifted Maddison on the bar stool where she was next to Jordan and took the one next to her leaving Maddison in the middle. Phillipe disappeared up the stairs briefly to put Maddison’s bags in the room she had at Ryan’s place.

While Maddison and Jordan were caught up in conversation Sophie felt a vibration in her pocket and grabbed her phone.

Ryan Wilder. “Best orgasm you’ve ever had huh?”

Sophie looked up and saw the younger woman smiling with her phone in hand a she sipped her tea.

Sophie Moore. “Well I’ve only had them from one woman and from myself so.. you do the math.”

Ryan Wilder. “There’s really no competition but eventually you’ll find out. I do have a question though.”

Sophie grabbed her tea and walked to the dining table where Phillipe place the last of the fruit down and disappeared into the kitchen with the other ladies.

Sophie sat down and started putting fruit on her plate first.

Sophie Moore. “You can ask me anything Ryan.”

Everyone walked into the room and joined Sophie at the table. Jordan and Maddison were still in deep conversation while Phillipe and Ryan were chatting about her recent trip. The room was loud and joyful which immediately put Sophie in her own head. Her family was quite estranged at the moment and even as children sitting to have a meal together was filled with so much tension. Her mother was always trying not to say anything out of line to upset her father which made the room hostile, quiet and uncomfortable. As her and Jordan got older, they learned to eat as quickly as possible as jet off to do homework or study. This scene at Ryan’s was something Sophie craved. It was family.

Sophie didn’t notice but Ryan was watching her as a million things bounced around in her brain.

“How are your pieces for the show coming along Sophie?” Phillipe asked which immediately jolted Sophie back to the realty she was in.

“Uh, I’ve had some setbacks but I’m confident I’ll be ready in time. I’ve got a couple more to put very important details on before I move onto developing them.” Sophie smiled as her phone vibrated.

“Sophie can I come to your show please please please?” Maddison said.

Sophie looked up from her phone with a smile on her face. “Only if you let me come to your swim meet and cheer you on.” Sophie said.

“Deal! I’m gonna blow your mind!” Maddison screamed in excitement.

“Hey what did we say about bragging.” Phillipe shook his head.

“Ryan said it’s not bragging if it’s true and it’s true that I’m the best because I work really really hard.” Maddison smiled at her dad and Ryan gave her a first bump. “That’s right queen! Let them know!” Ryan said as Maddison giggled.

Sophie eyes returned to her phone quickly to respond to Ryan’s reply.

Ryan Wilder. “Can I make you dinner tonight?”

Sophie Moore. “I’d love that but I don’t know what time I’ll be back. I’m heading to my studio to finish up those pieces I mentioned. Tomorrow?”

“Ryan, Luke Fox is at the door. Would you like to grant him entry?” Mack suddenly filled the room startling Sophie.

“Of course let him know we’re in here. Thanks dude!” Ryan yelled.

Luke came walking into the room dressed in brown shorts, a white tee and stylish sunglasses. His shoes were no exception. Sophie loved Luke’s sneaker game. If they wore the same size she’d be stealing his sneakers often.

“Are those the new Tom Ford?” Sophie eyed Luke’s shoes.

“Well good morning to you too.” Luke raised an eyebrow and then greeted everyone in the room.

“Oh you mean these bad boys? That haven’t dropped as yet?” Luke gestured to his shoes.

“Yeah they are and as usual Stasia sent you a pair as well. She’s got it so bad.” Luke laughed.

Stasia was the creative director at Tom Ford and also one of Luke’s good friends. She’s had a crush on Sophie from the time he introduced the two.

Luke sat down at the table next to Sophie and began fixing himself breakfast. He looked down at Sophie’s phone as Ryan’s reply dropped in.

Ryan Wilder. “Tomorrow it is. By the way, I can still feel the softness of your lips on my skin.”

Luke looked up and watched Ryan blushing across the table. He then looked down and saw the Goosebumps on Sophie arm as she typed her reply to Ryan.

Sophie Moore. “Same here. I’m looking forward to spending time with you again.”

The table was noisy with laughter and fun debates for the next 40 minutes as everyone finished their breakfast. Once they were all finished, everyone got ready to head out. Ryan had a big meeting in the city with Kelly while Jordan, Luke and Sophie headed out to view the first house on Luke’s list. One of Jordan’s counsellors had a family emergency so her meeting was pushed to later in the evening. Although she wanted to get started on the details of the mentorship programme, she was happy that she would be able to house hunt with Sophie and Luke for the day. Everyone said their goodbyes to Maddison and Phillipe who were both hugged up on the sofa watching a swim meet on the television.

_

In the backseat of Luke’s car, Jordan was totally engrossed in an important call about the mentorship programme. When Jordan wasn’t talking all they could hear was the loudness coming from her air pods from the other persons on the other end while Jordan sat silent listening carefully.

“Hey so I need a to ask a favour.” Sophie said to Luke.

“Sure what’s up?” Luke looked concerned as he drove.

Sophie lowered the music slightly. “Can you find out everything you can about Jada Jet?”

“The CEO of Jeturian Industries? Uh, she’s not someone you go digging up information on Soph. What’s this about?”

“Ryan thinks that she’s her birth mother.” Sophie said softly.

“Wait what? What makes her think that?” Luke was confused.

Sophie relayed the story Ryan gave her in bed in the wee hours of the morning to Luke. As Sophie spoke Luke shook his head acknowledge her. She also gave Luke some background about Ryan’s life, so that he understood how important this was to the younger woman.

“Jada is one of the most powerful women in this city. I’m always discreet but I’ve heard stories about her. She’s got friends in even higher places than I do.” Luke sighed, trying to think if this was something he wanted to put himself in the middle of. Jada wasn’t someone you played with and if she has a secret daughter she doesn’t want anyone to know about, she won’t be too happy the find out that someone is trying to open a door in her life that she clearly wants closed.

Sophie sat quietly while Luke contemplated what Sophie was asking.

“Sure I’ll look into it. I should have the information for you by tomorrow” Luke smiled.

“Are you sure?” Sophie asked.

“I’m sure but I have one condition though.” Luke smirked glancing quickly at Sophie.

“Sure what?” Sophie asked suspiciously.

“And I want the truth!” Luke said.

They didn’t notice but after Sophie asked Luke if he was sure Jordan wrapped up her call and was listening closely.

“I always tell you the truth so what exactly are you trying to find out?” Sophie was puzzled.

“Why would you sleep with Ryan? Don’t you want more than casual sex with her?” Luke asked.

Before Sophie could respond Jordan jumped forward between the two front seats and poked her head forward. “You slept with Ryan?! Wait a minute! You like Ryan?” Jordan exclaimed.

Sophie threw her head back, closed her eyes and sighed. She wanted to talk about all of this with both of them but when she was ready. There was so much she was feeling and after her interaction with Ryan last night, her feelings for Ryan were kick boxing her at every turn.

“No I did not sleep with Ryan.” Sophie said rubbing her the middle of her forehead.

“So why was she texting you that she can still feel the softness of your lips on her skin?” Luke asked as he turned off the music.

Jordan gasped. “Is that why you were asking so many questions about her?” Sophie ignored Jordan’s question and turned her body to face Luke as he drove. This way she could look at both Luke and Jordan when she spoke.

“We cuddled, there might have been some kisses but none on the lips or below the neck and we were both very much clothed in bed the entire night.” Sophie said.

“Wait a minute, slow down. You slept in Ryan’s bed last night? Cuddled up with her? PG kissing and holding each other? That sounds...” Jordan’s voice trailed off and Luke finished her sentence.

“Intimate.” Luke smiled.

Sophie turned to Jordan. “I do like Ryan. I like her a lot but I’m scared.” Sophie said softly as she slumped down in her seat a little.
“There’s so much happening in my life right now and honestly, things with Ryan while they are great its sudden and fast. The connection has been so unexpected and out of the blue. What if I rush it and then as we really get to know each other further down the line we butt a deal breaker that we never considered. I mean sure she likes, flowers, books, music, hiking and a host of other things I’m into as well but a flame that burns twice as bright burns twice as fast. She’s special, I don’t want to lose her by moving faster than we are already.” Sophie exhaled after freeing up some of her brain space.

“All of that I’m sure you’re feeling but now tell us the real reason this scares you.” Jordan said.

“We know you Soph, go on. Say it, you’ll feel better afterward we promise.” Luke said as Sophie sat back up in her seat.

“This is a safe space sis.” Jordan smiled at Sophie.

“I’m scared I’m not enough for her, I never was enough for Kate. I’m scared of letting her down.” Sophie said with the sheer look of sadness on her face.

Jordan put hand on Sophie’s shoulder and Luke removed a hand from the steering wheel and rubbed Sophie’s thigh.

“Soph that’s crazy, you’re amazing. All I’ve ever wanted to be is just like my big sister. You’re the most loving, caring, giving and considerate person I know. I’m not saying that because we’re related but because it’s true. You always do the right thing, you’re always sticking to the script, doing what’s required of you. How about you do what you want now? Go after the things that make your heart sing? You deserve all the happiness in the world.” Jordan smiled softly at Sophie.

“That might be true but who says that it has to be with Ryan?” Sophie raised an eyebrow.

“Uh, I’m pretty sure you did the way you were going on about her. Not even when you first told me about Kate did I see that look in your eyes that you have when you talk about Ryan.” Luke responded, his eyes still focused on the road ahead of him.

“Listen hear me out, I don’t need to sell Ryan to you plus she’s hot as hell. You two could be so amazing together.” Jordan said.

“You guys really think I’m overthinking it?” Sophie asked.

“Yeah you are. I’m more concerned with how you feel about you. You not feeling like you’re worthy but I found you a therapist and once you start working through everything. You will see for yourself how unworthy others truly are of you, sis.” Jordan reach forward and hugged Sophie.

“And if you’re so worried about big deal breakers, talk to Ryan. Find out all of the key important things before you move forward to anything else. You’re both adults, start acting like it.” Luke tapped Sophie’s leg and returned his hand to the steering wheel.

“Thanks guys.” Sophie suddenly felt a weight lifted from her shoulders. Luke and Jordan were right all she could do was be her true self and be honest with Ryan.

-

 

“Did that really happen? Did you really get me on the cover of Vogue?” Ryan shrieked as they climbed into the car.

The two just left their first meeting for the day. Kelly hadn’t mentioned much about the first meeting, wanting it to be a surprise. Ryan loved fashion and one of her goals has always to be on the cover of Vogue. As a child she often dressed in Mama Cora’s vintage clothing and strutted around the house while Cora hyped her and told her she was fabulous.

“One day this beauty and personality is gonna land you on the cover of vogue baby.” Ryan sighed. “I wish she was here to see this, I hate that she’s missing all the things we talked about.”

Ryan reclined her seat and took a deep breath. Since meeting Jada she thought about Cora more than usual. She wished her Mama was around to help her deal with all of the feelings she was having.

“Hey sis.” Kelly said softly bringing Ryan’s eye gaze to hers. “She is here and she’s proud of you. Right now she’s whispering in the ears of those stylists telling them what to put her baby in.”

Ryan smiled. “I was so including her in this shoot. She would have loved this. This one is for you Mama.”

Kelly started the car and pulled out of the car park. “Did you know Sophie was such a big deal?” Ryan asked.

“How didn’t you?” Kelly smirked.

“I mean she doesn’t exactly document heavily who she has done work with. Did you see them begging us to get Sophie and her team to shoot this cover?” Ryan said.

“Don’t get me wrong Ry, securing this cover was all you but the way they started behaving when they found out Sophie took your latest photo, made me dig deeper.” Kelly said.

“When you go from emailing assistants to the editor in chief calling, you know it’s a big deal. Apparently they’ve been trying to get her to shoot a cover for years but she’s always way too booked.” Kelly said.

“Too booked for Vogue?” Ryan said confused.

“Well when you work hangs in the Louve, the White House, the Vatican and number of billionaire’s homes around the world, Vogue ain’t saying shit.” Kelly noted.

“How did we get this meeting on Monday again?” Ryan laughed.

“Ugh, honestly. I didn’t think we would but her assistant said she was expecting my call. Apparently Sophie told her to accommodate us however she could.” Kelly smiled as she came to a red traffic light and looked at Ryan.

“What?” Ryan raised an eyebrow.

“She must really like you.” Kelly said. Ryan sat contemplating if she should open the can of worms about her night with Sophie. They had two more meetings and then would be heading to lunch. Maybe it’s best to wait until business is out of the way.

“Maybe she does. Let’s hope she says yes to shooting this cover.” Ryan raised her phone to her face and started scrolling through her emails.

“Like she’s gonna say no. Please.” Kelly pulled off heading to their next meeting location.

Ryan sat in the seat, brain full of Sophie Moore. Sophie was a huge deal, not even Jordan mentioned how much of a star Sophie was. Not to mention her business website really doesn’t give a good representation of how much she’s done. There was clearly a lot more to find out about Sophie. She quickly opened Sophie’s chat with a smile on her face.

“You’re constantly making my life more exciting. I miss you already. I hope the find what you’re looking for but I also hope you don’t.”

Ryan was hoping that it would take Sophie longer than a day to find a place. Since she untangled herself from the older woman all she could think about was being wrapped up in her scent again.

Kelly snapped Ryan out of her thoughts. “If this is how you are now. I can’t Imagine when you kiss her for the first time.” Kelly laughed.

“Shut up!” Ryan said.

“No imagine when you finally smell it. Damn should I have an ambulance on standby?” Kelly laughed.

The two laughed as Kelly teased Ryan all the way to their next meeting.

Notes:

I wrote this chapter weeks ago but wasn't sure if I wanted to make changes to it or keep the story as is. Plus, it's summer and I'm from a small Caribbean country. It gets busy with all the parties and events happening. Sorry! Lol but I'm back! I've missed your comments and interactionssss. Thanks for still reading if you are! xxx

P.s I couldn't agree with you guys more. I feel like if it feels right and you're grown, then step into your feelings. Nobody has the blueprint on how a successful relationship should start. Create your own damn story!

Chapter 13: The Rollercoaster Begins

“Will you please call Mary?” Luke pleaded with Sophie as they walked through the third house on the list. The first two houses were beautiful but they weren’t quite what Sophie was looking for.

“Luke will you please drop it? It’s nothing against Mary, I just need some space right now.” Sophie walked into the large master bathroom with Jordan and Luke directly behind her.

“Mary isn’t Kate and you know it Soph.” Luke pleaded. Since the entire blow up with Kate, Sophie stopped taking Mary’s calls and answering her messages. Mary had always been the one to encourage Sophie to give Kate another chance. When it came down to it, Mary always advocated for Kate, regardless of what Kate did to upset or hurt her.

“I promise to call her.” Sophie said admiring the large bathtub. This could definitely fit two people in it. Just like the one at Ryan’s, Sophie thought to herself with a huge smile on her face.

“Can you focus?” Luke asked. “I’m serious please call Mary.”

“If only you would go that hard about telling Mary how you feel about her.” Jordan chimed in jumping onto the large sink to sit.

“We’re not talking about me.” Luke said defensively.

“We’re talking about Mary so by default we’re definitely talking about you.” Jordan smiled at Luke while Sophie laughed from the oversized shower.

“Why don’t you just tell her how you feel? Mary is crazy about you. Why does everyone but you two realize it?” Jordan rolled her eyes.

“Oh you mean like you and Phillipe? The amount of time it took you two to get that started? I know you’re not talking.” Sophie chimed in.

Jordan hopped off the sink and walked back into the bedroom. “You’re making my point. I wasted all that time being silent when I could have been having the best sex I’ve ever had in my life. Not to mention the most intense connection I’ve ever had with a guy. I wish I had spoken up sooner.”

“Not that I’m trying to hear about your sex life but I take your point. I do want to put together a big gesture but I don’t know. Maybe we can stop for lunch and you guys can help me decide what to do.” Luke smiled.

“We got you Luke.” Jordan said as Sophie smiled at him to agree.

“Let’s go see number four, this one isn’t it either.” Sophie said as she walked out of the oversized bedroom.

Why are you so picky!” Jordan yelled running behind Sophie.

Sophie pulled out her phone and immediately smiled seeing a message from Ryan and responds.

“I miss you too. Wish you could be here to help me choose but at this rate you’re getting your wish. Heading to see number four. How’s your day going?”

Sophie tucked her phone in her pocket and made her way to the car. Was Ryan serious about her living at the cabin? Nah she couldn’t be serious. That would be crazy. Sophie smiled thinking what it would be like waking up to Ryan every day. The way she was feeling about Ryan, she would pack up her life and follow that smile anywhere.

-

Ryan and Kelly were at a small vegan restaurant in the heart of the city close to her apartment after their last meeting. The restaurant had two floors and they opted to sit upstairs out on the patio amongst the plants and the view of the city. They could also see directly inside through the huge glass frame which separated both sides. By the time their food came to the table Kelly had already found a way to pick Ryan about her night with Sophie.

“You’re trying to tell me you didn’t even stick a finger in?” Kelly grilled Ryan.

“Nope. I didn’t.” Ryan responded and then took a bite of her salad.

“Wow. I’m shocked. I would have taken off all my clothes after the first few kisses on my neck.” Kelly said as Ryan chuckled in response.

“I really like her but I honestly think her and I should talk. The chemistry is off the charts and things are going from 0 to 100 really quickly. I want her around for the long haul you know?” Ryan had a look of concern on her face which Kelly immediately picked up.

“What’s wrong Ry? She sounds like the perfect woman for you.” Kelly asked reaching across the table to squeeze Ryan’s hand.

“You know I have a lot going on right now. We’re really taking our goals to the next level. We finally made it out of Gotham. Who knows where I’ll end up after this movie wraps? I don’t know what other opportunities are in the works. Especially if your ass keeps working so hard.” Ryan smiled at Kelly before she continued.

“I really like Sophie but what if she doesn’t want to work so hard to keep in contact with me? What if she wants a more settled life than I can offer? Maybe she wants kids soon and to get married? This feels amazing but getting the answers to those questions could end this sooner than it even begins.” Ryan sighed as the last words left her lips.

“You know what Mama Cora would tell you right now?” Kelly smiled and tilted her head to the side waiting for Ryan’s response.

Ryan sighed. “Slow down baby girl, one step at a time.” They both smiled at each other. Ryan knew that Kelly was right. She was overthinking super far down the line instead of just getting to know Sophie better. Spending time with her, dating her. She could use all these opportunities to find out Sophie’s desires.

“Ok fine you are right.” Ryan smiled at Kelly. That little statement from Kelly may seem small to others but they both knew it was all Ryan needed to hear so she knew what to do.

“Are you going to spend time with her later?” Kelly asked but as Ryan opened her mouth to respond her expression changed as she spotted a familiar face on the other side of the glass inside of the restaurant. Kelly immediately noticed and turns her head to follow Ryan’s gaze.

“Hey…… Ry, I know you. Don’t.” Kelly pleads.

“I’m not going to do anything I just want to talk to her.” Ryan responded not taking her gaze from Kate who is standing in place on her phone in a white loose button down, close fitting white cotton long pants and white designer sneakers, all under a very expensive jacket. Ryan hated to admit it but Kate looked damn good..

“Who does she think she is, Jesus? Fuck outta here.” Ryan snarls and then a shocked expression filled her face as she watches Kate walk toward a table for two and pulls one of the chairs out for Erin to sit. Kate kissed Erin sticking her tongue down her throat before taking her own seat. Kelly watched the disdain on Ryan’s face and decides it’s time to go.

“I think we’re about done here, let’s head back to the cabin so I can enjoy some more time with my sis before my date tonight.” Kelly said but Ryan’s gaze didn’t break from on the two women until Kelly touched her hand.

“Ryan, look at me.” Kelly pleaded and Ryan turned her gaze back to Kelly.

“Ok fine let’s go but I need to use the restroom first.” Ryan smiled at Kelly to assure her that she wouldn’t do anything stupid. They both knew that getting into a public dispute would ruin a lot of the hard work they had both spent years building. Kate was not worth it, Sophie finally figured that out so there was no need to confront her.

Ryan carefully slipped quickly inside and into the restroom not far away being careful not to look in Kate and Erin’s direction. She quickly used the bathroom and walked out of the stall and began washing her hands. She stood looking at herself in the mirror, she closed her eyes and took a few deep breaths trying her best to calm the rage she felt in support of Sophie. The sound of the bathroom door opening broke Ryan’s eyes open to Kate’s gaze firmly on her.

Ryan collected her gaze, washing her hands once more as Kate began to walk further into the bathroom then stopped. “I figured that was you.” She snarled giving Ryan a disgusted look. Younger Ryan would have surely welcomed this confrontation but Kelly was right, things have changed. She has way too much to lose to get into a fight with someone as public and as wealthy as Kate Kane.

Ryan turned off the faucet, dried her hands with tissue and attempted to leave the bathroom when her path was blocked by Kate. “I’m talking to you.” Kate snarled.

“It is indeed me, excuse me my friend is waiting for me.” Ryan once again attempted to leave but was once again blocked by Kate. Ryan could feel the heat rising within her and was trying her best not to blow up.

“I’m fucking talking to you.” Kate snapped, the anger in Ryan was becoming unbearable to contain. Ryan again not wanting to engage, tried to make her way to the door once again but her path was blocked by Kate for a second time.

“I don’t know who you think you are but next time, stay out of the business I have with Sophie.” Kate stepped a little bit closer to Ryan as she spoke.

All the restraint left Ryan’s body at the sound of Sophie’s name. Ryan stepped forward and closed the gap between her and Kate. “Or else what?!” Ryan was a lot shorter than Kate which meant looking up at Kate while she spoke.

“I think it’s best you not ask questions you can’t handle the answer to.” Kate hissed. The energy in the bathroom was about to explode and both women knew it. The modern bathroom with rich colors and floral accents quickly became dark and heavy.

“Like I said, or else what Kate?!” Ryan was standing in front of Kate with anger stained onto her face. Kate smirked as she pulled her jacket to the side slightly while taking her eye gaze from Ryan and into the side of her waist. Ryan’s gaze followed Kate’s to her gun strapped into her side. After noticing that Ryan did not flinch Kate brought her attention back to Ryan’s face letting out a small chuckle prompting Ryan to look her in the face once more. “This is the last time I’m going to be saying this, stay out of the business I have with Sophie.” .Kate continued

Although Ryan was pissed her heart broke for Sophie even further, she couldn’t imagine how deeply Kate had truly scarred her. Kate was intimating, loud and very cocky. She was the type of rich girl personality that Ryan hated. She reminded her of all the girls who ever bullied her. Kate’s entire personality and persona was very nasty work in Ryan’s opinion and she would not be bullied by Kate Kane or anyone else for that matter. She just met Sophie but the urge she has to protect her from people like Kate caught her by surprise.

“And this is the last time I’ll be saying this you cheating worthless piece of shit.” Ryan growled as she mimicked Kate’s earlier actions and pulled her own jacket to reveal her own gun without taking her eyes off Kate. Kate’s eyes followed Ryan’s hand movement to her own gun. Kate tried as hard as she could to collect the shocked expression on her face but Ryan smirked letting Kate know she saw it.

“Move bitch. My friend is waiting for me.” Ryan growled.

The two women were in a deep stare as Kate adjusted her jacket and began to step aside so Ryan could pass when the bathroom door swung open and Kelly walked in.

“Is there a problem here?” Kelly asked with a stern voice and her hand reaching toward her back underneath her jacket when she noticed Ryan’s gun peeking out.

Ryan smiled as she walked by a very embarrassed looking Kate. “Trust me there isn’t. Let’s get outta here. Not even shit stays in the bathroom this long.” Both women erupted in laughter as they left the bathroom.

Kelly noticed when Kate spotted Ryan and made her way to the bathroom. Kelly was sure Ryan heard her earlier about making a scene so she wasn’t worried that there was be drama until she realized that while she knew Ryan, she didn’t know Kate and it was best she pay the bill and make her way to the bathroom. On their way down the street Kelly explained to Ryan that she heard the entire conversation from outside the door and while she was confident that Kate would step aside she came in to be sure so they could leave.

“I can’t believe she really flashed me her gun. That shit was crazy. Kells you should have seen the look on her face when I gave that energy back. That bitch was shook!” Both ladies erupted into laughter walking down the busy street to Kelly’s car. As Kelly was about to speak a young girl bumped into Kelly and was stopped in her tracks when Kelly grabbed her by the hand as she was trying to quickly go by the two women after the run in.

“What the fuck?! Let me go!” The girl yelled in anger.

“Uh uh, why is this three year old cursing me?” Kelly looked at Ryan who was now smiling as the girl tried to get out of Kelly’s hold. “You might be 60 years old but I’m no three year old!” The girl snarled as Ryan walked toward her and plucked Kelly’s purse and phone from inside the girl’s jacket pocket.

“Fuck.” The young girl said under her breath.

“Girl why are you stealing? You aren’t even good at it.” Kelly started explaining the best way to pick pocket items which immediately made the young girl’s eyes widen in shock.

“But honestly I don’t think you could pull it off, some people aren’t made for the fast life . I felt every item you removed in slow motion. You’re bad at this kid.” Kelly continued.

“Wait I know you.” Ryan walked closer to the girl. “Joey right? You sat in my last class at the center for a few minutes and left.” Ryan said.

Joey was still trying to get free of Kelly’s hold as the two women interacted. “So you know this tyrant? Well should we take her to the center? I hate thieves and she needs some kind of punishment but I’m not taking a young black girl to the police.” Kelly said.

Joey remained quiet and was quite confused at what was taking place, who were these women and why were they still being so nice to her even though she tried to steal from one of them.

“I totally agree with you.” Ryan stepped closer to Joey and dug into her pocket and pulled out her phone. “Hey give that back!” Joey yelled trying to break away from Kelly in protest.

“Oh you don’t like when people take your stuff? The irony.” Kelly laughed as Joey rolled her eyes. Ryan held the phone up to the girl’s face and unlocked it. “Ok cut the crap, who am I calling?” Ryan said sternly.

“Ok fine, let me go I won’t run. I’ll cooperate. Damn ya’ll old ladies tough.” Joey fixed her Jacket properly over her purple plaid flannel shirt and adjusted her collar while the two ladies looked at her.

Ryan smiled as she handed the phone back to Joey and watched as she dialed a number. She remembered this girl so vividly because of how much her demeanor reminded her of herself when she was younger and had just been adopted by Mama Cora. She was closed off and totally in her own world picking at her finger nails for the few minutes she sat at the back of the class. Her shoulder length curly hair pulled back in a ponytail with a center part in the middle the same as how she currently wore it. She clearly much like Ryan has a thing for flannel and skinny jeans. Her chocolate brown skin was undeniably silky and beautiful but what caught Ryan’s attention today was how her eyes were light and glistened just like Sophie’s did.

“It’s not terrible but I can’t risk telling her she will tell my PO and I’m on my last strike.” Joey said into her phone. Kelly and Ryan looked at each other, knowing all too well of the situation in front of them having seen it while in foster care one too many times.

Joey sighed “I got caught stealing and two old ladies won’t let me go unless I call someone.”

“She got one more time to call me old Ryan, I swear.” Kelly muttered as Ryan stifled a laugh.

“Ok can they just bring me by there then? Ok great. Thank you and I’m sorry for all this.” Joey said into the phone before she hung up.

“Ok Bud and Lou, this is the address.” Joey held up her phone and both ladies looked at each other.

“Why are we taking you to Sophie Moore’s studio?” Ryan asked with the same confused look on her face as Kelly. Both of them had only recently learned the location of Sophie’s studio because of their upcoming meeting on Monday. The address was nowhere public and was very hard to come by.

“Because I know her. Now are we gonna stand here for the rest of the evening or can we go?” Joey said with an attitude.

Ryan pulled out her phone not realizing there was unopened text from Sophie.

“You would not believe that day that I’m having Soph. You just wouldn’t believe it but I’ll tell you about it very soon!” Ryan pushed her phone in her pocket and gestured to Kelly that they could leave.

“Well come on Robin Hood. Let’s go.” Kelly teased and Ryan laughed as they all walked around the corner to Kelly’s car.

Notes:

I know it's been a while but it's been a tough few months for me. However, it's been joy getting back to this story! If you're now finding my Fic or still waiting for chapters I appreciate you all so much!

My question is, would this situation be too much drama for you? Sophie seems to have brought a great deal of drama to Ryan's door. Have you ever been in a situation that you had to be like NAH, this is a bit much for me? What's too much?

New chapter every Sunday from today!! Stay with me on this drama filled rollercoaster! xxx

Chapter 14: This Day Can Go Fuck Itself

Sophie walked into her studio and sighed in relief. The day was long and although she had a great time house hunting with Jordan and Luke, none of the homes were what she was looking for. Sure maybe she was being a bit picky but there were just some things that were nonnegotiable. After seeing the last home they all went back to Ryan’s were Sophie said goodbye to Luke and Jordan and made her way to the studio. Luke wanted to get back to his cave to explore the information Sophie needed for Ryan and Jordan got ready for her meeting at the community Centre.

Based on everything Sophie had going on this was the main thing she needed, to get lost in her art. She was full of so many feelings about herself, Kate and now Ryan. Sure, she needed to finish her pieces but she also needed to clear her head. The feelings she was clearly developing rapidly for Ryan were starting to consume her. Both Luke and Jordan were right, she needed to stop overthinking and ultimately decide what she wanted and find out what Ryan wanted as well. One thing for sure was that she had no interest in making the same mistakes she did with Kate. Compromising on things she genuinely needed was not going to work this time. If her and Ryan weren’t on the same page about the important things, as much as it would hurt it just wasn’t for her.

As Ryan crossed her mind she checked her phone to see that the younger woman had not responded to her last message. She bit her bottom lip contemplating if to double text or if to just leave it alone. She leaned back in her office chair and sighed “She’s working Soph, when she has time she will respond.” Sophie tossed her phone on the table, cranked up her playlist and got to work. Working on her pieces and working through the cutter in her head.

 

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“No Kate, I will absolutely not put in a word with Sophie for you! Are you freaking kidding me? Have you thought about how all of this affects her? Do you think about anyone but yourself?!” Mary was angrily pacing in Kate’s living room. She had no idea the gravity of everything that had transpired between Kate and Sophie. She assumed that it was really bad when Sophie refused to take any of her calls or respond or any of her text messages. Although she had always felt guilty for playing peacemaker between Sophie and Kate she thought this was just another situation where Kate was being inconsiderate and needed Sophie to at least hear her out. However, the entire situation Kate and Luke explained was nothing short of disgusting on Kate’s part. It made her wonder how many times Kate had downplayed what she really did to Sophie.

“Well she is in the wrong too Mary! She left her apartment and moved in with someone! How is the blame only on me?!” Kate snarled from her seated position in front of Mary on her large sofa.

“Really Kate? It’s still about you? You’ve got to be kidding me. I spoke to Luke and there is nothing going on there besides her getting help from a new friend.” Mary said.

“A new friend? They have to be fucking Mary!” Kate was red in the face. Mary knew that look it was a deep look of jealousy. Kate being Kate, not able to possibly stomach getting a taste of her own medicine.
The two met eyes and Mary held her head ignoring the fake drama coming from Kate’s lips. “Fuck Kate, Sophie probably thinks I’m a terrible person who just always has your back!” Mary flopped down on the couch away from Kate.

“How are you a terrible person for sticking up for you sister?!” Kate was sitting with her legs crossed watching Mary have what looked like a major meltdown. She uncrossed her legs and leaned forward to touch Mary.

“You’re supposed to be there for me, you’re supposed to always be on my side.” Kate smiled.

Mary stood up and shook her head in disbelief. “Not when you’re in the wrong Kate and honestly, not anymore. I gotta go, I need to go see Sophie.” Without waiting for Kate to reply Mary left Kate’s mansion and headed for Sophie’s studio where Luke told her that she would be.

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On the other side of town in a high rise luxury apartment.

 

“We need you to leave the city. Someone has blown your cover. It looks like the information is for personal use but we can’t be too careful. This guy works closely for many agencies who are looking for you.”

The information quickly angered Erin.

“I’m not ready to leave here. I have uh, unfinished business here. I was hoping to set up a life here for at least the next year.” Erin said into her phone.

“Well you should have thought about that before you left Vegas just to blow your cover. Wait for instructions within the next week. Oh and Erin? Don’t do anything stupid. That’s an order.” The voice was stern and made Erin even more upset.

“Wait a minute, can you at least tell me who the person is? That way I know to avoid them as much as possible.” There was a silence on the line which prompted Erin to speak again.

“You have my word, I won’t do anything stupid.” She said softly.

“Very well. Don’t make me regret this. His name is Luke Fox. I sent his information over to you. Lay low and wait for instructions.” The person on the other line hung up and left Erin standing at the large class window overlooking the city contemplating with a glass of wine in her hand.

Having done her research on Sophie she quickly recognised Luke and smiled to herself. There was no way she was leaving, she was tired of running from one place to the next. This city was perfect and she found the love of her life. Nothing or no one was going to get in the way of her having to start over and go back on the run. She was going to do whatever it took to keep the peace she currently had. Whatever it took.

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After quickly moving through her work Sophie decided to take a break. She was admiring her work when she received the call from Joey. The calm, peaceful joy she had gotten from her work quickly left her body. She was now pacing inside at the entrance of her building trying to decipher Ryan’s text while worrying about the trouble Joey seemed to have gotten herself into this time. She contemplated calling Jordan but she didn’t want to unless she had to, knowing Jordan would immediately have to report the incident. If Sophie was honest, she also didn’t want to break the young girl’s trust. She knew how hard it was for kids like Joey to confide in people and she didn’t want to let her down.

Sophie impatiently pushed the door to go outside and wait, wondering what could be taking so long. She was surprised when she walked outside.

“Ryan? What are you..” Her voice trailed off as she noticed Joey with the two women.

“Hey Soph.” Ryan smiled as the two locked eyes forgetting the reason she was there in the first place.

“Hi, I’m Ryan’s best friend Kelly. It’s finally nice to meet you.” Kelly’s voice broke the gaze between the two women.

“Yes. Kelly. Sorry. It’s nice to meet you. I’ve heard a lot about you.” Sophie said shyly as she shook Kelly’s hand.

Sophie looked at Ryan “Well your text makes a lot more sense now.”

“Actually this part has nothing on what I have to tell you but we will get to that later.” Ryan said.

Sophie noticed the concern in Ryan’s face, the sheer disbelief but decided not to push given the current situation.

“Ok, sorry guys come inside.” Sophie ushered everyone inside and noticed that Joey still hadn’t looked at her choosing to keep her gaze at her feet while fiddling with her fingers.

On the way through the building Kelly pulled Ryan close to her. “And you want me to believe all you did was kiss her?” Kelly gestured to Sophie who was at the front while Joey followed behind her.

“Why are you like this?” Ryan smiled.

“I’ve never seen you look at anyone like that.” Kelly smiled at Ryan and playfully nudged her shoulder.

“Just don’t embarrass me. I’m begging you.” Ryan whispered and they all followed Sophie into her conference room where she made only Joey sit.

In just walking in the building Ryan was astonished, the art and photos on the walls were stunning. The décor was very Sophie, sleek, sophisticated and very eye grabbing. Based on all the security buttons Sophie pushed on her way to the conference room, Ryan could tell that Luke clearly played a role in her security team or maybe was the one responsible.

“Jo, you want to tell me what’s going on?” Sophie pleaded to Joey who finally looked up and her eyes met Sophie’s concerned eyes before glancing over to Ryan and Kelly.

“Can we talk in private?” Joey asked.

“No. No you can’t. You don’t try to steal from me and then I don’t get an explanation especially when I brought you here instead of taking your butt to the police. So spill it.” Kelly says.

Joey straightens up and explains to the women in the room that since Jake confiscated the product he held her with she needed to come up with the money for her dealer. Since finding out she was selling drugs again her grandmother had thrown her out and had since moved to another state. Joey had done as much as she could to not give all the terrible details of what she had been through since Jake caught her. She had been beaten up by her dealer Andros who wanted his money, her grandmother had called her every name under the book and told her she would end up dead just like her mother and in all that she needed to be able to afford rent at the apartment her grandmother left her in alone.

The young girl’s loud sobs were the only thing that could be heard as they echoed throughout the room. Kelly and Ryan looked at each other as Sophie immediately turned Joey’s chair toward her, got on her knees and pulled the young girl into her arms.

Joey held up her head realizing how vulnerable she had gotten not just with Sophie but in front of complete strangers.

“Look I’m really sorry and I promise to do whatever you guys want if you don’t tell anyone about any of this. I can’t go back into the system please I just can’t.” Joey looked into Sophie’s eyes pleading.

Sophie looked toward the two women standing in the room asking the silent question. “We won’t say anything but we do need to notify someone. You can’t exactly let you go back to an empty house that you’ll soon be evicted out of alone.” Kelly said.

“How about you come stay with me for a little while.” Sophie said.

“You found a place.” The sadness in Ryan’s voice was evident and she quickly tried to recover. “That’s great Soph!”

“Oh shit. No. No I haven’t” Sophie looked at Ryan and smirked and Kelly silently watched the chemistry between the two women making note to tease Ryan later.

“I sold my condo or else this would be a no brainer, I’m still house hunting so it’ll probably be a few days. I’m sorry Jo.” Sophie said as she noticed the sadness in Joey’s eyes.

“I mean I have more than enough rooms, and honestly I’m enjoying having a full house. Why do you think I got all those rooms? How about she comes and stays with us for now until we figure everything out?” Ryan said as Kelly looked at her and smiled in approval.

She said us. That is all Sophie could register in her brain before bring her attention back to the conversation at hand.

“Ry.. You don’t have to..” Ryan cut Sophie off before she could finish. “I know I don’t but I want to, if she’s ok with it.” Ryan looked to Joey for approval.

“Seriously? You don’t even know me.” Joey softened completely not believing the day she was having.

“Anyone who is good with the Moore sisters is alright with me.” Ryan smiled.

“How much do you owe this guy Andros.” Kelly chimed in as everyone took a seat at the table.

Joey looked up surprised realizing why Kelly was asking. “No I cannot ask any of you to do that.” Joey said looking between all three women. “How much Jo?” Sophie repeated.

“Don’t make us go driving around looking for him” Ryan said although she was teasing she knew it would get the information out of the young girl.

Joey’s gaze retreated to her hands where she was playing with her fingers nervously. “Ten grand, it was 5 before but the last time I saw him…” Joey’s voice trailed off as she subconsciously grabbed her ribs. She quickly noticed and removed her hands and continued. “Last time I saw him he said he was doing me a favour by only doubling the amount.”

The women all shared a sad look before Ryan broke the silence. “When do you need to get it to him by?”

“Today..” Joey said under her breath. ‘I was on my way to take whatever the consequences were for not having the money when I tried to steal from you.” Joey turned her attention to Kelly tears in her eyes. “I’m really sorry for doing that. I’m also sorry for calling you old.”

Ryan and Sophie looked at each other and laughed, getting lost in each other’s eyes once again but this time Joey noticed. “Can you two get a room that is not this one?”

“You know what I’m gonna go ahead and forgive you for calling me old because I couldn’t have said that any better myself.” Kelly laughed.

“I’ll be right back.” Sophie left the room which causesdconfusion between the ladies in the room until she came back with a stack of money and placed it on the table.

“Come on, let’s go pay your debt kid.” Sophie smiled.

Kelly needed to leave so that she could get ready for her date and Ryan insisted she go with Sophie and Joey to pay Andros. After convincing Joey that she would not take no for an answer the young girl finally gave up the meeting location and thanked all of the ladies for their help.

“When I woke up this morning, this was not the day that I thought I’d have.” Kelly said as she made her way to her car. I’ll see you all tonight back at the house. Ryan Wilder. Call me if you think it is necessary, please and thank you. The women drove off and headed to their respective destinations.

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The drive was quiet and Sophie could sense how flustered Ryan was. She reached over and touched her thigh. “Hey I know this is a lot and you still haven’t told me about your day. Do you want to talk about it?” Sophie said.

Ryan looked to the backseat at Joey and then back to Sophie “I don’t think it’s appropriate conversation for right now Soph.”

“It’s that bad? Ryan what happened?”

“Whatever you have to tell her I’m sure I’ve seen and heard way worse plus who would I tell?” Joey said from the backseat.

Ryan looked from Joey to Sophie and sighed. “Kelly and I ran into Kate while we were at lunch. She threatened me. Flashed me her gun and told me to stay out of the business she has with you.”

There was a look of horror on Sophie’s face. She opened her mouth but no words left her lips. Sophie knew Kate had a nasty streak but this was definitely taking it too far. Whatever was going on between her and Kate she hoped Kate was grown enough to keep it between them. Things were getting out of hand, First Kate’s cheating, Erin the psycho, house hunting, Jo’s troubles and now Kate was threatening Ryan? Sophie wished all she had to focus on was her gallery show. It was the only thing going well right now but it was getting closer and she needed it to run smoothly.

“What even is my life right now?” Sophie sighed and looked at Ryan. “I’m really sorry that happened. Let’s handle this first but then I have an urgent stop to make.”

“Siri, call Kate Kane.” Sophie yelled. Ryan’s neck snapped in shock and turned to Sophie who assured her it was going to be alright.

Kate immediately picked up and Ryan urgently noticed the cockiness in her hello.

“Well hello Sophie…” Before Kate could continue Sophie interrupted her.

“Are you busy or can I come over in about an hour?” Sophie glanced over at Ryan who was very confused about what was happening.

“Well I’m currently collecting my stuff from Mrs. Allen, after that little stunt you pulled. Do you feel better now Soph? Can we be done with all this dumb fighting? I miss you.” Kate pleaded.

“Is that a yes you’ll be home in an hour?” Sophie avoided everything else Kate said.

Joey was sitting quietly in the backseat internalizing everything that was going on. While her and Ryan made small glances at each other.

“Yes baby I’ll be home in an hour. I’ll see you then Soph.” Kate replied.

“Great. Bye Kate.” Sophie ended the call and looked at Ryan.

“The community centre is not far from this location. I’ll drop you both there and pick you back up. I need to do this.” Sophie didn’t take her eyes off the road and Ryan could see the frustration, anger and determination in her face. It was the terrible timing but angry Sophie was very sexy. Ryan ignored the urge to reach over and rub her hand on Sophie’s thigh, unsure if she would want the comfort of her touch right now.

“I’m coming with you and I’m not taking no for an answer.” Ryan smiled as Sophie looked her in the eyes.

“Hey hey, eyes on the road please. You two can do all that eye fucking later.” Joey teased.

“Language!” Both women yelled before looking at each other with a knowing smile.

“Well it’s settled. Let’s do this and go pay Kate a visit. This time she’s definitely gone too far.”

Sophie reached her hand over and caressed Ryan’s thigh. A motion that settled Ryan and brought a warm smile to her lips.

With her eyes still on the road, with a determined look on her face Sophie was heading toward the next side of the rollercoaster.

Notes:

You ever had a day that you thought would never end? At every single turn something pops up? That seems to be Sophie's life right now. Can someone soft life my girl? This is all becoming too much!

How are we feeling about the introduction of Joey? Kelly might have met her match with the comebacks lol.

xx

Chapter 15: Life and Death

Ryan and Sophie were sitting in the car in a sketchy neighbourhood. Ryan looked comfortable but Sophie was constantly checking her mirrors and double checking that the car doors were locked. Joey convinced both women that it was best if they parked a few blocks down because the curb was a popular drop off and pick up spot for drugs. Ryan watched Sophie check her mirrors for what seemed like the 10th time and smiled. She was still getting to know Sophie but watching the older woman tweak made her wonder what it would be like to raise children with her. No doubt she would be the fun parent while Sophie would want to bubble wrap their children until they were 30. Ryan laughed under her breath not realizing it was louder than it had been.

“What’s taking her so long?! I’m sorry I don’t mean to be such a jitter bug, I just don’t want anything to happen to her you know? I know she seems like a hard ass but she’s such a great kid. She’s smart, talented and man she’s also so funny. I hate that life has dealt her this hand, I hate that I didn’t step in to do more. She’s such a great kid and I should have followed my instincts sooner. I should have..”

Ryan reached over and touched Sophie’s arm noticing the older woman was starting to spiral.

“Soph, you need to calm down. What matters is that you’re doing something now. You can’t go back and change the past no matter how hard you try. Let’s look forward. Hey, look at me.” Ryan whispered and Sophie turned to face those big dreamy dark eyes that followed her even in her sleep.

Sophie sighed. “I’m sorry. I just care a lot about her.” Sophie exhaled as Ryan’s hand moved from her arm to cup her cheek which Sophie automatically leaned into and held Ryan’s hand to her face before kissing the inside of Ryan’s palm. Ryan’s eyes widened and a small gasp escaped her lips at the unexpected contact of Sophie’s lips on her skin.

“I’m sorry, was that too much?” Sophie’s honey eyes turned quickly to worry causing Ryan to smile even brighter as she lowered her hand from Sophie’s face. She grabbed Sophie’s hand and kissed the inside of her palm in return. “You could never be too much.”

The two stared at each other, their eyes going from their eyes to lips and back again. Ryan leaned in and Sophie followed her movement. The two women were seconds away from their lips meeting when there was a knock on the glass breaking the focus between them. They both looked through Sophie’s heavily tinted windows and saw Joey outside. Sophie unlocked the doors and watched the girl climb in with a bloody face while holding her stomach.

Ryan and Sophie turned their attention to the backseat both with a look of horror on their faced.

“Holy shit! Joey what happened?! Omg omg omg!” Sophie started to panic in the driver’s seat as she watched a beaten Joey lean back in pain. Her flannel was bloody and neither woman could identify where the blood was coming from.

“I’m sorry Soph, I’ll clean up your car I promise.” Joey was disoriented almost like she had been hit too hard in the head.
“Drive Soph, we gotta get outta here. I need to lay down. I’m sleepy, I need a nap.” Joey continued to slur her words. Sophie and Ryan looked between each other and as Sophie was about to speak Ryan climbed into the back seat with Joey.

“You heard her Soph, drive.” Ryan gave Sophie a look that implied things were serious after she looked over Joey’s injuries.

“Siri call Mary Hamilton!” Sophie yelled. Mary immediately picked up which was not surprising especially because she had been trying to reach Sophie for days. “Sophie omg, I’ve been hoping you’d call. I went by your studio thinking you’d be there, can you meet me somewhere?” Mary said as her voice echoed through the car.

“I’m sorry I’ve been ignoring you and we will talk I promise but can you meet me at your clinic in 10 minutes? I really need your help.” Sophie’s voice cracked which did not go unnoticed by Mary.

“Soph are you hurt?! What’s going on?” Mary answered in a panic.

“No. No, I’m ok it’s Joey. She’s been hurt and it’s bad.” Mary gasped in shock. She didn’t know the finer details about Joey but she knew she was a good kid who deserved more than life had given her. She also knew how much Sophie cared for her.

“I just pulled into the clinic, I’ll see you when you get here. And Soph? Thanks for calling me with this.” Sophie could sense the sincerity in Mary’s voice and thanked her before they both hung up.

“He took the money Soph and I got out. I got out the game. I’m not gonna deal anymore.” Joey was speaking even slower as she continued to slur her words but this time with a smile on her face. Ryan cradled her in her arms with glassy eyes begging her tears to stay at bay.

“Soph how much longer until we get there? She’s losing consciousness” Ryan said as she watched Joey struggle to keep her eyes open.

“I’m sorry I disappointed you Soph, I’m so sorry. I deserve this, I know I deserve this.” Joey coughed up blood which made Ryan’s eyes grow wider. “Stay with me Joey, come on don’t do this. You deserve everything good in this world. Do you know I felt that way about myself for years but all it takes is to have the right people around and so far you know one of the best people on this earth.” Ryan caught Sophie’s eyes in the rear-view mirror and smiled.

“She’s pretty aweso…” Joey’s voice trailed off as she lost consciousness.

“Joey! Wake up, stay with me Jo! Omg Sophie she’s not responding!” Ryan yelled in panic as Sophie swerved with speed in front of Mary’s clinic.

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Sophie and Ryan were sitting in Mary’s office on her couch. After getting Joey inside to one of her trauma rooms, Mary was able to restart her heart and scan her entire body. Mary was the best general surgeon in the country who had a strong passion for helping those who could not afford basic health care. Her clinic was just the face she showed everyone but Mary ran a highly advanced medical practice that would put the highest ranked facility to shame. The entire team she employed were all exceptional at their jobs are were all constantly turning down offers at larger institutions who were confused as to why they would be content working at Hamilton Medical Centre.

Sophie was pacing while her phone kept ringing. She looked at the screen and declined the call while looking at Ryan. “It’s Kate, I promise to deal with that but right no..” Before Sophie could finish her sentence Ryan stood up and held both of the woman’s hands, immediately ending her pacing.

“Look at me.” Ryan said softly and Sophie turned her directly to look directly into the younger woman’s eyes. Those brown eyes quickly slowed Sophie’s heart rate.  “Mary and her team are doing everything they can. Right now they aren’t here which means they’re still working. Which means she’s still alive.

Sophie looked down at their intertwined hands and looked back at Ryan. Ryan watched the older woman make a decision that she didn’t share as she walked them both back to the sofa. She watched the battle in Sophie’s mind on her face but decided to give the older woman some time to decide if he wanted to share it with her. After a few more moments of silence Sophie spoke keeping her eyes on their hands.

“Ryan… You’re a breath of fresh air. I know you probably hear that all the time and if you don’t, I want you to know that for me, you have been a breath of fresh air. Since the first day I met you, I’ve been able to breathe easier. The night I fled from my place I was terrified. I was so hurt, I felt so broken and so stupid you know? I gave my relationship with Kate so much. It was like I was determined to make it work to prove people wrong, especially my own mother.”

Ryan saw the sadness in Sophie’s face at the mention of her mother but just listened as the older woman continued.

“I don’t know… I just thought Kate was it for me and I never considered that maybe love isn’t supposed to be so hard and so hurtful and maybe there’s someone else out there for me.” Sophie held her head up with tears in her eyes and looked at Ryan who had the softest most compassionate look on her face as she stayed silent and listened. She squeezed Sophie’s hand urging her to continue.

“That night I was speeding, I was so mad. I felt so numb and I just wanted it all to end…”

Sophie broke their gaze and Ryan scooted closer to Sophie and cupped her face so their eyes would meet once again. They both turned their bodies toward each other.

“I was maybe doing 150 on the high way and I just closed my eyes Ryan. I closed my eyes because I was so hurt and so destroyed that I wanted to die.”

Sophie began sobbing uncontrollably and Ryan pulled the older woman into her arms and laid back onto the sofa with Sophie on top her in her arms. Ryan was also in tears, she could feel the pain Sophie had been holding onto for days. Maybe pain deeper than Ryan knew. She held onto Sophie while she sobbed and continuously kissed her forehead and squeezed her tightly. Ryan let her own tears fall as she kept saying reassuring words to Sophie as she cried.

After about 15 minutes Sophie’s tears stopped but Ryan didn’t let her go. She held her and they both existed in silence before Sophie spoke again.

“I closed my eyes and the alert from you message telling me I could go to your place brought me back. You keep saving me Ryan. I’m sorry I’m such a mess right now. You’re such a light and I’m just a pool of darkness.”

“Sophie, you are anything but dark, you are the most caring, loving and compassionate person I’ve met in a really long time. I know we just met but I feel like I know you a little more because of Jordan. Not to mention you naturally care for everyone. Look at what you did for Joey today, what you’ve been doing for her. You don’t have to care but you do Soph. That’s not dark energy that’s light babe. You do so much for others, let me be there for you, I promise to take care of you and be a shoulder you need whenever you need it.

Sophie smiled against Ryan’s chest. “I’d like that a lot.”

Sophie and Ryan knew based on Sophie’s revelation there was still a lot the two needed to talk about but they were both content to stop for now. Sophie shuffled herself closer into Ryan’s neck as the younger woman pulled her closer.

Just as Ryan placed another kiss on Sophie’s head, Mary walked through the door with a confused expression on her face. She noticed how Sophie didn’t jump or act surprised like she was caught in the act as Ryan whispered to her that Mary had arrived.

Sophie got up and immediately went toward Mary with Ryan right behind her. Before she could speak Mary interjected.

“She loss a lot of blood but she’s going to make a full recovery. It was touch and go at first, she had some deep scaring from previous injuries that didn’t heal properly. She got a pretty bad beating, her internal injuries were severe but we were able to stop the bleeding and repair all the damage we found. She’s young so she will bounce back quickly.” Mary smiled, as Sophie pulled in her for a long hug. “Thank you Mary, you’re a life saver, literally.”

Mary laughed, she knew how much Joey meant to Sophie based on what she knew from Luke and was happy she could save the kid’s life.

“She’s being moved to her private room right now and then you can see her. Don’t worry about the cost, this is on me but if you really want to pay maybe we can do lunch? Catch up? I miss you Soph.”

Sophie saw the sincerity in Mary’s face and pulled her in for another hug.

“I’m sorry I’ve been so distant, I’ve had a lot going on but definitely let’s get lunch tomorrow.” The women agreed to lunch and then Mary glanced to Ryan who had remained silent during the entire interaction, only taking out her phone to text Kelly that Joey would be alright.

Mary walked up to Ryan, “I’m sorry. I’m Mary, it’s nice to meet you?”

“Hi Dr. Hamilton. I’m Ryan it’s nice to meet you.”

“Just Mary is fine.” She smiled and looked between the two women who couldn’t stop stealing glances at each other.

“I’d say get a room but you guys are technically in one, so I’m gonna go ahead and leave you two. I’ll go check to see if you can go see Jo now.” Mary smiled at the two women and as she walked by Sophie she whispered. “Lunch tomorrow, I want to know everything.” Sophie shook her head and smiled as Mary exited the room.

Ryan approached Sophie and held her hand with a smirk on her face. “Come on, let’s go see your girl.”

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Joey was just waking when Sophie entered her room. Ryan stayed by the door opting to give the two some privacy.

Sophie sat down on the side of Joey’s hospital bed and caressed the soft curls on top of her head.

“You had me worried kid, I thought I lost you.” Sophie blinked back tears as she cupped Joey’s cheek. The teen leaned into Sophie’s hand, her own tears falling as she apologized over and over to Sophie.

“You’re not alone Jo. You have me. You always have me. I don’t care what comes up, what life throws at us, I’m always going to be here for you and from today you’re stuck with me. I don’t care what I have to do. I don’t care if I have to rearrange my life to make you a priority over everything around me. You got me from here on out, one hundred percent for life. I know I don’t have a house yet and I’m still looking but you’re gonna come back to Ryan’s with me and we will figure it out.” Sophie’s tears finally fell as she stared into eyes that reminded her of hers.

“You’ve got me kid, I love you Jo.” Sophie smiled.

“Same here, Robin.” Ryan said from the door causing the two women to swing their gaze over to her.

Ryan walked toward Joey’s hospital bed, “I mean you’ve got me too. I don’t know you at all but you will come to know that we have a lot in common. I know what it’s like to feel loss, angry, hurt, rage and sadness all at once while having no idea what to do with it. You’re lucky kid. Sophie in your corner is a beautiful thing and I want to also be there for you however you’ll let me.”

Ryan was enamoured by the way Sophie cared for Joey. Watching the two of them interact made her tummy swirl in the best way possible.

“Well first of all how about you start by not calling me Robin.” Joey smiled. “Just Joey, only Soph gets to call me Jo.”

“I think that’s a great start kid.” Ryan and Sophie looked eyes. They were in for a ride.

Notes:

Ahhh. It's been forever! Trust me I know. So much happened. I left my country and started a new job at sea. I've missed this little story. If you're still reading I appreciate you. I'll try to update it as much as I can. I think I've got maybe 5 more chapters left before I move onto what i've really been working on. Which is focusing on Ryan, Sophie and Joey's journey as a trio! So let's get this wrapped up. Also. Yes I know. How haven't they kissed this. It's coming. They both will. :)

Chapter 16: Moving Forward or Being Knocked Back?

Summary:

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Ryan and Kelly entered Sophie’s office as she welcomed them with a huge smile on her face. A couple days after all the craziness things started to settle down. Joey moved into Ryan’s home and was provided with in house care to help with her recovery. Sophie called in some favours who were working to get Joey placed with her and she was finally able to complete her pieces. What started as a hectic week, finally became calm. Maybe even too calm for Sophie’s liking but she decided not to overthink it. Unfortunately because of everything going on, her meeting with Ryan was pushed to Wednesday so that they could get Joey settled in and Sophie could continue house hunting. Sophie still had not found a place but after her meeting with Kelly and Ryan they were all going to meet Luke to view a property that he swears is perfect for Sophie.

Sophie turned to her assistant who she realized hadn’t left the room. “Morgan? Is there something wrong?”

Morgan was Sophie’s latest assistant, she was young and quite brilliant. A tall Latina who had just left her country looking for new opportunities. Out of all the applicants, she was the first person whose resume made it all the way to Sophie’s desk for a final interview. She was barely 23 years old but kicking ass.

“Sorry to interrupt but Iniesta from the Louve has called three more times since the last time I mentioned.

Ryan and Kelly both looked at each other.

Sophie sighed. “Tell him I’ll give him a call before the day is out. Tell him I also said no I haven’t thought about his offer to host my next show as yet.

Morgan nodded her head and as she was about to exit Sophie spoke again. “And Morgan.”

“Yes Ms. Moore?”

“Tell him I said stop stressing my assistant.” Sophie smiled at the young woman who smiled softly and tucked her long black hair behind her ear before leaving the room.

“Yes ma’am.”

“Sorry ladies, please have a seat?”

Sophie kept her eyes locked on Ryan who fidgeted slightly in her seat and smiled.

Flashback

After checking on Joey Sophie slipped into Ryan’s room and stood at the door while the younger woman stretched to begin her yoga outside. In just a skin tight black leggings, black sports bra and her hair up in a messy bun, Ryan looked good enough to swallow.

“You gonna just stare or you gonna do something about this view?” Ryan teased without turning her head to look at Sophie.

Sophie bit her lower lip and slowly approached Ryan who smiled as she felt the older woman get closer. Sophie wrapped her arms around Ryan and pulled her close to her chest and dropped her lips to Ryan’s ear.

“That depends, are you gonna run again or actually let me do something?” Sophie whispered and felt Ryan shudder as her hands caressed her exposed stomach.

When Ryan turned around and locked eyes with Sophie she knew she was in trouble. Sophie slowly made strides toward Ryan who slowly backed away. Ryan’s back finally hit the wall behind her and she gasped. Sophie blocked her path and brought their bodies together pining Ryan onto the wall. Sophie slid her hands up to Ryan’s arms and smiled as she felt the goosebumps appear on her skin.

The two women still needed to talk but the flirting between the two was so natural. Ryan still didn’t want to do anything hasty before they had a chance to really talk but the way Sophie was looking at her, she knew putting off the conversation any further would only make matters worse. They needed to be on the same page before anything deeper happened between them.

“I’m trying to be polite and wait for consent but if you keep looking at me like that I might just have to..” Sophie’s voice trailed off as her lips inched closed to Ryan’s.

Just as their lips were about to connect they were interrupted by Mack’s voice.

“Ryan, Ms. Joey is asking to see you. She is not in need of medical attention just your attention.

Ryan rested her forehead on Sophie’s and rubbed their noses together as she inhaled deeply. “I don’t want to run away but I think we should talk. Is tonight good for that reign check on dinner? I’d really like to cook for you.”

“It’s like you read my mind, dinner sounds great Ry.”

When Ryan didn’t respond to Mack, another audio message came through repeating the last prompt.

Ryan got on her tippy toes, kissed Sophie on the forehead, both cheeks and then her nose. “I have to go, drive safe beautiful. Text me when you make it to the office.

Sophie was flushed as she watched Ryan walk out the bedroom.

Flashback ends

 

Kelly cleared her throat, which caused both ladies to break their gaze at the same time.

“Right, I’ll make this really easy for you both. I read your proposal Kelly and well.. considerate it done.” Sophie smiled.

Kelly looked at Sophie wide eyed, “um, which part exactly?”

Sophie sat up straight and looked between the two women. “All of it, consider all of it done. Whatever you need consider me in.”

Ryan chimed in, “Soph.. you don’t have to do that. We came here hoping we could get maybe just one of those things.”

Ryan couldn’t believe what Sophie was agreeing to. Agreeing to take over Ryan’s entire print and digital profile was a lot already but Sophie was agreeing to do it for 5 years. She was essentially agreeing to turn Ryan into a kind of art Kelly pretty much made up.

“I know and I want to do it. I’d love to work with you both. I did my research and what you two have been able to do and build in the space of time you have is absolutely extraordinary. Clearly you two accomplish whatever you put your mind to, I would be a fool to pass up an opportunity to be a part of that. After reading your proposal, I have so many ideas that I’d like to discuss further but yeah, I’m 100% in. You guys work perfect together but I think we could all create something that takes the world by storm.”

Sophie once again locked eyes with Ryan who looked so soft under Sophie’s gaze. She’s not sure when it happened, but the damsel in distress was slowly leaving Sophie after everything that happened to Joey. Ryan was beginning to experience THE Sophie Moore and she was loving every moment.

Ryan smiled. “Well ok then.”

The women spent the next hour going over final details so that they could have contracts drawn up. At the end of the meeting Kelly left the room to use to restroom leaving the two women together.

“You’re something really amazing Sophie, I can’t believe you’re doing this. Thank you.”

Sophie could see the gratitude in Ryan’s brown eyes and couldn’t help but feel warm inside.

“It’s nothing Ryan, I’m happy to be part of your team. I meant every word I said. You two are bad asses.”

Ryan smiled across from Sophie at the table. “So the Louve huh? When were you going to tell me how much of a big deal you are?”

Ryan saw Sophie become shy in an instant. “Idk, I guess I always just think I’m doing what I love. I never really think of myself as anything but plain ol Sophie. Jordan’s big sis.”

Ryan smirked, “There’s absolutely nothing plain about you Ms. Moore.” Without even thinking about it and their eyes still locked on each other, both women left their chairs and met each other in the centre of the room. Sophie leaned against the table and immediately pulled Ryan into her arms sliding her hands down to Ryan’s back and gripping her low waist intimately.

“Oh tell me how you really feel.” Ryan smiled as she watched Sophie’s eyes roam her.

“I plan to actually, tonight over dinner. Are you going to at least tell me what’s on the menu?” Sophie raised an eyebrow and kept a salacious grin on her face which did not go unnoticed by the shorter woman.

Ryan leaned in and brought her lips to Sophie’s ear. Sophie who at the contact, gripped Ryan’s waist tighter.

“So far I’m only sure about the dessert menu.” Ryan whispered softly and as the words left her lips, Sophie moaned and leaned her ear into Ryan’s lips.

Ryan pulled back when her lips made contact with Sophie’s skin and she watched the older woman chuckle slightly as she brought their gaze back together.

“I just knew you were going to pull away but you know what they say. If you can’t handle the heat, stay out of the kitchen Wilder.” Sophie smirked.

“Oh you calling my bluff Moore?” Ryan slowly brought her lips towards Sophie’s and just as they were about to kiss, Kelly cleared her throat.” They were so wrapped up in each other, they didn’t notice her walk into the room. Sophie quickly removed her hands from Ryan’s waist and the two jumped back and created some much needed space between them.

“Do I really want to spend my morning with you two? This kitchen is on fire if you ask me.” Kelly looked at Ryan and raised an eyebrow.

Just then Sophie’s assistant knocked and popped into the room. “Ms. Moore, I need some signatures before you leave for the day.”

“You can come in, we’re finished here. I’ll see you both in about 15 minutes then we a can all leave together. I sent you guys the location.” Sophie smiled at the ladies who exited the room. Ryan not before she gave Sophie a wink.

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“There was absolutely nothing wrong with that house Soph, it’s perfect for you and Joey.” Luke shook his head as they all walked to their cars outside of the property.

“Yeah Soph, It’s perfect are we missing something?” Ryan looks at Sophie concerned.

Kelly and Luke looked at each other, shook their head and opened a group chat.

Oblivious Wildermoore (Kelly, Luke, Jordan)
Kelly: If these two don’t just suck faces already. This is starting to piss me off.
Jordan: *Grabs popcorn* Ouuuu. I love the sound of gossip going off. Who said they haven’t kissed yet?
Kelly: Based on the sexual tension I walked in on earlier in Sophie’s office and the convo I overheard, they defleeee ain’t swap no spit chyle.

“I don’t know, maybe I just need some more time to think about it. Maybe see more places before first?” Ryan watched Sophie pacing like there was a million and one things going through her mind.

Ryan approached her and grabbed her hands.

Oblivious Wildermoore (Kelly, Luke, Jordan)
Luke: I could have gone my entire life without that visual but you’re right. They haven’t.
Jordan: Luke you’ve been holding out on us?! What else do you know! Spill it right now!
Kelly: Don’t make me strangle you Luke.

“Soph, you’ve seen so many houses I lost count. This one is perfect, let’s at least express your interest before you say no completely. Deal?” Sophie smiled at Ryan and nodded in agreement.

Luke: Why are you both like this? They’re having dinner tonight. Ryan is cooking.
Luke: Before you both start, that’s all I know.
Kelly: The jury is out on if that’s all you know but we’ll take it.
Jordan: FOR NOW.

“You two want to share what’s so funny?” Ryan spoke loud enough to break both Luke and Kelly away from their phones.

Luke and Kelly both looked at each other and Kelly shrugged her shoulders. “You guys are cute, that’s all. Now let’s go. I promised the kid I’d whoop her ass at spades for a little while.”

Both Sophie and Ryan smiled. Since Joey moved into the house, Kelly had been over every day to see her. Bringing her stuff she bought or just sticking around to talk about music or watch a movie.

Ryan squinted. “Sure but you dorks are being weird. Let’s go.”

They all said their respective goodbyes. Ryan and Kelly headed back to Ryan’s place while Luke and Sophie headed to a close coffee shop to catch up but also so that he could update Sophie on what he found regarding Ryan and Jada Jet.

----

Sophie and Luke sat across from each other in a small local coffee shop.

“I have a meeting in 30 minutes so I’m going to cut to the case. Jada Jet is Ryan’s birth mother. She paid a doctor 2 million dollars to cover up her pregnancy. Ryan’s birth certificate is fake. Nia A. Wilder doesn’t exist.” Luke turned his iPad to Sophie whose eyebrows were now drawn together as she scrolled through the documents.

She looked at Luke and nodded for him to continue.

Luke continued. “What I don’t think Jada knows is that the doctor pocketed the money and faked her Nia’s death. She doesn’t know he made up a family. All she knows is that he is in prison because he was caught doing a similar transaction. Covering up a pregnancy for one for Gotham’s Elite.”

Sophie sat back in her chair. Stunned at the information. The last thing she wanted to do was hurt Ryan but this information would definitely blow her world up.

“This is crazy Luke.” Sophie sighed.

“Well that’s not all. There’s one last thing that she should know. Jada has a son. His name is Marquis. Unlike Jada, he hates the spotlight. He only makes appearances if the cause interests him. I met him at a black tie fundraiser last year.” Luke said.

“So let me get this straight. Ryan is an heiress to a billion dollar throne. Jada, as in Jada Jet paid 2 million dollars to get rid of her but kept her baby brother? Fuck. This is going to rock her world Luke.” Sophie sighed.

“Yeah it’s crazy, I don’t know what she’s going to do with the information but if I’m correct I’ll be getting a call from Jada tomorrow. I didn’t leave a trail but the only other company that has the tech to pick up a slight breadcrumb is Jetruian.”

“I’ll tell her tonight over dinner. Might as well put it all out there. Thank you Luke.” Sophie closed Luke’s iPad case and handed it back to him.

“Anytime Soph, let me know how it goes and let Ryan know that I’ll tell her anything she wants to know.” Luke smiled at Sophie.

They two left their chairs and embraced in a hug and as they gathered their things and turned to leave, Kate was standing in front of them.

“Hi Luke, Sophie can we talk?” Kate was standing in front of the two with a soft pleading look on her face.

Both Sophie and Luke looked at each other and then back to Kate. Luke always knew what Sophie was thinking. He sat back down and pulled another chair from a table close by.

“Sure.” Sophie sat and gestured to the other chair left.

Kate looked at the chair, Luke and then Sophie. “I was hoping we could talk, just the two of us. I promise I’m not trying to cause any drama.” Kate said softly.

“Great then whatever you need to say to me you can say in front of Luke or not at all.” Sofie said sternly.

Kate raised her eye brows confused and shocked. She was not accustomed to this version of Sophie. The version of Sophie she knew was soft on her. This new version was hard.

“I guess I have no choice then.” Kate sat down in the chair and cleared her throat.

“Before you say whatever it is you need to say I was coming by to tell you this a few days ago. That stunt you pulled with Ryan was fucked up. It’s one thing to mess with me but she’s done nothing to you. Especially when you were there with your side piece.”

Before Sophie could continue Kate chimed in. “You’re right and I’m sorry.”

Sophie paused confused by the admission and apology she received from Kate. The Kate she knew never apologized. The Kate she knew was always right. It was always Kate’s way or the highway so what was going on.

Kate laughed lowly, “That felt just as strange coming out of my mouth as I’m sure it was hearing it for you. Which tells me I’ve not been great to you and I’m sorry. Not because I want you back. I mean of course I want you back but I mean I’m not saying any of this in hopes that we can try again. You’re right about Ryan as well, I had to right and I hope at some point I can apologise to her. I also need to warn you about Erin. She is..”

Luke cute in. “You mean Jackie and we know. She’s dangerous.”

“Jackie?” Kate looked between the two of them as Sophie nodded.

Luke explained everything to Kate who sat back in her chair in amazement. All the blood left her face and it was clear to Sophie that she had no idea what was going on.

“Yeah so when you thought you were scoring a piece of ass, you brought a whole lot more to our lives.” Sophie knew it was petty but she couldn’t help herself.

“I deserved that but I think she’s planning something. I just don’t know what. I just wanted to give you a heads up. I think I at least owe you that much. Also, however way I can help. Will you let me know?” This time Kate turned to Luke who nodded.

“Yeah, I actually have a plan on how to turn her in and I will need your help. Right now play nice with her until I get in contact with you.” Luke said.

Kate nodded and got up from the table to leave. “Soph, I really am sorry. I know that doesn’t mean a lot but I’m hoping one day you can forgive me.”

Kate left and Sophie looked at Luke. “Whatever you need me to do to get this crazy lady out of our lives, I’ll do.”

Luke grabbed Sophie’s hands across the table. “I’m not letting anything happen to those a care about. I’ve got this and I’ve got you. I promise.”

What started as a carefree day quickly turned serious luckily she was having dinner with her favourite face later.

 

Chapter 17: Melt Into You

It was later than Sophie had planned on returning home but after her run in with Kate she stayed with Luke to get more insight on how they would handle the Jackie situation. This woman was a mastermind and alerting the authorities would only give her the upper hand. Luke explained that she had been able to avoid them for years because of her friends in really high places. What Sophie hoped would be as simple as turning her over to the police would now be about unearthing some corrupt organisations. She just hoped all of this wouldn’t put Luke in harms way but as always, he reassured her that everything was under control.

Sophie walked through the door and sighed in content at how her shoulders immediately relaxed. Since staying at Ryan’s she felt so at home. She had a routine after just a short space of time. She dropped her keys in the bowl by the entrance, hung her coat and took off her shoes. The house was unusually quiet so she slipped into her room and took a shower hoping to wash off the day before checking on Joey and finding Ryan. It was still a little early for their dinner so Sophie slipped into some comfortable black sweatpants that fell nicely off her waist and a loose black crop top. On leaving her room and heading down the stairs she heard both Ryan and Joey’s voices in the kitchen. She slowed her movements and poked her head around the corner to take in the scene.

Joey was sitting in her wheelchair with Ryan’s iPad in front of her facing Ryan. The two of them were playing Head’s Up and Ryan was trying her best but failing to give Joey clues she knew. At the sight Sophie’s stomach swirled. She got instant butterflies.

“She accidentally showed her breast on stage at the Super Bowl!” Ryan yelled and Joey furrowed her eyebrows in confusion.

“Ou ou! Her brother is the biggest pop star to ever live! Ryan squealed. “Come on Joey!”

“Erykah Badu!” Joey yelled.

“You’re killing me!” Ryan laughed. “Ou I got it! Her brothers were a famous singing group!” Ryan was bouncing up and down.

“Justin Bieber!” Joey yelled.

“Girl what!” Ryan laughed out loud. “She was one of the biggest pop artists! She was..” Ryan yelled as the clock timed out.

Joey turned the screen toward her to check on what she missed. “Seriously Ryan, Janet Jackson? You do remember how old I am right?” Joey shook her head in disappointment.

“Also, we’ve been through this for like the fifth time, you can choose to pass to the next clue. You’re so bad at this.” Joey laughed as Ryan pouted.

For someone who loves music, why don’t you know these things about Janet Jackson?

“Maybe you should have called some of the songs she sings. All you had to say was Rhythm Nation.” Joey rolled her eyes.

Ryan’s eyes widened in realizatdion. “Oh yeah that’s true.” She laughed while Joey looked on in disbelief.

Just then Sophie walked in. “Well hello you two.” She walked over, bent and hugged joey and then pulled Ryan into a hug. It was almost like she hadn’t seen the woman in days.

“How are you ladies doing?” Sophie asked gesturing between the two.

“We’re good. Ryan has been showing me just how bad she is at Heads Up since Kelly left after I whopped her butt in spades countless times.” Joey smiled proudly.

“Hey no bragging!” Ryan teased.

“Last time I checked, it’s not bragging if it’s true.” Joey countered back which made Ryan pause.

“Wait, I say that as well.” Ryan smiled.

So far Joey was still in disbelief about her current situation. She still didn’t understand why Ryan was being so nice to her. Hell, she still didn’t know why Sophie was going so hard for her. In just a few days she was living a completely different life than she had envisioned for herself. She went from not being sure where her next meal would be to not being sure if she would live to see the next day to suddenly living in space that she could have never imagined being in. Things had drastically changed for her and she hadn’t mentioned it but Ryan could sense the fight or flight in her. She was fourteen when Mama Cora adopted her and she remembered how tough it was to accept that her situation had finally changed for the better.

“I actually have some good news for you Jo.” Sophie smiled at Ryan who already knew and then turned to Joey.

“We all pulled our contacts together and we were able to get a judge to review your case. You can stay with me, well us. Also, I’d really like to foster you if you’re ok with that.” Sophie said hopeful.

Joey looked between Ryan and Sophie. “I don’t know what to say, I feel like I blinked and so many things changed around me.”

“They’re changing for the good so what do you say Jo?” Sophie still looked nervous as if the young girl was going to say no.

“Of course I’m ok with it. Thank you. Thank you both.” Joey said in the softest of voices as the tears streamed from her eyes.

Sophie walked up to Joey, knelt down and wrapped her arms around her. “I told you I got you kid, forever.” Sophie said finally letting her own tears fall.

Ryan watched the scene before her. This dinner was going to be either the best thing that ever happened to her or it would shatter her world. She wanted Sophie, she didn’t understand how but she wanted Joey as well. She could see her life with them and with even more kids, dogs and who knows more fostering but Sophie may not want those same things. Watching Sophie and Joey made her realize how much she craved settling down and a family life, she just hoped Sophie craved the same and they could make it work together.

“Ryan?” Joey said starling Ryan out of her own brain. Sophie noticed how distracted Ryan was and was hoping it wasn’t all too much for her.

“Sorry Joey, what did you say?” Ryan returned her gaze to Sophie and Joey.

“I’m heading to the room. Kelly and I are gonna stream B.A.P.S apparently it’s mandatory.” Joey rolled her eyes and she wheeled herself away. Joey had been occupying the spacious guest room on the far right side of the house since she came home from the hospital. She was slowly getting her strength back but taking the stairs was out of the question currently. She knew tonight was Ryan and Sophie's big date so she didn't want to disturb them but she promised to interrupt them if she needed anything.

Both Ryan and Sophie laughed as they turned to each other. “Kelly really likes her. She sees a lot of us when we were younger in her so I totally get it. Plus I hate to admit it but I think they have the same sense of humour. You should have seen the way they butt heads when she first ran into us.

Silence settled between the two before the two tried to speak at the same time.

“No you first.” Sophie insisted with a smile on her face.

“I was thinking we could have dinner outside. I have everything set up already, I just need to go get changed into a date worthy outfit.” Ryan smiled as Sophie walked toward her and placed her hands on her hips.

“Now you go.” Ryan said, gesturing her head upward for Sophie to speak.

“You already look amazing.” Sophie wrapped her arms around Ryan pulling her close to her. She looked into Ryan’s eyes and the two women connected their heads and noses as Ryan brought her hands to the back of Sophie’s neck.

Every time their bodies connected it was extremely difficult to ignore the flame that suddenly lit between them. The way they were so constantly drawn to each other was hard to ignore.

“Why is it that every time I’m in the same space as you, my hands find the back of your neck and your hands find my waist.” Ryan whispered against Sophie’s lips.

“I think it’s because I really want to kiss you.” Sophie tilted Ryan’s head up and their eyes met. She moved her eyes to her thumb as she ran it over Ryan’s bottom lip and then brought her gaze back to glistened chocolate brown pools that gave her butterflies over and over again.

“To save myself the embarrassment of if you pull away again. Ryan can I..” Before Sophie could finish she felt the softest lips against hers. Their bodies were flush against each other as Ryan brought their lips together and then moved into a slow savouring tongue kiss as soon as Sophie granted her access. Sophie moved her hands from Ryan’s waist and brought them to the side of her face and backed the shorter woman up against the kitchen island. The kiss remained slow but became deeper as their hands wandered. Ryan ran her tongue all over the inside of Sophie’s mouth as the older woman moaned and tried to regain control but failed. Ryan grabbed her face and held Sophie in place as she slowly played with her tongue, letting out her own moan into Sophie’s mouth. When the two pulled away they were out of breath as they rested their foreheads and noses together once again.

Ryan had kissed a lot a women but a kiss has never made her feel the way Sophie just did and from the look on Sophie’s face she could tell the feeling was mutual.

“Fuck.” They both whispered.

They stood inhaling each other for some seconds before Sophie tilted Ryan’s chin up and brought their eyes together. Both of their eyes were filled with want and pure adoration.

“If you don’t stop looking at me like that we won’t make it to dinner Soph.” Ryan smiled.

“Ditto. You’re so beautiful Ryan. Your eyes take me places.” Sophie confessed.

“Really? Like where?” Ryan asked blushing like she had never received a compliment before.

“To the calmest, happiest place I’ve ever felt in my entire life. What are you doing to me woman?” Sophie smiled.

“The same thing those honey eyes do to me.” Ryan kissed Sophie again and the kiss quickly grew heated and Sophie wrapped her arms around Ryan’s ass and hoisted her up onto the kitchen island causing Ryan to gasp and moan all at once.

They pulled away and Sophie stopped Ryan before she was about to kiss her again. “I think maybe we need to put some distance between us so we can both get changed to eat.

“I’m trying to do just that.” Ryan’s eyes became dark with lust as she bit her bottom lip and stared at Sophie who gave right into the salacious look on Ryan’s face.

“You are so bad woman, I promise we will get there. Let’s go change and eat baby.” Sophie shook her head as she saw the wide grin on Ryan’s face.

“Food first baby.” Sophie winked and lifted Ryan down from the counter and led her upstairs.

——

Ryan led Sophie to private area of the house and watched as Sophie kept looking around confused because it was an area of the house that she had yet to see.

“At some point you’re going to have to give me a real tour of this place Ry.” Ryan looked back and smiled without saying anything in response. Ryan walked her outside to the rooftop that overlooked the entire city. There were lights reminiscent of the ones that lit Ryan’s bedroom in the plants and ceiling around the terrace. Sophie took in the view that hosted a table in the centre set up for dinner then turned to Ryan.

Sophie pulled Ryan close to her and kissed her quickly on the lips.

“Thank you.” Sophie uttered. “Thank you for this.”

Ryan had hired a discreet private company her and Kelly usually used for special occasions which also offered waiter services. She wanted to make sure everything was set up the way she knew Sophie deserved. Kelly had begged her to let her be the waiter for the night and had even bet Ryan five hundred dollars that she could do it without talking at all. Eventually Kelly gave up only once Ryan promised to tell her all the details.

“Don’t thank me yet, you haven’t tasted any of the food.” Ryan quipped and then pulled Sophie toward the table set up where she pulled the chair for her to sit then took her own seat.

Ryan and Sophie were having what Sophie would now count as the best date she’s ever been on. The food was great, the conversation was great and well her date was absolutely breathtaking. During their conversation which was full of flirting, both women were catching glimpses of each others assets. Ryan had slipped into a little black dress that accentuated all of her curves and Sophie wore a white dress that made her legs beg her to hit a runway. Both women swooned when they met each other outside of their rooms at the top of the stairs. There was even a kiss that almost made both women forget the assignment was to eat dinner first.

The music on the open deck was playing a low soulful acoustic guitar led instrumental while the two women were caught in conversation laughing.

“No seriously, they have an entire group chat where they talk about us can you believe it?” Ryan sipped her wine and smiled behind her glass.

“Actually I can but only because Jordan is involved.” Sophie laughed. “I am mostly shocked that they’ve roped Luke into it. He’s always going on about how he doesn’t like to gossip. I can’t wait to hold this over his head. Wait, how did you even find out about this?” Sophie asked looking curiously at Ryan.

“Well, if it’s one thing you don’t do is mess with Joey, apparently they wouldn’t let her in the group so she tattled.” Ryan and Sophie both laughed and then silence settled between the two women as they stared at each other across the small table.

I don’t mean to change the mood but I need to ask you something.” Sophie said, immediately feeling nervous.

“Of course Soph, what’s up?” Ryan asked.

“Is this all too much for you? You’ve been doing a lot for me and now for Joey and I saw the way you spaced out a little while ago when I told her I wanted to foster her. Before I was just me but now in just a short space of knowing me I’m a package deal which you didn’t sign up for. I don’t even know if you want kids, or if you..” When Sophie started to ramble, Ryan reached across the table and placed her hand over Sophie’s and gave it a soft squeeze which immediately got the older woman’s attention.

“One, you’re really cute when you’re worried. Two, thank you for checking in, its been a lot but I’ve been good Soph. I promise and if at any point I’m not I will tell you. I want you to be there for me as much as I want you to let me be there for you.” Ryan held Sophie’s hands and felt her relax a little.

“And three, I want you badly but as I said I’m patient. What I realised earlier when I spaced out is that I want Joey too. Or the idea of Joey. Watching you two has made me realise how much I crave family life and settling down with my own tribe.” Ryan laughed. We’ve been doing things backward and out of the ordinary from the beginning so why not just continue.

“So, here’s me putting it all out on the table. In my life I’ve lost a lot of people and I’ve been scared to death to lose anyone else. When I was in group homes I met this girl, Angelique and she became my best friend. She always said, I made every crappy group home feel like a real home because I was there. I also met Kelly in the system as you know but they couldn’t be more different. Ang was a rule breaking hard ass who often got me in trouble with her which Kelly hated. Eventually I got adopted and we lost touch but after college she popped back up and we got back together which might I add Kelly also hated.” Ryan laughed.

Sophie could sense there was a lot more so she sat silent and allowed Ryan to speak.

“After college and grad school, Kelly and I teamed up and within months of graduating I started getting small bookings. From small theatre roles to some print magazine gigs. Things that just got my face out there and helped get me some experience. Kelly and I were working our asses off but Ang would just stay back at the apartment hanging around all day until her shift at the bar she worked at. I tried my best to encourage her. Offered to help her go back to school so she could figure out what would make her happy but she would say yes and then never apply herself. Eventually our relationship became nothing but arguments and fighting which started to affect me. It got toxic, I mean really toxic. One day Kelly and my Mama staged an intervention for me because I started missing auditions, I was always crying, forgetting lines. It was becoming embarrassing for Kelly as well because it was her name attached in the industry. Eventually I dumped Ang but she came back a week later saying she would do better so of course I took her back and that went on for years until Ang started doing drugs and almost got me arrested. She was willing to let me take the fall for her and unfortunately as they say, sometimes you have to hit rock bottom to really see where you are and what you’d lose. I got my shit back together but it took me a really long time to let anyone close to me until well…. you. I like you a lot Sophie, I’m crazy about you and I know we just met and it’s fast but you have me. My only concern is ultimately if we want the same things. Do you see yourself settling down, I know settling down is a strange term especially because we both have careers that will take us out of the country. But for me settlings down doesn’t mean being stationary, it means being there. Where ever there is at whatever point it is.” Ryan paused realising Sophie had unshed tears in her eyes.

“Soph.. I’m sorry did I say something wrong?” Ryan got up and moved her chair to sit next to Sophie, who automatically turned to face her. Ryan caught the first tear that rolled down Sophie’s cheek.

“No. You said everything right. I’m sorry about everything you went through with your ex and I promise to never hurt you like that. Right now I know I have a lot going on but I want you too. I don’t know what it is about you but you make me feel like myself. You know I was thinking on the drive here how when everything popped off with Kate how withdrawn into myself I was. Honestly if I really think about it, I’ve never really felt like myself with Kate either. It’s only since you came into my life that I’ve felt like I can breathe, like I can relax and just do what feels instinctively natural to me. Kate always took the lead in everything, her alpha personality became a battle I didn’t want to fight so I just faded into the background. She never wanted to share the dominance in our relationship. Whether it was physical or just day to day life decisions, it was always Kate’s way. You, Ryan Wilder have been everything I’ve needed and wanted in my life. I want all those things as well.” Sophie smiled cupped Ryan’s face and kissed her softly on the lips before pulling away too soon for Ryan’s liking.

“I was worried you didn’t want kids or to be married some day but it’s good to know even in the things that terrified me the most we are on the same page about. I’m tired waiting and over analysing every little thing. This feels right, you feel right and you don’t have to wait for me. I’m yours if you want me.” Sophie confessed.

For Ryan it seemed like Sophie lit her honey eyes up specifically for her. She pulled her in for the kiss this time. It was soft and sensual but very tender.

“I specifically didn’t make any dessert because well.” Ryan smiled as she got up and held her hand out for Sophie to take.

As the two women exited the open terrace, the waiter smiled as she walked pass them to start clearing things away to finish up for the night.

——

 

Although the night was super romantic, Sophie finally came back to the reality that she had something very important to tell Ryan. The night had been so amazing that Jada Jet being Ryan’s birth mother totally slipped her mind. She hated to ruin the night but even if finally being with Ryan didn’t happen tonight, she would wait until whenever it happened. She didn’t want to kill the mood but she knew Ryan would need this information sooner than later. She didn’t want to withhold the information and make Ryan think she was keeping anything from her.

As soon as the two women entered Ryan’s bedroom. Ryan walked over to the bed to grab Mack’s interface so she could set the mood.

“Ryan, there’s something really important I need to tell you that totally slipped my mind.” Sophie said softly.

Ryan turned around and smiled. “I know baby but tonight is not about Kate, Jackie, or who is or isn’t my birth Mom. Tonight is about us.”

Sophie leaned against the door as she watched Ryan tap the screen to open up the room to let in the beautiful night light which illuminated the room. Ryan sat down on the bed, crossed her legs and leaned back on her elbows with a smile on her face.

“Ok?” Ryan asked.

“Yes, please.” Sophie acknowledged. She was still getting to know Ryan but one thing she knew for sure about the younger woman was that when she made up her mind about something, there was no changing it.

“Good girl.” Ryan smirked.

“Mack, launch caramel and honey.” Ryan said.

“Launching caramel and honey, ma’am. I do hope you enjoy it Ms. Moore.”

Sophie looked on in disbelief as the entire room changed. The room already had some light because of the floor to ceiling windows letting in the light that was glowing outside. Sophie watched as the yellow lights around Ryan’s bed that she had already experienced were now illuminating amongst dozes of red roses which now extended up the canopy bed poles and frame. There were candles lit around the room which now held a sweet vanilla scent. Sophie stood in awe as Ryan was highlighted in all her beauty, she was about to speak when the high ceiling opened up and red rose petals fell on the white linens which only made Ryan look even more like a goddess being showered in love. As she walked toward Ryan she noticed the opening above now revealed a large mirror that covered the entire king sized bed. Sophie watched as lights came on one by one to frame the mirror and gasped. The final touch the soft music playing which Sophie immediately recognised as a playlist she made for Ryan of her favourite love songs.

Sophie looked around the room in so much amazement that she didn’t notice Ryan push herself off the bed and was now standing in front of her until she felt hands slip around her neck. By default she slipped her hands around Ryan’s waist and pulled her sharply into her body causing the shorter woman to gasp. When her eyes found Ryan’s they were glassy, Sophie was speechless. She thought the dinner Ryan had planned for her was a lot but this.. This preceded anything she thought she could possible experience. This was always the energy she had about Kate but it was never reciprocated and even worse, sometimes Kate didn’t even seem appreciative. The tears ran down Sophie’s face as dark chocolate pools stared at her with the most adoration she had even seen directed toward her. It was in this moment she was sure, not just that she really liked Ryan but that she was falling in love with her.

“Ryan.. I can’t believe you did all this.” Sophie said softly as Ryan reached up to cup her cheek.

“Why not Soph? You’re one of a kind, this is just the beginning. You deserve so much more than this.” Ryan kissed Sophie softly on the lips but Sophie quickly deepened the kiss. She took her other hand from Ryan’s wait to hold her face as she walked her toward the bed. Ryan was about to step out of her heels when Sophie pulled back and looked her in the eyes with the darkest eyes Ryan had even seen.

“Don’t take those off yet.” The rasp in Sophie’s voice immediately made Ryan buckle at the knees which made Sophie smirk.

“Sit and lean back on the bed like you were earlier.” Sophie watched as Ryan did as she was told.

The older woman stepped back a little to give Ryan a full view. She stepped out of her louboutins slowly to the music never taking her eyes off Ryan. She easily unzipped her dress and slowly guided it down her body to reveal the two piece red see-through mesh lingerie set she was wearing underneath. Ryan immediately sat up a little in awe and tucked her bottom lip between her teeth.

“That’s not even fair.” Ryan sighed as her eyes raked up and down Sophie’s body. “If you don’t bring you fine ass over here, I’m gonna leap over there.”

Sophie smiled and made her way over to the bed where Ryan got up on her knees and met her at the side edge of the bed. She placed her hands on Sophie’s ass immediately while Sophie tucked her arms under Ryan’s and rested her hands on her back to pull down the zipper of her dress.

“You’re so beautiful Ryan.” Sophie whispered as she dragged the zipper down revealing Ryan’s back.

Ryan was so distracted, between Sophie’s hands on her and this lingerie set her entire body was on fire.

Sophie kissed Ryan deeply as the younger woman moaned into her mouth, she moved from Ryan’s lips to her neck and smiled between kisses as she heard the younger woman whisper her name like she was struggling to catch her breath. Sophie moved from kisses to finally letting her tongue guide its way across Ryan’s neck and up to her ears. Ryan’s dress was now around her waist, exposing her breast. Sophie was so caught up in her movements that she didn’t realise Ryan wasn’t wearing a bra. She ran her finger tips up and down the middle of Ryan’s back as she sucked and kissed on her ear eliciting even louder moans from the shorter woman. Sophie moved Ryan’s head to the side so that she could access more of her neck and around the back of her neck and smiled when’s he felt goosebumps on Ryan’s back. Ryan was in a trance and Sophie hadn’t even touched below her waist yet. What was this woman doing to her was all she could register with her eyes closed. Sophie made her way back to Ryan’s ears and blew hot air softly on her ear when she heard it for the first time.

“Fuck Soph.” Ryan said sated.

Sophie knew right there and then that she needed to hear more curse words, she needed to hear them coupled with her name.

Sophie pulled back and looked at Ryan, when she looked down, her eyes went wide and Ryan smiled. She tilted Sophie’s face back up to hers as Melt Into You by Adria Kain started playing.

Last night when I fell under the moon
I dreamt of me and you
Woke up wondering the truth behind those big brown eyes
Oh the trance you have me in
I can't begin to hide
All the ways that I'm feeling

Neither woman broke eye contract as Ryan laid back onto the bed. Sophie pulled the rest of her dress down her body and shook her head. This woman was trouble. Ryan’s gold nipple rings and navel rings glistened on her body. Sophie’s eyes covered every inch of Ryan’s body. Her abs, her thighs, this woman as a work of art. What caught Sophie’s attention also was that the red thong she wore was already wet. Sophie crawled over her and kissed her senselessly making Ryan squirm under her. Ryan arched her back as Sophie once again made her way around her neck and both ears. Sophie took the opportunity to slip her hand under Ryan’s back to pulled her up a little after moving from her neck to chest and slipped a nipple in her mouth. As soon as Sophie’s tongue flicked Ryan’s nipple the younger woman moaned loudly. The more Ryan moaned the sound went straight to Sophie’s pulsing centre.

“What the fuck! Soph..” Ryan looked up and the image of Sophie over her as they were surrounded by rose petals and beautiful light made her more emotional than she was expecting. She was definitely falling in love with this woman.

Melt into you
Melt into you
I wanna melt into you
Melt into you

Ryan’s legs, still in her heels were now wrapped around Sophie’s waist as the older woman had put herself between Ryan’s legs and lowered her back onto the bed. She sucked Ryan’s nipples slowly, giving them both attention with her mouth. When one was busy with her mouth the other was being fondled with her fingers. Every time Ryan looked up and saw the image of Sophie, she could feel the juices running between her legs. She’d never used this mirror before, the only reason she had it done was because Kelly was adamant one day it would come in handy. She’d have to thank her later for the suggestion.

Sophie started dragging wet kisses across Ryan’s ribs, down the centre of her body. Ryan was squirming underneath Sophie using all of the expletives she could find to express how much she loved what Sophie was doing to her. She’d had lots of sex but this slow intense dance Sophie was doing was something she had never experienced. It was like every part of her Sophie touched she was being discovered for the first time. Ryan was almost questioning if she even knew her own body, or if she knew what good sex was.

Sophie moved back up to Ryan’s nipple one more time and wrapped her lips around it and flicked her tongue so skilfully that Ryan started panting and bucking her hips.

“Fuck Sophie. Omg. Fuck. Sophie. Moore.” Ryan panted.

Soft lips under red lipstick
Spliff rolling through your finger tips

Sophie glided her hand down between Ryan legs and placed soft circles on Ryan’s clit. She immediately felt nails dig into her back and she picked up the pace of the circles on Ryan’s clit. The contrast of the soft slow circles on her nipple and the fast circles on her clit was driving Ryan mad but Sophie was also having a hard time not giving into the orgasm she felt coming on. Ryan’s moans and the heat from her body had Sophie’s centre in trouble.

“Babe, I need more.” Ryan panted.

Premonitions of a good night
Up under each others skin until the daylight
And my mind is going crazy
With the though of you lately
And I don't wanna scare you away
I just want another day
To see you in my lifetime

Sophie made her way down Ryan’s body once more but slower this time. She settled between Ryan’s legs and placed soft kisses on her hip before sitting up and sliding her thong all the way off. Ryan was soaked through her thong but that didn’t do justice to how wet she really was. She was dripping and Sophie thought she had never looked more beautiful. Naked and waiting for her. She situated herself between Ryan’s legs once more and put both legs on her shoulders, letting her heels drape over her back. She looked up and saw Ryan watching her. Her chest rising and failing in anticipation of Sophie’s mouth on her. As the music continued to play Sophie kept her eyes on Ryan as she kissed the inside of her thighs all the way up to her knees. She stretched her leg out a little so that she could move from the inside of her knee to the back of her knee. Ryan’s hips bucked off the bed and her head fell back as she moaned and squirmed.

Oh the trance you have me in
I can't begin to try
And hide behind
The ways that I'm feeling

“Soph.” Ryan’s breath caught as Sophie dragged her tongue from the inside of her thigh across her clit and up to her other thigh. She made her way back to the middle and saw Ryan looking at her once again. She planted a kiss on Ryan’s center and immediately had to grab her hips to hold her in place. She ran her tongue all the way to Ryan’s centre and feasted on all her juices. The woman’s taste was sweet, her juices smelled amazing and Sophie found herself unable to control herself. She made her way back up to Ryan’s clit and wrapped her lips around it and raised her head to look Ryan in the eyes. Ryan had tears in her eyes and when her eyes found Sophie’s they began to fall. She threw her head back and looked at the ceiling but this time the image of Sophie between her legs in that sexy lingerie, her heels on her back was too much. Sophie feasted and continually swirled her tongue inside Ryan like the pleasure was all about her love for Ryan’s pussy which sent the younger woman scrambling trying her best to get away as the pleasure was too much. Sophie however held on and didn’t stop and as Ryan screamed and cussed that she was about to climax. Sophie moved back to Ryan's clit and then slipped two fingers inside her and curled them slowly toward her easily finding Ryan's sweet spot sending Ryan and herself higher over the edge. As Ryan was trembling and shaking, Sophie cleaned her up completely, enjoying her taste as she came down from her own orgasm. She took off Ryan's heels and rested them on the floor before she inhaled deeply and kissed her way up Ryan’s body softly appreciating every inch.

Melt into you
Melt into you
I wanna melt into you
Melt into you

As Ryan started to come back to herself she didn’t even register the tears flowing down her face until she felt Sophie kissed her on the lips and wiped the tears from her eyes. She settled next to Ryan on her side and pulled Ryan by the waist so she was also on her side and facing Sophie. The music continued to play softly in the background as the two women just looked at each other. Ryan smiled and brought her her body closer to Sophie’s and cleaned all her juices off on her face with her tongue. She then kissed Sophie deeply and the older woman moaned into her mouth as she felt a tingle go down her spine. Ryan pulled back and looked at her.

“You got me all the way turned out for you. I’ve never experienced anything like that in my life. Who are you Sophie Moore and where did you get your powers from?” Ryan raised an eyebrow with a serious face causing Sophie to laugh out.

Sophie wasn’t accustomed to leading in the bedroom, at least not with her relationship with Kate. Kate never allowed her to take her time which she really missed. Eventually she stopped putting much effort seeing how Kate didn’t seem to care.

“I’m just your Sophie Moore baby.” Sophie leaned in and kissed Ryan softly.

“I can see we’re going to have to do a postmortem on tonight, just so I can talk about all the things I loved, which is everything and we’re just getting started.” Ryan said.

“Just getting started huh?” Sophie bit her lip.

Ryan rolled Sophie onto her back and straddled her. “Yup, it’s 1-0 right now. I need to change that.”

Sophie made a face which made Ryan gasp. “Really?” She looked so in love as Sophie watched her above her with that beautiful signature smile on her face.

“Really baby.” Sophie smiled and Ryan leaned down and kissed her softly on the lips.

“Well okay then.” Ryan looked proudly.

The two women stared at each other as Sophie rubbed on Ryan’s legs before Ryan broke the short silence.

“So.. My Sophie Moore. We have the entire night ahead of us, in which I plan to use thoroughly when my legs start working again.” Both her and Sophie laughed.

“But before I worship your beautiful body for hours, what do you say?” Ryan looked up to the ceiling so that Sophie would follow her gaze. Sophie watched as the mirror darkened and lights illuminated the words. “Will you be my girlfriend?”

Ryan looked down and saw tears once again in Sophie’s eyes. She sat up and pulled Ryan into a hug, she pulled back and kissed Ryan.

“Of course Ryan, I’m yours.” Sophie smiled.

“Good because I’m about to show you how much you’re mine.” Ryan pushed Sophie back into the pillows and kissed her not before Sophie quickly flipped them making Ryan laugh out under her.

“Gotta wait your turn short stuff, I’m not done with you yet.” Sophie quipped as she brought their lips together once more.

Notes:

Welp, Ryan and Sophie finally did the thing how many chapters later! As always, trouble is around the corner so let's see how our girls deal with the drama that's heading their way.

Also, how cute is Ryan and Joey. That was probably my favourite part.

Melt into you is one of my favourite songs. It just felt fitting. It's been a long time but I hope you enjoyed the chapter!

Chapter 18: When Shit Hits The Fan

Sophie opened her eyes and smiled at Ryan wrapped around her. They had only fallen asleep a few hours ago. They had spend hours exploring each others bodies until neither of the two could take anymore. After sleepy convos between kisses, Ryan wrapped herself around Sophie and both women drifted off to sleep.

Sophie caressed Ryan’s back and looked up at the scene above her. A ceiling mirror was definitely a game changer with the right person. She started removing some petals stuck to Ryan’s exposed back and the younger woman stirred. Sophie watched Ryan as she opened her eyes, the woman was just beautiful.

“You’re watching me sleep.” Ryan smiled as Sophie placed a kiss on her forehead.

“Good morning, I am. You have a problem with that?” Sophie teased.

“Of course not. Good morning Soph.” Ryan pressed herself up and placed a soft kiss on Sophie’s lips. As the kiss grew in passion, Ryan took the opportunity to straddle Sophie and moved from her lips to placing kisses all over her face and neck. Sophie moaned as Ryan made her way to her breast. She continued down Sophie’s body and settled between her legs. As soon as she was about to dive in Mack interrupted them.

“Good morning ladies. Sorry to disobey your do not disturb command Ryan but it seems as though my interface is being hacked.”

Ryan immediately sat up and so did Sophie. The windows changed to a high tech satellite image.

“I’ve been hiding in plain sight so that I could track the threat but it has been difficult. I’ve narrowed down the search and in a few minutes I will have confirmation.”

Sophie’s phone started ringing and while she grabbed it to answer, Ryan was putting on clothes as she kept talking to Mack.

Sophie knew what Luke was calling to tell her so she answered the phone on speaker as she pulled on an oversized hoodie Ryan tossed her way and some shorts.

“Soph, I hope you already spoke to Ryan because we have a problem.” Luke said. Before Sophie could respond Mack was cutting in and out with information.

“Ryan, I am currently being hacked by the illustrious Jeturian Industries.” Ryan’s head shot towards Sophie who gave her a sympathetic look.

“If she didn’t know, I guess she knows now.” Luke responded as he listened to the noise in the background. Sophie reached her hand out to Ryan who immediately grabbed it and sat on the bed next to Sophie.

“I’m going to leave you two to talk but pease tell Ryan I’m currently doing everything I can to block access but this is Jeturian we’re talking about so it’s a battle.”

Sophie told Luke to keep her posted, hung up the call and turned to face Ryan who was now fully dressed similar to her. She grabbed Ryan’s hands and was about to speak when Ryan interjected.

“Just say it, Soph.” Ryan’s eyes were glassy and Sophie knew as soon as she told Ryan everything they would flow.

Sophie sighed. “Jada Jet is your birth mother.” She watched the tears fall from Ryan’s eyes as the worlds left her lips.

Ryan stood and started pacing the room while Sophie sat and watching.

“What else?” Ryan turned to look at Sophie her sadness now replaced with anger.

“What else Soph! I know there’s more so tell me why Jada Jet gave me away but is trying to hack into my life!” Ryan yelled.

Sophie knew the best thing to do was give Ryan all of the information. She hated half truths or to be coddled so Sophie wasn’t about to make that mistake. Sophie watched as a mix of emotions ran across Ryan’s face as she relayed all of the information Luke sent to her.

Ryan looked spaced out and in a world of disbelief until Sophie mentioned that Jada had another child. The way her eyes shot up toward Sophie was like someone threw daggers her way.

Sophie got up from the bed and walked toward Ryan and held her hands. “Ryan look at me, please.”

Ryan turned and looked at Sophie. Sophie had never seen the shorter woman look so broken. She wrapped Ryan in her arms as she cried and rubbed her back.

“I’ve got you baby. I’m not going anywhere. I’ve got you.” Sophie whispered while kissing Ryan on her forehead.

When Ryan stopped crying Sophie pulled back and looked at her. “What do you need right now?” Sophie asked as Ryan remained silent. She saw the younger woman searching for the right words.

“Deep down in my gut I knew she was related to me from the time she shook my hand. Like, I would have bet money that she wasn’t my birth mother because I couldn’t imagine how something like that wouldn’t be true you know?” Sophie stood silently as Ryan continued to speak.

“When I said, I think I found my birth mother that was the little kid in me talking, it was from a fantasy world that I knew wouldn’t exist. Last night I knew you forgot about the topic but I purposely didn’t mention it. I thought, we would have our amazing night and today you would tell me you found my aunt or a distant cousin or something but this? This is too much and to cap it off she has a son?! That she kept?! What the fuck!” Ryan yelled.

“I was worth 2 million dollars but her son deserved the world. Wow. I can’t believe this. I gotta get outta here.” Ryan grabbed her phone and darted to the door when Sophie grabbed her hand.

“Don’t leave like this, let me be there for you. Let me help Ry.” Sophie pleaded.

“I think you’ve helped enough.” Ryan regretting the words as soon as they left her mouth but the way Sophie recoiled by her statement was already ingrained in her memory.

“I didn’t mean that Soph. I’m sorry. I just.. I really need some space right now.” Ryan didn’t want to hurt Sophie but she needed some time to process all the information she just received.

“No I get it Ryan I do. Just don’t shut me out okay?” Ryan saw the look of terror on Sophie face and melted immediately. She leaned in and placed a soft kiss on her lips.

“I promise, Soph. I need to go see Kelly. Tell Joey I had an early meeting and I will see her later.” Ryan kissed Sophie one more time and left the house.

When Ryan left Sophie grabbed her phone and noted the time, it was only only six thirty in the morning. Joey would definitely still be asleep which she was grateful for. She dialled her assistant’s number and apologised for the early call before cancelling all of her meetings for the day. She wasn’t sure if or when Ryan would need her but she wanted to be available. As soon as she hung up her phone rang.

“Hey Luke, what’s the update?” She asked hopeful.

“I was able to keep Jeturian from overriding Mack. It took a look of illegal software but I’m part of the reason Ryan is going through this so it’s the least I can do.” Ryan sighed.

“It’s not your fault Luke and I’m sure Ryan doesn’t think so. At least Jetruian is off her back for now, you should have seen her face Luke. She was distraught and there was nothing I could do about it.”

Sophie dropped down on the bed like a starfish and starred at herself in the ceiling mirror. The night she had with Ryan was amazing, this was definitely not how she saw the morning after going.

“I need to go so that I can cover the tracks I already covered. Let me know if there’s anything else I can do, Soph.”

“Thanks Luke, you’re the best. I love you.”

“I love you too Soph.” Luke hung up and Sophie decided she would head to her studio and put all her energy into finishing her last piece for her show. After everything that happened with Joey, she focused all feelings into her art. After struggling to find her voice before, things really fell into place once Ryan came into her life. The woman really was amazing and Sophie wanted nothing more than to take her pain away. There was nothing she could currently do, so she would do what she did best, bury herself into her work. It was also the perfect excuse to be close to Kelly’s place, if Ryan reached out and needed her.

An hour later, Sophie was dressed and headed downstairs. As soon as she popped out of her room, the smell of sweet potato pancakes hit her. It was barely after eight in the morning but Joey, Maddison and Phillipe looked like they had been up for hours. They were all seated at the table eating and making small talk about Maddie’s upcoming swim meet when Sophie rounded the corner.

“Sophie!” Maddison yelled.

“Good morning, swim goddess. How are you doing?” Maddison grinned. She loved it when Sophie gassed her up.

“I’m good, we saved you guys some pancakes.” Maddison looked behind Sophie with a confused look on her face and Joey laughed.

“Ryan has an early meeting, she’s not home.” Joey rattled off and then took a sip of her orange juice. Sophie looked at her.

“She texted me like more than an hour ago.” Joey smiled as Sophie sat next to her.

“Yeah she won’t be back until later but I’m sure she will be sad she missed you this morning Maddie.”

Melody was over the worse of her illness so Maddie was back to shuffling between the two homes. After meeting Joey, she never wanted to go home. Joey answered every single question she asked and gave her all the attention she asked for. The two quickly became besties, Joey couldn’t go anywhere without Maddison following behind her. If Joey was stuck in bed, Maddie was with her. Sophie knew Joey wasn’t one to make friends or let alone let anyone get close to her so it was refreshing to see how much she had taken to Maddie.

“So what are you all up to today.” Sophie asked.

“Well since Joey still can’t do much, we’re going to play video games and just hang out today. Jordan has the day off from the centre so she’s gonna also come kick it with us.” Sophie didn’t miss the way Phillipe’s eyes lit up when he mentioned Jordan. She took a mental note to check in with Jordan to ask how that was all going.

“Sounds good to me. Wish I could join you guys but I’m going to head to the studio to wrap up my final piece then take a few calls and run some errands.” The goal was to keep herself as busy as she could until she heard from Ryan which she was hoping would be soon.

After breakfast, Sophie said bye to the girls and Phillipe before heading out. From the way the day started, she figured it could only get better. She shot Ryan a quick message letting her know where she would be along with some words of encouragement then pulled out of the driveway to one of her favourite playlists.

——

“Hold the fuck on, you want to run that back again for me?” Kelly was standing in her living room, still wearing her bonnet and Panama shorts set while Ryan was sitting on her sectional leaned forward with her head in her hands.

“Which part Kelly?!”

“Uh, all of it Ry. Fucking all of it. I’m at a lost for words right now, what do you mean Jada Jet is your birth mother?!” On her way over Ryan called Kelly in angry tears rambling a lot of things that didn’t make sense to Kelly. When Ryan arrived and she finally got her to calm down, Ryan spilled the beans on everything from the charity event up the most recent happening in her bedroom.

“It’s crazy right? This is crazy, I don’t even know what to do with myself and now she’s hacking my interface what the fuck?!” Ryan got up and started pacing the room.

Kelly approached Ryan and wrapped her in the tightest bear hug that she could. She could tell that Ryan was on the verge of a panic attack and needed to be comforted.

Ryan sobbed until she couldn’t anymore into Kelly’s shoulder. Kelly pulled back, wiped her eyes and kissed her forehead.

“Come on, let’s sit.” The two women walked back over to the sectional and sat. It was such a difference to the last time they were laid up dishing new information. Last time the topic was Sophie but this time was much heavier.

“I know this is a lot but we got this, yes we Ryan because you’re not in this alone. We are Cora’s girls and she ain’t raised no weak ass women.”

Ryan looked up and nodded, pain still plastered across her face.

“So here’s what we’re going to do. You’re going to go take a shower while I reschedule the two meetings we had today. Then I’m going to shower and we are going to make breakfast together with some very dirty mimosas and talk.”

Kelly got up and pulled Ryan up to her feet and ushered her further into the house. Before Ryan could even think about spiralling Kelly always had a plan in place. Even when it was a plan that she had created on the spot. It had always been this way even when they were in foster care together.

While Kelly was plating the last of the pancakes Ryan decided to check her phone. The shower was exactly what she needed, it was scorching hot and relaxed all of her muscles. She sat at the kitchen island in an oversized sweatpants and tank top from the drawer of clothes she kept at Kelly’s place.

“Well I guess that’s good news.” Ryan sipped her mimosa and tossed her phone back down on the island. Kelly looked at her questioning.

“Luke texted, he was able to keep Jeturian off my back for now.”

“Well that’s a plus, come on.” Kelly grabbed her drink and the last stack of pancakes and gestured for Ryan to follow her back to her living area.

The open area was well lit from the light blasting through the full arch of ceiling to floor windows. The room was a strong contrast to Ryan’s feelings. The shower helped but there was so much on her mind, she had no idea where to start and Kelly knew that all too well.

Ryan lounged on one side of the sectional while Kelly did the same not far from her. The food was all laid out on the center table along with the large pitcher of mimosa. It was very much quintessential of a brunch they would have every now and again sometimes with a few other friends.

Ryan noticed Sophie’s text and smiled before placing a heart reaction to the message and putting her phone down on the table. She scooted forward made herself a plate of fruit with pancakes, tofu scramble and avocado while Kelly watched her closely. She settled back and looked up when she realised Kelly’s gaze hadn’t shifted from her.

“What? Is there something on my face?” Ryan started touching her face.

“No but bitch is that a hickey on your breast?” Kelly leaned forward, pulled a little at the front of Ryan’s tank top and gasped.

“It is!” Ryan laughed at Kelly’s antics, this is why she came by. This is what she needed.

“You know I was so caught up in the major plot of the story that I didn’t have a chance to zero in on the how you found out and how you left. Or better yet who you left! Spill the beans Wilder, you promised deets!”

“Why are you like this? You know I’m currently dealing with the sadness of finding out my birth mother is alive and sold me but not really?” Ryan smiled and then downed the rest of her mimosa.

Kelly reached over and refilled both of their glasses with the happiest smile on her face.

“Yeah yeah and we will get to all of that but how did she enjoy the date?”

Ryan gave Kelly the entire rundown of her night with Sophie, not sparing any details. The two ate, laughed until they cried and drank. It was as if the morning never never happened.

“I think she’s the one.” Ryan said softly as she looked up at Kelly.

“I think so too Ry. I know you just met her but I’ve never seen chemistry the way you guys have it. I know how you two got together has been unconventional and quick but I’m so happy you two found each other.” Kelly reached out and squeezed Ryan’s arm.

“Yeah I know, I just hope how I left didn’t set us back.” She mentioned the horror on Sophie’s face when she told her that she had done enough. Ryan was still feeling bad that she let those words leave her lips.

“This is you getting in your head Ry, she’s texted since you left there and if you call her right now I’m sure she would drop everything for you sis. You both got it so bad. So let it go, I’m sure she has already.”

“You’re right.” Ryan sighed.

“I hate to change the subject but I need to ask. What do you want to do about the Jada of it all sis? You know I’ve got you back whatever you decide.”

“I honestly don’t know, I think I’m still in disbelief. The woman I thought was my mother doesn’t exist. The woman who gave birth to me not only gave me up, she went out of her way to make sure no one would ever be able to make the connection. She plucked me and threw me away like I was a bad weed Kells. This shit has me feeling empty, like I have no idea who I am anymore.”

Kelly sat back and allowed Ryan to continue to speak, she knew that she needed to get this out before they went any further with the conversation surrounding Jada.

“Then on top of it all she keeps kept her first born, so it wasn’t that she didn’t want kids, it was that she didn’t want me! That shit fucking hurts. Jada Jet the Queen of Gotham city. I don’t know if it hurts more or less that she’s who she is. If she was able to do what she did and dish out two million dollars like it was noting why the heck couldn’t she do a lot more to make sure I was protected. She really pushed me out and said fuck dem kids. Well, not them kids because that didn’t apply to Marquis. This is insane.”

Kelly moved and sat directly next to Ryan and hooked her hand through her arm. Ryan instinctively slouched and rested her head on Kelly’s shoulder.

“I know you’re hurt but you know who you are Ry, you’re the same person you were before you got this information. Don’t let her get in your head like this sis.”

“You’re right, I’m just so hurt.” Ryan wiped the tears from her eyes that started to fall. She took a deep breath and then sad up and faced Kelly.

“She has to know who I am by now, it’s probably why she was trying to hack into my information at home but you know what I’m more of a woman than she is. What I want to do, is find out everything I can about Jada Jet and then I want to go pay her a visit.”

Kelly got up and started to leave the room.

“Where are you going?” Ryan looked at Kelly confused.

“I’m going to get my laptop and the good stuff. Call Luke and tell him and email you everything he gathered. We’re taking a deep dive.” She smiled as Ryan grabbed her phone to call Luke, things were about to get interesting.

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It’s just around mid day and Sophie is sitting in her studio going over some emails. She hadn’t heard directly from Ryan since she left the house in the morning but Kelly had texted her to reassure her that she was managing well. She had even snuck a picture of Ryan with a big smile on her face surrounded by smoke. Even with the smile she could tell that Ryan was sad, she could read those chocolate pools like the back of her hand. She knew that Kelly would take care of her but she wished that there was more that she could have done.

The ringing of her cellphone brought her out of her thought process. She frowned before she answered the FaceTime call.

“What do you want Kate?”

“Wow I know shit is bad between us but can I at least get a hi? A hello? Damn Soph.” Kate wasn’t driving but was sitting in the back of a car dressed in a well tailored dark grey suit.

“Is this about Jackie? If not then what do you want Kate?” Sophie raised her eyebrow. She appreciated that Kate wanted to help with the mess she brought into her life but the fact of the matter was that everything currently unfolding was Kate’s fault.

Kate shook her head and ran a hand through her hair. “I know there’s nothing I can do to ever make up for the fucked up shit I did to you but I need you to listen to me.”

Sophie started pacing around the room as she held her phone up speaking to Kate.

“See that’s where you’re wrong. I don’t need to do a damn thing and that includes listening to you. So unless this call has something to do with the bitch you brought into my life then this call is over.”

“I get that you’re pissed but Sophie freaking Moore! Just listen to me!” The look in Kate’s eyes quickly alarmed Sophie.

“I get that you’re pissed but you are not safe there. I need you to forget about your hatred for me for five minutes and listen. Grab your keys and get the fuck out of the building right.. Sophie behind you!” Kate yelled as hard as she could but before Sophie could react it was too late.

Jackie quickly covered Sophie’s mouth and injected her with a sedative to the side of her neck. She stepped over Sophie’s body and grabbed the phone as Kate was still yelling Sophie’s name.

“Hi baby. You should know I’m not okay with you staying in contact with your exes.” She smiled and winked at Kate.

“Erin, what are you doing? This is insane. My driver is calling the police right now, you won’t get away with this.”

“Oh he’s definitely not babe. Your driver is a really good friend of mine who is going to take you somewhere safe and once all this blows over you and I are going to take a little trip and forget any of this ever happened.”

Kate tried puling the car door but it wouldn’t budge. Of all the days she decided not to carry her firearm. The car she was in suddenly pulled to the side and the driver turned around and pointed his gun at her.

“Just do as you’re told baby. I’ll see you soon.” Jackie hung up and sent a string of messages from Sophie’s phone as not to alert any of them that something was up. Based on her research she knew she needed to send a message to Jordan, Luke, Ryan, Joey and her assistant. She could have just killed Sophie but Jackie was the kind of psychopath who liked to play with her food first.

She placed a device on Sophie’s phone to scramble her phone signal and then tucked the phone in her pocket. She crouched down over Sophie’s body and got close to her face.

“I would say I’m sorry but I’m really not. The only thing that makes this hard is that you’re so fine. I see why Kate is so hooked.”

Jackie grabbed Sophie by the feet and started dragging her out of the room. With Kate benched and Sophie successfully unconscious she could now move to the next phase of her plan.

Notes:

Welp.
Ryan's high and dealing with the aftermath of a bomb drop of information. Luke's hands are tied trying to hide from Jeturian. Kate is useless as usual and Sophie's life has gone from eat pray love to taken in less than 24 hours.

Who do you think is gonna figure out something isn't right first because everyone is occupied!

 

This story is coming to an end! Honestly, I've never had an outline for this and I still have no idea how each chapter is going to go. I've just been writing it as it goes. This started as just a thought I had in my head and I have no idea how I pulled all these chapters out lol. After being away from home for 6 months it's been nice to get back to enjoying my friends but also finding time to update this story. Since it's been such a drag trying to figure out how this story should go i'll try some one shots for the sequel of Ryan, Sophie and Joey's journey. If you're still reading this odd little story I appreciate you. If you left a kudos or a comment you've made this experience a really great one. :) ya'll the best. x

Chapter 19: Reunited But It Don't Feel So Good

Sophie woke up with a throbbing pain in the back of her head. She instinctively tried to rub the back of her head to realize she’s restrained to a chair with her mouth tapped. She looked around frantically trying to get a better sense of her surroundings but all she can figure out is that she is probably being kept in an old abandoned warehouse.

A flash of how she arrived in her current state quickly crosses her mind. That bitch Erin. She spots a piece of glass on the floor and tries her best to scoot her way over. She starts to make progress and she is close until she pushes too hard and tumbles to her side onto the floor in the chair. She smiles internally when she notices that her fall has put her even closer to her target. Her wiggles and grunts come to a halt when she hears the opening of doors followed by the sound of heels hitting the floor in her toward her direction. The footsteps come to a halt behind her and the person hoovers over her. She attempts to keep wiggling toward the glass when a hand reaches over her and takes it up.

“Now now Soph, that just won’t do.” She stepped over Sophie and lifts both her and the chair back into an upright position. As the chair is fitted upright, Sophie is met with a grin. She’s met face to face with Erin who rips the tape from Sophie’s mouth and stands back with her arms folded.

Erin smiled at Sophie’s silence. “You’re not going to plead or beg for your life? Where’s the entertainment Soph give me something.”

“I wouldn’t give you the satisfaction bitch. I do want to know one thing. Why are you doing all of this?”

Before Erin could respond Sophie immediately cuts her off. “For Kate right? You’re in love with Kate.”

“Great now what we’re all caught up how about..”

“No we’re not all caught up yet. You’re doing all of this for Kate but I don’t want Kate and I never will. So what’s the point of all this. Just go and be with her and leave me alone!” Sophie’s eyes well with tears.

“The problem is that Kate wants you and I want to give Kate whatever she wants.” Erin walked toward Sophie and placed a hand on each side of the chair and leans in toward Sophie.

“I see why she’s so enamored with you.” Erin runs her hand over Sophie’s cheek as she recoils from the other woman’s touch.

“You’re absolutely stunning.” She leaned in and whispers into Sophie’s ear.

“I’m almost tempted to take you right here right now. Your eyes are doing things to me.” Erin purred causing Sophie to wiggle her head in hopes of getting away from her.

“Anyway, now you’re awake you can watch phase two of my plan in real time.” She checked her watch.

“Would you look at the time. I have to skedaddle, it’s time for my main act.” Erin pulled out another syringe and injects Sophie into the neck once again.

“You’re not going to get away with this you know. Someone will come looking for me and they will find me.” Sophie slurred until she went unconscious.

“But you won’t be missing babes.” Erin laughs out comically as she walks away.

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Ryan and Kelly were so deep into the files Luke sent over about Jada that they hadn’t even opened the bottle of tequila sitting on the counter in front of them. The more Ryan read, the angrier she became. Reading that Jada’s company spearheaded projects slated to help low income families and foster kids especially those aged out of the system hit Ryan particularly hard.

They were currently watching a speech Jada gave just a month ago at a charity event she hosted for the foster care system.

Kelly watched as Ryan zeroed in on her words as she spoke.

“No child deserves to have to brave this cold, lonely, unpredictable world alone. As a society, we must do our part to support those who are without. There is no reason that they should not be afforded a fair chance to play this game called life. It is because of..”

Ryan slapped the computer shut and walked over to the window and just stood there. Her anger now replaced by sadness. How could this woman say these things knowing she abandoned a child herself. Was this her way of trying to atone for her own mistakes? Ryan could barely think straight.

When Ryan was silent for too long Kelly stood and approached her.

“I’m so sorry Ry..” Kelly placed a hand on Ryan’s shoulder as she stood behind her.

“Why are you sorry? Did you subject a child to the foster care system and then decided to become an advocate for that same child?” Ryan turned with tears in her eyes.

“No but I’m still sorry, come here.” Kelly wrapped Ryan in her arms and allowed the smaller woman to cry.

The two were pulled out of their sisterly moment by the sound of Ryan’s phone going off.

“That’s probably your girl calling to check up on you.” Kelly teased as Ryan walked back over to the sofa and grabbed her phone. She was shocked to see Joey’s name on the caller ID but equally happy, the kid was growing on her rapidly.

Ryan quickly picked “Hey Joey, what’s up is everything ok?”

When Joey didn’t respond Ryan got worried.

“Joey you there?” Ryan pressed.

“Uh yeah, I’m good. It’s just that I have a bad feeling and I think you’re the only person who would understand what I mean.”

Ryan didn’t miss the panic in her voice. She knew it all too well. Children in the system who weren’t quite settled were always anxious about if their situation would change. They could go from stable to back in a home quickly.

“Tell me, Kelly is here too we would both like to help.” Ryan put the phone on speaker incase Kelly could help soothe whatever was going on with the girl.

“The felling isn’t about me, I think something is wrong with Soph.” Joey whispered. Ryan could tell she probably stepped away from the others to answer the call.

“What would make you think that?” Kelly cut in.

“I’ve called and I have texted her numerous times but she hasn’t responded. Plus the text she sent me earlier was weird.” Joey’s voice was thick with worry.

“She’s probably just caught up with her work but weird how?” Ryan said while she went through her own messages to see if she got anything from Sophie herself.

“No you don’t get it. Soph.. she always answers my messages and calls. It doesn’t matter how busy she is.”

Ryan also knew that about Sophie, when they were talking about Joey the older woman did mention that whatever she had going on she would drop immediately for the girl.

“What was the message you thought was weird?” Kelly cut in to ask.

“She told me to have a great day and not to eat too much ice cream but she knows I’m lactose.” Joey said which caused Ryan to raise her eyebrows.

“Well yeah that is strange, how about I head over there and get her on the phone to calm your nerves would that help?” Ryan asked.

“Yeah would you? I know I probably sound paranoid but I can’t help but shake how I feel like she’s in danger or something. I’m sorry to disturb you two.”

“No you’re good. You can always call me about anything. I promise.” Ryan looked at Kelly and smiled.

“We will call you back when we get there try to relax until then yeah?” Kelly laughed to try to sooth some of the girls worries.

“Yeah I will. Thanks guys. Bye.” Joey hung up and both women looked at each other.

Ryan looked at the message from Sophie one more time. It wasn’t an odd message but as Joey mentioned it just seemed weird. Sophie wishing her a good day seemed out of place for the kinda of morning she knew Ryan had.

“I really want to spend the day being mad and digging up things on Jada but right now my girl comes first. Something is strange, Joey is right.”

“Well let’s go figure out if I need to cut a bitch.” Kelly smirked before the two headed to change to head toward Sophie’s office.

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On the way to Sophie’s office, Ryan called Luke to update him and find out if he had received a strange text from Sophie and to her surprise he did and had also tried to call her on numerous occasions. He was currently sitting in his cave trying his best to reactivate the cameras at her office.

“Do you think this is Jada?” Ryan asked.

“I mean I don’t think so but I also don’t know. Based on what she pulled this morning it’s possible especially because she does have the tech to disable my codes.” Luke was typing away as he spoke to Ryan.

“I’m soon in it will only take five more minutes how far away are you guys?”

“We’re about to pull in, did you text me the access codes?” Ryan asked as she pulled up to the entry of the hidden underground parking.

“Yeah everything is there and guys?” Luke pleaded.

“Please be careful.” Kelly and Ryan glanced at each other as they pulled the car up next to Sophie’s.

“Well her car is here, so that’s either a good or a bad sign.” Kelly responded.

Both ladies got out of the car and Kelly immediately pulled out her gun.

“Is that a gun! Why do you have a gun!” Luke yelled.

“I take it the cameras are back online.” Ryan smiled as she pulled out her own gun.

“You know what, we will talk about this later.” Luke sighed.

The next code is for entry to the building. Walk right up and make a left. I’m trying to pull up the excluded surveillance.

As Kelly and Ryan entered the entry way they both gasped at the trail of blood across the floor leading to another exit.

“Luke.. I don’t think she’s here.” Ryan walked closer to the trail of blood and bent down to pick up one of Sophie’s earrings.

Luke immediately projected the video of Sophie being attacked and pulled away by Erin in front of Kelly and Ryan.

Ryan was sick of the day she was having. She stood up and looked Kelly dead in the eyes. “Luke find this bitch!”

“I’m already on it but it’s been hard to unscramble to signal she put on Sophie’s phone but I’m working on it.” Luke was once again typing away at his computer.

Kelly approached a seething Ryan. “I know you’re pissed but I also know you’re terrified. We will find her and bring her home ok?” Kelly squeezed Ryan’s arm.

“Luke?” Ryan asked into her phone.

“I’m working on it Ryan!” He immediately apologized for yelling.

“I’m sorry it’s just.. It’s Soph and she’s..” Luke trailed off.

“Your best friend in the whole wide world I know. I’m sorry I know you’re doing everything you can.” Ryan apologized.

“It’s taking longer than I would like, but I’m running every code possible.” Luke replied.

“Maybe I can help.” Both Kelly and Ryan turned around to see none other than Jada jet standing in front of them.

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Back at the warehouse Sophie had no idea how much time had passed but she was now thirsty. She could feel the blood being cut off at her hands and feet from the rest of her body. In another act of desperation hoping someone would be able to hear her, she started screaming for help to no avail. She wasn’t sure if she was actually screaming It felt like she was in a dream of sorts.

After what felt like hours of screaming she heard Erin laughing as she approached her from behind.

“What no more yelling?” Erin began to mock Sophie’s pleas for help but remained behind her.

“Please just let me go, I will do whatever you want. I’ll make Kate want you I promise.” Sophie pleaded as tears stream down her face.

“But you see the problem is that Kate wants you Soph and whatever my girl wants, my girl gets.” Erin laughed as she rounded the chair in front of Sophie.

Sophie gasped as the woman stood in front of her. It was like looking into a mirror.

“What do you think Soph? You look amazing on me don’t you?” Erin laughed as Sophie was too stunned to speak.

“What is it the shirt? I knew I should have gone with a blazer. I don’t know I think this one is perfect.” Erin cooed.

“You are… one …. crazy bitch.” Sophie spat.

“You won’t get away with this, there’s no way you can pull off being me bitch!” Sophie yelled.

“See that’s where you’re wrong. I have been studying you for months. I know every single thing about you. The way that you walk, the way you move and all of your little quirks.”

Erin continued. “The only thing that I can’t help obviously are these two things. She quickly reached into her pocket and pulled out contacts the exact same color as Sophie’s eyes. Then she proceeded to push on the vein pulsing out of her neck and her voice changed and she sounded exactly like Sophie.

“Now that I’ve presented my final act, I must be on my way Soph. I wish I could stay and chat but my new life awaits me.”

“This should put you out for good.” Erin pulled out another syringe and flooded Sophie one last time before she walked away with a maniacal laugh.

 

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“This day cannot be fucking real.” Kelly whispered as Jada walked into the room.

“I won’t bore you with pleasantries. I absolutely abhor that we must meet this way but what is done is done.” Jada eyed the gun in Ryan’s hand but decided to further approached her.

“Is it true?” Ryan wanted to cut through the bullshit.

“Ryan, you must know that it’s not all that it appears to be.” Jada looked so unsure of what to do but continued to approach Ryan nonetheless.

“But is it true? Is everything I read true?” Ryan further pressed.

“Yes but there’s a lot I promise to answer after we get Sophie back and Erin turned over to her handler.”

Jada’s words caused Ryan to look up back to her in shock.

“Yes I know everything too.” Jada set her purse down and took a stunned Ryan’s phone from her.

“Luke, my people are there. Which means within a minute you should be able to locate anyone you’re trying to find.” Jada looked at Ryan who had wide eyes.

Kelly quickly approached her and rested a hand on Ryan’s arm before she could speak. “Not now Ry. Soph first, egg donor later. Okay?”

Ryan tore her gaze away from Jada to acknowledge Kelly with a nod of her head.

“I know this may all be overwhelming for you but it really is going to be ok. Just let me help Ryan.”

Ryan didn’t want Jada anywhere near her but she knew she needed the unlimited resources Jada had to get Sophie back safely.

“Ok, fine.” Ryan snarked. “Start talking.”

“Obviously someone stole confidential information of mine and I had my people follow the trail. What I didn’t expect to uncover was you obviously but I also didn’t expect to find the danger that was following you around.”

Jada continued. “Luke wasn’t the only one digging into my information. My team also traced links back to one Erin Baciu, also known as the silent viper. I couldn’t figure out why she would be looking into me so I did some digging myself. Not only is she dangerous but she’s gone rogue and is no longer taking commands from her handler.”

“How do you know all this?’ Ryan questioned.

“Let’s just say I have friends in high places.” Jada smirked.

“I contacted them and filled them in and they too have been looking for her. She’s supposed to be out of the country and laying low.”

Jada hadn’t expected to meet Ryan this way and the situation wasn’t ideal but she was sure glad to finally set her eyes on the young woman from her last charity function. She wasn’t sure then but since then she’s been doing everything she can to figure out if Ryan was truly her daughter.

“Guys check this out.” Luke’s voice ran through followed by a video projection of Erin dragging Sophie into an old warehouse. What was even freakier was the footage of Sophie walking out the place with not a scratch on her.

“What the fuck?” Ryan was confused.

“So she’s ok, she escaped?” Kelly asked.

“No, she hasn’t.” Jada responded.

“That’s another thing I needed to warn you about. Erin is a master of faces. She can turn herself into anyone she wants. Which means Sophie is still in there. Hopefully alive.”

Before Ryan could say anything Luke pulled up the coordinates of the abandoned warehouse Erin was seen leaving.

“Kelly I need you to head back to my place and try to keep things calm with Joey, I don’t know the girl very well but if she’s anything like us when we were kids she’s spiraling. Luke and I will go to the warehouse.” Ryan started moving toward the door.

“I’ll meet you there. Keep me on the line Ryan.” Luke said.

Before Ryan could get any further Jada stepped into her path.

“What are you looking for a thank you lady? Thank you. Now move out of my way.” Ryan tried to move past Jada but she stepped into her path once again.

“Ryan you don’t know what you’re walking yourself into. This could be a trap for all you know. You and Luke can’t just go charging in there without any back up.” Jada pleaded.

“The hell we can’t! She’s all out there and alone and probably hurt. We need to do something!” Ryan yelled.

“Yes we do, that’s where I come in. Her handlers now have all of this information. Let Luke go, I know this may sound crazy and you want to get to your girl but Erin is still out there impersonating her and we need to catch her. We need you to do that.”

Ryan thought for a second, as much as she wanted to get to Sophie and hold her in her arms she knew that their problems wouldn’t go away unless they got rid of Erin.

“She’s right sis. This needs to end once and for all. I can see the wheels turning in your head but you know she’s right.”

Ryan looked toward Jada. “Fine, what exactly do I need to do?”

Jada smiled and picked up her cell. “We’re a go. We’ll meet you in twenty minutes.”

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Sophie lost track of how much time had passed. The surroundings of the warehouse didn’t change but she was sure the morning had long passed. She wasn’t sure if she was hallucinating or dreaming when she felt her hands and legs go free. She was sure she was still feeling the effects of whatever Erin had injected her with hours prior.

“Soph? Can you hear me? It’s me Luke.” Luke wrapped his arms around Sophie and signaled for the paramedics to approach her.

“Luke?” It was faint but Luke let out a sigh of relief.

“It’s me Soph, I’ve got you. I won’t let anything happen to you.”

“I knew you would come for me.” Sophie smiled before her body went limp once again.

The paramedics came rushing over to secure Sophie to a stretcher. They needed to work fast, it looked like Sophie might have been poisoned.

Notes:

I really didn't think anyone cared about this little story I was writing off the top of my head haha. I saw a few messages asking me to finish this so here is the second last chapter while I round out chapter 20. Don't worry you won't have to wait another year lol sorry!

If you're still reading this. You a real one and I'm inspired. xo