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“Do you like her?” Jackie pulled out of the kiss.
“Huh?” Nat chased Jackie’s lips. When Jackie turned her head, Nat pressed wet kisses against her neck.
“Lottie, do you like her?” Jackie pointedly asked.
Nat eagerly answered, “Yeah, I like her.” She slid her hands up and down Jackie’s sides.
Jackie’s heart plummeted. She firmly placed her hand against Nat’s chest, and put distance between herself and the amorous girl.
“What’s wrong, Jack?” Nat’s hands rested on Jackie’s hips. She could feel the warmth of Nat’s palms through the material of her dress.
“You like her?” Jackie’s throat was dry, and her wide eyes were watery.
“Hey,” Nat’s demeanor softened. She caressed Jackie’s hipbones with her thumbs. Jackie adored this side of her. She felt special. However, that feeling soured. Did Nat touch Lottie in the same way? Did Nat ground, Lottie? Did Nat make her feel safe? “Jack, what happened?”
“You like her.” Jackie hid her hurt with a watery laugh.
Natalie shrugged, “Yeah, I like her. She’s our friend.” Nat slid her hands up and down Jackie’s sides. Our . Jackie closed her eyes. “Don’t say that.” She felt a desperate pang of longing for a relationship.
Nat pulled away, and took her warmth. “You don’t want me to say Lottie is our friend?” Jackie shook her head. She didn’t want to share the truth, that the word our made Jackie long for more than stolen moments behind closed doors. “Look at me, Jack.” She hesitated to open her eyes. What would Jackie see?
“No,” She stubbornly replied. “No?” Nat chuckled. “Okay, so, you want to talk with your eyes closed? How much have you had tonight?” Jackie heard the amusement in Nat’s tone. She could see the dimpled smile on Nat’s face. Jackie wanted to open her eyes, which frustrated her. She begrudgingly opened her eyes. Nat leaned against the sink.
“I saw you, Nat, earlier with her .” Jackie disdainfully said. Her jealousy won.
The amusement on Nat’s face faded. “This is her house, Jackie. She’s my friend. I’m going to hang out with her.”
“You went to her first. Then you go to me?” Jackie defensively crossed her arms over her chest.
“I’m surprised you noticed, with Jeff's tongue down your throat.” Nat harshly spat out.
“You’re not being fair. He’s my boyfriend.” Jackie argued.
Nat nodded, “Yeah, he’s your boyfriend, Jackie. Not me. I can do whatever I want with whoever I want whenever I want to do it.”
Jackie felt nauseous. She didn’t want to think about Nat with anyone else. She knew that was hypocritical. She had Jeff. He was just a prop, a way to keep up appearances and pretend to be normal. In a hushed tone, Jackie whispered, a confession. “I only want you to do this with me.” She desperately wanted Nat to confess that she wanted the same from Jackie.
Nat scoffed, “Princess Jackie, doesn’t get her way for once. I’m not one of your royal subjects.” She moved away from the sink for the locked bathroom door.
Jackie held back her tears. “Going to find Lottie again?”
“Why does it matter?” Nat turned to face her.
Jackie wanted to tell Nat that she liked her a lot, that she wanted so much more. However, she doesn’t say anything.
“I thought so.” Nat throwed the door open, and left her behind. She held her hands against her face and cried.