What is a father ?

by Buggy_Croccy_Hawky

Summary:

What is a father ?
What is it to be a father ? Buggy does not know it yet. But he will eventually understand that everything is not perfect, even fathers have their faults and problems.

 

Sorry, English is not my mother tongue

Chapter 1: Buggy is doing his best

Buggy has never been a father, he has already taken care of Uta once or twice, Shanks' daughter, as a wave, but it was not to say that he was his father, because it was not the case. So trying to understand the vision of things that Crocodile and Mihawk had already learned as a father, seemed to him very much to learn. When you know that Zoro is Mihawk's son and that this guy almost cut him off in two, Buggy had a certain doubt about his parenting. He also had a daughter by the name of Perona that Mihawk has not yet tried to kill, so Buggy believes that maybe Mihawk is a semi-correct parent. Crocodile is Luffy's father ... Buggy can say nothing because he also tried to kill this frankly annoying kid. He is sure that he had none of the qualities of crocodile and that intelligence jumped from a generation. But Buggy got heavily mistaken, Mihawk and Crocodile cared about their children in their own way. So he did what he seemed normal, tried to be a drinking stepfather. It would not be doubted that his husbands had had an intense emotional charge, to have offspring. Crocodile was often in a nervous state by reading the newspaper to read all the unimaginable bullshit on Luffy. Seeing Mihawk worrying about Zoro who was another problem kid who was often about to die gave him white hair. Perona is not better than her brother, entering territories where she should not be. Buggy had the conclusion that if you have a child, he will quickly tend to head towards a certain death whose parents had to make sure that he does not die unnecessarily and teach.

 

So yes, Mihawk and Crocodile were exhausted. Have random calls, read things in the newspaper on their children. All these things were a lot within reach. Buggy could get an idea but not completely understand the impact of all this. All his kids were pirates, nothing could prevent them from being when their own father was on the other side of the world to do I don't know what. But the man with blue hair had already heard his husbands regret the fact that they are so far, not always safe, the fear of not finding them. Buggy understands the freedom of what his offspring sought in the adventure of being hacked, even if his husbands had not always been there physically, it was seen that their kids had learned of them and looked like them.

 

White nights of worry, lack of sleep, Buggy was sure of having already seen Crocodile eat cereals, swimming in coffee ... Without forgetting the fact that Mihawk was sometimes incredibly creepy to wake them up in the middle of the night. He doesn't blame them at all, but it's hard to understand this feeling. He had never had this kind of responsibility. Apart from Mihawk and Crocodile who are functional adult men, he has never had to make anxiety attacks of frightened children or broken hearts. He felt a little out of step, did he have a word to say? Does his unbearable kids consider him a paternal figure? After all, they mainly had to do in Mihawk and Crocodile who were exemplary fathers that their hair was brushed in the right direction. Buggy only helped his husbands as best he could, he listened to the rare moments when Mihawk spoke more than three words. Crocodile was difficult to approach but the older man ended up talking to him, or kissing him to evacuate stress. Honestly, Buggy did not have to complain, any means of communication went to him.

 

But the day the phone rang, but that Mihawk and Crocodile were too tired to answer, Buggy came out of bed. He bit his lip when he saw the name of Perona appear. What's hard to help a young woman? Had he had already spoken with UTA, are they more or less the same age? Maybe ? It grows too quickly, he did not give a damn idea. He therefore hesitated for a long time before answering the call to hear sniffs and intelligible words. Buggy regrets not having understood the role of father ... Even less stepfather ... Should he wake Mihawk? Or Crocodile? What should we do when you have a crying girl on the phone?

 

"Dad ?" Spoke the girl with a hoarse and broken voice as if she had cried for hours.

 

"Perona ... it's Buggy. Mihawk is not available for now." Should he say that? Maybe she was still crying? Why is it so uncertain what it does? Because it's new? Roger would turn into his grave to tell him that you have to throw yourself into the main bath and stop whining.

 

"Buggy?" She sniffed again, for a few seconds, he was afraid that she would react badly. "I don't want to bother you, you know ..."

 

"You don't bother me. Did something happen? You can tell me if you want, even if I'm not Mihawk."

 

"Uh ...O-yes I think it will do me good. "

 

Buggy had honestly had little to say, Perona embarked on a monologue. He listened to what she had to say about her girlfriend who deceived her with someone else. And Buggy was ready to kill this girl if necessary, but is that the solution? Because Perona wants to get back with her. But Buggy learned one thing with the exs who are mainly summarized in one being by the name of Shanks, it is that a hope is never good.

 

"Listen to me, my beauty, if I can give you advice, even a little raw, it is that you should not hope that this girl will come back."

 

"I still like Buggy, it's so hard."

 

"I know that too well, but what is going to come back and what? She cheated on youShe will still disappoint you. She will not change. You will become completely paranoid. You will not have a healthy romantic relationship if you come back with her. I advise you not to hope too much. "

 

"What can I do?"

 

"Don't do anything you risk regretting laterYou have to cut the bridges with her. Even if, O Grande Mer, it's hard. But she's not going to bring you good. "

 

"I feel lost, I don't know what to do."

 

"What you should do is do outingsGo shopping or come and see us here at the Cross Guild. You have to show that you are stronger than that. You are Dracule Perona after all, you have already had the courage to put distance between her and you by leaving her crew. "

 

"You're right, it's hard but I can overcome that. I'm surely coming to see you."

 

"When you arrive! I would make you a huge hug, do you want some new clothes? Could we do the shops togetherI know a place with superb gothic outfits Lolita as you like. "

 

"Really? Do I have the right to make pajama evenings with you?"

 

"Yes, of course."

 

"I feel a little better ... Can I remember you tomorrow?"

 

"Of course you can."

 

"Buggy, I thank you. I will come to see you quickly."

 

"No problem, my beautiful. We are waiting for you with open arms, you know that if you have a problem, you can always come to me, Crocodile or Mihawk."

 

"Thank you dad."

 

"Oh uh ... You're welcome to rest a little?"

 

"All right." She ends up hanging up. And Buggy never had this feeling before, he felt like he had done well. He hopes that Mihawk will not want him to take care of Perona.

 

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Mihawk and Crocodile never slept so well, Buggy had hardly slept. Should he talk about it with Mihawk? From this call he had with Perona? She never said he could talk to her with her father. But on the one hand, she asked Mihawk at the base. So, logically, should he talk to Mihawk? Because it is his daughter and he has the right to know. But he will not be angry if Buggy knows how to take care of this problem? He intensely fixed his cereals as if he had offended them.

 

"Buggy, you're going to hurt your head." Calmly spoke Mihawk. Crocodile next to him did not her disagree, he is sure that Buggy had at least had twenty scenarios crossed in his anxious mind.

 

"Mihawk, I'm sorry."

 

"What did?" Answer in the place of Crocodile as if he were yelling at a young child.

 

"Perona called Hier--"

 

"What !!?"

 

The man with blue hair jumped by dropping a very virile cry if asked. Yoru, proudly erected against his throat.

 

"Why didn't you wake me up? Did you let the phone ring?" Mihawk cleared the eyes dangerously towards Buggy who shivered. While Crocodile took a long sip of her coffee.

 

"Why didn't you say anything Buggy?" Crocodile was a little in agreement with Mihawk at the moment. He would also have wanted to speak to his child if he had called.

 

"I shouldn't have answered? I'm sorry!"

 

"Did you answer?" He says by softening his expression.

 

"Yes, I did it.Perona was not going very well, you seem tired. So I tried to manage the situation, his girlfriend cheated on her. I advised it as best I could. I should have asked you, sorry ... I thought I did well. "

 

"In fact, it's not ... It's just that it's amazing."

 

"Are you not angry?"

 

"No, I am not. I shouldn't have assumed that you had done nothing" he put Yoru on his back. "It's just that it's not your kind to get involved with our children."

 

"Well, I'm not really ... in all thisI am not a father like you and crocodile. I didn't know how to do it. I'm not sure I managed to help Perona-- "

 

"Buggy." Said Mihawk dryly, stopping it in its anxious monologue. "What did Perona told you when you gave her advice?"

 

"Uh ... A few things about thanks, she will come here. We're going to do shopping together. I also accepted pajama evenings. Oh, she called you at some point because she said to me 'thank you dad'"

 

"You are so stupid." Sniff crocodile with disdain.

 

"What Crocodile means is that you managed to help her Buggy. The fact that she says dad, was not intended for me. I think she considers you as such."

 

"What? But why? I'm not like you and crocodile."

 

"Children say it when they think it." Answer crocodile. "Good Luffy is apart, he considers you a father since the start of our relationship."

 

"I didn't know it." Marmonna Buggy. "So I did nothing wrong?"

 

"No, nothing at allIn addition to that, you helped Perona, but you also helped us, me and Mihawk. You noticed that we were emotionally exhausted, mentally, you made us win a break. You have always been attentive to our problems. You really help more than you think, so stop making movies. "

 

"I'm still a beginner in all of this. But I'm going to do my best to continue to help you have less on your shoulders."

 

"Being a father is learning about the heap, Buggy.You will surely make mistakes. But I reassure you that everything will be well as long as you try. And then we are there too, I also also asked for help from Crocodile when I couldn't manage anymore "

 

"Thank you, we're going to go outI would be a good stepfather and I will try to understand the feeling of having children. "

 

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Chapter 2: Even with clumsiness

Buggy learned a few important things, even parents need help sometimes. Perona likes pink, but her second favorite color is mauve. According to its experience, purple is absolutely not the same color. Hearing the young woman talking about it for fifteen minutes in Mihawk, who only owns her vampire clothes, was instructive. So we learn from other adults around us as well as children. Buggy was installed in the kitchen to find a monkey, not really, but he would have believed it when he saw Luffy. This little idiot is not supposed to be here but to be far away with his team of residences. But Buggy promised both to himself and his husbands to be a good stepfather, then perhaps being a short father. Luffy would surely not come without any reason, even if the child does not often think. Crocodile is behind his office with an immensely rich man but who was the worst asshole that Buggy has never seen. And Mihawk doing a manicure, pedicure, hairstyle with Perona, he has it for hours. Buggy wanted to be in his place, he loves it, but he understands that Perona wants to make Mihawk suffer. He therefore found himself sitting in front of Luffy listening, in all honesty, he should have suspected it, this kid has no sexual desire, did not kiss anyone. But he still didn't understand what he had to say at the moment.

 

"I feel different, I don't understand exactly why I don't want that." Luffy jumperly played with his shorts.

 

"First of all, being different is not so badI cannot tell you what you feel exactly, but from what I understood, you don't have to worry about having less desire or not at all of sex. It's not for everyone. "

 

"I only kissed once but I was unconscious ... And when I hear the stories of the other members of my crew. I feel a little excluded"

 

"You have no reason to be, okay? I can't say what you are really deep insideYou could have a sexuality that is not the same as them or that you have not yet found someone who simply suits you. Sometimes love or sex can happen late. Just because you don't want to do it less that you can't do it. "

 

"So you tell me that I still have time to know myself?"

 

"Sometimes it takes a long time before understanding yourself. To question yourself, to have experiences and failures. Everyone does not know how to define themselves as soon as they were bornIt happens that it takes time to understand things, okay? "

 

"I see."

 

"Myself I understood directly that men were my preference, but not everyone has the chance to understand it so quicklyThe environment, education can also make us see in different ways our way of being. So you don't have to feel excluded or bad not to want as much sex or not even have the desire at all. "

 

"Thank you Buggy. I will try to teach me to know myself first before I get some looks of others."

 

"I think it's a good idea. And no matter the result, you can come and tell me if you want."

 

"All right ! I'm going to go now, say hello to Papa and Mihawk on my part. "

 

"I would."

 

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Buggy was in bed between Mihawk and Crocodile, who slept quietly. Perona was in her own candy pink room. Was the man with blue hair if giving advice was still as clumsy? He had never helped a teenager with his sexuality. He had an idea of ​​what Luffy could be in the community, even if he does not advance on anything, he is not the kind to judge just at the cover of a book. He wondered if he had done well to say it all, he knows that he was rather wobbly with his explanations. He is not as good as he would have thought. He thinks that the essential was said, that Luffy did not take too badly what he said, but if it had been another teenager, would Buggy succeed like that? The bluish knows very well that he was taking anyone under his wing. But he had never pushed his research. Maybe he should do it with Luffy?

 

He might should have been talking to Luffy in a way in a way, talking about any type of people. But he didn't do it, is that it being a parent? This harassment as much for what we said? On what we think we have said or not? On what we could have said more? Be more in -depth? Less insistent? In itself, parents are also robots, they don't think about everything. If Luffy needed, he will surely call Buggy? where a letter would send. Should he talk to Mihawk and Crocodile? It is not that he does not mean anything, because he said the essential rather when they returned. But Buggy's anxious spirit does not stop over -giving things. He does not have to worry, Luffy must redo a perspective on himself. Buggy cannot worry about it, he would have time for later when Luffy tells him what he thinks of himself. Buggy turned around, ending up falling asleep while holding the hands of Mihawk and Crocodile against him.

 

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Buggy was relieved when he saw a letter two weeks later from Luffy. He couldn't help but smile even if he looked like a big idiot. Mihawk and Crocodile at least not mentioned it, which was nice of them. Luffy had realized that considering himself different was not so bad, that he loved the boys too, that he is not sure of sex but that for the first time he had wanted it with his boyfriend. That he was still trying to define himself, which Buggy sighed in satisfaction. Even if his approach had not been the best according to him after decline, he still helped Luffy. So like him, Buggy thinks that he must define what is a father for him, how to improve to help his teenagers as possible in the future. He would never have thought he learned so much from the children of his husbands, but it was the case, whatever the status or age difference, we can always learn. Mihawk only sniff when I saw Buggy in a good mood. Crocodile only read the letter that Buggy had left behind, from Luffy. The older man revealed a little smile, he is happy to see that Buggy was doing his best for their children. He tries to really get involved, still a little hesitant and filled with clumsiness, but he was doing his best. Crocodile drank his coffee, yes, Buggy has evolved a lot, it's a good thing, it becomes even better.

 

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Chapter 3: A good father and a good husband

Buggy received a call from Zoro, he really didn’t expect it to be true. Not that he is against talking with the problem child who was her husband’s offspring. But the child had serious problems in his relationship with this cook crazy about his crew. Zoro clearly drowned in alcohol, maybe Mihawk set a bad example by drinking vineyards by himself. Buggy used the same strategy as Perona. Listening, he understood the child’s jealousy problems for absolutely anyone. He also listened to the fact that his boyfriend was a womanizer but that he was in love with Zoro.

 

"Listen Zoro, maybe you should get used to the idea that alcohol doesn’t solve your jealousy problems. Then you must communicate clearly with your cook.

 

Zoro didn’t talk much but Buggy knew he was listening, it was really like having a second Mihawk.

 

"You have to explain to your boyfriend that you are jealous as far as he is concerned, him flirting with girls even if he already had this behavior before. He said he loves you, didn’t he? If he really does, he will compromise with you. but on your side, you must also trust him.

 

Zoro growled, which sounded vaguely like an agreement. Buggy was happy to know how to speak Neanderthal thanks to his husbands who were not always very communicative.

 

"Roger taught me that jealousy was only a reflection of our own insecurity. If you feel anything about it, let Sanji know."

 

Zoro sighed from the other side of the phone. Buggy was not bothered at all by the child’s lack of speech, as long as he listened to what he had to say and Zoro was ready to apply some of his advice, it fit him perfectly.

 

"If I can teach you one thing, those who experience little or no jealousy know what they are worth. It may seem pretentious but it’s true, because they know that they are better than anyone who could approach their partners.

 

"It doesn’t seem so pretentious to me."

 

"Listen rather than immersing yourself in alcohol, even if I understand that you handle it well, it won’t help you communicate with your boyfriend, it will just cause unnecessary problems. Then, if you even feel a little insecure, set back or ignored, speak to your heart. Even if it’s hard, if this boy loves you, he will understand perfectly.

 

"Thank you Buggy, you were certainly more efficient than if I had asked dad."

 

"Uh yeah... Mihawk is a bit rusty on the emotion side. He himself has his own jealousy to deal with. but I hope that you will feel better and that you won’t have to be in conflict with your lover anymore.

 

"I will try to apply your advice. I will go talk to him. See you next time, dad."

 

"See you next time, Zoro." Buggy looked at his phone when Zoro hung up, he doesn’t know if he did well. He didn’t really know what to say about it, but it still seemed to have helped the swordsman with green hair a bit.

 

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Buggy might say he learned a lot of things in front, a stepfather. Having news regularly for other things than problems making him feel an infinite appeasement. He had never believed he was happy to receive news outside of what he considered from his close surroundings. It’s also good to have gifts for Father’s Day. He had never received gifts other than Uta, even though she was not his daughter, but for a long time she surely assumed that he was in a relationship with Shanks. The visits were also pleasant and lively when a child arrived, others landed like herds of animals. Buggy loves the world, he doesn’t mind having more people to talk to and spout some of his lies. It was complicated to be a father, to be a stepfather, to take care of children with one’s husbands. Having a child is a considerable change. Some say it’s a change in life but it’s an upheaval. The rhythms of the nights are disrupted, the pace of life becomes more regulated, but with this change, he also had moments of peace and complicity with his child. Words like dad or mom are incredibly simple. There is apprehension, fear, but also a lot of love. Buggy didn’t know all that, but even so, he only lived as a father with the children of Mihawk and Crocodile. He felt rather well, even great, because he knew how to evolve by feeling like a family other than his husbands. Expanding even more with his ties to his husbands, then their children, he matured into something more of their marriage. He is happy to have succeeded, to have evolved again and again and to be able to do it again in the future. Him as a husband, as a father, alongside Mihawk and Crocodile, Zoro, Perona, and Luffy. Yes, he will continue to be better.

 

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Series this work belongs to:

• Part 13 of The Cross guild