Something other than hatred.. (1x7n7 forsaken)

by Finn_Fishermen

Summary:

1x1x1x1 knew nothing but hatred. Or do he thought.

Notes:

IM TRASH AT WRITING BARE WITH ME..

Chapter 1

HEY GUYS POISONBURGER MENTIONED. Next chapter for the fic idk

Chapter 2: Noticeable difference.

Summary:

1x feels something other than hatred.
007n7 joins in the game.

Hate.

It’s all he knew. It’s all they needed to know.

Especially Shedletsky. With his stupid smirk and his smugness, it made 1x lose his mind. The other survivors were there, I guess. He hated them, sure, he hated everything, but he hated Shedletsky the most. The other survivors were just bumps in the road.

Until a new survivor started to show up in rounds. 007n7. He looked stupid, with that dumb burger hat, and even dumber shirt. And with time, he killed 007n7 many times over during rounds. God, he’s pathetic, huh? He even later on learned that 007n7 was C00lkidds father. They didn’t even compare to be similar.

Disgusting. Truly.

One day, during a round, something in him shifted. The hatred, the anger, it’s still there. But there’s something different. Something about the hackers stupid face, and his pathetic actions, made him stop. 007n7 seemed different. He hated it. He hated how 007n7 seemed different. He hated it when 007n7 would even interact with other survivors. And he hated that he felt that way.

He hated the change. He hated this feeling. It felt like a virus, a disease, infecting him. Absolutely disgusting.

——

Something happened. When I expected death, I spawned in a cabin. No one else there, until other people walked up to the door. They knocked, and I let them in. Of course, just his luck. It’s all people who know him at his door, not to mention Elliot being there. Elliot definitely didn’t wanna see him.

Elliot: “I didn’t expect to see him here.” He said, his voice holding notes of anger and hatred.

i Felt… pathetic.

I felt degraded.

No one even bothered to explain to me how rounds worked. So when one began, and the killer was.. “1x1x1x1..?” What? Killer?

While I was fixing a generator to the best of my ability. I heard it. Loud footsteps. Music. What…? What is that coming from..?

…
I didn’t last long. I died pretty quickly, since I didn’t know what to do. No one told me. No one cared enough to tell me. Because I’m the outcast. I’m the bad person. Because I used to be an exploiter, and I’m dangerous, even if I’m retired.

(Next chapter coming up soon no worries twin)

Notes:

Give me time to write more please, i just pulled an all nighter and need to think 💔

Chapter 3: Confronting the truth

Summary:

1x confronts 007n7.

Notes:

IM ALREADY GETTING DEMAND ITS BEEN A FEW HOURS /j

Oh how he hated this feeling.

The feeling of wanting to get close to someone. The feeling of wanting someone. The feeling.. of love. 1x had tried to come to terms with it, but it’s hard. It’s something he doesn’t know. Something he’s never known. Not even platonically. 
But something about that main with a burger hat changed him. Even if he learned no one else liked him around. … I would. His presence is sickeningly sweet to be around. He’s too kind for the treatment he gets. It’s sickening in both aspects.

He had to tell someone. He had to tell HIM. He had to get close to him. He had to meet him properly.

This wasn’t a want at all. It was a need. For him. And it disgusted 1x and made 1x want that feeling all at once.

____

Now this was something 007n7 didn’t expect. Most of the team was dead, expect for him and noob. At least Noob somewhat tolerated him to stick with him. Him and Noob had been hiding most of the round, since they only had abilities to defend himself, same with noob.

Until he heard the familiar chase theme. The familiar heavy footsteps of metal boots. Oh god. 
Things got worse when the two got separated on accident, when they spilt up out of fear. 007n7 ended up cornered by 1x. Teleporting wouldn’t work, guaranteed, and cloning wouldn’t work either. So he was stuck. 007n7 tensed up, and used with arms to try and shield himself from the attack that didn’t come.

…

When 007n7 realized nothing was coming, he moved his arms, just to be met with the same, red gaze staring down at him.

“You. Your name.”

“what..?”

“Name. Give me your name.” 1x demanded. 1x already knew 007n7s name, but he wanted to hear 007n7 say it. To force 007 to introduce himself.

“Uhm… 007n7…?”

“007n7. Do you mind if I call you seven instead? Like how the survivors call me 1x..?”

”Uhh.. yeah. I don’t mind, I guess..” 007n7 hesitated. “Aren’t you gonna kill me?” 
“no. I have a question.”

”Ask away.”

“What makes you different. From everyone else?”

”what? What makes me different?”

1x nodded.

”Uh. I don’t know what you mean.. by that… but I suppose it’s because I used to be a hacker, and even if I retired, everyone still hates me..? I genuinely don’t know what you mean…”

“Maybe I wasn’t obvious. I want to know things about you. And I hate that I do. I find you different from everyone else, and I don’t know why. You seem special. I want to be along side you. I feel disgusted by the thought. But also warm.”

”Wha- are you- did you just confess feelings to me?”

007n7 didn’t know how to respond.

They both fell silent. Too silent. Uncomfortably silent. 

1x broke the silence. 
“I suppose I did. How do you respond?”

“I-.. I don’t know… it’s sudden… and also… I’m a survivor. You’re a killer. How would that make sense…?”

”I suppose it wouldn’t make sense. But who said it had to? Answer the question. You’re being pathetic, like every other time I’ve seen you.”

”…I’ll- I- …okay. I’ll try this out. With you. But I think it’s best if kept a secret.”

”Secret it is.”

Notes:

Sorry the chapters are short, I’ll just try to write more. I’m trying to write longer chapters.

Chapter 4: Teaching an old dog new tricks

Summary:

Gay men

This is all so new. So weird. So different.

Years, 1x hadn’t gotten what he’s wanted. He hadn’t gotten attention he secretly craved for years, and now he has it. And it feels.. weird. But good at the same time.

He knew John Doe used to have a wife. The question was if John remembered her. 1x didn’t know, since John never spoke of her. So when 1x found the time, 1x walked up to find John Doe.

“John.”

”…”

Oh right. John can’t speak well.

”John, I have a question. What was it like having a wife?”

”…w..who..?”

”Your wife, John. You had a wife, do you not remember her or something?”

”…I…did?”

”John there is no way you don’t remember her.

”…I… do not… remember much.”

”…  ugh.  Never mind, John.”

1x walked away frustrated. John just stood there confused. Since when did he have a wife..??

1x instead spent his time researching relationship stuff himself. He found books he needed, he looked things up to the best of his ability. He needed to know how relationships worked, he had zero experience whatsoever. So maybe if he learned how relationships work, maybe he’d be a good partner. He felt the need to be good for 007n7.

____

I suppose being close to a killer has its perks. Every time I see them in rounds, they don’t go after anyone else. Sure, if confuses the survivors, especially since 1x usually is ruthless when it comes to doing his job. But that had its perks too, even if it was odd.

Every round, 1x would go out of his way to find 007n7, practically ignoring the other survivors. He didn’t always, though. Because since rounds were randomly picked, 007n7 wasn’t always there. He’s always end up server wiping.

And yet, no one caught on.

Or so they thought. 

I mean, it would make sense. someone would find out soon enough.

But for now no one did.

___

A round began. 1x was the killer. 
007n7 was fixing a generator, yet, 1x hadn’t found where he was yet.

007n7 ended up getting the generator running, before turning to find someone behind him.

“Aaah— wha-“

Guest 1337 spoke up. “Sorry, 007, didn’t mean to startle ya.”

“It’s fine, Guest… Do you need something..? I don’t have a medkit on me, or-“

“I just wanted to check up on you.”

…”What?”

“I wanted to check up on you. No one really talks to you, so I was just checking up on ya, supposing I’m the only person willing to talk to ya.”

Guest gave 007n7 a genuine smile.

…

“Oh, well, thank you, Guest. That means a lot. I’m fine…”

 “Good. I’m glad you’re doing okay.”

…

Guest 1337 could tell something was off.

 

Notes:

I COMPLETELY FUCKING FORGOT I HAD A FANFIC