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Black Sapphire's POV ˙ ✩°˖🍇 ⋆｡˚꩜
It has been a while that me and Silverbell are no longer bestfriends, he found out that i worked for the enemy. I had lied to him the whole time, and i didn't feel bad. Or at least at first... After Shadow Milk's defeat, something in me shifted, or just felt wrong the entire time, i missed him, i missed silverbell, alot, no wonder i felt tired.
Shadow Milk, Candy Apple and i had to settle in the middle of nowhere, it was quiet the entire time, besides when Candy Apple tried to talk with us, but we didn't say a word, she was disapointed. Once it was night everyone was dead asleep, besides me, i was awake like an owl, i couldn't bare the guilt of betraying my bestfriend, i went on a walk, but that only made the guilt worse, i coudln't think straight anymore. I was depserate to calm down, i saw an old tree.
no no no.. what am i even thinking...
I was gonna walk away, but my heart ache so much that i couldn't stop crying
Fuck it..
I walked back to the tree, i climed it, slowly to not fall, and i took the sharpest stick from it.
Just one cut, then that's it...
I cut my wrist, it wasn't too deep, i felt disatisfied, like i deserved worse, so i made another one, deeper, bigger.. Then another, and another.. And then, i stabbed my wrist with that stick, i waited and pulled it out.
Oh gosh, what am i even doing at this point now...
I looked at the scars bleeding out from my wrist, i knew i had to cover the blood, because it was going to bleed for a long while, so i took a few leaves from another tree, and used it as bandage. Then i went back with everyone, who were still asleep. It reminded of my words of betrayal, over and over again, i packed my stuff, and left both of them behind, no goodbye letter, nothing. I ran in the forest, hoping something could just kill me, otherwise, i'm-
... Why am i even thinking that...
... Oh...
I'm definetly ending it if nothing is willing to kill me...
I kept running, until i fell out of breath and collapsed on the ground, then nothing...
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Silverbell POV ˙ ✩°˖💿 ⋆｡˚꩜
I woke up from my nap in the middle of the afternoon because of the yelling, that kinda made me mad and decided to tell the others to keep quiet. It was White Lily telling Shadow milk to tet the fuck out of here, but something felt wrong, Black Sapphire was nowhere around, i couldn't help but worry about it.
Why am i even worrying in the first place..?
White Lily pattes my shoulder. "Sorry if we woke you up, its just he won't get out." She turned back to Shadow Milk, clezrly angered by his presence
"LET ME EXPLAIN MY-" He was cut off.
"I DON'T WANNA HEAR IT." She yelled.
"I'M NOT EVEN HERE TO CAUSE TROUBLE FOR ONCE." He shoutted.
"THEN WHY ARE YOU HERE ??" She was clearly pissed, but chilled a little after he said that.
He cleared his throat "Have you seen Black Sapphire Cookie ??" He said.
Everything seemed clear, he was missing.
"What do you mean ?? No ??" She blinked.
"I can't find him anywhere." His voice became sharper.
Everything went quiet, i walked away, i shouldn't care, but i actually do, why do i care.. I layed down on my bed, zoned out... Last time i saw him was the day he betrayed me, before he left, he took one last look at me, i didn't care back then, but now that i rethink about it, he looked sorry..
I couldn't tell why, at first, but, it hit me, he was sorry, he felt guilty. Before i had realised, i was already in tears. I decided to try and go back to sleep, hoping i would forget him.
I can't forget him, but i have to.
Then i heard White Lily, she knew something was wrong, i stayed quiet, even when she asked, i was sobbing, quietly. She must have realised the situation because she looked had gone silent too. She asked why i didn't went up to her and told her, i didn't even know what to respond, i just sobbed. She was holding me, i broke down, i told her everything, she knew, she could tell it by my eyes. She told me to sleep and she would do something about it, so i did, i went to sleep, sobbing until i fell asleep.
I'm sorry Black Sapphire, i'm extremely sorry...
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Black Sapphire POV ˙ ✩°˖🍇 ⋆｡˚꩜
I woke up, it was noon, i could tell.. I didn't wan to get up and bare the guilt, but i had to, i got up and walked. That same sharp stick in my pocket, i know i would need it for later. I had a stomach ache since a while now.
And i clearly deserve the pain..
I kept walking, always hoping i'd die in the worst way possible, i needed to. After a while, i saw a cliff, something told to go...
I need to go there...
And jump from it, and make sure i have a brutal death...
I had now somewhere to go, i walked for 14 days before reaching the top of the cliff. The first day was horrible, it felt horrble, cried loidly knowing none would hear me, cut myself, not only on the wrists anymore, but also on the thights, each day worse, until the 14th day was the best, i had arrived to the cliff.
It was very high, ideal for a brutal death, but first, i needed pain... So i took at sharp stick out of my pocket and cut both of my wrists and thights, deep, big scars, stabbed my legs. I took off my black jacket and placed it around my waist leaving myself in my white shirt, i put on the bracelet Silverbell gave me. I wrote a letter to everyone before putting it on mu arms with the bracelet.
I could no longer walk straight yet walked to the end off the cliff, i took my mic, pointe the lower end to my stomach. I knew what i was, no, i no longer had my mind, yes, guilt took over.
None noticed i was gone, none went to look for me and none will find me, just do it, i didn't do all this way for nothing...
I took a few deep breath and then...
I stabbed myself with the mic... i fell.. I fell off the cliff, i was gonna die tonight...
It feels so good... I no longer have to bare that heavy feeling anymore, guilt...
The air was for the first thick, and i felt light compared to it, i smiled, apologizing over and over again, until i hit the floor, everything went Black, i couldn't move, see... Nothing, absolute void, i knew i'll be dead...
"BLACK SAPPHIRE NO PLEASE !!"
I felt something, i wasn't dead, i had survived... I felt a huge wave of disapointment, i had taken my time to get there, just to fail..
How am i alive ?? Why ?? Who even found me anyways ?? Who even vared enough to take me here ??
Slowly i felt myself, i started to hear, someone was sobbing, sounded familiar, could it be him ?? No way.. I could finally open my eyes, it was him, Silverbell.. Why was he here ?? Before i had even aknowledge anything about the whereabouts, he pulled me into a hug.. He cried harder apologizing, i just stayed quiet for a while, not knowing if i should hug back or push him away... i had hugged him back in the end..
Why...
I whipped away his tears, quietly.. "I'm sorry, Sapphy.. I'm so sorry" It has been very long since he stopped calling me like that. "I was the one who found you in the brick of death thag day..." he murmured. I froze, he had been looking for me, for how long ? I don't know, likely two weeks... I didn't even realise i was already tearing up until i broke down and kept apologizing, he hugged me thighter, White Lily was here too, but she stayed near the door, quietly watching.
I didn't even need to explain myself at this point, he knew the reasons.. She let me go, he told i could leave, but yet i stayed.. And i wasn't going anywhere this time, i loved him, this time, not as a bestfriend, but as a lover.. And i wasn't going to give up on him this time.
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Silverbell POV ˙ ✩°˖💿 ⋆｡˚꩜
I guide him to my room, said we could share the bed, it felt like a dream, but it wasn't.. We both sat on the bed, quietly, it was awkward, really awkward..
I asked if he was okay, he wasn't. I noticed quickly, i pulled him into another hug, a gentle one... He could tell i was blaming myself. "Its okay" i whispered, he wanted to believe, but he couldn't... "Prove it then.." he was sobbing. I was patting his head, he was laying on me without me even realising. I looked at him, whipped away my tears, just like he did earlier.
It feels.. Nice
He looked at me, i was quiet, thinking about kissing him, he pushed me enough to be on top of me and...
He kissed me, i didn't push away, i stayed still, until he let go.
Finally for witches' sake
He smirked like he used to: "Just so you know that im upset or sad doesn't mean i can't boss around, tehe !!" He was teasing me. Instead, i giggled and pulled him for another kiss, more passionate this time, that one quite suprised him, but gave in. We both let go after a few minutes, we both layed down in bed. "Tell me Bell Boy, are we now... Like.. Huh, dating ??" He asked embarassed. "Of course we are, Sapphy." I smiled. He pulled me into a hug, and we both fell asleep, after overcomming a massive wave of guilt..
The End
BONUS:
None POV
White Lily has seen everything, once they fell, asleep she quietly closed the door and went to the silver tree, Pure Vanilla and Shadow Milk has been waiting her.
"You guys owe me 20 bucks, hand over the money" She smirked proudly handing over her hand to get the money
"YOU WILL NEVER GET ME-" Shadow milk tried to run away, but Pure Vanilla pulled his hair back.
"Just hand over the money.." Pure Vanilla sighed.
"BUT, SHE MIGHT-" He was cut off once again by a soft kiss from Pure Vanilla. "Fine.. Here's the money" He was pissed.
"Good boy, Shadow Milk." Pure Vanilla smiled at him. Shadow Milk was clearly embarassed at thid point.