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Suho is secretly obsessed with a camboy. Every Friday night, he sits down in front of his laptop to tune in to Gray_Ice’s weekly show. He’s never seen his face, and still, Suho is extremely sure that he’s pretty. He’s merely judging by anything he can see below the neck, but he’s still sure.
At the same time, he has a massive crush on a guy from his filmmaking class. Yeon Sieun. He’s quiet and studious, nerdy and very serious. And Suho finds him incredibly attractive for it. They haven't exchanged a single word, but Suho has been watching him for many hours.
The few times that Sieun did have to speak in one of their classes, Suho's heart always skipped a beat. His voice is a rare gem, and Suho treasures the few times he’s heard it. Sieun’s voice is quite deep, but he’s still soft-spoken.
Sieun is always hiding behind his laptop. And he always sits at the same spot, in the front row. Suho's more of a slacking off in the back row type of person, but ever since he started noticing Sieun, he's moved to the second row, behind Sieun.
His crush either hasn't noticed this, or he's just completely ignoring everyone except for the professor, because he doesn't ever look around him. Only the professor and his laptop get Sieun's undivided attention. Suho thought that Sieun sitting in the front row might be a ruse to make the professor believe that he's seriously paying attention, but whenever he glances over Sieun's shoulder to peek at what he's doing, he's always taking notes or working on their assignments.
He doesn't necessarily look like a nerd. His clothes are plain, and he doesn't have the flashiest of haircuts, but his face is really pretty. He has these huge, shimmery eyes, nice squishy cheeks and a mouth that makes Suho's daydreams turn filthy.
Suho isn't the crush type. He's never had a serious relationship either. He's been with a handful of people, but it was never anything more than a few dates and hook-ups. The last time Suho had a crush was probably in middle school, and he didn’t expect it to happen again in university. If Suho really thinks about it, he hasn’t really liked anyone for the past few years. At least not like this. Not in the way he likes Sieun, even though they've never spoken to each other.
He's usually also way better at approaching people. Suho doesn't know what it is with this Sieun guy. While his mind is conjuring up the most inappropriate images as he stares at the back of Sieun’s head during lectures, his mouth is unwilling to even say hi to Sieun. Whenever he sees him sitting alone having lunch or studying, Suho would normally be more than cool enough to casually stroll by and make small talk, but this is quite a serious crush, and he doesn't know how to handle it.
Luckily, fate is on his side, and when the professor tells them that their final project for the filmmaking class will be in duos, and that he'll call out their names in alphabetical order for them to choose a partner, Suho finally manages to do something about his crush.
“Ahn Suho, you have the first choice,” The professor says as he looks into the lecture hall.
Suho holds his hand in the air as he says, “I want to work with Yeon Sieun, sir.” There’s not an ounce of hesitation in his voice. He’s been waiting for his moment to get closer to Sieun, and here it finally is.
“Ahn Suho and Yeon Sieun, it is.” The professor marks on his name sheet before moving on to the next student. It’s a good day for Suho to have his last name start with the first letter of the alphabet.
Sieun stirs in front of him, and for a moment, Suho is afraid that he will ask the professor to do the project solo, but instead, he turns around and locks eyes with Suho. There's a questioning look on his face that screams Why me? And who the fuck are you? It makes Suho chuckle a bit, which earns him a frown.
Suho smiles at Sieun, but his face remains unfazed. There's not a single speck of humour on it. Suho could probably show up to the next lecture in a clown's costume and not get a reaction out of him.
When he told his best friend Yeongi about his crush on Sieun and about what kind of person Sieun is, she questioned his sanity. Even Suho couldn't explain to her why he had such a massive crush on the dude. It's weird. He's weird, and still, there's this animalistic want deep inside Suho that he can't seem to shush.
Sieun turns around again, and he doesn't move a muscle until the professor is done with his list, and he asks them to move next to their partners before he explains the project. Suho packs his laptop and his water bottle, and when the professor is turned away from him, jumps over the row of chairs in front of him and lands on the chair next to Sieun.
Sieun is, unsurprisingly, unimpressed. He moves as far away from Suho as physically possible while remaining in his seat. Suho decides to push his buttons a bit by moving towards him some more with a big grin on his face. “I’m Ahn Suho, nice to meet you!”
It’s the first time he ever spoke to his crush, but Sieun just stares at him blankly before replying, “I know who you are. And you know who I am. Let's skip the social pleasantries and focus on our project, okay?”
Suho is slightly dumbfounded for a moment, but he recovers quickly. “You're very serious about your studies, huh? Are you here on a scholarship?”
Now it's Sieun's turn to be taken aback by Suho's bluntness. Suho can see a tiny crack in the permanent mask that Sieun has on his face. There's a sliver of hurt there, and Suho immediately wishes he could turn back time and eat his words.
“I'm sorry, that was not very polite of me,” Suho tries, but Sieun just looks away, focusing his attention on the professor again.
Suho bites his bottom lip as he keeps looking at Sieun, trying to figure out what exactly it was about Suho’s comment that hurt him. Maybe he really is here on a scholarship, and Suho hit the nail right on the head. Personally, he couldn't care less if Sieun is rich or not, but he knows that the other students place wealth in high regard.
“I mean… I don't care if you are here on a scholarship. It was just a question,” Suho tries, losing his normal confidence as he speaks. “You're the most serious student I've ever seen. So I was just wondering if it might be because you have more to lose than the rest of us.”
Sieun stays quiet for a moment, and just when Suho thinks that he will just ignore him, he suddenly responds, “It's actually none of your business. Let's just focus on the project, please.”
“Okay,” Suho replies, feeling his heart break a little. He didn't expect Sieun to be the most chatty person alive, but it would be nice if he could treat Suho less coldly. He's not used to people not easily falling for his charisma and charming way with words. And it's extra annoying because it's Sieun. He's been having this strange attraction to him since day one, and now that he should be able to take a bite, Sieun has muzzled him immediately.
He decides to take the project more seriously than ever. Suho doesn't have a hard time with his classes, and he passes all his classes with ease, but he never puts in any extra effort. The bare minimum is enough for him. As long as he gets the diploma at the end of this ride, that's more than enough. He already has connections for a job once he’s done studying, so he doesn't worry too much about the future.
University is like a big playground to Suho. He gets to date and sleep with random people, drink and party at the most inappropriate hours, get into fights when he needs to blow off some steam, and not think about anything too serious. He's in his final year now, and before he saw Sieun sitting there on the first day of this semester, Suho's only goal was to party it up as much as possible before his real life will have to begin.
But he will actually take this project seriously and aim for the highest mark. For Sieun's sake. Even if Sieun makes him have a bitter taste in his mouth and his heart breaks a little with every word coming out of him, Suho will still do his absolute best.
There’s definitely a lot of layers to Sieun. Maybe he went through something traumatic, or he has something big to hide. Maybe he can slowly, and ever so carefully, break down the walls that this interesting guy has built around him and see what’s inside.
The professor explains the project, and Sieun is fully locked into whatever he is saying. Even though Suho just agreed with himself that he'll take this project very seriously, he catches himself staring at Sieun instead. He's mostly seen him from behind in the lecture hall, or from above when he was sitting down with his lunch or his laptop. Sieun is also very attractive from the side. He has a soft jawline and these cute, chubby cheeks. His side profile is absolute perfection. Sieun's nose is custom-made for his face, and his plump lips turn into a pout when he's concentrating.
Sieun is really fucking attractive, and Suho is way more down bad than he thought he was. If only Sieun were somewhat receptive to Suho's charm, he wouldn't be stuck with this feeling that he has to put on a whole performance to get into Sieun's good graces. But maybe this challenge is good for once. Suho has never had to put any effort into getting anyone to go on a date with him. They willingly follow him after one word. Sieun is completely the opposite, and even if it turns out that Sieun is into guys, Suho knows that it still won't be an easy feat to win his heart.
So, he'll do his best to impress Sieun with his academic skills and show him that he can actually be serious and perform well if he puts some effort into his work. And in the meantime, he'll just hopelessly lust over him.
When Sieun finally does look at him, Suho doesn’t even notice it at first. He’s paying attention to the professor’s explanation about the project and taking notes on his laptop. It’s not until he actually feels Sieun’s eyes bore a hole in the side of his face that he turns his head to face Sieun. The second they make eye contact, Sieun quickly focuses his attention on his laptop again.
The sides of Suho’s mouth curl up, but he does his best not to show the effect that this simple moment had on him. Maybe he’s already unlocked something deep within Sieun, just by being so close to him. Even if it’s just his curiosity that has been piqued, it’s already more than there ever was between them. Like a starving mouse, Suho will take all the crumbs he can, no matter how small.
This is the final project for their filmmaking class. For this reason, it will be time-consuming and hard. They’re required to make a short film with an original story. There’s a limit of four actors, and the movie has to be between fifteen and thirty minutes.
The main condition to pass is that the story has to be self-written, directed and produced. They will have a screening of all of the works at the end of the school year and will be graded on the quality of the work. Once everyone is graded, there will be a university-wide film festival where the short films will be displayed for all students and professors to enjoy.
It makes Suho feel a bit nervous. He’s a good editor, and directing shouldn’t be an issue for him, but writing is not really one of his talents. So far, he could adapt other people’s works for his projects, but writing something himself is a new challenge.
“Sieun, are you good at writing? I’m a decent editor and producer, but writing is not my strong suit,” Suho admits to Sieun once the professor is done talking and allows the students to discuss their ideas.
Sieun looks at him for a moment before saying anything. “That's very honest of you,” He replies then. “I'm a good writer, so I can take the bulk of the writing part and send the script to you for revision. Would that be okay?”
“Yes, that's more than okay. I will put in my hours with all the other tasks then. I'm smart, just not a very motivated student, but I will do my absolute best for you, Sieun,” Suho replies.
Sieun opens his mouth to say something, but then he hesitates and shuts it again. Instead, he nods at Suho with somewhat of a grateful look on his face. It’s already more than Suho had ever expected from him.
They're dismissed soon after. Suho would usually be the first one out, even after he discovered Sieun, but now he lingers around and waits for Sieun to pack his backpack. Suho doesn't have any more classes, but he's unsure about Sieun's schedule. Even if his crush is quite severe, he hasn't reverted to stalking yet.
“Do you have any classes left, or are you ready for the weekend?” Suho asks softly.
Sieun seems to have half a mind to just ignore him, but they have a project to work on together, so he looks at Suho and answers, “No, I’m done for the week.”
“Cool, me too!” Not that Sieun asked, but Suho tells him anyway. He might just not be much of a talker. Maybe he needs to get more comfortable with people first and spend more time with them. It would be terrific if by the end of this project, Sieun would be chatting Suho’s ears off.
Sieun nods in acknowledgement, but he doesn’t say or ask anything else. He slings his backpack over his shoulder and starts moving towards the exit.
Suho follows him and asks, “Should we maybe exchange numbers so we can keep in contact about the project? I promise I won’t bother you outside of the project.”
Sieun seems hesitant for a moment, but then he fishes his phone out of his pocket and gives Suho his number.
Once Suho has saved Sieun’s contact, he says, “I’ll text you when I’m home, so you have my number as well. Keep me updated about the script, and let me know if you want to meet up to brainstorm or anything. Even if I can’t write, I can be of help!”
“Okay,” Is all Sieun says before he quickly waves at Suho and leaves him behind.
Suho is beginning to rethink his life choices, but hopefully, it will all be fine in the end, and he will be able to get closer to his crush. The way Sieun is treating him now, it seems highly unlikely, but Suho is kind of into this whole chasing thing.
Once he’s home, he texts Sieun. He types and retypes the message a dozen times before sending it.
Suho - Hi Sieun! I hope you gave me your real number, haha! This is me, Suho. I hope we’ll have a good time working together :)
Suho is neck deep in his fridge when his phone buzzes on the counter. He gives up the hope of finding anything edible in his apartment, and he grabs his phone to go down to the local convenience store. The screen lights up with a text from Sieun.
Sieun - It’s really my number. Please don’t share it with anyone. You’re the only one in uni who has it.
Suho raises an eyebrow at the text. He’s never seen Sieun hanging out with anyone during classes or outside of them, so it makes some sense that no one would have his number, but still, why is he so protective of it?
Suho - What an honour! I will protect it with my life. I swear :)
Sieun - Thanks.
Suho chuckles before pocketing his phone. Sieun’s such an oddball, but Suho just can’t help himself. He finds him incredibly adorable. Even with his cold demeanour and short answers, Suho’s heart beats faster anytime he looks at Sieun.
He grabs a jacket and puts on his shoes before taking the elevator down. Suho thanks the high heavens that it's Friday. Even if his crush has been rejecting him all afternoon, at least he can enjoy Gray’s show later. He still has an hour before the show begins, so he’ll have some time to cook a quick dinner.
Suho lives close to the university, and he often runs into other students from the dorm when he's outside. He still really doesn't expect to bump into Sieun of all people. After they've already spent a big chunk of the afternoon together and Suho has had his heart broken a million times over, Sieun’s now even in Suho's go-to convenience store?! Some higher entity is definitely messing around with him.
“Hi!” Suho says, trying not to sound too excited to see Sieun again.
“Oh. Hey,” Sieun replies. His shopping basket is filled with fresh fruits and vegetables. Suho quickly hides his ramyun and snack-filled one behind his back.
“Were you also surprised by an empty fridge?” Suho jokes.
Sieun shakes his head, but he doesn’t explain any further. Suho checks the time on his phone and sees that he has about forty minutes left before he has to be in front of his laptop, so he says to Sieun, “Well, enjoy your weekend! I gotta run.”
He doesn’t wait for Sieun to reply. He probably won’t reply anyway, and Suho can really use a drink after everything that happened today. So, he quickly makes his way to the alcohol section, fills up on beers and soju and then heads to the checkout.
When Suho gets to the counter, Sieun seems to have already left. It’s so much more awkward between them than he’d imagined, but Suho will stay strong to get what he wants.
But for now, he has other plans. He doesn’t only really need alcohol, he also really needs to get off. Ever since he discovered Sieun in his class, Suho hasn’t been interested in sleeping with random people. So he doesn’t get his rocks off like that anymore. It’s only Gray’s weekly show, and then sometimes in the shower whenever he gets really riled up thinking about Sieun’s pouty mouth.
Once he’s cooked some ramyun, finished a can of beer and opened a bottle of soju, there are only a few minutes left until it’s time for Gray’s show. Suho grabs his laptop from his bag and places it on his desk. As it loads up the website, he changes into a comfortable outfit and goes to use the bathroom.
With everything done and out of the way, Suho sits down at his desk, awaiting Gray_Ice to come online. His phone is silenced, and the box of tissues is ready.
Gray goes live a moment later. Like every time he starts, there's a screensaver with a timer for the first five minutes, so his loyal viewers can get ready to be there on time. Ever since Suho discovered his streams two years ago, he hasn't missed a single one. A few weeks in, he already got noticed by the streamer, and since then, Suho has made sure to be very active in the chat, so Gray can keep noticing his presence.
The camboy that Suho is so obsessed with does one-on-one cam sessions as well, but it's extremely rare. In the two years since Suho started watching him, he's only done it once. Still, Suho has some hope that he'll be a lucky winner one day. At least before he hopefully gets together with Sieun.
If he ever gets to be so lucky as to actually be with his crush in real life, he'll stop watching Gray's streams. It would feel weird and cheaty to be still watching and interacting with a camboy once he's in a relationship.
The screensaver disappears, and a familiar body appears on Suho's laptop. Even though Gray is still dressed, Suho's dick already twitches in interest. He always wears a similar outfit on his streams. This time it's a black tank top with his typical grey sweatpants. The pants are great for teasing the audience, as Gray always takes his time to strip, making his viewers drool only at the sight of the outline of his erection.
Gray waves at the camera and says hi. He has some kind of voice changer, and Suho has always wondered if his real voice is lower or higher. There is so much left to the imagination about this streamer. It's very exciting.
Suho, or Stephen_1109 online, puts some heart eye emojis in the chat, which Gray responds to immediately.
“Stephen! You are here again! Welcome~”
Suho's cheeks flush. Even if he's not the only regular, and multiple people's names get called out by Gray, he still feels special. He's the most consistent one, as he's never missed one stream, and he's been watching him for two years.
“How are you all doing today? Are you ready to enjoy the weekend?” Gray asks, voice sweeter than honey.
Stephen_1109: I had a stressful day. Really needed to see your sweet ass~ How are you, Gray?
“Oh, you're quite eager today, Stephen! I guess I shouldn't waste too much of your time then, huh? I'm doing well. I spoke to someone today, who I have known for a while, and they surprised me! I had a whole different picture painted in my head,” Gray says.
Suho blocks out anything that Gray says to - and asks the other people in the chat. It's easier to pretend that it's just the two of them like that. Suho is not delusional. He knows that this is Gray's way of making money, and that they have nothing going on between them, but he also knows that he pays for this experience, so a little pretending doesn't hurt.
Stephen_1109: Are you trying to make me jealous?! Haha
“No, of course not, Stephen! It's just a good reminder to myself not to judge a book by its cover,” Gray responds.
Stephen_1109: You're not only incredibly hot but also so smart. I think I'm in love~
Gray chuckles at Suho's response, and if he were able to see Gray's face, Suho is sure that he would see him blushing.
“Okay, guys, enough teasing. I think I've made you all wait long enough. Let's get undressed, huh?”
The top comes off first, ever so slowly, exposing more and more of his skin. Gray is chubby in all the ways that Suho loves to see. His body is just the right amount of lovable, and Suho would often fantasise about squeezing him.
Then the pants follow. Gray teases them for some time, bending over and hooking his fingers under the waistband a few times before they actually come off. When he finally does take his sweatpants off and reveals his underwear, Suho is already hard.
Gray's underwear is white today, and he's already busy rubbing his erection over the cloth.
Stephen_1109: I wish I could do this for you~
“Oh yeah, Stephen? What else would you do to me?”
Suho thinks about it for a moment. He wants to answer honestly and in grave detail, so Gray knows that he really means his words.
Stephen_1109: I would take your hand and replace it with mine. I would rub you until you’re close, and then let go completely. Then, I would take your underwear off and take your pretty penis in my mouth and swallow you down. I would let you hit the back of my throat until you’re begging to cum and then pull off, letting you cum all over my face.
As Gray reads Suho’s response out loud, he peels his underwear off and starts stroking his cock. “Fuck, Stephen, that’s really hot~” he moans, and his hand keeps moving, but he stops before he cums. The show has just started, so it would be too early to get to the dessert already.
Suho’s pants are already down to his ankles, and he is less composed than Gray. His hand keeps moving as Gray teases his viewers by turning around and swaying his hips. As soon as Gray bends over, grabs his milky white cheeks and spreads them apart, Suho shoots his first load. He’s been pent up all week, and all he needed was to see this beautiful butt.
He cleans himself up and lets his cock recover as he looks at Gray, placing multiple dildos into the frame. They range in size and width, and Gray tells the audience that they have two minutes to spend their coins on the stream. The highest donor gets to choose Gray’s toy of the week.
Suho has already spent quite a lot of money on Gray. He works as a bartender on Saturdays just to pay for his guilty pleasure. Suho’s parents have sponsored his apartment and his studies, but it would feel too weird to accept their money to pay for a camboy, so Suho has been working different part-time jobs over the past two years.
Like every week, Suho waits for the other viewers to donate first and battle each other. When the timer nearly runs out, he spends all of the coins he currently has on the website in one go, making him number one just one second before the timer runs out.
“Stephen again,” Gray chuckles, “Well, Stephen, which one will it be?”
Stephen_1109: The pink one please <3
“You’re so respectful, Stephen,” Gray chuckles as he grabs the pink dildo and moves the others off-screen again. Suho had chosen one of the smaller ones. Gray has been open about being a virgin, on stream, and Suho doesn't feel like it would be appropriate to choose the most massive dildo, even if his own cock is not much smaller than that one. Gray should be able to experience that feeling of fullness with an actual human being and not a piece of silicone.
“Any other requests, Stephen?”
Suho ignores the vile comments that pop up from his fellow viewers and types something he wants that won’t hurt Gray.
Stephen_1109: Try to cum untouched. Please :)
“Your wish is my command, Stephen. I will do my very best!” The smile is clear in Gray’s voice. It makes Suho’s heart skip a beat.
Suho bites his bottom lip as he watches Gray pour lube over his pointer and middle finger before getting on his knees and scooting his butt closer to the camera. He waits in anticipation for the streamer to press his fingers into himself. Gray moans as he pushes his fingers inside until the knuckle. “Ugh, it's so frustrating to do this by myself,” he complains as he moves his fingers.
Stephen_1109: I would do this for you in a heartbeat.
He hears Gray chuckle at his comment as he keeps fingering himself. The pink dildo doesn't require too much preparation, so soon enough, Gray pulls his fingers out of himself, and he sits down for a moment, catching his breath before he grabs the dildo.
“Here we go, Stephen,” he says as he turns around so that everything is on full display. His cock has softened, but when the dildo enters him, Gray’s cock twitches and hardens. As he always does with the winner of the chosen toy, Gray moans Stephen’s name as he pushes the dildo into himself as far as he can.
Whenever Suho doesn’t win, he lowers the volume so he can hear Gray moan, but not hear the other name that he’s moaning. To not have to go through this trouble, Suho makes sure to win as many times as possible.
It would be even better if Gray would call out his real name as he enjoys himself, but Stephen it is. Suho’s dick is in his hand again as he watches Gray try to cum without touching his cock, as per Suho’s request.
Gray’s cock is spilling precum, and his hole is slick with lube. The pink dildo is going in and out of him at a rapid pace. Suho is almost losing it. Even after having already cum once, he’s eagerly awaiting his second release.
Gray finally finds the perfect angle, judging by the increase in his noises. His hand moves even quicker now, and he moans, “I’m… Close.”
He knows that his viewers like to cum at the same time as him. Suho has been holding off as well, slowing the movements on his cock until Gray gives him the go-ahead.
Gray’s movements become more and more erratic, and his moans include more and more Stephen’s. Suho speeds up his hand and spills his release all over himself as he watches Gray cum. As promised, he only used the dildo to chase his orgasm, and it looks delicious. Gray’s body is twitching all over as his cum shoots from his cock. It lands on his thighs, his stomach and on the floor.
He’s quiet for a moment before pulling out the dildo and wiping the cum from himself. Gray then positions himself in front of the camera so that only his torso is on screen, and he thanks the viewers for watching his show.
“And a special thanks to all my donors today. All your coins are very much appreciated. I’ll go out and buy some more toys for us to enjoy together~” Gray says before making kissy sounds to the camera.
All Suho is focused on is the streak of cum that’s still smeared over Gray’s stomach. He missed it while cleaning himself, and Suho would very gladly reach through the screen and lick it off for him.
Suho tunes out Grey talking to the other viewers and only pays attention when he hears his screen name coming out of Grey’s mouth.
“Thank you for the experience, Stephen! Hope to see you again next week~”
Stephen_1109: Of course. I’m here every week :) Have a great weekend!
“Have a wonderful weekend!” Grey says before signing off with a finger heart.
Suho closes his laptop, takes a quick shower and then moves to the couch to watch a movie before bed.
As he’s lying in bed, Suho suddenly remembers to check his phone. He forgot to take it out of silent mode and didn’t use it while he watched the movie, so he’s surprised by a few texts.
Two out of the three are from Yeongi, asking for more details about their plans for the weekend. He quickly types out a reply before checking the third one.
This one is from Sieun. He sent it right after Suho silenced his phone, so he missed it.
Sieun - You didn’t give me a chance to reply in the store. Have a nice weekend! And don’t forget to add some greens to your diet :-p
Suho feels his heart skip a beat. He didn’t expect such a sweet and casual message from Sieun, and he completely missed it. He feels terrible about ignoring Sieun when he finally shows some friendliness.
Suho - I’m so sorry! I was in a hurry. And now I’ve accidentally ignored you because my phone was on silent mode. I promise I will improve my diet ;) Have a happy weekend and sleep well :)
The response comes immediately.
Sieun - No worries! Good night :-)
Suho’s day couldn’t have gone any better. He had a great time with Gray, and Sieun seems to slowly warm up to him. Maybe he’s braver over text. If that works out for Sieun better, then Suho will accept it and work his way into his heart that way.