Spoken For

by Mooseishuman

Summary:

"I could be a friend or i could be a foe,you make the decision and thats all i know."
 

or
 

Muichiro and Yuichiro are idols,and are terrible at communicating about their issues.

Notes:

Hii,so this is my first posted fic,its not that long,but im planning to have multible chapters!!

Chapter 1: Wake up,morning set in motion for me.

Muichiro always liked idols. What can he say? They're pretty and they dance well. It has never really been his main interest,but he still watched some music videos and listened to music from idol groups.

He never thought he'd ever become one. And he never really wanted to.

 

Yuichiro always admired idols. They're so cool,he would always listen to music from multible groups. Mostly boy groups because they were "cooler" to him. And always wanted to meet his favorites.

Not to mention how amazing he thought it would be to be an idol. To sing infront of huge crowds,have a fanbase,in general have fun.

 

He was delusional.

 

Did he really think it was great to be an idol? Havent he heard about a single story where those people get stalked by crazy fans? Or where they are forced on strict diets that are barely anything?

Even if he had it apperently didn't discourage him. Since when had Yuichiro been such an optimist?

Maybe when Muichiro got jaded. But doesn't matter.

Maybe he just thought he would be able to handle it fine.

Continuing on,Yuichiro when he was around 12-13 according to Muichiro's memory would train a lot and audition to a few idol agency's with their parents support. Being rejected all those times.

Muichiro wished he would have just quit.

But no. Thanks to their oh so dear parents.

In a last ditch effort he brought Muichiro into it. Thinking that maybe that would get their attention on them.

And low and behold,he got accepted. Well,they,the agency only wanted Yuichiro if Muichiro was with him too. Twins would get more attention rather than a solo idol.

By then..Stuff had happened. So really Muichiro couldn’t bring him to say no.

Even knowing that he would hate this. Muichiro was the younger twin. The youngest listens to the oldest.

Atleast Yuichiro says that all the time.

Its annoying. Not like Muichiro is allowed to complain.

He doesn't have any hobbies besides folding paper. Which Yuichiro nowadays thinks of as "a waste of time".

So idol life it is.

 

With the boring and busy scedual of:

 

Waking up at five AM.

 

Practice singing for a few hours. In the studio room.

 

Eat some fruit or something for breakfast. Or don't. They're on a strict diet. Muichiro prefers to not get in trouble so he skips most of the time. Or has water. Yuichiro eats something usualy though.

 

Go to school. Muichiro is already tired. Yuichiro keeps bothering him about this. Muichiro doesn't care,and sleeps in class. It doesn't matter since he hasent gotten anything below a C for years.

 

Then go to lunch,Muichiro doesn't like the school lunch. But Yuichiro always gets him to eat. And then also have a protein bar or something. They're gross. Who likes this stuff?

 

Then more school. By now Muichiro is awake. But doesn't mean he pays attention. Its all boring anyways.

 

Go home. Its a long walk but Yuichiro says Muichiro needs more stamina. They live with their manager,Amane. The house has a studio room where they practice vocals (as mentioned earlier) and a room thats empty with a big mirror on the wall,where they practice dancing.

 

And then once they get home its dance practice. The reason why Yuichiro thinks Muichiro needs more stamina. Yuichiro yells a lot whenever he messes up.

 

Dinner. The one time they have a real (aka decent) meal. Yuichiro cooks,Amane is usualy too busy by then. He doesn't let Muichiro even try cooking though. Whatever. His brother cooks better anyways. Muichiro can't cook. So its for the best.

 

A bit more dance practice and vocal practice. Usualy Muichiro messes up a bit more here during the later hours. Its fine. Its fine.

 

And then bedtime at eight PM.

Well for Yuichiro atleast.

 

Muichiro stayed up. Scrolling on social media. Maybe he wasn't tired because he slept in class. Maybe he wanted to see how people critiqued them on social media. He himself doesn't really know. Its just a habit.

 

Yuichiro usualy didn’t let him check what the fans think. So Muichiro usualy did that when Yuichiro was asleep. They share a room so Yuichiro knows he falls asleep earlier but doesn't think its for this.

 

People liked Yuichiro more than him. It was only fair. Yuichiro had more passion. More personality. Compared to him Muichiro was "dull". "Emotionless." "An airhead." "Boring." Thats what they say online atleast.

 

Though he cant help but agree. They're all right. He of all people would know,he has no passion for being an idol. He really doesn't like most of the fans,though he of course doesn't say that,he keeps his words brief. Yuichiro should be the one in the spotlight anyways.

 

  "He has such a resting bitch face. Lmao."

 

  Nothing wrong with that.

 

  "You could see him judging people,seriously why is he even there? Might aswell quit lol"

 

 Bet you're ugly in real life anyways.

 

 "I can't stand idols who act so indifferent to their fans. Isn't he at all grateful? I would want him to be like his brother but OBVIOUSLY he can't put in the effort. Might aswell kill himself."

 

...Shut up. Why do the act like they know anything? Seriously..Can't he believe these people. Suicide is stupid. Why would he do that? And he didn't want to be an idol in the first place.

 

This random person thinks they know so much,maybe they should try getting off their fat ass and try becoming an idol themselves.

 

Reported.

 

.... Muichiro checked the time on his phone.

..11PM already?

 

Ugh he'll go to sleep...Yuichiro will throw a fit if he's tired tomorrow.

 

So Muichiro charged his phone,not having to get out of bed because it was close,then closed his eyes and went to sleep..  

 

---

Its 10 AM now,a thursday. Its Muichiro's break period in school.

 

God he was so tired..And he has barely eaten.

He could get some chips from the vending machine..That would work. As long as Yuichiro doesn't spot him..Hopefully.

 

It gets Muichiro a little stressed to think about.

Muichiro still put a few coins in the vending machine and got a bag of chips,salted.

He leaned on the wall when he opened it and started eating. He tried to rush it,if he finished it before Yuichiro saw then he wouldn't get in trouble and actually get his money worth..

 

"What the hell you eating?"

 

...Shit. Why was Yuichiro here already..!?

Just keep your face and voice neutral. Don't panic. Don't shake.

 

"..Im eating chips."

Muichiro finnaly said. Still dissapointed that his tone had an edge of what to Yuichiro's ears would be dissapointment.

 

"We're on a fucking diet idiot. Give me that shit."

Yuichiro harshly stepped forward to take the bag of chips. Muichiro just let him. Even extending his hand to let him take it.

 

Thank god he didn't flinch.

 

Yuichiro held the bag tightly. They were quiet.

Muichiro was hoping that he would leave soon. Yuichiro definitely would not let him leave first.

If he was staying this long then he probably has something to say..

 

Still,the silence was deafening.

It took three whole minutes until Yuichiro spoke up.

 

"Muichiro,you should become more liked with our fans. Im sick of you always being apathetic,you could atleast pretend to be what they want."

Yuichiro said harshly before walking off,still having the bag of chips that he didn’t pay for.

 

  ...Pretend huh?

Logically it made sense. Nobody is as nice as they seem. How would he even start though? He could smile more or something. Maybe post pictures of himself on instagram or other socials. Yeah. He'll do that. 

---

Yuichiro always wanted to be an idol.

Muichiro never wanted to be an idol.

Notes:

Btw Yuichiro said sorry for taking Muichiro's chips and gave them back once they got home!!

Thanks for reading :D

Chapter 2: Clear cut, put on the emotion guarenteed.

Summary:

Two months after the first chapter,they're having a concert later that day.

And Muichiro is tired as hell.

It has been two months since Muichiro started putting up more of a persona. And Yuichiro atleast apologized for being rude at that time. But really it has been going good. Good enough. Some of the fans still hate on him but he doesn't care.

 

He just doesn't want conflict with Yuichiro. He just wants to stay in bed all day and do nothing.

 

 

But he can't do both. And he would rather not have Yuichiro yell at him,so getting up in the mornings it is.

 

..He was scrolling on social media in bed. it was around 11:45 pm. Yuichiro was asleep..He should sleep too. They're supposed to wake up an hour earlier tomorrow to practice for an upcoming show.

 

But for some reason he doesn't want to. 

 

People were reposting a photo of both of them,he and Yuichiro were just gonna go shopping a few days ago but someone spotted them.

 

Couldnt they just have asked for a picture instead of taking it from a distance?

 

Weird ass freaks.

 

His vision was doubling. Was he really that tired..? 

 

His eyes..well under his eyes were hurting from staying up...

 

 

00:08

 

 

..Muichiro silently charged his phone then fell asleep. Yuichiro was definitely gonna be angry tomorrow..and he himself would be tired for the entire day..

 

Muichiro almost didn’t want to wake up knowing that.

 

 

---

 

"..ᵐᵘᶦ.........ᶦᵗˢ ᵐᵒʳⁿᶦⁿᵍ........ʰᵉʸ ʷᵃᵏᵉ ᵘᵖ...."

 

..He doesn't want to wake up. He's too tired.

 

 

 

"...oi. Muichiro. Wake up."

 

 

 

....Can't he just sleep..? its too early for this bullshit...

 

"Muichiro,seriously wake up."

 

.....

 

 

"Oh my god....MUICHIRO WAKE YOUR ASS UP!!"

 

 

Muichiro couldn’t hide the flich that ran through him as Yuichiro's yelling jolted him awake.

 

"IM AWAKE!!..Shit just leave me alone..!!"

 

Yuichiro did not look happy

 

"We have talked about this!! Heck even yesterday,you slept through the alarm i had to wake you up,did you even sleep yesterday!?!..Just..Just go get ready.."

 

Muichiro wanted to say more. But he was already on thin ice..Better to not get him more mad. 

 

 

He doesn't want things to be like before.

 

 

So he swiftly got up,still as tense as a rock,and went to the bathroom,which was connected to their bedroom. 

 

He needed to cover up his eyebags before Yuichiro noticed them anyways. 

 

He locked the door behind him and went over a drawer,leaning down to remove the bottom drawer. 

 

It was a bit difficult because he was still sleepy but he removed it,leaving a space where the drawer used to be and a small makeup bag that Muichiro had hidden there. 

 

 

Muichiro took the makeup bag and went over to the mirror. It had basic things. Color corrector and concealer,plus a small makeup sponge. Often to hide his eyebags. There was also a Razor blade.

 

 

For no reason in particular.

 

 

Muichiro took out the makeup items from the bag,starting with a yellow color corrector on both of his undereyes. Then using the makeup sponge blending it,before applying concealer and blending that too. 

 

 

There. He doesn't look like he only slept for four hours. Phew. 

 

Muichiro put the makeup back in the bag. then put the bag back in the space under the drawer. Then put the drawer back. Then unlocked the bathroom and left.

 

It could be him just being tired but he felt monotone.

 

 

He always felt monotone. 

 

 

So he's probably just tired. 

 

 

"MUICHIRO!!!! COME ON,COME DOWN HERE AND EAT!!!"

 

....

 

Yuichiro was so fucking annoying.

---

 

 

Amane had made breakfast,she rarely does but she found a little spare time to make some riceballs,which Yuichiro was grateful for. 

 

Today was a big day,he and Muichiro were gonna preform.

 

But ofcourse that idiot almost overslept. He really can't do anything by himself can he?

 

Oh well. The least an older brother could have done was wake him up anyways.

 

 

In the middle of his train of thought Yuichiro almost forgot to finish breakfast.

 

Come to think of it,would Muichiro even eat breakfast? Mui skips most of the time which is usualy fine as long as he still eats lunch and dinner..but today will be long,and he did seem pretty tired earlier. 

 

They will probably need all energy he can get.

 

With a slight sigh,Yuichiro turned slightly behind towards the right. Where the stairs were.

 

"MUICHIRO!!! COME ON,COME DOWN HERE AND EAT!!"

 

There wasn't a respond,not a verbal one atleast,but there was slow footsteps approaching from upstairs. 

 

Muichiro really should take care of himself more..he's tired all the time,and lately has been showering a bit less. 

 

Atleast he showered Yesterday. 

 

Just as that thought was finished Muichiro sluggishly sat down on his chair,taking one riceball and slowly eating it.

 

....

 

"You should take more than one,today will be a long day so you should get food in."

 

Hopefully his words would be listened to instead of—

 

"Would you just lay off..!?"

 

Guess not.

 

"Jesus what the hell is up with your fucking attitude?! Did something happen or something!?"

 

"–Oh my god,don't ask that!!! Nothing has happened!! Just—...Leave me alone. Im fine. Im just tired."

 

..Yuichiro could feel worry seep into his gut...Muichiro was probably fine..Maybe he didn't sleep well or something..Amane might be able to get just enough time for Muichiro to sleep..Or atleast enough for him to get a break.

 

"..Okay. Fine. Come to me if you need anything then.."

 

Maybe giving Muichiro a bit of space would be for the best. Everything is already planned,so there shouldn't be any problems. Checking with Amane would be good though. After breakfast.

 

---

 

 

..Why the fuck did Yuichiro always have to bother him?

 

He just wants to be alone. Stuck some place where nobody will bother him or care where he is...

 

Ofcourse that'll never happen. Everyone will bother him.

 

He basically signed up for it. Becoming an idol and all. 

 

....

 

Muichiro finished eating the riceball then went back upstairs to their shared bedroom. 

 

Yuichiro would probably be angry that Muichiro was lazy and not doing whatever he was supposed to do.

 

Muichiro is too tired to care. Its 4:30 am he's too tired..why did he have to stay up so late..?

 

Whatever. It doesn't matter. Just take a nap and hate yourself when Yuichiro gets mad. 

 

Muichiro got on his bed and under the blanket. Not even bothering to turn of the lights.

 

...

 

His nap was interrupted by the door opening harshly. 

 

"Oh by the way Muichiro if you want—Oh fuck nevermind you can sleep."

 

The room turned dark as Yuichiro shut the lights and the door shut.

 

..Oh my fucking god. 

 

What did Yuichiro want from him then..? Does he think he's useless now..? Would he use this against him later..!?

 

 

 

If a single thing goes wrong today Muichiro might fucking c̶r̶y̶ scream. 

 

Chapter 3: And when they drag me by my feet, pick me up and match me to the beat,make me complete.

Notes:

WOOO NEW CHAPTER!!!

Once they got in the car and Amane started driving things had calmed down. 

 

They were gonna arrive around three hours before the concert. Giving Muichiro and Yuichiro time to change clothes,get their makeup done,and reherse before it starts.

 

Yuichiro was looking out the window and lisening to music..It was weird that Muichiro was so tired when he didn't have eyebags. 

 

Maybe he was faking so he could slack off or something.

 

It wouldn't be past him. Muichiro was pretty incompitent sometimes. 

 

Why would he fake though? Anxiety?

 

Whatever. He didn't have an excuse. They needed to do well today...

 

Hopefully their parents are proud of them...Even if..They're up in heaven..

 

...Whatever. Get your shit together Yuichiro. Don't think about that..There's no point.

 

---

 

Muichiro felt dazed with stress.

 

He didn't want to preform. What if they hated it? What if they hated him..? What if they already hate him? What if someone tries to get past security? What if he messes up on stage?

.

If something like that happened then he might just die then and there..

 

He honestly wanted to die here and now. But that would ruin the show if only one of the twins was there..I mean its in their name. The Kasumi Twins...

 

Why did he even have to be here..? Why couldnt they have accepted Yuichiro alone..? He was way more talented.

 

Muichiro was just useless..

 

 

Muichiro was thrown out of his daze when Yuichiro snapped his fingers up in his face.

 

"Hello? Im talking to you."

 

Shit-

 

"Oh—oh right uh..what..what were you saying..?"

 

God he needs to stop zoning out..

 

"We're here now. Come on, focus a little. Whats up with your today?"

 

If he told the truth he might get a lecture..Better to just tell a half truth.

 

"Im just a little nervous..No big deal."

 

He was more than just "a little nervous" he felt so anxious that he might throw up...

 

He should have just skipped breakfast..He'll just throw up once he gets a chance to go to the bathroom..

 

Oh Yuichiro was already getting out of the car—

 

Muichiro rushed to do the same..He didn't want to lag behind..

 

Then again he always lagged behind..Maybe he should just kill himself.

 

Woah that was a weird thought. Oh no don't think about that. 

 

Muichiro didn't even realised he had zoned out until Amane closed the door for him..

 

"Muichiro,try not to get distracted when on stage please."

 

Had he just been standing there the whole time..? Wow he's such a useless piece of sh–

 

Yuichiro grabbed Muichiro's wrist and started dragging him along.

 

"Jesus christ Muichiro. She is right,it would be embarassing as hell if you made a mistake on stage. Really,get your shit together. Drick coffee or something."

 

Damn it..

 

"..Uh..Yeah I will.."

 

---

 

As they made it inside the set crew was working to prepare the stage,lighting,etcetera. Yuichiro was pulled aside to get changed into the clothes they were gonna preform in and in the meantime Muichiro snuck away to the bathroom..

 

Throwing up didn't feel good. And forcing yourself to throw up felt even less good. 

 

But Muichiro liked being hungry. And with how many times he messed up today he deserves it. Kinda. 

 

Muichiro prefers being hungry anyways. So its fine. 

 

How was he gonna do this again..? Oh right. Just shove his hand down his throat until he pukes. 

 

---

 

After Muichiro left the bathroom he popped a breathmint into his mouth. Better to not have his breath smell like vomit.

 

"Oh Muichiro,there you are!!"

 

One of the staff members started talking to him..He didn't pay attention. They told him to get to the dressing room and get changed.

 

So thats what he did. 

 

The outfit that he got was pretty simple. Long black widelegged pants,a teal crop top with a simple cloud pattern,the pattern being a slightly lighter shade of teal,a white french style scarf and detached shirt cuffs.

 

Overall pretty simple.

 

Muichiro had no issue putting it on. It wasent too uncomfortable. Usualy he didn't like wearing crop tops. They made him feel fat. But whatever. He can't really object. Its too late for that.

 

He still took his time putting it on..A little too long.

 

Almost a minute after he stepped out he was told to get his makeup done..One thing after the other huh? Whatever..he just needs to get this done. 

 

---

 

Having finished getting dressed and having his makeup put on,Yuichiro could relax for a moment. They couldnt start practicing before Muichiro was ready anyways. So he just sat down on the couch and went on his phone.

 

Speaking of Muichiro..He really did need to stop zoning out. It's getting ridiculous...If that happens on stage then he doesn't even know what he'll do.

 

Yuichiro let out an audible sigh..Seriously whats up with him? He can't be THAT nervous. Muichiro just needs to get his shit together..

 

He'll just make sure that Muichiro doesn't mess up,they have time to practice anyways.

 

---

 

With his makeup finnaly on Muichiro went to find his older brother..Who was relaxing on the couch.

 

He was wearing a similar crop top. Just that while the cloud pattern on Muichiro's was a light teal Yuichiro had a darker teal on the pattern instead. Aswell as a black tie and chocker.

 

He also had some black baggy cargo pants. And on his wrist were black leather bracelets with studs.

 

 

When Yuichiro saw him he started speaking.

"Oh,finnaly. There you are. Lets go reherse some extra before the concert."

 

Muichiro didn't say anything in response. Just followed Yuichiro when he stood up and started walking.

 

 

---

 

Time had gone by way too fast..They were already supposed to go on stage soon..

 

Yuichiro seemed more than ready..And according to him they practiced more than enough but...

 

how many people were gonna be there..?

 

He could here it from backstage..there were definitely..a lot..

 

You know how people say that when you get nervous you get butterflies in your stomach..? That doesn't even begin to go over what Muichiro feels.

 

It feels like his stomach is made out off wool and filled with moths that want to eat their way out..Slowly and agonizingly fiber by fiber...He wanted to throw up.

 

"Muichiro. Come on its soon our cue."

 

Oh shit- Zoned out again-

 

"Uh yeah—right-!"

 

Muichiro walked up and stood next to his twin..Just smile,wave,and pretend to have fun.

 

Smile,wave pretend to have fun.

 

It was only a moment later when they went on stage..Jesus there were a lot of people..

 

Muichiro plastered on a smile and waved to the crowd. Yuichiro didn't seem nervous at all..

 

Just calm down you fucking moron.

 

Muichiro and Yuichiro went towards the center of the stage where the microphones were..And Yuichiro started talking first. With Muichiro saying a few things here and there and then after that they were gonna preform..

 

Honestly Muichiro thinks he just blanked out. He doesn't remember shit..He only really snapped out of it once they went backstage again for a break..

 

"Shit did I act weird or something..–!?"

 

Yuichiro gave him a weird look..he seemed confused.

 

"uh..no? Hey are you okay—"

 

Okay good—He didn't act weird!! Just stay in character and everything will be fine!!

 

Muichiro taped on a smile and responded to Yuichiro.

 

"Yeah im fine! I think I just need a bathroom break,ill see you in a minute!!"

 

He said that with a "happy" tone and ran off before Yuichiro could respond. 

 

...He was just left there,stumped. What the hell just happened? 

 

"...What the fuck..?"

 

Since when had Muichiro acted like that towards him? They weren’t on stage. He had no reason too. 

 

Maybe he just..Needs a minute or something. Calm down Yuichiro. Nothing is wrong.

 

 

Nothing is wrong. Not at all.

Notes:

Hope you enjoyed it :D

Chapter 4: Im miles above the street,staring as i pass me by my self deceit.

Notes:

I wasn't able to get this chapter beta read unfortunatly ;-;

Muichiro was staring into his own reflection,supporting himself on the sink.

 

God he's useless. Can barely even remember what he did on stage..like he knows what he did–it was scripted–but its like he blanked out..Why was his memory so shitty..?

 

 

The only thing he's useful for is lisening to others.

 

Because anything else he's good at is something pointless,useless.

 

Honestly fitting for someone as pathetic as him.

 

Would Yuichiro be happy if he dissapeared? Maybe he only keeps him around because he couldn’t be an idol without Muichiro.

 

If Muichiro died instead of their parents would Yuichiro be happier?

 

Probably. Yuichiro hates him.

 

He knew he shouldn't think that. But its true. If they were alive and he wasn't then Yuichiro could have been way more happy. 

 

And if Muichiro had died then he wouldn't have to deal with this bullshit.

 

 

Oh well. Not worth thinking about. He can't even do anything about it anyways. He's an idol now,and until otherwise he's staying an idol.

 

Muichiro stared at himself for a moment longer. 

 

Wow he really did have a resting bitch face..it was ugly.

 

Then turned on the faucet and started washing his hands. Not because he needed to wash them,just because he needed something to distract himself with. 

 

He should leave right about now. 

He didn't want to but..What if Yuichiro got upset or something?

 

Muichiro was a bit dissapointed by his own desition as he dried his hands and looked into the mirror again..

 

Just put on an act until the concert is over and everything will be fine. 

 

Just do what you're supposed to and everything will be fine.

 

Everything is fine.

 

 

He took a deep breath,plastered on a smile,then unlocked the bathroom and left. 

 

---

 

It was pretty quiet,well,there was still noise but quiet enough.

 

He should probably find Yuichiro..Or he might get mad that he's gone for too long..

 

Yuichiro would probably in that lounge room,maybe on his phone. So Muichiro went there,and there he was. Ofcourse. 

 

Yuichiro glanced at him with a look that he doesn't see often. He looked confused and..Something. Maybe he was irritated. Should he apologize? Would Yuichiro get mad if he apologized without Muichiro knowing what he was even saying sorry for? Or would he get more angry if he didn't say sorry at all when he was clearly upset-?

 

Before Muichiro could finish that thought Yuichiro spoke.

"..Uh..So why did you act like that earlier?"

 

Huh? Wait what? Did he act weird on stage..?? But Yuichiro told him that he acted fine—!

 

"..What are you talking about?"

 

Stay calm. Just smile,its fine.

 

"You know..When we went backstage. You kept on your whole..idol persona....and..uh...You’re doing it right now even though you don't need to.."

 

Oh. That. 

 

Shit.

 

"So..I was wondering if..You’re..Okay and stuff."

 

You’re fine.

 

"Im fine! Guess im just nervous over this many people watching us preform!!"

 

Just keep the act up. It's fine.

 

"..Are you sure? Seriously. You can tell me if something has happened."

 

This is getting annoying..He was fine. Why would anything be wrong? If anything acting more happy should convince Yuichiro of the opposite. He's fine.

 

"Yes..Really im fine! You don't need to worry..!!"

 

Just keep up the act until the concert is 100% over or they get home. Just keep it up until then...

 

Why did he even diside to keep up the act for Yuichiro..?

 

Because maybe if you do Yuichiro wont hate your useless ass,it'll be easier if you pretend to be happy. You know how he hates your shitty attitude.

 

....right thats true.

 

Speaking of his brother..Yuichiro had let out a sigh at Muichiro's response. He seemed either more confused or more irritaded.

 

Probably irritated. God Muichiro why do you have to be such a fuck up?

 

"..Okay. Sure whatever Muichiro..You're just...Whatever nevermind. We're going back out there in five minutes by the way."

 

Muichiro,in his honest opinion. Was not looking forward to it. At all. Hopefully that didn't show up on his face. He just nodded and sat down on a different couch than Yuichiro. 

 

Because what if Yuichiro wanted personal space? What if Yuichiro couldnt stand being next to Muichiro when he didn't need to be? Its better to play it safe.

 

 

Muichiro saw that Yuichiro started going on his phone. So Muichiro did the same. He went on the god forsaken app known before as twitter and now know as X because of some billionaire bullshit. 

 

He searched up "The Kasumi Twins" Their idol name,and started scrolling. 

 

All the usual. Some people love them,others hate Muichiro specifically. 

 

But lately people have started disliking his less. Saying things like "Im so glad he changed his attitude" and "He's way more cute now" and..other stuff...that he's..less comfortable with.

 

But oh well.

 

Atleast they liked him more. Yuichiro is probably happy about that,you know,good publicity. 

 

If anything he's self centered for not liking some of the stuff people say. He signed up for this,people are bound to be parasocial. So its fine.

 

But maybe he should see what people think of him on some other app. Like tiktok. 

 

Muichiro put his earbuds here somewhere..Uh..lets see..

 

After he found his earbuds,which Yuichiro told him where they were,apperently in his bag,he put them on,connected them to his phone and went on tiktok.

 

People were talking about their concert,already posting videos about it..He watched those videos. It was fine.

 

He watched some skits and that..And ofcourse more video's about him and Yuichiro. Just to see what people are saying on this app..

 

....

 

What the fuck? These people were freaks..

 

Whatever. Its fine.

 

He'll just check it again later.

 

...Why did everything have to be so shitty?

 

....

 

Oh shit Yuichiro was walking up to him—

 

"Muichiro,put that stuff away we're going back on stage."

 

Already..!? Dammit— Whatever just smile and move on..smile and move on.

 

"Y-Yeah okay-!"

 

Muichiro said then turned off his phone and earbuds and put them on the table. Why the fuck did he have to stutter-!? God thats so embarassing he just wants to crawl in a hole and die oh my GOD—

 

He quickly went to catch up to Yuichiro. And once he caught up he checked his outfit to make sure everything everything looked okay. 

 

Just stay calm,smile,and just be an idol.

 

Yuichiro walked on stage first and Muichiro followed.

 

The audience was so fucking loud holy shit..Just smile and wave or something. Or maybe don't wave. What if it looked weird? Okay just smile. And talk or sing when you need to.

 

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It feelt like everything went by quickly..It was only after the concert that he realised he hasn't eaten lunch...He would probably throw up anyways.

 

When they were driving home, Muichiro looked up videos or the concert,just to see how he looked to the audience.

 

To be honest. He hated how he looked in the videos. How he looked..acted..talked..moved.. To Muichiro it all looked horrible. Even if by all means he did everything 'correct'.

 

He just...Hated it. He looked terrible. 

 

Atleast the fans seemed to have liked the show.

 

Probably because of Yuichiro. 

 

...

 

Just calm down..Maybe take a nap. You'll be home soon..Then you can hide in the bathroom or something.

 

Muichiro supported himself with his arm on the car door and palm on his face then shut his eyes. Despite how hungry he was he fell asleep pretty quickly. 

 

Finnaly some peace...

 

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Yuichiro could obviously tell that Muichiro had acted weird..But he wasn't sure why. He was fine enough yesterday. So he should be fine enough today.

 

Plus there's litteraly nothing wrong going on. The audience loved the concert. Nothing went wrong during the concert.

 

Muichiro just has no reason to be acting weird..

 

Was it anxiety or something? Hm. Maybe. Or Muichiro was just dramatic like usual.

 

Yeah. He was just being dramatic. Mui has always been sensitive.

 

He should be back to normal by tomorrow for school.

 

So its fine.

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