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The pre-flight checklist was always the same. Tim Bradford had flown this route from LAX to Phoenix and back a few hundred times in the past year, but he still went through every item with the same precision he'd brought from his Air Force days.
"Altimeter?"
"Set," First Officer Wade Grey replied from the right seat, his fingers moving across the controls with efficiency, his ease showing he'd been flying longer than Tim had been in the military.
"Navigation?"
"Cross-checked and confirmed."
Tim allowed himself a small smile. Flying with Grey was like breathing. Easy, natural, built on years of trust. They'd served together, survived together, and now they were making a living together at 35,000 feet. Some partnerships just worked.
"You know," Grey said as they waited for their departure slot, "most people would've gotten bored with this route by now. You ever consider going back to long haul or international?"
"And give up my meticulously crafted seniority schedule? Never." Tim adjusted his headset. "Besides, someone has to keep you out of trouble."
"Please. I stopped getting into trouble the day Dominique was born." Grey's voice carried that warmth it always did when he mentioned his daughter. "Luna made sure of that."
"How old is she now? Three?"
"Three and a half. And already running the household." Grey checked his instruments with ease. "You know, before I had her, I never really understood what it meant to have something worth coming home to. Fighting for your country is one thing. But fighting to make sure you see your little girl's face every night? That changes a man."
Tim didn't respond immediately. Grey had a way of making observations that felt less like lectures and more like simple truths you couldn't argue with.
"Speaking of coming home," Grey continued, his tone shifting to something more direct, "have you talked to Isabel's lawyer yet?"
Tim's jaw tightened almost imperceptibly. "Not yet."
"Tim—"
"She said she'd sign the papers. I'm giving her time."
"It's been four months." Grey's voice was firm, almost paternal. "Son, how much time does she need to sign something she asked for in the first place?"
"She's going through things."
"So are you. And you're letting her drag this out because you feel guilty about something that wasn't your fault." Grey's hands remained steady on the controls, but his voice carried the weight of experience. "You didn't make her fall in love with someone else. You were deployed. You were doing your job. That's not a crime."
Tim didn't answer. What was there to say? That he'd known, on some level, that his marriage was dying during those last few deployments? That he'd buried himself in missions because it was easier than facing what was waiting for him at home? That Isabel's leaving had been almost a relief, except for the crushing weight of failure that came with it?
The radio crackled to life, saving him from having to continue the conversation. "Pacifico 2887, you're cleared for takeoff, runway 25 Left."
"Pacifico 2887, cleared for takeoff, 25 Left," Tim replied, his voice automatically shifting into the calm, controlled tone of a pilot in command.
The familiar rush of acceleration, the moment when the wheels left the ground, was the part that still got him, even after thousands of flights. Up here, everything made sense. Cause and effect. Physics and skill. No messy emotions, no half-truths, no wondering if you'd done enough or been enough.
Just the perfect marriage of man and machine, doing exactly what they were designed to do.
"Gear up," Grey said, and Tim heard the click of the landing gear retracting. "You know I'm not trying to overstep, right?"
"Could've fooled me."
"I'm serious. You pulled me out of a burning helicopter in Kandahar. I figure that earns me the right to return the favour, even if the fire is metaphorical and you're being stupidly noble about the whole thing."
Tim felt the corner of his mouth twitch despite himself. "Stupidly noble?"
"You think you owe her something. You don't. She's the one who cheated. She's the one who asked for the divorce. And she's the one who's probably dragging her feet because her new boyfriend turned out to be not quite as shiny as he looked from the outside of your marriage."
"You don't know that."
"I know people. I know what it looks like when someone's trying to keep their options open." Grey paused. "And I know you, Tim. You're the kind of man who follows through on his commitments, even when the other person already walked away. It's honourable. It's also keeping you stuck."
"Grey—"
"I'm almost done." There was something gentle in his voice now. "Call the lawyer. Put a deadline on this thing. You deserve to move on. Dominique deserves an Uncle Tim who doesn't look quite so tired all the time."
They flew in comfortable silence for a while, the California coastline giving way to desert. Tim focused on the instruments, on the small corrections needed to keep them at altitude, on anything except the way Grey's words had hit a little too close to home.
He wasn't wrong. He was being stupidly noble. But the alternative—pushing Isabel, forcing a confrontation, admitting that their marriage had been over almost since the beginning—felt like giving up on the last shred of honour he had left.
"Flight attendant call button," Grey said, nodding toward the panel.
Tim pressed the intercom. "Cockpit."
"Captain Bradford?" The voice was unfamiliar, one of the newer flight attendants. "We've got a passenger in 12C who's pretty anxious about the turbulence we hit a few minutes ago. She's asking to speak to the captain."
Tim and Grey exchanged glances. The "turbulence" had been barely noticeable, just a small bump as they'd climbed through some light chop.
"Tell her I'll make an announcement," Tim said.
"She's pretty insistent about speaking to you directly. Says she's a nervous flyer and it would really help."
Grey was watching him with that knowing expression. "Better go be Captain Reassuring. People need that sometimes."
"It's absolutely not in my job description."
"It's called leadership. You're good at it, even when you don't want to be."
Tim shot him a look, but unbuckled. "You have the aircraft."
"I have the aircraft," Grey confirmed. "Take your time."
The passenger in 12C turned out to be a woman in her sixties, white-knuckled grip on the armrests, eyes wide with genuine fear. Tim felt his irritation dissolve immediately. This wasn't someone looking for attention; this poor woman had real anxiety.
He crouched in the aisle beside her seat, keeping his voice low and calm. "Ma'am, I'm Captain Bradford. I understand you're concerned about the flight."
"I know it's silly," she said, her voice shaking slightly. "My daughter tells me flying is safer than driving, but I just... I can't help it. That bump earlier felt like we were falling."
"It wasn't a fall, just a small change in air pressure as we climbed. Like driving over a bump in the road." Tim kept his tone steady and reassuring. "I've been flying for fifteen years, both military and commercial. I promise you, what we experienced was completely normal and nowhere near dangerous."
"Really?"
"Really. In fact, this is one of the smoothest flights I've had all week." It wasn't entirely true, but it was close enough. "We're at cruising altitude now. Should be nothing but clear skies all the way to Phoenix."
The woman's grip on the armrest loosened slightly. "My grandson's getting married. First wedding in the family. I didn't want to miss it, but I haven't flown in twenty years..."
"Well, you picked a good day for it." Tim smiled. "And if anything changes—which it won't—you'll be the first to know. I'll have the flight attendants check on you, make sure you're comfortable. Sound good?"
"Thank you, Captain. I'm sorry for being a bother."
"You're not a bother. It's what we're here for." Tim stood, made eye contact with the nearby flight attendant, who looked relieved that the situation had been handled. "Make sure she has whatever she needs."
"Of course, Captain."
As Tim made his way back toward the cockpit, he found himself thinking about what Grey had said earlier. About being stupidly noble and letting Isabel control the timeline.
Maybe he was right. Maybe Tim was holding onto something that was already gone, just because letting go felt like admitting defeat.
The cockpit door closed behind him with a soft click.
"Crisis averted?" Grey asked.
"Nervous flyer. She's fine now."
"Of course she is. You've got that whole 'trust me, I'm in control' thing down to an art form." Grey paused, his voice taking on a more thoughtful tone. "Which is great for passengers. Less great for your personal life."
"I thought you were almost done."
"I lied. But this is the last thing, I promise." Grey's voice was measured, almost gentle. "All I'm saying is, maybe it's time to stop trying to control everything. Maybe it's time to let yourself be a little messy. Let life surprise you."
"Like eating cereal for breakfast?"
"Actually moving on with your life instead of waiting for Isabel to decide she's ready to let you go."
Tim didn't respond. What could he say? That he didn't know how to be messy? That control was all he had left after his marriage fell apart? That the idea of putting himself out there again, of being vulnerable with someone new, terrified him more than any combat mission ever had?
The radio crackled with approach instructions for Phoenix, and Tim let himself disappear into the familiar rhythm of flying.
The landing was smooth, textbook perfect. Grey didn't even bother with any commentary, just a slight nod of approval.
"You know," he said as they taxied to the gate, "one of these days you're going to have to let yourself be human again. Make a mistake. Do something impulsive."
"I feel things."
"Yeah? When's the last time you felt something that scared you?"
Tim was quiet for a long moment. Then, quietly: "Every time I think about starting over."
Grey's expression softened.
"I know what you're trying to do. And I appreciate it. But I'm not ready."
"Okay." Grey unbuckled, gathering his things. "But when you are ready—and you will be, eventually—try to remember that not every woman is Isabel. And not every relationship ends the way yours did. Sometimes the best things find you when you least expect them."
"Noted."
"Good. Now come on, I need coffee."
The crew lounge at Sky Harbor was nothing special—just standard-issue airport furniture, a coffee maker that had seen better days, a few vending machines, and a refrigerator that hummed ominously. But it was quiet, and right now quiet was exactly what Tim needed.
Grey made a beeline for the coffee maker while Tim headed for the vending machines. He needed protein, something to keep him going through the turnaround. The selection was dismal as always, but there was one protein bar left.
He'd just reached for it when another hand appeared, aiming for the same item.
Tim looked up.
The flight attendant was stunning in a way that made him forget, just for a second, how to form words. Dark hair pulled back in a ponytail, warm brown eyes that sparkled with intelligence and mischief in equal measure, and a smile that suggested she was already winning an argument he hadn't realized they were having.
"Well," she said, her hand still hovering near his, "this is awkward."
Tim found his voice. "I was here first."
"Were you, though?" She tilted her head, studying him with open curiosity. "Because I'm pretty sure we reached for it at exactly the same time. Quantum superposition. Schrödinger's protein bar."
Despite himself, Tim felt the corner of his mouth twitch. "Did you just make a physics reference over vending machine food?"
"I did. Is it working?"
"Depends on your definition of 'working.'"
She laughed. A real laugh, not the polite chuckle people usually gave people who thought they were funnier than they actually were. "Tell you what, Captain...?" She glanced at his uniform, taking in his stripes.
"Bradford. Tim Bradford."
"Captain Bradford." She said his name like she was testing it out, seeing how it felt. "I'm Lucy Chen. And I propose we split it, because my blood sugar is in the basement and you look like the kind of guy who follows the Geneva Convention even over vending machine snacks."
"The Geneva Convention?"
"Fair division of resources in times of crisis." Lucy's eyes danced with humour. "I could arm wrestle you for it. I know how to fight dirty, but I don't think either of us wants that kind of scene in a crew lounge."
Tim was fighting a smile and losing. "We'll split it. But I'm buying."
"Oh, a gentleman and a pilot. Be still, my heart." Lucy pressed a dramatic hand to her chest, but her smile was genuine. "Though fair warning, accepting food from you might obligate me to be nice to you. I'm not sure either of us is ready for that level of commitment."
Tim fed bills into the machine, hyper-aware of Lucy standing close enough to smell her perfume. It was something light and citrusy that made him think of summer. "I think I can handle it."
The protein bar dropped, and Tim retrieved it, tearing open the wrapper with more care than the situation warranted. He broke it precisely in half and offered Lucy her portion.
Her fingers brushed his as she took it, and Tim felt the contact like a small electric shock.
"Most guys would've given me the bigger piece," Lucy observed, examining her half.
"Most guys didn't spend years in the military learning that fair is fair."
"Military, huh? Let me guess—Air Force." At Tim's raised eyebrow, she grinned. "You've got that 'I iron all my clothes' vibe."
"I don't iron all my clothes."
"But you do fold everything with tight corners." She took a bite, clearly delighted by his expression. "I know the type."
Despite every instinct that told him to wrap up this conversation, Tim found himself smiling. "And what type are you?"
"Chaos disguised as friendly professionalism." Lucy checked her watch and made a small sound of dismay. "Damn. I need to get to my gate."
She started to leave, then paused, turning back. "Hey, Bradford?"
"Yeah?"
"You fly the Phoenix route often?"
"Three times a week."
"Interesting." Lucy's smile turned thoughtful. "I do the San Diego run twice a week. Sky Harbor's my switchover hub." She took a step backward. "So I guess you might want to get to that vending machine earlier next time. You know, if you want to avoid protein bar negotiations with strange flight attendants."
"Who says I want to avoid it?"
The question came out before Tim could stop it, and he watched Lucy's expression shift. Her surprise gave way to something warmer, more aware of the current running between them.
"Well," she said softly, "in that case, Captain Bradford, I guess I'll see you around."
"See you around, Lucy Chen."
He watched her walk away, noting despite himself the confidence in her stride. She moved like someone who knew exactly who she was and didn't apologize for it.
"Interesting," Grey's voice came from behind him.
Tim turned to find his co-pilot leaning against the doorframe, coffee in hand, watching him with that knowing expression.
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"That's the first time I've seen you smile like that in months. Maybe longer." Grey took a deliberate sip of coffee. "You just flirted over a protein bar with a flight attendant who made physics jokes and called you out."
"We were just talking."
"Uh-huh." Grey moved closer, his voice quiet and direct. "Tim. I just spent twenty minutes telling you to let life surprise you. Then you meet a woman who makes you forget how to be cautious, and you're trying to tell me it was 'just talking'?"
"It was."
"Tell that to your face, Bradford." Grey's expression remained calm, but his eyes were sharp. "I've known you a long time. I just watched you look more alive in five minutes than you have in the past few years."
Tim knew what he meant.
"Grey—"
Grey picked up his coffee again. "Sometimes the best things find you when you least expect them. That's all I'm saying."
Before Tim could formulate a response, his phone buzzed with the alert for their next flight. Saved by technology.
"We should get back," he said, already moving toward the door.
"We should," Grey agreed, falling into step beside him. "But Tim? If you do see her again—and I'm betting you will, because Sky Harbor isn't that big—maybe trust your instincts. You've got good ones, even when you're too stubborn to follow them."
Grey gave Tim a knowing look as the two made their way back to the gate. Tim found his thoughts drifting back to dark eyes full of laughter, to the way Lucy had looked at him like he was interesting rather than intimidating. To the easy banter that had felt natural.
Phoenix three times a week. San Diego turnovers at Sky Harbor.
The math wasn't complicated.
Tim caught himself actually hoping their schedules would align again and forced the thought away. He was being ridiculous. She was probably involved with someone. Funny, smart, beautiful women didn't stay single. And even if she wasn't, he was in no position to start something. He was still technically married, even if the divorce papers were supposedly waiting for Isabel's signature. Still rebuilding his life. Still figuring out how to be Tim Bradford, civilian pilot, instead of Sergeant Bradford, decorated officer.
Still scared as hell of getting hurt again.
The return flight to LAX was routine. No anxious passengers, no weather issues, nothing to distract him from his thoughts. Which meant he had two hours to replay the conversation with Lucy in his head, analyzing every word, every smile, every moment of connection.
He was being ridiculous. It was one conversation over a protein bar. People meet in airports all the time. It didn't mean anything.
Except it had felt like something.
"You're thinking about her," Grey said as they began their descent into Los Angeles.
"I'm thinking about the approach."
"Highly doubt that."
"What, you read minds now?"
"I read people. It's how I stayed alive long enough to make Captain." Grey's voice was matter-of-fact.
Tim didn't bother denying it. Grey would see through it anyway.
"I'm not ready."
"Maybe not. But maybe ready isn't something that happens all at once. Maybe it's something you choose, little by little. One conversation at a time." Grey paused. "One protein bar at a time."
Despite everything, Tim felt himself smile.
They landed smoothly, taxied to the gate, and began the shutdown procedures. As Tim gathered his things, Grey caught his arm.
"Hey," he said quietly. "For what it's worth? I think she liked you, too."
"You don't know that."
"I'm older than you. I know things."
"Grey—"
"Now come on, I need to get home. Luna's making dinner, and if I'm late, Dominique will be asleep before I get there."
As Tim drove home from the airport, Los Angeles traffic grinding to its usual crawl, he found himself thinking about Grey's words. About being ready. About choosing to move forward instead of waiting for permission.
About dark eyes and a quick smile and the way Lucy Chen had made him feel like himself again, even if only for a few minutes.
His phone rang as he pulled into his apartment complex. Unknown number.
"Bradford."
"Mr. Bradford? This is Jennifer Torres from Whitfield and Associates. I'm calling about your divorce proceedings."
Tim's stomach tightened. "Yes?"
"I wanted to inform you that Mrs. Bradford has requested another extension before signing the final papers. She's asking for an additional sixty days."
Of course she was.
"Mr. Bradford?"
"How many extensions can she request?" Tim asked, keeping his voice carefully neutral.
"Legally? As many as she wants, up to a point. But Mr. Bradford, I should tell you that you have options. You can push for a deadline. You can—"
"No." Tim cut her off. "If she needs more time, give it to her."
"Sir, with all due respect, it's been four months since she filed. At some point—"
"Give her the extension," Tim repeated. "Just... let me know when she's ready."
He ended the call and sat in his truck, staring at nothing.
Sixty more days. Minimum.
Would things be different if he'd been different**—less rigid, less controlled? If he'd been home more, present more, spontaneous more?**
If he'd been enough.
Tim grabbed his flight bag and headed inside, already thinking about tomorrow. Wondering if he might run into Lucy again.
But maybe Grey was right. Maybe ready wasn't something that happened all at once.
Maybe it started with a shared protein bar and a smile that made him forget, just for a moment, how to be careful.
Maybe it started with choosing to show up, even when you weren't sure what you were showing up for.
Three days until his next Phoenix run.
Tim had three days to stop thinking about Lucy's smile.
He was absolutely going to fail.