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The day on island was as usual, sunny. When this weather is even changing? Well… it’s changing whenever something is happening. Kidnapping, resurrecting…
Death.
Graf most of his days was now with Multi, helping him and doing some “tests”. As scientist said they’re really important, what if his health gets worse? After all this whole nether trip turned out to be useless. Or was it?
Graf to this day have sometimes moments when he needs to use something hot, to clear his mind. Clear his mind from this chip. But it doesn’t stop him from things he does!
Building “kamienica” in the cave, helping his friends, hanging out with them! Like Foolish, Tubbo, Katie…
Juan.
But why his name, his persona is odd? Juan is just a member of the north, artist and owner of MiArte, right?
But everyone said that he went missing, the day of destroying Multi’s lab for his sake. Because Graf said to Juan about chip.
Even if people were saying that he went missing, Juan after few days came back. All healthy, not touched. But something was off.
Everyone seemed to not notice, or maybe they did and didn’t said anything, but Graf noticed. He noticed how Juan was talking, doing his chores as Second in Command, but one thing was different. He started avoiding MiArte, explaining it’s because of art block but…
It was too weird for Graf. Of course everyone can experience art block, but Juan was overworking himself, enjoying painting what people commissioned.
And now? He couldn’t even pick up any brush.
That was suspicious. But maybe Graf was overreacting?
Graf to be honest, he was really glad Juan came back, of course! After all he was the one who was precious to him, maybe sometimes too important to the pole.
Their relationship was different, in a good way though. They were friends, sometimes called as best friends, but to Graf? Juan was way more important than a friend, his feelings were much more complicated than some friendship. But it was pole’s sin.
It was a curse, why would he feel these things towards another guy? It’s sinful, disgusting and gross. For Graf these feelings were just a distraction, the unnecessary addition to his person.
But thanks to them, he somehow could recognise what was happening with Juan. He really was acting weird, but at the same time - normal. Graf, he didn’t really wanted to change anything.
He honestly, didn’t minded it. Juan is Juan. Even if he’s not the real one, why would he change anything?
“Graf, is everything alright? You are quiet… too quiet, even for you.” - Juan said, they were sitting on a bench near SIA. There were some trees, swing and overall, it was just a park. Nothing special to be honest.
“Yea, sorry Juan… it’s just, I was thinking.” - The pole said, he couldn’t look at friend’s eyes so he stared near his face, just to imitate that he is looking at him. Why can’t he look at him? Maybe these thoughts…
“Oh? What were you thinking about? I’m curious!” - Juan smiled, he adjusted his glasses. How beautiful he looked right now. It was sunset, so sun was hitting Juan’s face perfectly.
“…You are not my Juan, right?” - Graf said, he right now was looking at him. Observing.
There was a silence between both of them. Juan’s eyes were now glowing in sun, but somehow they looked… dead. There was no light but at the same time, because of sun - there was. Sudenly Juan’s face started to look melted, it was like some ice-cream in summer.
Graf opened his eyes a bit wider, in pure shock he was.
“I thought… I copied him perfectly.” - This creature confessed, he was himself scared. “Juan” was staring at Graf with these sad, like puppy eyes. It was so weird to see a creature, not even a clone, have emotions.
Maybe he was playing with Graf? Or it’s just a dream, a bad dream! But it’s too realistic…
The pole looked away, his face was now in other direction. He couldn’t even say the truth while staring at it.
“It was just a guess… and you can’t copy him perfectly… but don’t worry. I won’t say anything.” - Graf’s voice was quiet, he was not sure about this whole situation.
But he accepted this creature. He just said it’s alright and keep copying him. He didn’t minded that “Juan” was not real. Just a copy. A creature that was impersonating him.
It was unhealthy, but who could blame the pole? Even if that was a copy, it was still Juan! Or maybe it’s the creature?
“Graf… I’m- I’m scared… I don’t want to end my life right now! - “Juan” said, he was panicking, something that caught pole out of guard. This creature could feel? So it’s not acting… wonderful.
Pole took the other’s hands and smiled, trying to act as normal as possible.
“Don’t worry, it won’t end. After all you have me… I just need an explanation.”
They stared at each other, again. Graf kept his stoic persona while “Juan”, he was breaking his character. And face too, his original? Probably original form was showing from his eyes. Polish hussar decided to breathe with this thing, just to make sure it won’t freak out.
“Juan” nodded, he felt a lot better. He squeezed other’s hands, just to hear from Graf a little “au”.
(in Polish “ouch” we just say “au” or “ał”, basically the same)
“Thank you… so I don’t remember everything, I just heard… a quiet voice coming from uh… somewhere? I don’t remember and we completed the pact. That’s the whole story…”
Graf nodded, he tried to understand. Really he wanted to.
The next few days seemed… normal. He acted normal, as usual. But the thought of “Juan’s” real form… how was it possible? Even if it looked disgusting, at some point it looked… beautiful. Colors mixing together, but at the same time looking disturbing was a work of art. He couldn’t lie.
And now? He was standing in front of “Juan” in his room, looking at him while the other was unbuttoning his shirt.
But wait, I think we skipped some parts. Why was “Juan” even taking his shirt off?!
Before this situation, they were hanging out in the north because of milky Thursday. Everyone were laughing, chatting and overall - having a Funtime. Graf was having a good time too, showing some fun facts from Poland and explaining things. What a wonderful thing to do.
Graf after his little speech, he went to “Juan” who was talking with Tina and Molly. They were talking about some stuff that Graf didn’t really understand.
“Princess Molly, you look stunning as always… Tina, the supreme General… glad to meet you two” - Graf then bowed. They all were friends, but Pole wanted to show his manners, after all Princess Molly came back from her big adventure.
“Graf you don’t need to act like this! Me, Molly and Juan were talking about beautiful views in places where princess was” - Tina giggle, she looked at princess with a big smile. Oh they for sure missed each other.
“Mhm! In one place where I was… trees had magical aura, glowing in different colors and different shapes… if you listened, the air was telling us a story, about what this forest had.” - Molly claimed, she was expressive, it was obvious she was excited to explain what she saw and experienced. That’s why everyone loved this princess.
While Molly was saying, “Juan” came closer to Graf and whispered. - “Do you want to experience something magical and weird too?” - it was like an invitation, not for something sexual but more… emotional.
And that’s how they ended up in Juan’s room with him unbuttoning his shirt.
Graf looked away feeling weird, his cheeks heated up a little and his leg was shaking. It maybe wasn’t the most embarrassing moment but for sure it did something to Graf, which only made him feel disgust. Disgust towards himself.
The pole didn’t wanted to look at this creature, he was afraid of having again this feeling, this ugly feeling.
“Graf come on! Just put your hand inside and see! I’m not disgusting…” - Creature claimed, he then looked at his chest where was this hole and then, at the pole. Graf’s expression now seemed to be more…
Difficult to read.
Pole didn’t wanted to look weird around this creature since, he is not really “Juan” but something in his skin, wearing the same glasses and speaks like him.
Graf then walked closer, he sighed before closing his eyes and putting his hand inside of this hole.
Insides of this creature were weird do describe. It felt wet but at the same time, dry. There weren’t any organs, just this weird texture he felt.
While trying to understand what Graf was touching, “Juan” felt good, he felt like someone was patting him or massaging him after a long day after work. He couldn’t help but let a sound of pleasure, which made Graf come back to reality.
“Does it feel good?” - Graf asked, while his hand got a bit higher, closer to where this body should have a heart.
“Mhm… I feel like a puppy who gets affection by being good.” - creature claimed, for Graf these words were weird.
He just nodded and let go of this sensation. What an experience, it felt weirdly… good to him too. Even if texture was confusing, it really felt nice. Maybe somehow it was unhygienic or disturbing, but only if you think about it more.
“Juan” then smiled towards Graf, he felt satisfied, even if he suggested this whole interaction it still was nice to show this to the pole.
The rest of this night they spend nicely, in good atmosphere. To Graf, this situation still had some impact on his thinking and feelings. But maybe it will change? Maybe these things are because it’s new?
He hopes that in the future he will forget them and just live his life. Even if it’s a lie at some point.
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