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EYOO??
Hello, I’m sorry to update without having an actual chapter, I just wanted to clear some things up. If you don’t care at all about the future of this fic or anything about me, that’s totally fine, but this might not be the update for you lol. I’ll give you a quick recap about my plans for this fic and where I’m planning for it to go and a quick update on my life. You can read what you want and skip the rest, really no hard feelings <33 (Also I’ll delete this chapter when the next one is ready)
What's happening with the fic?
Sooooo, this fic kind of went on an unplanned hiatus. I'm genuinely really sorry about that I know a few people got invested. I also how much it sucks being invested in a fic that stops updating. I’ll dive into why I took a break from writing in the “about me” section.
I have plans for this fic don’t worry. I also have plans to get them out soon. I am currently writing both the next chapter, planning out the one after that AND writing an SBI POV on the fic. I’m not quite sure when I want to realise the SBI POV. I guess that’s kind of up to you, the reader, as well. Would you want to be able to read the SBI POV while reading the main fic or read the SBI POV after? Or do you just not want to read an SBI POV at all?
I’m also gonna try a new thing where I get a chapter out at least every two weeks. It depends a bit on the length of the chapter. I don’t like to put out short chapters as I feel like people will be disappointed. I know no one probably cares but still. So yeah tl;dr a new chapter is coming out soon.
WHAT THE FUCK AUTHOR WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN????
So this might be a bit of a longer one. Normally I would write this in the notes but since I'm making a whole update chapter thingie I might as well write it here.
So how do I start? The few of you who read the notes will maybe remember how I mentioned moving to a new place, starting in a new school, having to find new friends etc. That was kind of scary but ultimately it has been really really good for me. One of the reasons that I moved was to get out of a toxic environment. Let me just get this clear, the people around me and the place around me were not toxic in general. To me, it was incredibly toxic. Like how chocolate isn’t toxic but a dog will still die if you feed it to them yk? Anyway, I got out of that environment and I started to feel genuinely happy. I had so much energy, I felt like I had good friends and amazing people to live with.
So if everything was so well why didn’t I just sit my ass down and write?? Good fucking question. To start with I started spending more time out with friends and doing hobbies instead of moping around at home. I also started actually sleeping a decent amount instead of staying up all night to write. I started writing this fic when I was really sad. I have NOT gone through anything like what Tommy has in this fic, but it was still kind of a vent fic to me. Like I could channel all my emotions into it and then get them out of the way. I have had a really tough time separating this fic from the mindset I was in back then. I didn’t want to go back to writing it because I felt like I couldn’t be happy while writing such a sad story. Recently I’ve been working on separating this fic from my mindset and my emotions and I genuinely think it’s been working pretty well. I feel like I can now write no matter which emotions or mindset I'm in and still feel like I can make something ok.
I’m also just SO SO SO horrible at getting stuff done (I’m a master procrastinator what can I say). Like I always do stuff right before the deadline and with this, there really hasn’t been a deadline? I think I’m going to try and set one and get a chapter out at least every two weeks as I mentioned earlier.
Why the fuck did you come back now?
If you check the day this fic was published you’ll see it’s its one year anniversary!! YAY!!!! Happy birthday!!! (A little sad I haven’t posted for half of that but let's not talk about that.) I really wanted to get a new chapter out for it’s birthday and that has been my plan for the past week. But ummm yeah that didn’t work out.
Let’s just say things I had planned long ago fell through, things suddenly got dumped on me, I got no sleep, I had to study for a big test and I had to suddenly go do things that I didn’t really have time for. I got super frustrated and annoyed and felt like just breaking down since I didn’t have time to get the chapter out for today. I had to take a step back and tell myself it was ok I didn’t get to do it today. Stuff doesn’t always go as planned. I’m trying to be more healthy in my mindset sooo thats why you didn’t get a half-assed chapter today lol. (I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not lol)
Today has been a fucking rollercoaster of emotions I'm not sure if I have any fucking left.
Boundaries??? What are those??
I’m on twitter yay!!! Lately, I’ve seen there’s been a lot of posts about fic writers' boundaries and what to comment and whatnot. I thought it may be a good idea to add mine so here they are
LIST OF NIN’S BOUNDARIES:
- Don’t be weird i guess???
- Be respectful to other people
- Don’t be trans/homophobic racist ableist or other shitty things.
HERES WHAT YOU CAN DO AND THAT I ACTIVELY ENCOURAGE
Do see a typo and want to correct it?? Go for it!! I love the help <33
Are you annoyed I haven’t posted in a while?? Go comment “BONK BONK BONK AUTHOR WAKE UP!” I genuinely find comments super encouraging and funny. They’re probably what motivates me most.
Do you feel like something specific should happen in the fic? COMMENT IT!!! I Would love to hear all your ideas and talk to you about them.
Have you noticed that I write something a weird way and want to tell me how it annoys you or what I could do better??? PLEASE HELP I DON’T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING OVER HERE.
To sum up: A lot of the stuff that bothers other authors I’m genuinely fine with. I don’t care and a lot of the stuff I find really funny. Please don’t hold back!! But still remember, just because I’m ok with it doesn’t mean others are. Please check with them before writing any of that stuff hehe.
Other fun stuff :DD
I HAVE MORE I WANT TO SAY WHO WOULD HAVE GUESSED.
MUSICCCC????
I make playlists for my AU’s, others AU’s and genuinely everything. That also means that I have one for smiling doesn’t feel the same. Is that anything anyone is interested in hearing?? I’m thinking about posting it. (Some of you may have noticed the title is from Drive Safe by Rich Brian, genuinely such a banger haha. It was meant to be a temporary title but I ended up really liking it.)
Twitter
Yes, I have a Twitter. Yes, I will promote it everywhere. Go follow me @ NinIsSoTired
Fic writers I adore and you should read.
While I'm not updating, here are a few of my favourite fic writers you should check out. If you read their fic SAY I SENT YOU PLEASE !!! I LOVE THEM SO MUCH SO PLEASE SAY HI FROM ME<3333
(guys you can click on their names if you want to they're links) (MAJOR SHOUTOUT TO TRAVY FOR HELPING ME FIGURE OUT HOW TO WORK THOSE)
SBI
Markus (Sircantus) (He/they) So sircantus is definitely already a fan favourite that does not need a shout out from me at all lol. But I just had to include him. He writes the MOST AMAZING SBI fics. Like they’re all AMAZINGLY written I’m so jealous of how a person can do that. Their stories include both fluff and angst and its just *chefs kiss*.
Silverwing (I’m sorry but I’m not sure about their preferred pronouns or name) Silverwing writes variations of SBI and they’re all SO GOOD. Just posting bangers after bangers. Genuinly. I love them <333
Dreamnoblade
Scout (any pronouns) Scout is genuinely one of my favourite fic writers ever. They have the absolute best Dreamnoblade fics. Lately, I’ve been super invested in their First Love series which is about how Techno adopts Ranboo and Dream helps him out. They also have a whole series of DnB one-shots and there’s genuinely fics for days. Idk how they do it but THEY’RE AMAZING.
Pastel_feathers (I’m not sure about preferred pronouns or name) Pastel_feathers is the person who originally got me into DnB. God all their stories are just amazing, I’ve been reading them over and over again. They haven’t posted in a while (I’m not really one to talk lol), but all their already posted stories are SO worth reading. COME BACK TO US PASTEL_FEATHERS.
Jiro (they/them) I LOVE JIRO OMFG. THEY’RE SO FUNNY. This is the author that I've talked the most to outside ao3 and FUCK THEY’RE FUNNY. I love talking to them genuinely. like agiuerhnalrgjn. Anyway about the fics lol. Biggest dreamnoblade stan ever, (and we love it for them). Their writing is so good and so excruciatingly painful at the same time. I’ve never gotten as much second hand embarrassment as from reading their fics. Their fics are often NSFW so BE AWARE OF THAT.
Others
Travvy (any pronouns) Travy makes the most amazing soulmate AU’s. And a thing I really like about their works are that they make really niche ships that not many people write about. It’s always fresh and one of they’re one of the authors i consistently look forward to reading fics from.
Yue (any pronouns) Yue is…. just great. I only started reading them a while back and OMG do I love all their work. They write Funz (foolish + punz) and ITS SO GOOD. Lately, i’ve been majorly invested in the fic they just ended called Fit Like a Daydream. Punz parents think he and Foolish are dating so they have to pretend date for thanksgiving. It’s SO WHOLESOME IM IN LOVE <333
Ardett (Im not sure about pronouns or preferred name) Here we have a dream team / karlnap / fiancees / dnf writer. Genuinly such good work. I was super invested in their fic called Deserved. It is marked explicit as the themes are, but I would say it’s not really that bad before the last chapter where there’s smut. The angst was just AMAZING. Like idk how but it just hits,,, sooo, good. I was so sad reading that.
Should i do a shoutout every time I post?? Just like post it in the notes or something?? Idk obviously I’m just a small writer so it would mostly be if people reading this wanted to hear. If you want any recommendations for a specific plot/trope/ship/dynamic/relationship let me know!!! I’ve genuinely read so many so I’m sure I can help find something.
HOW YOU CAN CONTACT ME
If you for some reason or other want to contact me you can shoot me a dm on Twitter (ill never stop promoting my Twitter, I love Twitter so much, I want more mutuals.)
You can also add me on discord. @ Ninistired#4599.
You can also just comment here on AO3.
BEWARE: In general I'm terrible at responding. This is nothing personal and something all my friends have to come to terms with at one point or the other. I’ll try my best though <33
I’m going to be responding to comments a bit later but it’s getting late for me now so I’m gonna go to bed <33 Love y’all :DD