reasons not to end it all ☺️😚
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“Ranpo, we all know you could deduce exactly who took the chocolates,” says Dr. Yosano. “Why not just figure it out yourself and be done with it?”
But Atsushi understands. He understands perfectly. There’s a ritual to penance, and the headmaster won’t be satisfied unless Atsushi performs every step. Swallowing down against the mounting nausea, forcing his leaden limbs to move through will alone, and confessing to what he’s done are as much a part of the punishment as the pain that follows.
Atsushi stumbles to his feet, steps forward, and all but crumples into perfect dogeza. It won’t convince them of his remorse — he hasn’t bled enough for that, not yet — but if nothing else, the position does protect his face, at least in the beginning.
Whumptober day #9 - Flashbacks
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aauguhhhhh my baby atsushi 💔💔
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Useless.
In his mind, that word is almost exclusively spoken in the headmaster’s clear, cruel voice, and with it comes a rush of remembered sensations, so vivid and all-consuming that Atsushi half-believes he’s back in the orphanage.
The ache of hunger, radiating out from his stomach and deep into the bones of his ribcage. The sharp, bitter taste of blood in his mouth. The strange but undeniable rhythm of a beating, the pauses and blows almost as metrical as music.
The agony of a nail pierced straight through his foot, the admonishment that he must learn to endure pain echoing throughout the room.
And then Atsushi can breathe again.
Because he knows.
He knows what he has to do to make this right, and the certainty and simplicity of it are oddly comforting. He just has to prove his worth. Despite his mistakes this morning, he isn’t useless.
He just has to show everyone exactly how much he can endure.
Whumptober #29: Troubled Past Resurfacing
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- Part 4 of "ada" stands for atsushi defense association
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it's ancient history (that's bleeding out of me) by femmethubs
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
12 Jun 2024
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Atsushi hated pain. The Orphanage had subjected him to years and years of it, through hammers and knives and cold water and hot pokers and nights spent on his knees, scrubbing at the floors, blood blossoming on his palms. He hated it.
But in the early hours of the morning—shooting out of bed, wrapping his arms around himself, tight, as if they would protect him from the man in the corner that spewed poisonous words and harsh glares, cold and dissecting, memories clawing at him even now, threatening to destroy him—the first thing he did was grab at his hair and pull.
or: atsushi on the headmaster, pain, humanity, and new beginnings
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aaaaaa this was so peak i loved it sm and i remember reading this for the first time like 2 years ago holy
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Everybody Gets Tired (But I'm not Tired of You) by Violet_Inkwell
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
24 Sep 2022
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"I'm a burden to you."
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- Part 1 of Private Investigator AU
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i remember reading this so long agoo omgggg
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The Stages of Missing Your Tardy Mentor by sleepywhore
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
14 Nov 2023
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Dazai's absence should be something that gets generally shrugged off considering how often he was tardy and how disruptive he was when he was present, but, unfortunately, his absence causes more anxiety than peace.
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dazai BIRTHED him
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