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    In late 2012 when Shane has a meltdown and frantically tells them to call Lily, for the first time Yuna’s ever witnessed, Shane is coaxed out of one of them instead of just suffering through until the exhaustion wins out instead—and all by some mysterious, apparently very well attuned to Shane, 'Lily'.

    She hadn’t meant to see the number before she’d pressed it and fumbled the phone up to Shane’s ear. It was simply a byproduct of the situation, something Shane had asked for her to do.

    …Memorizing it and then texting that number to thank Lily for their help was not something she’d been asked to do. But she worries so much about Shane, and Lily is a reassurance. Not a pry for details but the simple, verifiable confirmation: he’s okay.

    Lily, on the other hand, very much enjoys being able to make oddly specific 'your mother' jokes to Shane much more often now. (And maybe the whole family piece of it, too.)

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    19 Feb 2026

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    The part of Shane that is not panicking goes soft with how…eager Ilya seems for Shane and Svetlana to meet, for Shane to like her. It’s strange, it’s new, it’s wonderful to be able to think about making plans like this. Dinner with Shane’s parents, meeting Ilya’s friends, like that’s something they can have.

    So that’s why Shane beats down the urge to crank up the gas on the stove and light a match, gives Ilya a wide and normal grin, and says “Yeah, of course. I’d love to meet Svetlana.”

    Ilya sighs and his eyes light up and, oh, Shane wants to love him in the light of day. Suddenly, Shane has an idea that will hopefully stop him from doing something rash that will get him on the news and/or in prison. “And you should meet Rose!”

    or: shane hollander tries to get over his overwhelming urge to blow up svetlana vetrova with his mind at saturday brunch

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    17 Feb 2026

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    “We were doing brunch. It was nice. Your dad made their kitchen look like the fancy brunch places on Instagram. We were talking about my schooling, hobbies, friends, movies, normal shit. Boring shit. Then your mother starts talking about my sponsors and savings and suddenly I am giving her my banking information and the phone number of my accountant and I am signing many, many, many papers. She had a scary folder.” Ilya pulls out the scary folder and the thing was thicker than the book Shane was reading. He tosses it on the couch and it lands with a heavy thump. “It was under her chair the whole time and I did not see. The places I had to sign were already highlighted and the date was already written in.”

    Ilya tosses his body on the couch. Somehow, he makes less of an impact than the Scary Folder. “She owns me now, yes?”

    Seemingly on cue, Shane's phone lights up with a notification that Yuna Hollander has shared a calendar with you.

    Oh, God.

    or: shane's mom keeps slutting out his boyfriend (!!!) to sponsors and shane's totally cool and chill about it no really he's FINE

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    17 Feb 2026

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    Yuna Hollander stares at the diamond engagement ring in slight horror as her husband laughs silently next to her on the couch. Her five year old son stares back at her with his doe eyes on her other side.

    “I'm sorry, sweetie,” she asks as calmly as possible, “did you say a boy gave this to you?”

    Or, a near lifetime from Yuna's eyes.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    Ekstasis
    /ˈɛk.stə.sɪs/ (EK-stuh-sis)
    Noun
    Etymology: From Greek ἔκστασις (ékstasis) “displacement, astonishment, trance,” from ek- (“out of”) & stasis (“standing, state”). Literally, “a standing outside oneself.”
    Definition:
    A state of being beside oneself; emotional or spiritual displacement. Rapture, trance, or overwhelming awe in which ordinary self-awareness is suspended.

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    16 Feb 2026