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After Sam turns and Henry is forced to shoot him, he goes to shoot himself as well - but, because Joel lunges at him, he misses, leaving Joel to deal with a grieving, suicidal twenty-year-old and a sobbing fourteen-year-old who's grieving for more than one person. He handles it... surprisingly well, taking good care of both of them. He holds both as they cry, tells them about Sarah, buries Sam, tries to snap Ellie out of her guilt and Henry out of his suicidal thoughts, and he manages to (relatively) succeed, even though he's still a mess himself.
Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
25 May 2026
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Joel Miller wakes up somewhere that is decidedly not his house in Jackson.
OR: Joel got hammered at Jackson's New Year's party. He wakes up in a hospital bed on the first day of January, with zero recollection of how he got there.
Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
10 Apr 2026
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You Want Somebody Who Will Spend Some Time by Bumblepony
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
10 Mar 2026
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"Tommy Miller." She warns.
"What?" He asks, gaze still on the TV, as he kisses the arch of her foot.
"You know what."
"I don't." He smirks, finally looking over at her, a twinkle in his eye.
"Don't you dare."
"I ain't doin' nothin'." He croons, kissing her pinkie toe.
IE: The silly, romantic, and loving things that Tommy and Maria do as a couple.
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- Part 20 of Tommy and Maria Stories
- Part 1 of Tommy/Maria Week 2026
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 650
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 13
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- 31
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Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
11 Mar 2026
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No One Knows (What You Do to Me) by Maered
Fandoms: The Mandalorian (TV), Star Wars - All Media Types
31 Oct 2025
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“Mayfeld said you were a hard ass today,” Malk says, amused and Din shrugs.
“I’m always a hard ass.” He says, and the rest of them roar with laughter. Din doesn’t think it was that funny. He lets them talk over him for a while and suddenly gets that feeling again.
“Hey,” he says, “-do you guys feel… have you noticed something weird going on?”
“What, besides every normal fucking day?”
“No.” Din huffs, frustrated. “-I just feel like… something’s not right.”
They all look at eachother.
“You’ve been on shift for too long, Mando.” Malk says.
“Yeah.” Qin says, “-you’re losing it.”
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It’s easy to get spooked on your first shift out on the rig. The close quarters, the endless days, the isolation, the unfathomable vastness of the sea.
Except, Mando’s no rookie. Just trying to keep his head down and work; he gets the sense that something’s not quite right. Well, something else besides his mysterious roommate he knows nothing about.
He’s proved right when men start vanishing without a trace.Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
23 Dec 2025
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“They were my pills, too. If you were anyone else …”
“You’d what?”
A ghost of a smile touched her lips. “I’d send you after them.”
He returned the smile, but it was awash with the guilt he’d always helplessly, hopelessly, love more than her. Joel wanted her angry and unforgiving. It sustained him. Tess knew what it was to want to hurt at the hands of the one she loved most. They gave one another everything. Most of the time, it wasn’t pretty. But that was what they were.
“Next time – ”
“You can’t lie to me,” she swiftly countered. “I’ll take the rest Joel. But not that.”
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Joel is a mess and everything is miserable.Series
- Part 24 of Drifters, a book of Tess and Joel
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 7,545
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Collections:
- 1
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Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
25 Nov 2025
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Rewrite Our History by lostgirlslikeus
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
09 Feb 2026
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Her mouth hangs open, and they stare at each other until she catches herself absently tipping the champagne glass in her hand. She shakes off a little champagne spilled onto her fingers, reaching for a cocktail napkin from a passing server.
When her gaze returns to his, it burns. The glow of the warm chandelier above them reflects off her irises, and he can swear he sees fire in them.
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A Tessjoel Second Chance AU (no cordyceps)Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
27 Oct 2025
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one single thread of gold (tied me to you) by BarlowGirl
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
30 May 2025
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The words remind her of something. There was that voice, Ellie remembers. It said she was safe too. And it sounded… nice. Like she could believe it.
Slowly, she settles down.
Eventually, she learns the voice that found her belongs to a man called Tommy Miller, who took her back to his town.
An actual town, not controlled by FEDRA.
Holy shit.
Or: AU where Ellie and Joel don't meet in Boston, but they find each other anyways. Featuring, cryptid Joel!
Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
14 Jun 2025
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Ret'lini (Just in Case) by sequeltolife
Fandoms: The Mandalorian (TV), Star Wars - All Media Types
27 May 2026
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Din, and his aliit by extension, have been transported almost 60 years into the past. After ghosting this strange group of Mandalorians, doing some good deeds while adopting one Obi-Wan Kenobi from Melidaan, and having Grogu returned to him from the Jedi, Din realizes these Mandalorians want him to join them. He has no idea why, but what the hell. Boba says they're reliable and honourable, and it's not like they have anywhere else to go.
If only their Alor would stop staring at him all the time.
TLDR : A loose continuation of Cloud_Chaser's Oya Manda'lor (Posted w/ permission, doesn't need to be read). Din and family joins the True Mandalorians. Jaster has a big fat crush. Din does not know how to romance.
First Arc Complete (Chapters 1-24)
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- Part 1 of Ret'lini // Just In Case
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 389,344
- Chapters:
- 33/40
- Collections:
- 2
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Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
27 May 2025
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Savior Complex by Logan_Howlett2003
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
24 Jan 2026
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He felt his rib cage tighten around his lungs and suddenly his previous morality was choking him. She couldn't be his problem. He couldn't handle another responsibility, Sarah could never be anything other than his first priority.
"Dad... please,"
And yet... if anyone could ever convince him to do anything, it was going to be her. Her pleading brown eyes, brimming with tears at the idea of this girl being left out in the cold was ripping through him with a response he didn't want to give.
"For how long?"
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Or... Sarah convincing Joel she needs a sibling.
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- Part 1 of Savior Complex
Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
26 Apr 2025
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Sarah wants a sister
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The Armor You Wear by deliciousblizzardshark for Maered
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, The Mandalorian (TV)
25 Dec 2024
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Yavin 4 was hot and wet and Djarin sweated through his jumpsuit even when he wasn't doing anything, which was most of the time.
He'd come because the Jedi had said the child missed him, stuck around because the child had looked up at him with those big pleading eyes. The Jedi also had big pleading eyes. He'd looked up at Djarin through his lashes, telling him that the child missed him and that he needed stability after so much upheaval.
So Djarin stayed.
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Everyone has PTSD. Instead of dealing with it, they build a house.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 24,025
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Collections:
- 1
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Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
26 Dec 2024
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You wake up from the events of what happened at the hospital back in Salt Lake.
Now you have to navigate this new life with Joel and Ellie in Jackson.
Thing's feel differently between you and Joel now though...you can't place your finger on why.You'll come to find out why soon enough...but what will you do about it?
(edit: or....a found family goes through some of the hardest things any family can go through...will they stick together?)
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- Part 3 of Crybaby Series
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 361,453
- Chapters:
- 50/51
- Comments:
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Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
10 Nov 2024
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Long fic but Joel and Reader grow throughout. Love fics that address mental health. Also old Joel gets to be a big soft teddy bear and not enough fics let him be this.
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Hear No Evil by PaigeGoneRogue
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
06 Oct 2024
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‘Ellie,’ he tried to say, positive she heard by the way she stopped in her tracks. His words were probably warped and slow, but they at least seemed to be decipherable. ‘I can’t hear.’
Ellie said something, not quite getting the full grasp of what he said by the way all her words seemed to mush together.
‘I can’t hear.’ He repeated.***
Joel loses his hearing at a very inconvenient time
Whumptober Fic #1: Communication Barrier
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- Part 1 of Paige's Whumptober
Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
20 Oct 2024
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like a shelter from the storm (a fireplace that keeps me warm) by cardigains for probsdeleteltr
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
25 Sep 2024
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He checks on her pretty often, says it’s only going to slow them down if she gets sick or injured, so she needs to tell him the truth and not try and hide anything.
Being cold doesn’t count, though. Being cold isn’t the same as a rolled ankle that could hold them up for days on end or a bronchitis that she needs to sleep off. There aren’t blisters he can help bandage so that they don’t detract from the amount of miles they can cover in a day or a cut he needs to clean to prevent infection.
She’s just cold. Who the fuck cares?
or: On the road between Kansas City and Jackson, the weather changes. Ellie isn't prepared for it.
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if i could undo it, my rotten grief by crowdedthoughts
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
16 Jan 2025
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Joel had hesitated when Sarah called him that first time, practically begging him to help chaperone her preschool class.
He’d declined initially, thinking his presence in her and her students' space would be exceedingly intrusive– besides, it'd been so long since he'd handled a toddler, much less had a gaggle of them running around him, and to a botanical garden of all places? He couldn't. Sarah would understand.
Sarah is a preschool teacher, and Ellie is her student.
Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
23 Aug 2024
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That's Me In The Corner by Fiachra
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), Good Omens - Neil Gaiman & Terry Pratchett, American Gods - Neil Gaiman
02 Oct 2023
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"The man who nearly kills him in Kansas City is practically a child. Then Ellie shoots him. Joel’s job is to soothe suffering. Technically, killing him counts.
The boy pleads, it hurts in a way that it hasn’t in a while. Joel tries to tell himself that it’s not because Ellie sees the whole thing.
“It wasn’t my first time,” she says.
For the first time in years, it hurts deep in his chest that children have to be so familiar with Death so soon. It reminds him of the 14th Century. He fucking hated the 14th Century."Joel used to be the Guardian of Doomed Children. But that was before the apocalypse broke out across Heaven, Hell, and Earth.
OR: The Good Omens/American Gods/Neil Gaiman fusion verse three people asked for
Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
14 Jun 2024
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Last of Us/ Good Omens/ American Gods
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run on for a long time by dancingonmoonbeams
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
22 Jul 2023
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Joel keeps going for family. The ones he’s lost, the ones who are still with him, and the ones that sneak up on him.
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Joel and his family through the years, pre and post-Outbreak.
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- Part 1 of run on for a long time
Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
15 May 2024
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Really good pre-outbreak and post headcannon
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Shoot for the Stars by Bee_KeepingAge
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
27 Sep 2024
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Ellie's sixteen, when she finally gets fed up with the foster system and decides to run for the hills. In her mind, she figures years of complete solitude, but the perfect opposite happens: she meets Sarah, another teenage runaway, her soulmate, her better half. Life is finally good.
And then the Accident happens, and because Murphy's Law is a bitch and a half that says that, if shit happens, more shit is bound to come, now she's pregnant too. Oh, and Sarah abandons her after a not-so-cryptic conversation about how she wants to go home before winter comes, leaving behind a note saying she'll come and find her again.
Clearly, she went home to her Dad, and clearly Ellie's not gonna stay in Bumfuck, Wyoming, waiting for her. No, she'll go look for her, even if it means having to drive all the way to Boston and live with her father-in-law.
Besides, considering her current state, it's gonna be nice to have a warm bed, a roof over her head, and a man who is so much of a girls' father that he's gonna let her annoy the crap out of him.
[Alternatively: how Joel ends up taking into consideration only the "daughter" part of "daughter-in-law."]
Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
11 May 2024
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Sarah/Ellie. Excellent portrayal of the complexity of relationships. Even Joel's ex wife is a complex character. Excellent fic of the legal system and an explanation of trauma.
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Living Water, Holy Fire by ARightFarPiece
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
19 May 2024
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Joel and Tommy, a few years after Outbreak on the long road to Boston, post up with their crew in an abandoned church where they have a complicated relationship with a woman and each other.
Problematic smut that gets progressively more problematic as it proceeds.
Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
08 May 2024
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A Soul For Sale Or Rent by Bumblepony
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
31 Oct 2024
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“Okay. Look, kid, you can use my phone. I get that you got no parents, but you must have someone lookin’ out for you.” He pulls out his phone and goes to hand it to her.
“Sure, whatever, man.” She says, holding both hands in front of her, palms up. He goes to place it on her hands, and as he lets go, it just falls through her. It's as if her hands are just images with no substance, which she guesses they kind of are.
She looks at him, and his face is pale, and it finally clicks: he actually didn’t know.
“What the hell kinda trick is this?” He says, his voice tight with just the hint of hysteria.
“It's not a trick man. I’m a ghost. How did you fucking not know.”
IE: Ellie is a Ghost, and Joel is the only one who can see her. She needs his help to figure out what happened to her before it's too late.
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- Part 1 of Here be Dragons
- Part 1 of No Cordyceps AU's
Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
05 Apr 2024
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Ellie Williams' Guide to Teenage Rebellion by simoncowellsjuicytits
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
19 Feb 2025
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“Joel.” He says. He’s Texan, which as far as Ellie’s concerned is an accent-imitating jackpot.
"Can I call you Joe?"
"No."
"Jojo?"
"Absolutely not."
There's a brief silence.
“You’re gonna stop me from getting shot in the face?”“That’s the job.”
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As the (alleged) daughter of the new president, Ellie Wiliams is hellbent on making herself as much of a nuisance as possible. Joel Miller, the virtually unreadable and perpetually grumpy bodyguard assigned to watch her for eighteen hours a day, certainly thinks she's doing a good job of it. But as Ellie processes losses of her past and present, she slowly begins to realise just how valuable it can be to have someone watching your back.
(Angst/eventual fluff found family Joel & Ellie AU, slow-burn father-daughter relationship.)
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- Part 1 of The Last of Us- Presidential AU
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 132,249
- Chapters:
- 23/23
- Comments:
- 527
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- 1,459
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Bookmarked by Blue Macaron (BocasAwlBeBack)
01 Apr 2024