15 Works by Deadbugapplepie
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Anywhere I want (just not home) by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
30 Nov 2025
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Joels thoughts while getting to know Ellie and the comparrisons he makes, some heloful some not.
this is jsut a stream of my own consciousness exploring the relationship dynamots between joel, ellie and sarah, their trauma, grief and their impact on eachother.
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Eldest daughter(s) by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
31 Oct 2025
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Ellie turns 15 in jackson, Joel gets her a cake but there are a lot of feelings to go along with it
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I still remeber the first fall of snow by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
30 Sep 2025
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a series of memories surrounding the cold that ellie looks back on as she leaves David
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With the world burning in the background by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
31 Aug 2025
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What if David got a bit further? Plus the aftermath and hard conversations that Joel and Ellie need to have once he finds her with a new sweater and rippped jeans.
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I laugh like me again (She laughs like you) by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
31 Jul 2025
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"It felt wrong. To grieve someone she’d never met. A life she had never seen lived. Someone she had no tangible connection to.
It felt wrong. To miss someone who had lived and died all years before she was even born.And yet, Ellie grieved Sarah. "
a series of instances in which Ellie learns about Sarah, and how a bond can be formed even over the barriers of time, death, and an emotionaly constipated father.
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The look of love (The look of loss) by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
30 Jun 2025
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"He felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude, and vulnerability, and fear, so much fear. At the way she was able to read him like that, the way his walls must be coming down. She didn’t even know about Sarah, didn’t even have the context and still she knew exactly which crevices of his soul the hesitation lay in.
He wondered if she knew, if she suspected, if he seemed like a dad. He doubted she had any idea what a father looked like, so maybe not."TLDR/ Joel has to help Ellie out of a dark place after she sees Henry kill himself. the emotional roller coaster both before and after that
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proof of life (and proof of pain) by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
31 May 2025
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He didn’t believe in god, but he hated him anyway, how could anyone with that much power simply do nothing as a little girls body got ripped to shreds, as she bled and screamed.
He didn’t know who he was talking about anymore.
or- Joels thought process and all the trauma and guilt and shame that resurfaces that first night after silverlake taking care of Ellie. lots of memories around sarah, lots of sadness and greif basically. enjoy!
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If you’re ever hungry, be hungry for me by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV)
30 Apr 2025
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Sometimes Emily feels although she was born hungry. As though it had grown with her since she was nothing more than an unwanted child.
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Have you ever stared directly at the sun? by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV)
31 Mar 2025
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JJ and Emily
have you ever stared directly at the sun?
have you ever shared such closeness so exposed to have it spit back by someone?
so forgive me if I jump
at the rattle of your keys
oh are you leaving?
no babe I'm just waking up
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They say that the first point of contact is always the most electric.
Emily didn’t know if she believed that or not, on the one hand, the very first time she had seen Jennifer jareau at the age of thirty four her life was permanently and irrevocably changed. -
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Emily resorts to an old coping mechanism. TW self harm pls don't read if your not in the space to or if this will trigger you, take care.
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The years we lost by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV), Criminal Minds: Evolution (TV)
24 Sep 2024
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what I think might have been going on In JJ and Emilys heads during the confession from 17x6
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JJ suddenly feels like even being her normal little age is too big, she doesn't know what to do
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- Part 3 of little JJ
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TW- mention of suicide, childhood abuse/abandonment, dissociation. JJ and Emily are planning to go see JJs mother but after JJ has a hard day, there might have to be a change of plans which might not be handled very well, but Emily knows how to help her girl
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- Part 2 of little JJ
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JJ wants to regress after a case but a comment that was made at the office has gotten into her head, Emily knows how to help her little girl
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- Part 1 of little JJ