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    “I always want to be fucking you,” Ilya continued as he pressed a finger deep into Shane. “It has taken over my brain. My life. When I am not with you, I am thinking of you.” He added another finger easily, pushing deep. “If I could have my way, you would never wear clothes again. You would simply recline on a throne of furs and softness, where I would fuck you at your leisure.”

    Or: Pregnant omega Shane is feeling insecure about his expanding body. Ilya will make him feel better.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Tierno y hottt

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    “I am so sorry, Shane,” he kept muttering under his breath as he consumed more and more of the venomous clear liquid. “So sorry, moya lyubov.” 

    He kept going. He had no idea what time it was when he opened the second bottle, or when he reached for the first box of pills. All he could see, in his hazy state, was his mama, who was holding her arms out for him, calling of him, telling him to come closer. To be brave and come to her. 

    He did as she asked. 

    He thought about her as he crinkled the first packet of pills, popping all seven from one strip into his hand. He wondered what was going through her head as she poured the small pills from the bottle he found next to her into her dainty hands. He wondered if she thought of him, like he thought of her. 

    “Be with you soon, mama,” Ilya breathed, as he swallowed the pills down with a mouthful of vodka. “Me and you together again.” 

     

    OR, where ilya is depressed and he wants to feel his mother's comfort again. shane has no idea, but he'll do anything to be with ilya, to make him better. he'll drive all night. he would call ilya's mom.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    Sad as fuck

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    “You never forget?”

    “No,” Shane breathes out. “No, I never forget.”

    Except Ilya does.

    He forgets his wedding ring.

    And Shane notices.

    Or: Shane gets stuck inside his own head when Ilya forgets his wedding ring.

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    20 Jan 2026

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    Angst

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    It's Ilya and Shane's first Christmas together as an actual couple, and Ilya is a bit nervous to spend it with Shane's family. Of course, when he wakes up sick a few days before the holiday, that won't do. He can't ruin Christmas.

    Or, Ilya learns what it means to be cared for.

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    18 Jan 2026

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    Ilya + Yuna. Los amo
    icFikCS

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    "Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.

    And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.

    You don’t deserve his last name."

     

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    content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime

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    01 Jan 2026

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    Wow 😭