Holdingbackrain
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Jean's journey transitioning as a young child, from the boy he always was to the man he longs to be.
*Following Canon events"Born Jillian, but never quite feeling as such, Jean wasn’t aware of just how different he was from the other kids. He spent his free days trying, and failing, to make friends with the neighborhood boys after he ran his daily chores, unsure why he was being disregarded by them at every turn."
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“What time is it?” Jean grumbled, pressing a lazy kiss to the top of Marco’s head.
Marco tapped his phone to wake it and groaned through a pout. “11:43.”
Jean echoed the sound as he sat up, gently pushing Marco away to stretch. “We need to do something to stay awake.”
Marco giggled and, in his sleep-induced delirium, made a bold joke. “We could do each other.”
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When did Marco finally realize that he wanted more from our friendship… and why? It couldn’t have been before high school graduation… there was no way. As for why, I hardly had anything to offer, save it for my stubborn attitude, along with an almost permanent scowl, followed by the occasional sarcastic comment. How did a cheerful guy like Marco have feelings for me?
For Jeanmarco week 2021 day 3: Classmates
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Marco woke up from blissful, joyful sleep to Jean being ripped from his arms. Marco was about to open his eyes and reach out to bring Jean back, only to freeze when he registered the voice of Jean’s father shouting in the room. It was followed closely by the sound of Jean thudding to the floor and groaning in pain, making Marco’s stomach lurch.
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Under the Stars Without You by Holdingbackrain
Fandoms: Shingeki no Kyojin | Attack on Titan
15 Jun 2021
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It was a little hard to be Marco's best friend when he came out. Not because I didn't like that he was gay—I could care less who he was attracted to—but because everyone in school thought we were dating. Almost everyday, people would comment asking if we were going out or if I liked him, or if I was gay and it got a bit frustrating having to tell people I was straight so much.
I didn't even think about my sexuality. I liked girls. I was attracted to women. There wasn't anything else to consider.
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The Gay Experience: Misunderstandings, Pining, and Domestic Bliss by Holdingbackrain
Fandom Shingeki no Kyojin | Attack on Titan
18 Jun 2021
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Like a Drum (Fanmade Alt Ending) by Holdingbackrain
Fandom Shingeki no Kyojin | Attack on Titan
08 Mar 2021
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Jean inched a little closer, tapping each of his fingers along Marco’s inner thigh. He had much more experienced hands, proven by how careful he palmed at the shaft of his cock before he took a solid grip. “Don’t hold back with me. You can touch, grab, bite and kiss anywhere you want. I’m not fragile.”
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- Part 1 of Trans Jean Supremacy
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02 Feb 2022
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Jean Kirschtein asks the dorky, heavily freckled history major on a fake date as a part of a hazing ritual his prestigious fraternity puts him through. What he doesn't expect is how much he might enjoy his company.
"Jean’s stomach was in knots. He understood the purpose of this test and he got why… what he didn’t understand was the man of their choice. What was so special about Marco Bodt? He was carefully filed in with every other dorky, messy haired history major. Nothing about him caught Jean’s interest whatsoever. He had probably walked past him a million times without batting an eye."
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02 Sep 2021
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Marco’s entire life had been defined by the shoes he was meant to fill- those of his family business and the future Don to hail over the Brooklyn area. Marco holds himself high, playing the part destined for him since birth, until his lifelong loneliness is broken by an unexpected companion- though circumstances left something to be desired.
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- Part 1 of Bite The Hand
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10 Aug 2021
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our forever between blueberry trees by kintou
Fandoms: Shingeki no Kyojin | Attack on Titan
10 Sep 2019
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Sick of the city and his homophobic parents, Jean moves away for a work-away on an idyllic farm. The problem is: he completely underestimated the work and almost everyone at the farm thinks he's just a spoiled city boy. Everyone except for Marco. Marco gives him a chance, working boots, and a little help.
Bookmarked by Holdingbackrain
12 Mar 2021