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  1. Public Bookmark 42

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    After their engagement, Ilya and Shane return to Russia under the cover of the Irina Foundation, knowing it may be the last time Ilya ever sets foot there. What waits for him is not closure, but grief, memory, and a past he learned to survive by becoming quiet and hard.

    As old wounds resurface and the cost of being seen grows clearer, Ilya struggles to keep his walls from rising. Shane stays—steady, patient, and unwavering—loving him through the fear, the flashbacks, and the choice that will change everything.

    This is a story about grief, survival, and choosing a future where home is no longer a place, but a person.

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    11 Jan 2026

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    Shane Hollander's world ends on the ice in the last game of the season. He wakes up with synesthesia—every voice floods his vision with colors so overwhelming he can't stand to be around anyone. His best friend makes him sick. His parents give him headaches.

    Except Ilya Rozanov. His rival. The man he's been sleeping with in secret for three years. Ilya's voice is the only one that doesn't hurt.

    So Shane does the only thing he can: retreats to his cottage and calls Ilya to come stay. Alone together, they can't hide anymore.

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    10 Jan 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 92

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    Shane Hollander is good at his job. He's a confident dancer at a club that's gotten more dangerous since Ilya Rozanov bought it three months ago—but Shane doesn't mind the edge. What he doesn't notice is that his new boss is absolutely fixated on him.

    Ilya tries everything to get close: coffee, conversation, carefully chosen gifts. Shane thinks he's just a really attentive employer. It takes threats, violence, and Hayden literally spelling it out before Shane realizes Ilya wants more than just a professional relationship.

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    10 Jan 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 35

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    Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck.

    So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing.

    Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.

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    09 Jan 2026

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    "You're an awesome player to watch."

    "I watch you too…I like watching you."

    One line changes everything.
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    OR: Instead of turning him down, Ilya and Shane become fast friends at the Prospects Cup. Their relationship (and how they hide the truth) completely changes when the media poses them as best friends instead of rivals.
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    Reads as a series of connected oneshots within this AU. Now including prospects cup 2008, draft celebrations, and their rookie all-star weekend.

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    09 Jan 2026