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    Shane Hollander has a secret boyfriend, and it’s not Ilya Rozanov. That’s for the best, though, because Shane’s boyfriend is absolutely perfect on paper. He’s also completely on board with the need to keep their relationship out of the press to avoid ruffling any feathers at the MHL commissioner’s office.

    There’s only one problem with Shane’s boyfriend. He’s not Ilya Rozanov.

    (Canon divergence where Ilya and Shane do separate photo shoots pre-rookie season and never hook up. Somehow. So then Shane has a “normal” dating life.)

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    22 Mar 2026

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    Normal, soul-sucking relationship with normal, soul-sucking Ben, oblivious to ROSANOV flirting his ass off. Shocking. We are so good at life. I love being autistic.

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    Wiebe could tell he was wearing Ilya down, but he still looked nervous. "Ilya," Ilya stilled. To his team he was always Rozanov or Roz or Rozy, never Ilya. "You're our guy. There's nobody I'd rather be our captain, to lead this team to another Stanley Cup. It's clear you don't like the guy, but we both know how good this could be."

    Ilya jerked his head in a nod. "We will destroy everyone, this is true." Wiebe seemed satisfied. Ilya stood to leave and delivered one last look at Wiebe "But I do not have to be happy about it."

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    Shane and Ilya are estranged for years after Tuna Meltdown. Then Shane confuses everyone by signing with the Raiders.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    After Sochi, Shane Hollander stopped trusting intensity.
    After three Cups, he stopped believing in fulfillment.

    What he finds instead is a voice.

    A man who doesn’t need his face.
    A man who tells him when to breathe.
    When to stop thinking.
    When to let go.

    It’s supposed to be anonymous.

    Ilya Rozanov let him freeze in the snow-bright glare of Sochi.
    Now Dima is teaching him to burn in the dark.

    Phone sex becomes release.
    Control becomes craving.
    Familiarity becomes revelation.
    And forgiveness becomes the most dangerous act of all.

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    14 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Phone sex, Dima, VERY intriguing

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    10 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    The blood in my veins