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   When I Stayed Awake Watching the Sun Come Up and Light Your Face by Zopno

   Fandoms: 斉木楠雄のΨ難 | Saiki Kusuo no Sai-nan | The Disastrous Life of Saiki K.  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   21 Dec 2021

   Tags

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   • Kaidou Shun/Kuboyasu Aren
   • Kaidou Shun
   • Kuboyasu Aren
   • Saiki Kusuo
   • Kaidou Shun's Mother
   • Kaidou Toki
   • Kaidou Sora
   • Nendou Riki
   • Teruhashi Kokomi
   • Yumehara Chiyo
   • Hairo Kineshi
   • Mera Chisato
   • Toritsuka Reita
   • previous suicide attempt
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Cutting
   • Scars
   • Angst
   • So much angst
   • Kaido is just angst
   • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional/Psychological Abuse
   • Emotional Manipulation
   • Emotional Hurt
   • its just really fucking sad you guys
   • but like eventually not
   • Protective Saiki Kusuo
   • saiki will protect Kaido at all costs
   • Aren is ride or die
   • The Dark Reunion
   • They're definitately behind Kaido's feelings
   • Mutual Pining
   • seriously tho like it gets heavy fast
   • Kaido is the smallest bean and I will protect him with my life
   • Not Beta Read
   • no beta we die on our own swords
   • kaidos mum is super abusive
   • Aren is the sweetest
   • and the biggest softie
   • like he would do anything for Shun
   • He is the goodest egg
   • Self-Harm
   • Self-Hatred
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Self-Esteem Issues
   • Self-Doubt
   • it just be heavy my friends
   • It gets fluffier my friends
   • I promise
   • Fluff
   • Fluff and Angst
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • It's getting fluffier I promise
   • Mild Smut
   • Blow Jobs
   • Hand Jobs
   • Not Underage
   • Eating Disorders
   • Starvation
   • Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified

   Summary

   Somewhere along the way Kaido Shun had fallen into this childish fantasy driven persona. Years of pressure from home and being a burden on everyone had created a need for an escape, that's all it really was. Things started to look better once he met Saiki and the gang but the pressure never truly let up. When he and Kuboyasu Aren became friends things just clicked, and during moments when they were together nothing seemed to matter. Shun felt safe. However the ugly guilt and shame driven monster that is locked deep inside Shun never leaves.

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   English

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