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    The only trick is to have no fear, and even less fear than that the more trouble one is in. Ilya cannot teach that to a man who has directed his energies into becoming, not like a saint, but like a painting of a saint, all dripping in symbolism: the way the robe drapes here, yes, that is on purpose, and the angle of the light, the patron’s face in the crowd, the instrument of the martyrdom in his hand and the fruit in the bowl on the table, all arranged except when—

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    20 Feb 2026

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    Ilya was good at noticing things about people, and he was good at understanding them. Shane was not. That was okay. Shane had developed his own way of getting to know Ilya. It involved a lot of inane questions and, more importantly, no longer involved condoms.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    There was a build up, okay? The tuna melt fiasco is their first hookup AFTER the summer but Ilya was emboldened by the last hookup BEFORE the summer.

    Inspired by the 5 second clip in the montage in episode 4 where Ilya wears the teal Adidas shirt and they kiss against the glass/up the stairs in Shane’s apartment.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    “What is grailed dot com?” Shane reads out loud from the computer screen.

    “How have you spent almost fifty grand on it in the last year?”

    Ilya doesn’t reply.

    “Is it a-” it’s like Ilya can hear the gears turning in Shane’s head, “Is it a porn website?”

    Ilya laughs lightly, endeared by Shane's choice of words, “As if you would know.”

    “Fuck you, I’ve watched porn.”

    Ilya turns to face him, a look of pleased incredulity painted on his features. He watches as Shane processes what he just said and then shakes his head as if to rid himself of the trance. Shane both hates and loves these moments when Ilya gets him to say ludicrous things in his own defense. As if he even needs to defend himself.

    Shane and Ilya talk about personal finance, porn and they are in love.

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    27 Jan 2026

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    “Is that all you need? For someone to tell you what to do?”

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    English is Ilya's second language. He tends to leave a lot unsaid.

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    27 Jan 2026