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Between slipping grades and an explosive break-up, Quentin's first year at Brakebills was coming to a miserable close—and that was before the Beast attacked. Now everyone's cancelling their summer plans to join in the fight against an existential threat, Fillory is both real and much deadlier than in the books, and it turns out Quentin sucks as much at battle magic as he does at everything else. As the war drags on, dying in battle starts to seem like the best possible outcome, the answer to all his problems: one shining moment of glory, and then he's finally free. It's a foolproof plan—until he wakes up and has to do it all over again.
(Or: An action movie about wanting to die, with time loops.)
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06 Dec 2025
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"I’ve been thinking about you,” Eliot continues, and Quentin’s heart nearly stops in his chest. Warning bells, sirens, flashing signs—this is not good. Not good.
“Well—don’t. Stop,” Quentin says. The top few buttons on Eliot's shirt are undone and how is he supposed to just be an adult and say no to this?
Eliot cracks a small smile, sliding just a little bit closer. "Don't stop?" he says.
“Eliot—just—please go back to the bar. You don’t really want this.”
Eliot frowns. “I’m a big boy, Professor,” he says, huffing out a breath. “I know what I want. The question is,” Eliot continues, Quentin holding his breath as Eliot leans into his space, “What do you want?”
Quentin’s mouth goes dry as his brain spins with acceptable responses. For you to go back to Brakebills and sober up—A nice cold glass of water—A redo of the last five years—An actual responsible adult—but what comes out is, “What I want doesn’t matter.”
Eliot’s face grows softer, the frown disappearing and his eyes searching Quentin’s face. “It does to me,” he says quietly. Cold fingers encircle Quentin's palm, and he closes his eyes as Eliot slots their fingers together and squeezes.
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02 Dec 2025
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What's it gonna take til my baby's all right?
Well, still. Pretty good year.
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- Part 1 of Pretty Good Universe
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26 Nov 2025
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Eliot's an artist, searching for models to practice his life drawing. Quentin is trying to come out of his shell, meet new people. They both get more than they were looking for.
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22 Nov 2025
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"(...) you look at me and I’m all the way in my body. I’m all the way there, and it’s not a cage, it’s not the thing I have to fucking— deal with in order to give my stupid broken brain something to do, it’s like my body is me, when you’re looking at it, all the way through every inch of my skin and I cannot begin to tell you how fucking flayed open and terrified that makes me feel, it’s truly the best thing that’s ever happened to me, Eliot. The very best thing, your eyes on me like you can actually see what’s there.
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I can’t believe I got this lucky, that— that I thought what I had before you was a life, that I thought I knew how to be happy. I had no fucking idea, and then you taught me. You taught me, I just— thank you. Thank you.” -
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“You know the worst part of getting exactly what you want? When you realize that only a fucking asshole would have wanted it in the first place."
(Or: On the West Coast, Quentin tries to figure it out.)
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- Part 2 of help, i'm alive
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14 Nov 2025
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Life changing works of fiction. Like, wow. <3