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The Bargain by TransientFireworks
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
19 Jan 2026
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No matter where she was, no matter what she was doing, she never left the Cauldron.
Pain and emptiness have been her companions since she was born. Her mother made sure of that.
The drinking was supposed to help; it was helping. Now confined to the House of Wind, Nesta can't escape the darkness that follows her every step. What happens when it finally catches up with her?
Cassian doesn't know how to help.
No one can help.
Would it would be better if she let the darkness have her? Maybe tonight, she can finally close her eyes and never wake up.
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14 Jan 2026
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Avalanche by ChelseaMorningGirl for dustjackets, TheTeaQueen, This_Immortal_Hope, JellybeanJellyfish, xxValkyriesxx, ACourtofLadyDeath, Pumpkinspice_Lou, janearts, wishcamper, moodymelanist, jsmelodies, Daughterofthesea
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
23 Dec 2025
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“Nesta.”
She doesn’t turn. Doesn’t move.
The bond in his chest is screaming. Her emotions crash over him in waves—despair, worthlessness, exhaustion, and underneath it all, a terrible calm. The calm of someone who’s made a decision.
“Step down.” His voice comes out harder than he intends. The voice of a general. But inside, he’s begging for her to listen.
“Go away.” Her voice is hollow. Empty. Nothing like the sharp, cutting tone he’s used to. Nothing like the fire he’s always admired.
This is worse than her anger. It’s defeat.
“No.” He takes a careful step closer, hands out like he’s approaching a spooked animal. “I’m not leaving.”
“I don’t want you here.”
“I don’t care.” Another step. The bond is pulling tight in his chest, urging him closer. Keep her safe. Keep her alive. “I’m not leaving you alone.”
He feels a flicker of something. Confusion, maybe. Or frustration that he won’t just let her do this.
“Please,” she whispers, and the word breaks his heart. “Please just go.”
“Not a chance, sweetheart.”
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When Cassian realizes how deep his harsh words hurt Nesta on Soltice, he takes her out of Velaris and brings her to Illyria.
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14 Jan 2026
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Who's Counting by Pumpkinspice_Lou
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
17 Jan 2022
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Nesta is ready to start her senior year at University of Prythian and put her junior year behind her. That is until a certain student keeps popping up. He says it’s the Universe. She thinks it’s stalking. What could go wrong?
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04 Jan 2026
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In the Hands of her Flame by simpletea23
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
23 Jan 2026
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Darkness swallowed her as icy water choked the world above. The Cauldron’s presence coiled around her, whispering hunger, its claws raking through her skin and mind, searching, changing her.
Its talons found three golden threads tethering her to something vital—one by one, it severed them. Agony consumed her, hollowing her out. But even as it unraveled her, she fought back.
She would not surrender.
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Torn from her mortal life and forced into an immortal body she never wanted, Nesta must navigate the terrifying new world of the Fae. Haunted by what was taken from her, and what she has become, she battles the weight of grief, rage, and a past that refuses to release its hold. But even as she fights against the power now thrumming in her veins, the world demands more from her: to find her place, to forge new bonds, and perhaps, to open her guarded heart to a love she never expected.
A reimagining of A Court of Thorns and Roses from Nesta’s perspective, with many many liberties taken.
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- Part 1 of The Stars Took Their Time with Us
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21 Dec 2025
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Whatever You Need by cinnywinny
Fandoms: 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Manga), 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Anime)
18 Dec 2025
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Being a detective is tough work. Good thing you have your two officers to keep you grounded. And they'll do anything to keep you satisfied. Anything.
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18 Dec 2025