bugveil



Recent bookmarks

  1. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane watches Ilya shove a hand through his hair, waits for him to meet his eyes. “You pretend to want things, pretend I can have things that we both know you won’t let me have,” he says, his newfound self-esteem carrying him past the point of no return. He wishes he’d never discovered it, because it’s making Ilya’s face do something awful.

    “Oh, you mean I hurt your feelings?”

    Close enough, Shane supposes, his chest aching again. He goes to lift his hand again, sees Ilya zero in on the movement, doesn’t. “I guess so.”

    Ilya scoffs, mean and sharp. “So sorry, Hollander, I didn’t mean to make you get so emotional about a casual fuck.”
    Asshole. So many times he has lobbed the word at Ilya in exasperation, reluctant affection and disbelief, but now he thinks it with vitriolic anger. “I think you should go.”

    Shane finally decides that Ilya's ability to weaponise sex isn't enough for him anymore. Ilya doesn't take it well, but Shane holds firm. Then they start to text about it. Sort of.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    23,650
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Comments:
    618
    Kudos:
    4,057
    Bookmarks:
    1,106
    Hits:
    45,249

    14 May 2026

  2. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    32,502
    Chapters:
    2/2
    Comments:
    804
    Kudos:
    4,904
    Bookmarks:
    1,529
    Hits:
    45,386

    13 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    god this is so fucking good. i need 10000000 fics of people realizing how much shit shane puts up with because he has learned to just expect it.

  3. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Never mind the next two weeks, the next eight hours stretched endlessly in front of him. He had no idea how to occupy his time. His house was basically empty, which sounded sad but was really a good thing, evidence he’d built himself the life he wanted – where he always had something to do, outside and with other people. Ilya had been restless for as long as he could remember, had never been able to sit still. He’d gotten in trouble for it as a kid at the dinner table and he got in trouble for it as a full grown man on the team bus. He’d gotten in trouble for it when the doctors had been trying to take the x-ray, his leg jumping without his permission.

    Ilya gets injured, stops leaving the house, loses his mind, learns to read tarot, and sends Shane Hollander a lot of photos.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    19,008
    Chapters:
    2/2
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    667
    Kudos:
    3,473
    Bookmarks:
    943
    Hits:
    34,351

    11 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    They’d wanted to escape the cage, but they’d been in that cage for a decade and they’d made a home of it. Out in the big wide world, they got homesick.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    5,910
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    314
    Kudos:
    2,427
    Bookmarks:
    440
    Hits:
    18,038

    11 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    god i love these little freaks im so obsessed with this

  5. Public Bookmark 72

    Tags
    Summary

    “Hollander,” Ilya mutters. “I think you know what’s going on. Don’t you?”

    Shane barely shakes his head. He doesn’t want to think about it. He much less wants to say it out loud.

    Because yes, of course he understands, he’s not an idiot and the idea has been rolling through his head for quite some time. Always there, hovering over his head, and the rope that holds it is getting weaker and weaker. He can hear the sound of the threads snapping in real time.

    Or: my extended version of the club scene from episode 4 (TV show). Shane’s shame and Ilya’s grief find them at Ultraviolet too.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    12,977
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    17
    Kudos:
    352
    Bookmarks:
    72
    Hits:
    5,582

    10 May 2026