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“We need to work together,” Lochlan blinks against a sudden onslaught of tears. “To handle this.”
“Me,” Saxon answers, voice cold and hard as ice, “I will handle it. Not you. Baby brother.” he says it and his voice is dripping with scorn, like the nickname is a bad taste in his mouth.
And the thing is, it’s not that Saxon is never mean to him. He is, often. But there’s always something to do. You apologize even if he was the one who lost his temper, you drink the warm beer he has smuggled to you even though you hate the taste, you stop reading and turn to face him and he lights up. And it is all okay. Lochlan doesn’t know what to do now, how to break the spell.
The few people who have seen a beach in advance of a tidal wave have described it, not as beautiful, but as like being on another planet. The floor of the ocean laid bare in a way it was never meant to be.Or, Timothy kills himself in prison and his family deals with the fallout.
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Besides I Barely Even See You Anymore by desperately_human
Fandoms: The White Lotus (TV)
23 Jul 2025
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"It’s like Noah’s flood,” Lochlan is organizing the kitchen cabinets. They have enough ramen for weeks, if they can figure out how to boil the water. He wonders if making a small fire in the sink would violate the terms of their lease. He wonders if it even matters.
“Who?” Saxon scrolls through his phone. No reception, still, no internet, so he has taken to scrolling through the several hundred photographs he has saved. Every fifteen minutes or so, he reaches a point where he looks sick and quickly puts the phone down, but starts again at the top almost at once. Lochlan hasn’t even set his phone out to charge.
“Noah. From the Bible?”
“I don’t read that stuff,” Saxon scoffs.Saxon and Lochlan move to the North Carolina coast after Timothy's arrest, and get caught in a hurricane
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If Anybody Asks I’ll say You’re Coming Back by desperately_human
Fandoms: Simon & Garfunkel
02 Jul 2025
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“Today was good,” Artie says to him as they sit on the edge of the wooden riser that comprises their backstage, a familiar old smoke break even if neither of them smokes anymore. Litter drifts by in the breeze and heaps itself in piles against the wooden fence in front of them.
“We were good,” Paul answers. A silence, but an easy one, and then Artie starts to stand up and Paul grabs his sleeve to pull him back down. “We should keep doing this.”
“This?” Artie gestures at the litter, the dingy concrete step.
“Performing. Idiot.” Paul shakes his head, “Come on the rest of the tour.”
In his head, Artie has already said yes. He is booking them dinner at that vegetarian place in Chicago. He is dreaming up a new set list.
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“You weren’t really scared, right?’ Saxon asks him. Lochlan stares out over the emptiness and presses his hand hard into the small of Saxon’s back, just for a second, just enough to send him off balance. Saxon pitches forward, sways back, takes one small step closer to the edge to catch himself. Lochlan clenches his fist into the fabric of his shirt, into the meat of Saxon’s back, as Saxon laughs a high, startled laugh and doesn’t look at him.
“No,” Lochlan answers. He feels Saxon’s heartbeat just beneath his skin and thinks how easy it would be, just one more push. “I wasn’t scared at all.”
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I Swear You Got a Little Bit Taller Since I Saw You by desperately_human
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
06 May 2025
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“You’re a messy drunk,” Dean says into his hair, says it with so much affection. Sam smiles. It doesn’t sound like a criticism when Dean says it.
Time goes liquid but eventually Dean laughs, easy and unforced.
“My legs are going to sleep. Anyway, time for us to go to sleep.”
“Yeah,” Sam tucks his face deeper into the crook of Dean’s neck, “sure.”
“Sure,” Dean repeats, then gets an arm under Sam’s knees and, with a groan, scoops him up and carries him across to the bedroom. He dumps Sam a little roughly on his bed and Sam bounces against the mattress, giggling. Dean moves to turn away and Sam grabs his wrist.
“No,” he whispers. “No. You said you wouldn't leave.”
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“The only times you touch me are after you almost died,” Spencer says quietly.
“I know,” Aaron says.
“Can you always feel it, or do you ever get a break?”
Aaron blinks.
“The blood on your hands,” Spencer says, tracing the tendons wrapped over Aaron’s knuckles. “Can you always feel it? Is that why you don’t touch me?”
reid loses his gun and gains a human shield. hotch has never been so bruised.
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24 Nov 2025
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Reid scoffs. “What do you want from me?”
“All I want is for you to get better,” Aaron says.
Spencer lays his palm warm and solid on Aaron’s knee. Bats his lashes up at him and Aaron shivers, fingers clutching the edge of the desk. Spencer laughs. The sound drips with contempt.
“You’re a liar, Hotch,” Spencer says. He rises, swaying close. “Can you even remember the last time you told yourself the truth?”
He’s gone before Aaron can bring himself to admit that he can’t.
or, the one where hotch isn't a mess until he is, and reid is a mess until he isn't
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24 Nov 2025
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A Truly Nerdy Guide to Criminal Minds Statistics (or: Aaron Hotchner is Probably a Serial Killer) by sarcasticsra
Fandoms: Criminal Minds
31 Aug 2015
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In which I collect data and offer many, many graphs. Seriously, so many graphs. Meta/informational.
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21 Sep 2025
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“I was mad at him when I wrote that ‘cause he’d been a right fucking cunt. I write five thousand sets of lyrics a month, sometimes it’s just some fucking nonsense. Means fuck all.”
He’s not sure they believe him. He’s not sure any of them believe him. Disturbing, the tabloids said. Noel Gallagher’s incestuous fantasies, one titled.
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03 Aug 2025
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There's a monster under Liam's bed.
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29 Jul 2025