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    "When you grow up and get married, Shane, make sure whoever you pick is at least quarter as good at helping as you and your dad are okay? So, you get better just like your mom will." His aunt squeezed him and poked at his ribs despite her serious tone.

    Shane giggled against his will and wormed away from her, dodging small pokes. "Okay, okay!"

     

    Even though Shane hadn't really understood what his auntie was saying at the time, Shane kept that conversation in the back of his head for a number of years.

    It resurfaced when girlfriends implied getting more serious, it resurfaced when Hayden talked about proposing to Jackie, it popped up over and over whenever Shane was around Ilya.

    Or: that thing people say about how whoever you marry is who loves you through your parents death (but make it somewhat soft)

    Or, or: what happens when one partner has worn grief like an old coat since he was 12 and you have no idea what that weight feels like

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    19 Feb 2026

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    The Swiss National League doesn’t care about the legendary Hollander-Rozanov rivalry. When the MLH can’t negotiate with the Hockey Players’ Union in time to prevent a hockey lockout at the start of the 2015 season, the Zürich Lions jump at the chance to sign both Shane and Ilya to short-term contracts. For four months in Switzerland, they share a team, a line, a house, and a bed. 

    Then the lockout ends in January, and it’s time to go back. Back to different countries, cities, lives. Beds.

    Reentry is harder than expected.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Shane learns too much about his friends and their sex lives. They talk about things they’ve done in bed, and Shane starts to wonder if he’s doing something wrong.

    Curiosity piqued, the desperate get resourceful. Sometimes, those resources include asking the guy that you sometimes hate to teach you what you’re missing.

    Nothing can go wrong.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    “I do not want to make you uncomfortable. With how I talk about us. To others. Like . . . reporters. Or how I treat you in front of others, like the guys on the team.”

    Something like understanding settled on Shane’s face now, and it immediately made Ilya’s heart stop racing. “You think I don’t like PDA.”

    “First time I held your hand in public I thought you were going to have a panic attack,” Ilya admitted.

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    Or: Shane's first season on the Ottawa Centaurs, as told through five times Ilya initiated PDA (and one time Shane did).

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    15 Feb 2026

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    They had so many years of love and joy, so many tender, vulnerable moments that they were never allowed to capture - never allowed to keep.

    “We don’t have any pictures together, Ilya,” Shane repeats, his voice frantic and desperate and almost pleading. “We’ve loved each other for a decade and all we have to show for it is-“

    “-us, Shane. We have us to show for it. Our life, our love, our home that we have built together.”

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    15 Feb 2026