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"No, I would've remembered this," Richie says, folding his hand around the un-bandaged parts of Eddie's hand. The gold ring glints on his pinky.
Eddie explains how he stabbed himself and Richie nearly dies. His laughter sounds like someone peeling out on fresh blacktop.
"Okay, yeah, hyuck it up, you goofy bitch," Eddie says.
"How many times is that? Four? The universe wants you to be penetrated, Eds," Richie says. "It cannot get enough of you."
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we were always here at the right time by fuckener
Fandoms: IT (Movies - Muschietti), IT - Stephen King
23 Oct 2019
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Eddie’s eyes were getting heavy again. Richie helped him back down to the pillow.
“It’s always kind of like this, isn’t it,” he mumbled.
Richie didn’t move. He was still holding Eddie’s hand, his shoulder.
“Like what?” he asked softly.
“You and me,” Eddie said. What else?
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30 Jan 2026
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it's about time that you just unwind by fuckener
Fandoms: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti)
30 Sep 2019
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“It sucked to tell people,” Richie said suddenly, tapping a finger on his glass. He was avoiding eye contact again. “Like - it just really fucking sucked. I’m old. I’m like middle-aged. You’re this old and you just start telling people you're gay, they think, ‘Jesus! That dude’s got issues.’ Because they’re right, and you do.”
“It must have come as a real shock to our friends,” Eddie said, staring. “That you have issues.”
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30 Jan 2026
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Eddie could see the layers and layers of tape he’d wrapped around the leg of Richie’s glasses over a month ago, shaped like a little cocoon. He reached out and touched it with the tip of his finger.
“These don’t even sit straight anymore,” he said. “Why are you still wearing them?”
Richie didn’t blink from behind the lenses until Eddie took his hand back.
“I don’t know. My life is kind of a mess right now. They feel appropriate.”
“Your life isn’t a mess, Rich.”
“It really, really is.” Richie straightened, started talking with his hands when he said, “Hey, shouldn’t you be shouting? I feel like this would be easier if you were shouting.”
“You said you’d take this seriously,” Eddie said.
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30 Jan 2026
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Eddie's not even that old, but he keeps getting these stupid minor aches and pains that end up taking him out for days at a time, and all anyone tells him is that they come with age. It's bullshit.
He grabs his laptop from the coffee table.
non-running exercises
aerobic exercise for 40 somethings
listen im fucking old and geriatic apparently what can i do that isn't running or hiking because it all hurts nowSwimming, the search results all tell him. Just swim some laps around a pool, idiot.
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