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  1. Public Bookmark 85

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    Jack Abbot is a mature adult. Jack Abbot does not succumb to jealousy like men Samira’s age. Jack Abbot does not react to taunting like men Samira’s age. This is one of the many reasons that Samira likes him, chose him. 

    The man across from him smirks, “Does her leg still thump like a bunny when she c—“

    Jack Abbot’s forehead connects with the man’s nose.

    OR: Jack runs into Samira's shitty ex at a bar. He ends his night at PTMC being assessed for a head injury... whilst Samira is on shift. She is not all that pleased to see him.

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    30 Jan 2026

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    As it turns out, being Abbot’s favorite is its own kind of addiction.

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    28 Jan 2026

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    Dr Abbot is trying to give up smoking. Samira thinks she can help.

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    27 Jan 2026

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    And look, Samira might tend towards being oblivious, but you can really only get stared at by Jack Abbot for so long before you realize he wants to do more than just give you the opportunity to put a few tubes into someone's chest.

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    27 Jan 2026

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    Jack Abbot finds out that Samira Mohan has never finished with a male partner.

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    It occurs to her that she’s chasing him off, so she blurts, “You actually don’t have to apologize, he probably would’ve been terrible in bed anyway, they always are.” They’ve crossed so many lines tonight, what’s one more?

    “Singlehandedly maintaining the orgasm gap over here.” She’s mildly successful at making that comment sound flippant, hands waving in the air.

    “I don’t know if I can talk to you about this, Samira,” (I don’t know if I can handle hearing you talk about your sex life, don’t know if I can handle knowing men aren’t in the habit of caring that you don’t finish, don’t know if I can handle you. When looking back at this moment, Jack Abbot will recall the feeling of intense emotional whiplash, how one minute Samira looked thunderously furious at his interruption, and in the next she seemed almost bashful in her attempt to get him to stay.)

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    25 Jan 2026