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The breath that Shane expels feels like the last straw. Ilya is so fucking tired of guessing. Wondering what he did wrong and how he can make it right. A pit forms in his stomach every time Shane looks at him like that. Like he’s done. Like he’s tired. Like he’s one stupid comment away from kicking Ilya out entirely.
It’s not what Ilya should feel when in proximity to his husband. This shaken, tense situation is beyond fucked. Maybe it makes him a child that he hasn’t asked Shane point blank what is going on yet. Maybe it makes him a coward.
Shane and Ilya spend a tense evening together.
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was i made from a broken mold? by Literal_Multifandom_Trashcan
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Jan 2026
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Shane pulled out the vodka handle, wiping the dust off. He stared at it for a long moment.
Shane rarely drank hard liquor. It made his head spin and his stomach uncomfortable, wasn’t worth all the extra calories. Wasn’t even really meant to drink on his meds, but.
It would make him feel worse. It would make him feel like absolute shit. And that was exactly what Shane was counting on. So he had stumbled over to the bathroom, flipped on the dim overhead light, sunk to the bathroom floor, and drank.
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shane hollander gets super drunk on the bathroom floor after a really bad few days. it is not fun for anyone involved, but luckily ilya is there to pick up the piecesBookmarked by kissyclown
19 Mar 2026
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tears by Literal_Multifandom_Trashcan
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Mar 2026
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Upon being with Ilya, Shane was learning a whole lot of things about himself.
His bar for ‘good boyfriend’ was basically in hell, after his past two partners. But Ilya was actively changing that. He was beyond a good boyfriend, it was genuinely insane.
And Shane didn’t know if there was a such thing as having a kink for your boyfriend being a good boyfriend, but if there was, he definitely had it.
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shane realizing how bad his past relationships were while also realizing he has a competency kink -
forwards beckon reboud by Literal_Multifandom_Trashcan
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
07 Jan 2026
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Shane shut his eyes, leaning back against the couch.
He was fine. He had to be.
What am I meant to do, Shane thought desperately to himself, when I can’t remember why I was even recovering in the first place?
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shane relapses with his ed, no one has a good timeSeries
- Part 2 of come on skinny love
Bookmarked by kissyclown
19 Mar 2026
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the skyline falls as i try to make sense of it all by Literal_Multifandom_Trashcan
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Dec 2025
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This felt bad. He hadn’t really been tracking as much, hell, just last night him and Ilya had gotten takeout from a fried chicken place nearby.
Swallowing, his hands started to tremble.
He could nearly taste the butter, the bread crumb coating the chicken, the oil it was fried in. And once he started thinking about it, he couldn’t stop thinking about it.
How many calories had that been? A lot, right? Especially since it was restaurant made, he had no idea how much of each ingredient they had used. Bile rose up in his throat.
Shutting his eyes, he deeply inhaled, then exhaled.
This was fine. He could fix this.
or: i project onto shane hollander because he is just like me fr fr
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- Part 1 of come on skinny love
Bookmarked by kissyclown
19 Mar 2026