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And he couldn’t stop thinking about it, going around and around in circles in his brain, how he wanted to be himself, faggy little Ilya, who wore adidas and also maybe mesh crop tops (maybe with an ear piercing? He’d always wanted one), and danced in gay clubs and made friends with nice people with coloured hair, and walked in pride parades, and held hands with a Shane-Hollander-shaped boyfriend, out in the daylight where everyone could see, and how he couldn’t do any of that while he played hockey, but he loved hockey too, loved bashing guys into the boards and spitting blood, loved the red of it, loved talking absolute shit, loved being an asshole, loved racing Shane across the ice, loved the scratching noise skates made on ice, loved his boys, loved it all, but it wouldn’t love him back unless he made it love him back.
Sometimes he just wanted to be Ilyushka, the boy who danced with his friends and lay on beds, talking about nothing. The closest he felt to that kid was when he was with Shane.
-Ilya Rozanov, what do you want? And how are you going to get it?
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- Part 1 of the great difficulty
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15 May 2026
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car wash redhead, tube top R.E.M. concert, juror #6 by rockbound
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
08 Feb 2026
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The only trick is to have no fear, and even less fear than that the more trouble one is in. Ilya cannot teach that to a man who has directed his energies into becoming, not like a saint, but like a painting of a saint, all dripping in symbolism: the way the robe drapes here, yes, that is on purpose, and the angle of the light, the patron’s face in the crowd, the instrument of the martyrdom in his hand and the fruit in the bowl on the table, all arranged except when—
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14 May 2026
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dreadful need in the devotee by insatiablegaydesire
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Apr 2026
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It has been three days since Ilya let Shane feed.
Shane is a vampire who cannot control his own desires, with a hunger too strong to survive on his own. It is a good thing, then, that he has Ilya to control them for him.
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12 May 2026
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A regular day in the life for Squad Leader Hollander quickly turns into a mad dash across the quadrant, leaving behind the life he always thought he wanted to save the one that really matters.
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the courtship of ilya rozanov by cherrylilies (cherrydialectic)
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
28 Apr 2026
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After the tuna melt meltdown, Shane meets Rose Landry, has several deeply inconvenient revelations, and decides to do the only sensible thing: win Ilya back with sincerity, logistics, and a frankly alarming amount of emotional effort.
Ilya, meanwhile, mistakes every tender gesture for the kind prelude to an inevitable goodbye.
Or: Shane is living in a romcom. Ilya is living in a Russian tragedy.