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Lily: You are hiding from me.
Jane: I’m not! I’m busy.
Lily: Busy losing. You play better when I fuck you.+++
Embarrassed by his very public and short-lived fling with Rose, Shane goes to great lengths to avoid Ilya.
He’s unprepared for just what Ilya will do to win him back.
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Sound of sirens, rush of pain (I almost thought I heard you call my name) by 17darwinism
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Dec 2025
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"He imagined Shane would be similarly unforgiving if Ilya took his own
life. Not that Ilya ever would. Unless he couldn’t help it." (The Long Game)or,
Two years after being diagnosed with depression, Ilya wants to commit suicide.
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- Part 1 of Please, God, I'm finally loved
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Please, God, I'm finally loved by 17darwinism
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
26 Dec 2025
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Because, sometimes, it takes almost losing everything to realize just how much you have to lose.
Set post The Long Game (book 6).
TW for suicide, descriptions of suicidal thoughts, depression.Fic 1: Two years after getting diagnosed with depression, Ilya becomes suicidal. (published)
Fic 2: After Ilya's suicide attempt, him and Shane have to learn that getting help is even harder than it looks. (work in progress)- Words:
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love and lust (wanna be yours) by blankjournals
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Feb 2026
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“You really wouldn’t mind if I had sex with someone else?”
Ilya does mind. Hearing it said back to him, almost makes him flinch, a sudden and brittle sound right next to his ear that he fails to recoil from in time.
But Ilya swallows back the bitter truth and replies, “Of course not. If that is what you want.”
He waits, sitting on his living room couch, phone pressed painfully against his ear, his other hand gripping his knees till his knuckles blanched. He could feel his own heart rattling behind his ribs, pulse rockingloudly. His mind was an echo of alarm, demanding of him: Why isn't Shane saying anything?
It was the loudest silence he’s ever lived through, until Shane finally said, “Okay. If that's what you want.”
OR: inspired by the fight in TLG where Ilya tells Shane he can sleep with other men. But this time, Shane actually takes the offer.
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- Part 1 of missing scenes from TLG 📖
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Barstool Sports Canada reports that Montreal Metros captain Shane Hollander has started learning Russian from new teammate and Russian rookie Sergei Dovonchezky.
Ilya has some thoughts. None of them are particularly kind.
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- Part 6 of my heated rivalry anon fics