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  1. Public Bookmark 16

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    Ilya took in the bread, and the flowers, and the stone, and the blini, and the vodka, and the photo of his beautiful, sad, perfect mother frozen in time. And he reached back to take Shane’s wrist in his hand, and pulled it across his chest, like he could tie them together for a lifetime, buoying them against all tides.

    Here. Feel this? This is what it is. What does it feel like to you? Share it. Show me.

    Shane had found a way to share it. To show him. Without too many words.

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    The only thing Ilya truly grieved when he cut all ties to Russia was the one thing he couldn't take with him.

    Shane finds a way, though. He always does.

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    21 Feb 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 55

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    After the Tuna Melt Incident, Shane and Ilya gradually started drifting apart. Texts became more scarce, hook-ups less frequent and feelings pushed aside until, in the moment of absolute panic, Shane ghosted Ilya fully.

    Now, three years later, Shane Hollander and Rose Landry are engaged. Shane's life finally seems to be going in the right direction. No distractions, great girl, lots of hockey.

    And then the new season starts and trades between teams happen.
    And Ilya Rozanov, whom Shane promised himself to forget, is suddenly on the same team.
    And, worst of all, he becomes the Alternate Captain.

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    20 Feb 2026

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    Ilya is recovering after the brain surgery but recovery rerely is a straight line. And Ilya, done with hospitals, is up to mischief. Fortunately, Shane is there to make sure Ilya stays alive.

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    This is set between "Hold On (I Still Want You)" and "Come Back (I Still Need You)" and focuses on Ilya's recovery after the brain surgery he underwent. It can be read as stand-alone but I think it's probably best to read at least first part of my series to get some context!

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    20 Feb 2026

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    After the miracle recovery, Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander are back together. One day, Shane gets a phonecall from Ilya's doctor. She asks Shane to come in immediately, alone. He is scared shitless.

    Turns out, there is no need to be because Captain Rozanov is clearly back in the game. And he can skate again.

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    This is a part of my on-going "Hold On (I Still Want You)" series and cannot really be read as stand-alone, therefore I strongly recommend getting the context from the first fic!

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    20 Feb 2026

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    What if the hit Shane takes on the ice ends in something far more serious than just broken collarbone and Shane high as a kite? What if his heart stopped and in the heat of the moment, Ilya outed them as "boyfriends" in front of the whole arena? And what if Shane falls into a coma?

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    Ilya wants to scream. To claw his way down the hallway. To grab the nearest doctor by the collar and shake answers out of them. To punch a wall until his knuckles break. To rip out his own heart and shove it into Shane’s chest:

    Here. Use mine. Mine seems determined to keep beating through this, might as well make itself useful.

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    20 Feb 2026