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  1. Public Bookmark 92

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    Ilya knows what he is. He has always known what he is. The word for it in Russian tastes like something you'd scrape off a boot.

    The word in English is bisexual, which is a nicer word, which he has heard, which he does not use. He uses other words. He uses the word his brother taught him. He uses it on himself before anyone else can.

    He grows up. He gets good at hockey. He moves to America. He... falls in love.

    (Or, five times people fail to notice Ilya being queer, and one time they have no choice.)

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  2. Public Bookmark 7

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    28 Feb 2026

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    Four days before Shane expects Ilya to be back on the ice in a random home game against Tennessee, the news finally leaks.

    Shane feels like he should be hiding under a table, sheltering in place. It’s not even that bad. Just a short, clinical article on ESPN. Sources close to the Boston Raiders have confirmed that Conn Smythe winner Ilya Rozanov’s mysterious SOIR is due to a suicide attempt in August. The Team Captain was in Moscow at the time, but returned to Boston as soon as he was able to recuperate and seek treatment.

    As far as terroristic invasions of privacy go, it’s compassionate.

    But Shane knows what it’s like to constantly be under a microscope, and he wants, more than anything, for Rozanov to not be dissected and examined like a particularly fascinating insect. He can’t do anything about it.

    Or: The summer after he wins the Cup for Boston, Ilya almost dies. Shane tries to cope.

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  4. Public Bookmark 38

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    ”You are sleepy." When Shane starts to reach with his hand, no doubt to take the phone from the tripod to say goodbye, Ilya stops him in a hunch. "Don't; I will finish the call in a minute. I want to—”

    “Watch me fall asleep?"

    It’s so stupid. Maybe Shane will think he’s fucking creepy. “Sorry, I was—”

    “Okay,” Shane says, simply, the tiniest smile blossoming on his face. “It would be almost like being home.”

    He says home not as in Montreal or the cottage. He says home as in Ilya. Ilya smiles.

    Ilya is very unlucky in Valentine's Day, until he isn’t.

    From ’16 to ‘22, five Valentine’s days that do not work out for Ilya, and where and with whom he spends them; and one that it does.

    (No, we do not talk about Rose Landry’s Valentine’s Day shitty movie campaign in ‘17.)

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    28 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 87

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    Who will win this week's #MeetTheCens behind-the-scenes quiz? Video drops this Wednesday at 10am with a round of Name That Tune featuring Captain Ilya Rozanov (#81) and AC Shane Hollander (#24), so join us to find out which of our favourite former-rivals will be crowned hockey's music mastermind!

    [or: A transcript and social media reactions fic that asks: what if Shane and Ilya did that 'Test Their Music Knowledge' web interview series? Spoiler alert: Shane doesn't win, but maybe it's the chirps and memories we made along the way]

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