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    Shane Hollander, captain of the Boston Raiders, is the the undisputed best hockey player of his generation. But he’s lonely. His relationships with women have never worked out, and he’s afraid he knows why.

    Ilya Rozanov is a charismatic, openly bisexual personal trainer and influencer. His Insta is half thirst traps, half brutal and perceptive hockey critique.

    It’s no surprise, really, that Shane falls for him so hard and so fast.

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    04 May 2026

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    He moves, his hands steady, counting the measures as he pours. One-two-three, one-two-three. Ice sings against glass - liquid swirls in a chaotic, beautiful vortex. The world narrows mercifully to the simple logic of weight and movement, physics that he can control. For a few blessed seconds, the memories pressing against the back of his skull recede, and there is no phantom bite of ice under his skates, no roar of a stadium crowd worshipping a god that no longer exists.

    Just this.

    He slides the drinks down the bar with a practiced flick, flashes that curated smile again, feels the brief, shallow surge of satisfaction when one of them says, “Keep the change,” and tosses an extra bill into the tip jar. Small victories. Small comforts.

    Shane has learned to survive on crumbs.

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    30 Apr 2026

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    After Shane films an obscenely slutty advertisement for a sports drink company, the whole goddamn world decides he’s their new favorite sex symbol. Ilya reacts perfectly normally to this latest development.

    Or, 5 times Ilya is consumed with jealousy over his own fucking boyfriend + 1 time Shane shows him who he really belongs to.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    Shane has always trusted the Montreal Voyageurs, but it seems that trust was misplaced. In a post-game interview, a reporter informs him that his parents were in a car accident before his team ever did, and everything fractures in that moment.

    Months of patterns that have excluded him finally come to a head. Shane makes a decision that detonates across the league — and his life.

    A two-shot of Shane being ready to burn it all to the ground and finally choosing himself!

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    26 Apr 2026

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    This is a love letter to the all the millenials like me who played it too careful and forgot to enjoy our youth. Shane and Ilya, enjoy it for me, do good. Fuck it good, fuck it right. Life is too short to live it scared.

    The arena is too loud.
    That’s the first thing Shane notices; not the ice, not the lights, not the jersey on his shoulders that suddenly feels wrong in a way he can’t articulate. The sound hits him like pressure, like something physical, a wall of noise that vibrates in his chest.
    He’s already bent over for the faceoff when it hits him- skates set, stick down, weight forward. His body is exactly where it’s supposed to be even if his brain is still skidding uselessly, trying to catch traction.
    There’s only a split second before the puck drops.
    It stretches.
    He lifts his eyes.
    Ilya.
    Young. So fucking young. Is he dreaming? Not worn by years of hockey, travel, interviews and losses and victories that stack so high they blur together. He’s young again; sharp boned, bright eyed, unable to grow a beard to save his life. Bears black and gold instead of Centaurs red. 'If I look down am I going to be pantsless too?' He thought absently, no way this was real... right?

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    25 Apr 2026