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John's increasingly desperate motions on his cock, however, were quickly driving every other consideration right out of Rodney's mind. He was close, so close; Rodney could feel it in the way John's whole body was trembling... then it was stiffening, back arching and John let lose a choked cry -almost a scream- and Rodney felt the hot, slick spurts of cum pulsing out between his and Radek's intertwined fingers.
Deep inside John, Rodney's cock was squeezed and caressed by John's convulsing body as he came and that, unsurprisingly, proved to be the last straw for Rodney. The combination of sensations ticked something over in him, resulting in a veritable explosion of heat and pleasure and desire emanating from the center of his sex, flooding outward to fill his whole body to overflowing. He had to open his mouth then, to release some of this flood in a near shriek of ecstasy just as another sort of release flooded into John's body. Rodney's own body spasmed with the force of this climax, and, incredibly, it went on and on, blinding him, deafening him, and seizing his body where it thrashed and shuddered between his lovers.
The ringing in his ears was just beginning to fade when he heard Radek's voice, desperate, warning, calling out his name and Rodney responded instinctively, turning his head to take Radek's cock in his mouth once again and suck for all he was worth. It didn't take long, perhaps a handful of seconds, before Rodney heard Radek groan, loud and low and pulled from someplace deep inside him -likely the same place as the salty pulses Rodney could taste on his tongue now. Radek's thrusting became wild and uncoordinated for a moment, just as his fingers clutched painfully at Rodney's short cropped hair, and with his slowly returning awareness, Rodney knew that right now Carson was feeling Radek's body throb around his cock, just as Rodney had felt John's a handful of seconds ago. It had the expected results.
Rodney knew well the sounds Carson made when he was coming, and he was hearing them now -the panting moans coming faster and faster, then the sudden shout, and Rodney knew that Carson was filling Radek's body with his seed, just as Radek had filled his mouth mere moments ago. The very idea was nearly hot enough to make Rodney come again, were such a thing possible, but since it really wasn't, Rodney let himself relax and bask in it all.
Letting Radek's now softening cock slip from his mouth at last, Rodney opened his eyes and let his head roll back so that his shoulders were lying flat on the bed. John was slumped above him, still kneeling, but breathing heavily and beginning to distinctly list to one side. Rodney had never, in all the time he'd known the man, ever seen John look so relaxed as he did now, eyes half lidded and his smile easy and unforced. He reached out almost languorously to trail his fingers over Rodney's face, and then bent just a little lower to kiss him.
Rodney hummed contentedly as he tasted John, and felt John's tongue taste him... and Radek, Rodney realized with a passing flash of arousal. The kiss was brief, however, for a moment later John was bending to the right to kiss Carson, then Radek, and then Radek was scooting down to kiss Rodney, and a moment later turning to kiss Carson. That was about the time that John finally lost the ability to hold himself upright and slowly collapsed on the bed to Rodney's right, at which point Rodney finally slipped out. He shuddered slightly at the sensation -the echo of recent pleasures- and then turned his head to see Carson bending over him now, dipping his head to take Rodney, his first lover, in a deep and passionate kiss.
Rodney reveled in the comfort of the familiar, after so much novelty, and indeed, kissing Carson had always been like coming home, to Rodney. Rodney had never had a place, or a person, that had ever really felt like home to him, until Atlantis, and until Carson. Carson had been the first person with whom Rodney had really felt free to be himself, and further, Carson had helped him find a lot of things about himself he'd long ago lost sight of. He'd become a 'self' that Rodney had never imagined before thanks to Carson, and that was why, even if he came to feel as comfortable and 'at home' with John and Radek as he did with Carson (which was almost true already anyhow), Carson would still be the center of that home, in some ways. Carson had found him first, and that was never going to change, no matter how many people he came to love, or who came to love him.
Rodney saw that Radek had been watching them when Carson finally drew back from the kiss, with an almost serene expression of joy on his face, and he saw that Radek understood all of those things about what Carson meant to Rodney, and rather than feeling jealous, it only seemed to make him happier. To his right, John lay now with his head resting on Rodney's shoulder and his smile was also affectionate and approving. Both of Rodney's new lovers, it seemed, knew how it was between Rodney and Carson, but then, Rodney reflected, they'd each helped him discover a part of himself too.
John had shown Rodney that he could be brave, in an 'action hero' sort of way that Rodney had never imagined that he could have ever really pulled off, and Radek... Radek had reunited Rodney with the joyful passion Rodney had once had for his work, but lost in the maze of academic politics and ambition. By being someone he could trust, both intellectually and personally, Radek had made a gift of himself to Rodney of unparalleled worth.
All these gifts, and all these joys were things, Rodney reflected, that he'd never imagined he'd have in his life, and if he felt at all deserving of such things, well, he had Carson to thank for that too. For so much of his life, Rodney had felt deeply ashamed of the part of him that always felt so needy, so desperate to be cared for and nurtured. The day that he realized that Carson Becket's need to nurture and care for someone was as strong as his need to be nurtured, was the day Rodney's life had changed, and the day that they'd both taken the first step on the road that had lead here.
Rodney understood now that he had gifts of his own to offer -the answer to Radek's long search to find someone who could really challenge him, intellectually, and the unflinching respect and honesty John so desperately craved- and as giving these gifts came effortlessly to him, he also came to understand that the gifts he received came just as naturally. It had been hard, at first, to really believe that he was neither being used nor indulged, but it was Carson who had taught him that it was possible.
It was Carson, of course, the care-taker and nurturer -who'd had to let others care for him when they'd thought Rodney lost- who reached down now to pull a quilt over the four of them where they lay, as their hearts all gradually came to slow, and their bodies to cool. The comfortable warmth that soon enclosed him seemed to extend right into his heart, and Rodney found a ridiculous smile growing on his face as he lay, warm and sated and surrounded by his lovers, in the dimly lit room. Maybe no one but Rodney would ever think that anything needed to be said at that point, but he was who he was, and he'd learned than no one here expected or wanted anything different from him.
"So..." he said in a sleepily satisfied voice, "just to be sure we're all on the same page here, this is happening again, as often as possible, yes?"
Carson laughed, Radek smiled and kissed his ear, and John murmured muzzily, "Oh hell yes." Rodney felt his grin grow wider, but then, a moment later, he felt Radek's expression grow a little serious.
"John," he said softly, "this is going to be hard to hide. There is no small risk to you, staying here with us too often..."
John drew a breath, reaching across to place his hand on Radek's where it lay over Rodney's heart. "I, ah, had a little lesson in priorities recently," he said quietly, "and I'm not risking anything important. There's no power in the world that going to make me leave here, or the three of you, and stuff like a rank and a pension... they're kinda small potatoes."
Everyone kind of had to kiss John after than, naturally, so there was a lot of shifting around on the bed and when they were all settled again, Carson was ensconced between Rodney and John and Radek was lying on Rodney's right, rather than his left. He'd also had an unpleasant surprise when he'd first lain down in this new spot and found himself lying on the bottle of lube -which was fortunately sealed.
"The logistics of all this," Radek had said with a smile as he took the jar out of Rodney's hands to lay it on the nightstand, "may prove to be a bit more complicated than I had imagined."
"Mmm, not so much," Rodney replied, snuggling contentedly between two of his three lovers. "Just something new to get used to... but then, I am a genius..."
"And I am also genius," Radek bristled playfully, "as you know perfectly well!"
"Well if I'm not mistaken," Carson's voice was kindly reproving, just a bit, "everyone in this bed has a considerably higher than average intelligence."
"Mmmm..." murmured John in an unintended Homer Simpson-like drawl. "Brains sexy."
"Well of course they are," said Rodney. "In fact, I'd say they were the sexiest thing about everyone here."
"Especially you, yes?" Radek said, smiling against his shoulder.
There was a long beat of quiet before Rodney caught the underhanded insult in Radek's compliment. "Hey..." he objected.
"Now, now..." Carson placated, "you've plenty of attractive qualities besides your enormous brain, love, rest assured." John and Radek both made quiet, agreeing noises and Rodney was mollified.
"You know, I..." Rodney wasn't sure why he suddenly felt like he needed to say this, but he did, in spite of how hard it still was, so he didn't stop himself. "I... really do, um, love... um, well, all of you... right?"
"Oh, aye love," Carson said softly, tracing his fingers over Rodney's cheek. "And ye know we all feel the same about you." There was a reiteration of the concurring noises, and Radek kissed him on the cheek.
"Yeah..." Rodney said, his voice tinged with wonder, and a long, quiet moment later, when he found that the wonder, and the pure happiness were still there, having evidently taken up permanent residence in his heart, Rodney quietly said, "Wow..."
Never had such a brief, meaningless word ever meant so much.
=FIN=
(c) Taylor Dancinghands
February 20, 2009