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CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — Captain James Flint -- the most feared Pirate Captain to ever sail the sea -- turns around to face you. He has a book in his hand. He does not seem to be in a hurry.

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Silver has the dream.

Notes:

so. this scene is heavily based on disco elysium's dolores dei dream scene. i replayed the scene while writing and adapted the lines of dialogue I felt fit, which means many quotes are verbatim from de's text. you do not necessarily need to have played the game to understand this, but (1) it will spoil you some of the game for this incredibly beautiful scene, (2) you may struggle to figure out what the fuck is going on with the format.

i haven't really figured out in which context this dream happens (i may write some other disco elysium x black sails stuff, but it's all still up in the air). that said, for sure the dream isn't Just the product of silver's mind. in this scene, flint is a weird mixture of his actual self, the person silver thinks he should be, and some weird nebulous half-Truth that goes beyond him or silver.

before i get into silver's skills (i'm gonna list them for ease) i do wanna mention two fics. this one, which is a beautiful fic written from the perspective of the smoker on the balcony (a character from disco elysium) because i feel like it inspired me a lot when it comes to adapting de's skills style to a new character + this post-canon silver fic which absolutely greatly influenced me re: silver's character and The State Of Him years after canon. absolutely check out the whole post-canon series from that author.

alright, that said. these are silver's skills:

LONG JOHN SILVER - Remember your mythology. There's someone you are supposed to be.

RECOGNITION - Observe the people around you. Decide where they fit.

GRIEF - Something is missing. Let it rest.

INHIBITION - Only ask if you need to know. Don't dig too deep.

LONGING - Voice your desires. Keep them at a safe distance.

CLAIRVOYANCE - Make sense of this world. Speak only of the past because it is your future.

COMPLIANCE - Adapt. Bend your facade, or it'll break.

INTUITION - Spot the shadows before they disappear. Map the field before you have a chance to get hurt.

DROWNING MAN - Hunches from a life you have long lost. A forgotten kind of love.

STORYTELLER - Mind your words. Thread them well.

[enjoy! + english isn't my first language and no one betad this, so i hope everything reads fine!]

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CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — Captain James Flint -- the most feared Pirate Captain to ever sail the sea -- turns around to face you. He has a book in his hand. He does not seem to be in a hurry.

 

RECOGNITION [Medium: Success] — It has been a long time since you last saw him. The sight of him is familiar and strikingly unnatural at once. It doesn’t seem right -- you, standing so close to him, with no good way to justify it.

 

LONGING [Easy: Failure] — This is catastrophic. Stop staring.

 

COMPLIANCE [Medium: Success] — Calm down. Most of the damage has already been done. Try to contain yourself without destroying what’s left of your dignity. I promise you will survive his gaze.

 

GRIEF [Medium: Success] — *Of course* he will survive it. Surviving is the part that will kill him.

 

YOU — “Hey.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Hello, Silver.”

 

YOU — “‘Hello, Silver’? That’s all I get?” (Smile.)

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “I don’t know what else you could possibly want,” he says, calmly. “After all, you didn’t seem to need a proper goodbye. You can’t fault me for failing to welcome you back where you do not belong.”

 

GRIEF [Challenging: Success] — Goodbyes are deadly. You should never say goodbye.

 

INHIBITION [Medium: Success] — Do not indulge his line of thinking. Drop the subject.

 

YOU — “How are you doing?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “I am dead, Silver. You killed me. Thomas and I live in a beautiful home.” He raises his eyebrows, ostensibly concerned. “What about you?”

 

CLAIRVOYANCE [Medium: Success] You are a shadow in the dead of night. You are a story without characters, a beast without prey.

 

LONG JOHN SILVER [Trivial: Success] You are a monster. You are standing on crutches, on delusions, on one functioning leg. You are a saviour and a martyr.

 

YOU — “I am here. I came to find you.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “You missed me.” Stated like a fact. There’s no humour or love in it.

 

LONGING [Trivial: Failure] — For a second, you have trouble breathing. You feel dizzy but you have nothing to hold on to. The earth is solid under your feet, and yet it feels like you are at sea, lost to a god’s waves.

 

COMPLIANCE [Challenging: Failure] — It is too difficult to recover from this feeling. You are not going to make it out unscathed.

 

YOU — “I don’t know. Have *you* missed me?”

 

STORYTELLER — If that was your attempt to flip the conversation on its axis, it was a shitty one. You sound too sincere.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — He laughs. It’s a silly question. “You are not part of my life. I can’t miss you.”

 

LONGING [Medium: Success] — That stings.

 

INTUITION [Medium: Success] — It shouldn’t. It’s a logical response.

 

YOU — “Some days it feels like I will never die. Like I have been alive forever.”

 

STORYTELLER [Medium: Success] — Are you a poet now? Are you trying to charm him into being pitiful? It won’t work.

 

LONG JOHN SILVER [Easy: Success] — *I* will be alive forever. No one needs *you*. No one is waiting on your word, living off your effort. You are here by chance and without aim.

 

INHIBITION [Medium: Success] — You shouldn’t waste your time with metaphors. Years ago, you were loyal to a cause. Aren’t you still carrying it out? Isn’t the man in front of you a witness to its success?

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Silver…” He shakes his head, his eyebrows knitting together with a gentle kind of sadness. “You need to take care of yourself. You are stuck enacting the same senseless ritual, over and over again. Get up, eat a proper meal. Build something new.”

 

YOU — “Are you here to forgive me?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “No, Silver. I am not. There doesn’t need to be a meaning to this moment. I am not here to do *anything*, I just am. I have all the time in the world now.” He smiles, distant and humane. Suddenly, his posture changes. “Have we met before? My name is James.”

 

RECOGNITION — [Medium: Failure] You haven’t.

 

CLAIRVOYANCE — [Trivial: Success] You never will.

 

YOU — “Where are you going?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Nowhere, Silver. You made sure I could never go anywhere in my life but where you left me.”

 

CLAIRVOYANCE [Easy: Success] — He is right.

 

YOU — Say nothing.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Can you tell me where my friend is?” He glances at his book. “I need to see her.”

 

INHIBITION [Medium: Success] — Do you really want to know who he is talking about?

 

RECOGNITION [Trivial: Success] — It doesn’t matter. You already do.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Silver,” he says, unhurriedly, like you are a child who is having a hard time parsing a complex question. “Can you tell me where she is?”

 

LONG JOHN SILVER — [Easy: Success] Don’t answer that. How dare he dismiss you as he goes on looking for someone you saved? A good friend would be thanking you for keeping her alive. Has he ever even done that? Did it even occur to him that you wanted him to?

 

COMPLIANCE — [Medium: Success] Don’t let this move you. Their friendship has nothing to do with you. Make yourself useful and point him in the right direction.

 

LONG JOHN SILVER — [Medium: Success] This has *everything* to do with you.

 

GRIEF — [Trivial: Success] Stop talking. None of this is relevant. Even if you wanted to give him an answer, you couldn’t. When was the last time you saw your wife? You have no idea where she is.

 

INTUITION — [Medium: Success] She isn’t your wife, and you could make a pretty accurate guess.

 

INHIBITION — [Easy: Success] Please, don’t make any guesses or attempt to follow him to her home. Deflect the question.

 

YOU — “What’s in your book?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Myths, fables. A few poems. A great deal of prayers.” He grins at you, beautiful and unashamed. “I think I may have finally learned to conjure storms.”

 

LONGING — [Trivial: Failure] Your hands ache.

 

YOU — “I don’t believe you.”

 

CLAIRVOYANCE — [Medium: Success] Why are you lying? You believe he could do anything. He has done so before.

 

STORYTELLER — [Medium: Success] Maybe he *could* do anything once, but those days are long gone. He is powerless now. You have stolen his wings.

 

LONGING — [Formidable: Failure] You can’t stop looking at his chest. The way he breathes air in and out of his lungs. It unnerves you, it burns somewhere deep inside of you.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Good call, Silver. You should never believe in me. It only gets you in trouble.”

 

STORYTELLER — [Medium: Success] Silence. His hair is long again. White, worn-out fabric wraps around his monstrous body.

 

YOU — “Your skin...”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “What about it?” He raises his head and touches his neck, looking for signs of a life well lived. “Have I gotten old? It’s a pleasure, getting old. Especially if you have already died.”

 

YOU — “I don’t know if you have gotten old. That’s not what I meant to say.” You struggle to find the right words. “You have less scar than I remember.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Well, of course I do. I am a different man.”

 

INTUITION — [Challenging: Success] There is something off about his tone. Is he taking the piss? Is he making fun of you?

 

INHIBITION — [Medium: Failure] You can’t hide your unease. He must see you frowning.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “I am like a phoenix, Silver. This body has never been at sea.”

 

YOU — “You are lying.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — He says nothing, but he seems amused by your confusion.

 

RECOGNITION — [Challeging: Success] Perhaps there’s a hint of truth threaded in his irony. His body can never forget the sea, but it feels like it has. Flint misses it.

 

DROWNING MAN — [Formidable: Success] He can only miss the sea because he remembers it fondly, because it hurt him to the point of salvation. It’s a feeling you will never understand, though you wish you could. His melancholy warms you. It calls to you.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “I have more scars now than when I knew you,” he relents.

 

YOU — “I am sorry to disappoint you. I suppose I must misremember.”

 

CLAIRVOYANCE — [Medium: Success] You are not misremembering. Some of the scars you used to see in his skin had always been invisible. You just got less good at spotting old wounds. As for the new ones… they are after your time. Of course you cannot see them.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — He raises his eyebrows.

 

INTUITION — [Medium: Success] He is thinking of a joke, but he won’t say it out loud. He seems convinced you’ll get the punchline just by looking at him.

 

RECOGNITION — [Medium: Failure] You don’t.

 

GRIEF — Don’t lie to him. You do.

 

YOU — “Can you stay for a moment? We need to talk. We need to have one more discussion. Please.”

 

STORYTELLER — *Please*? Have you lost your mind?

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “No, Silver,” he shakes his head, sadly. “No. I don’t want to have one more discussion. I want to go see my friend. I told her I’d meet her before sundown.” He looks at you plaintively. “I am serious.”

 

“We don’t have anything to talk about anymore. Every combination of words you have the stomach to say has already been played out. As for the rest, not even a real god would be able to pry them out of you.”

 

“It’s all gone. There’s no place in Nassau for either of us. You have to be alone -- in hell, forever. That’s just the way it is.”

 

LONGING — [Trivial: Failure] Your stomach hurts. You are dying of thirst. You don’t think drinking would bring you any relief.

 

YOU — “I don’t want to be alone.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “I don’t particularly want you to be alone either. You are supposed to get over it, just like I did. People do. Your days can be good again.”

 

CLAIRVOYANCE — [Medium: Success] *Again*? They have never been good. All you had, for a brief moment in time, was hope. It would be unrealistic to assume you ever were capable of achieving anything else.

 

GRIEF — [Medium: Success] Besides, no one gets better in hell.

 

YOU — “My days will never fucking change. I live in hell, you said it yourself.”

 

INHIBITION — [Medium: Success] Are you angry now? Is that where we are? Anger at a man who is not supposed to exist?

 

LONGING — He is right here. Flint is here. He will change his mind.

 

GRIEF — [Medium: Success] He isn’t.

 

INTUITION — [Easy: Success] He won’t.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — Flint fiddles with the cover of his book. He looks unbothered. Even when he seems saddened, there is still no pain in his eyes. Not the kind you were hoping to see, anyway. It’s *agonizing*.

 

GRIEF — See? He isn’t saying anything.

 

LONGING — I don’t understand.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “You were never enough of a person to be in love with me. It was too much for you. Can you not see it? I couldn’t turn you into the king I thought you might be. And you know I tried.”

 

“It just takes some time, to get better. For you, I am afraid it will take forever.” He smiles, bitter and gentle at once. “Those first few months, after you left me in that plantation… they weren’t easy. I had to get used to the wounds you had left on me. Every day I walked on the shattered remains of a future you had destroyed. I bled, Silver. I thought I would never get over it.” He looks at you straight in the eye.

 

“But I did.”

 

            1. [LONGING: Impossible 18] You were in *love* with him? [LOCKED]

           2. Look away. <

 

YOU — Look away.

 

LONGING — [Trivial: Failure] You feel sick. You haven’t stopped feeling sick since Flint first opened his mouth.

 

INHIBITION — Don’t listen to him. You are doing just fine.

 

YOU — “So you felt that way, once. You felt what I am feeling now.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “That is not what I said, but yes. Something like it. That time is gone now.”

 

INTUITION — [Medium: Success] He is serious. You can no longer touch him. You are the only one wounded here.

 

YOU — “Couldn’t we try again?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “No, Silver. We couldn’t.”

 

YOU — “Why?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — Silence. He takes in a breath, then sighs. He brings a hand up to his eyes and smooths out the lines of his forehead. The gesture is familiar to you.

 

RECOGNITION — [Medium: Success] *Too* familiar.

 

GRIEF — [Easy: Success] It hurts.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “There is nothing to try again. You are asking me to grow a tree in the middle of the ocean.”

 

YOU — “I can be better this time. I’ll earn your forgiveness.”

 

STORYTELLER — Earn his forgiveness? What the fuck are you going on about?

 

DROWNING MAN — [Challenging: Succcess] You could have earned his forgiveness when you sat with him in the darkness of his ship. You could have earned his forgiveness when he was a friend not to you but to the man to the left of you, the man you let him believe you could be. There is no earning a different close for a story that has already been written.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Silver, stop doing this to yourself. You cannot be with me.”

 

YOU — “Why?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Because you are incapable of changing.”

 

YOU — “What do you mean by that?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “You know what I mean.”

 

YOU — “You can’t ask me to become a different person.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “I am well aware of that. That’s the basis of my argument. You are indulging a delusion if you think you and I live in the same present. You are stuck plaguing your owns choices and the conversation we are having right now is yet another useless repetition of the same horrible myth you have been telling yourself for over twenty years now. Silver, you are ill. You are an old, tragic man. And you have to be in hell until the end of your life. And I want to see my friend.”

 

YOU — “Are you still a Captain? Are you still a pirate?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “What kind of question is that? Am I still a *pirate*? Are you still a quartermaster?”

 

STORYTELLER — Don’t say another word. Shut up. Now. This performance is disgraceful.

 

YOU — “You are.” (Swallow your thoughts. Drown them.) “The mourning.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “The morning? I don’t understand.”

 

YOU — “No. I meant *mourning*. You are forcing me to grieve you, and you are not even dead.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “*Forcing* you to grieve me? I am not *forcing you* to do a goddamn thing. And I *am* dead, Silver, at least according to you. That’s how the story goes. Long John Silver killed me.”

 

INTUITION — [Medium: Success] He is being sarcastic. He does not think you actually killed him.

 

LONG JOHN SILVER — [Trivial: Success] Well, he should. I did kill him.

 

YOU — “You are… you are someone I used to… you are an old friend.”

 

COMPLIANCE — It’s not like you to trip on your words. Get ahold of yourself.

 

YOU — “We used to know each other. I will know you forever.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Clear up your mind, Silver. Which is it? Am I James, a man you never met, the men you turned me into when you trapped me in some sunny prison with an old lover? Or am I Flint, the most feared Captain who ever sailed the sea? I am tired of entertaining your fantasies. I need to see my friend.”

 

GRIEF [Medium: Success] — This was bound to happen. We all told you it would. *Everyone* told you.

 

YOU — Who, everyone?

 

ANCIENT FORGOTTEN PAST — Everyone.

 

YOU — “I shouldn’t have come here.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “My friend is waiting for me. I don’t want her to worry.”

 

YOU — “This is so grotesque.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “I am sorry to hear that, but I do not know how to help you.” The wind blows in as he says the words, his shirt tightens around his chest like a white flag.

 

CLAIRVOYANCE — [Godly: Success] In your mind, you can still see him breathe as he sleeps -- Flint, the other center of your universe. The first of the two north stars you so badly wanted to believe could lead you home.

 

YOU — “You are just a monster. We are all the monsters Nassau turned us into.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Neither of us are monsters. Do not mistake our legacy for the truth.” He looks around him, at the evening light. “I didn’t realise you had forgotten that, too. Can’t you see how beautiful and kind the world can be? I would have fought my war if you had let me, and I would have done it for this rotten land you are trying so hard not to love. If the war had killed me, It would have been a worthy sacrifice. And you know that my friend would agree.”

 

LONGING — [Medium: Success] Forget about the war -- tell him to say hello. She needs to know you love her. She needs to know you are thinking about her.

 

GRIEF — [Medium: Success] She already does.

 

DROWNING MAN — [Challenging: Success] In your memories, she kisses the back of your neck. You are barely awake, still halfway lost in a dream. Her lips are warm. She runs her hand through your curls, and her fingers stop behind your ear to scratch an old wound that she knows -- you have told her -- still itches from time to time. Her love is sharp and attentive. She takes care of you. Every time you kiss her you are afraid it will be the last. Will she remember what it feels like, to kiss you for the last time?

 

GRIEF — [Challenging: Success] Even if she does, she has no reason to believe it brings her any pleasure. You have no business reminding her of your existence.

 

YOU — “I lost. It was you I lost to.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “The comfort has grown stale. Is that what you are trying to tell me?”

 

LONGING — [Medium: Failure] You don’t know how to answer that.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “It wasn’t a fight. *You* made it into a fight. I was never fighting you.”

 

YOU — “But I had to. I had to make it into a fight. You would have died if I hadn’t.”

 

STORYTELLER — [Medium: Success] That’s right. You had no other choice.

 

LONG JOHN SILVER — [Medium: Success] We killed the Captain so the man could be happy. It was a favour. It was the noble thing to do.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Silver, it’s been twenty years. Please, just let that damned treasure rest.”

 

INHIBITION — [Medium: Success] Do not tell him. Do not tell him what you did to it. He doesn’t need to know that you came back for it.

 

INTUITION — [Challenging: Success] It is not important, either way. If you told him, he wouldn’t be surprised.

 

YOU — “You said there was no daylight between you and I. You said that together we were unstoppable.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “We both said a lot of things. We were very young.”

 

DROWNING MAN — [Medium: Success] It was him. You can feel it. You can feel the tenderness in his earnest, unshakable gaze. He said those things.

 

YOU — “I have a long fucking memory.” (Pause bitterly.) “I remember your words very well.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “As do I. I wasn’t doubting you. I know what I said, but it was a million years ago. I was someone else then -- filled to the brim with love for you. A man tried to save me from you once and I shot him in the head. I was willing to do anything to keep us close. But I am no longer that person. And not because I have reverted back to an old mythical version of myself, but because I have grown into a future you cannot seem to touch. I will devour you, Silver. I will eat your mind.”

 

INTUITION — [Medium: Success] The light of the setting sun shines through his shirt now. A sculpted figure, cut in black, moves below. It’s still him. His hair, his eyes, his fingers.

 

YOU — “You wanted to be close to me?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Of course I did.” He closes his eyes. “I loved your charisma and your infuriating ability to read right through me. You made me smile when all I could do was bleed. I wanted you to be the rest of my life those days, even if I couldn’t be there for it. And you were -- some of it, at least. You were my first true friend after Miranda died. My first hope after an eternity of hollow dreams.”

 

“I will always have that with me. It’s a fact, but nothing more. It’s like a healed scar, Silver. It doesn’t *do* anything.”

 

LONGING — [Easy: Failure] His words wash over you like rain on a sunny morning. Your skin is already dry.

 

YOU — “Can’t we turn back to the people we used to be?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “*You* don’t need to turn back. You are still him. The fact that I am not is what breaks you. Your story is incomplete without mine, and yet you refuse to begin anew.”

 

“I have left you. My friend has left you. *You* made us leave.”

 

INHIBITION — [Easy: Success] Change the subject. Right now. You cannot bear this any longer. You are too weak to withstand a death blow.

 

YOU — “What now? What happens now? What is the next thing we talk about?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Is there even anything left? I suppose we could always repeat ourselves. I doubt you are capable of much else.” He looks over his shoulder. “If that doesn’t sound like a promising option, you should let me go see my friend.”

 

YOU — “I have been reading books. *Your* books. The ones you used to tell me about.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “I don’t think this is the time or place to talk about greek literature.”

 

YOU — “Listen, please. You need to know about Ithaca.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — He is not impressed. “Ithaca?”

 

YOU — “Odysseus spent such a long time chasing it that I couldn’t help but wonder if his real intention was to run away from it. Perhaps he was more comfortable living as a star -- something you cannot touch, because it will burn you. Something you are supposed to watch in silence from the other side of the sky. Is that who Flint was? A star, running away from Ithaca?”

 

COMPLIANCE — [Medium: Success] I admire your effort, but talking about the past isn’t going to help you.

 

STORYTELLER — Let him try.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “What’s your point?”

 

YOU — “Men died following Odysseus home. I brought you back to Ithaca as soon as I could to save the few that survived. And now that the prophecy has been fulfilled, I have nowhere to go.”

 

COMPLIANCE — [Medium: Success] This monologue is going nowhere. It’s embarrassing. You are rehashing an old lie, and you are not masking it well.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Silver, I’m not a star. I used to tell myself I could lead you in the right direction, but I was wrong. I’m just an old man, eating your mind. There are no stars. There is only the sea. And whichever island you decide to call yours. Where you must stay, incessantly, brutally -- utterly without redemption or hope.”

 

RECOGNITION — The fire has gone out. He can not rekindle it. You can not rekindle it. There is nothing within or below matter, just the doll *no* of a mind made up. Just like hers. I am so sorry.

 

YOU — “You are not even human.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — He shakes his head. “I am an ordinary person. I may have done monstrous things, but you could say the same and worse about most *civilised* men who would have paid to see me dead. The only thing inhuman about me is this…” He looks around.

 

“This *story* you have made me into. I am resigned to it, and I will let you have it, but you must know it is not the truth.”

 

YOU — “No, you are special. You can shape the world at your will.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “No one can do that, Silver. Not even you.”

 

STORYTELLER — [Legendary: Success] Then it is you. *You* will make him into a god, or a monster, or whatever you need to survive this pain. It can NOT be meaningless. I won’t let it.

 

YOU — “If I say that you can, it will be true. I will make you last forever.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “There is only one way to make humans last forever, and you did not do that to me.”

 

DROWNING MAN — [Medium: Success] All the roads will miss his footsteps when he is gone from here.

 

RECOGNITION — [Easy: Success] This is a completely different reality. Perhaps Flint has no power over *the* world, but he can shape *your* world. Is there even a difference?

 

YOU — “I *know* I can go back to the past. The see-through present with you.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Please, John. You are not making any sense. You are pitiful and faded, a smoky apparition of your former self.”

 

INHIBITION — [Medium: Success] Don’t let him call you John.

 

GRIEF — Why do you care? It’s not even your name.

 

COMPLIANCE — [Trivial: Success] It is now. It has been for decades.

 

YOU — “Don’t call me John.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Fine.” He is being so tame. So patient. “As you wish.”

 

LONGING — [Easy: Failure] You feel unbearably alone.

 

DROWNING MAN — [Challenging: Success] In another life, you would want to say more. You would have known how to touch him.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — He laughs. It’s a small, private laugh. You can almost taste his disbelief.

 

YOU — “What?”

 

INTUITION — [Medium: Success] For a moment, there is silence. He is wondering whether or not he should say this next part out loud.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “You want to kiss me. Right now -- you, Silver. You want to kiss me.”

 

LONGING — [Trivial: Failure] It feels like you have been stabbed. The pain is quick, sharp and paralysing.

 

STORYTELLER — [Medium: Failure] Why would he say that? It isn’t true.

 

INHIBITION — I am so sorry.

 

YOU — “I don’t care what you think. You are wrong.”

 

COMPLIANCE — Your voice is shaking. Did you know that?

 

STORYTELLER — It isn’t supposed to.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Alright. No need to panic. You are fine. You are fine and you do not want to kiss me. I believe you.”

 

INTUITION — [Challenging: Success] He is humouring you. He does not believe you.

 

DROWNING MAN — [Godly: Failure] You don’t know if this is the first time he has thought about this.

 

GRIEF — [Medium: Success] There is nothing you can do about it.

 

           1. [LONGING: Impossible 18] Do you actually want to kiss him? [LOCKED]

           2. Look away. <

 

YOU — Look away.

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Are you ready to let me go?”

 

LONGING — [Trivial: Success] No. You are not.

 

CLAIRVOYANCE — [Medium: Success] How can you not be? You knew you would have to since the very beginning.

 

YOU — “Why are you asking me? Will we ever see each other again?”

 

STORYTELLER — You sound needy.

 

COMPLIANCE — You really do. What’s happening to you?

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “I won’t see you but you will see me.”

 

YOU — “How can that be?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Silver, this is a dream. Can’t you see? I have already met my friend by now. Who knows how long ago this happened.” He looks around. “A century ago? Two?”

 

YOU — “How will I see you *again*, then?”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Right here. Tomorrow night. Once this dream starts happening it keeps happening -- three times a week. And Silver, it seems like it started happening again.”

 

“I’m helplessly alive. And forever beyond your reach. And I smell like the sea -- like I did when I told you I would get you out of grief. After she left you for the first time, so long ago…”

 

YOU — “But this is intolerably bad.”

 

CAPTAIN JAMES FLINT — “Yes. This is real darkness. It cloaks itself in whatever it must to move you to action. And the more you deny its presence, the more powerful it gets, and the more likely it is to consume you entirely without you ever knowing it was there. Darkness isn’t just death, or the war you feared so much. Real darkness has love for a face. The first death is in the heart, Silver.”

 

“See you tomorrow.”

 

 

Notes:

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