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“There's not one truth ever, just a whole bunch of stories, all going on at once, in our heads, in our hearts, all getting in the way of each other. It's all a beautiful calamitous mess.”
- Jandy Nelson, The Sky Is Everywhere
TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 8TH
(22:11) Attachment: 3 images
(22:11) waiting for you
(22:33) Hey, gorgeous thing. Even though I love the photos, I really doubt they were meant for me.
(22:35) criston dont fuck with me
(22:35) i mean fuck me
(22:36) but don’t fuck with me
(22:37) you are so annoying
(22:40) Yeah. Not Criston.
(22:42) My name’s Daemon if that’s worth anything.
(22:57) ok daemon it seems like u were right
(22:57) i just changed phones and apparently mistyped my stupid boyfriends number
(23:00) You seem to love him very dearly.
(23:01) it’s complicated
(23:12) How old are you? You look young.
(23:12) and you sound old lol
(23:12) im 21
(23:13) u?
(23:14) Turning 36 next week.
(23:15) Why do I sound old? Lol.
(23:15) you ARE old
(23:16) only an old man writes lol like that
(23:18) So, proper capitalization makes me sound old.
(23:19) “proper capitalization” like who talks like that
(23:19) a grandpa
(23:19) that’s who
(23:20) Lol.
(23:20) lol indeed.
(23:27) I don’t think I caught your name, Ms. Hater of proper grammar.
(23:28) i’m not a hater, i actually have impeccable grammar mind you
(23:28) i just don’t care enough to bother while im on my phone
(23:29) why should i give u my name for all i know you could be a perv
(23:35) Sure. I could. But what’s the worse I could do? Search for naked pictures of you online? Oh, wait, I already have those.
(23:36) ugh
(23:36) i had already forgot
(23:37) at least u can’t tell me they weren’t some of the best you’ve got
(23:40) They are.
(23:41) If I were Criston, I wouldn’t waste a single second in getting there and giving you what you so desperately want.
(23:45) and what do i want?
(23:48) To be properly fucked.
(23:48) No niceties, no taking it slow.
(23:50) what would you do if you were here?
(23:55) I’d pin your hands above your head and kiss you rough until you’re squirming.
(23:58) I would then head down towards your beautiful legs, would tell you to keep your hands where I left them and then I’d trace my tongue up your thighs, letting you feel my breath on your cunt when I change from one leg to the other, but not touching it. Not yet.
(23:59) fuck
(00:00) Then I’d let you beg me. I’m sure you beg so nicely.
(00:01) please
(00:01) please touch me
(00:04) I’d tell you to get on four for me and because you’ve been a good girl I wouldn’t tease you anymore. No taking that red tong off, I’d just slide it to the side and put my cock inside you at once. And I know you’ll take it so nicely because of how wet you are.
(00:05) yes im so wet
(00:07) I’d trust inside you nice and hard until you’re moaning so loud the whole building can hear you. Then I’d reach and play with your clit until you cry out my name and can’t hold it anymore.
(00:08) fuck fuck
(00:08) you are good
(00:08) gimme a minute
(00:16) ok i’m back
(00:18) Did you come, gorgeous?
(00:19) yeah
(00:19) thanks
(00:21) Anytime.
(00:33) i really do hope you’re a decent looking 36 yo and i didn’t just wank to some creepy old man that lives with his parents
(00:38) Definitely don’t live with my parents. And I’d like to think I’m quite decent looking.
(00:39) have to see it to believe it
(00:40) anyway i should sleep
(00:42) Have a good night.
(00:42) u too old man
THURSDAY, NOVEMBER 10TH
(20:03) Attachment: 2 images
(20:03) Seemed fair to return the favour.
(20:05) no way that’s u
(20:07) It is.
(20:07) Exceeded your expectations?
(20:12) prove it
(20:12) write rhaenyra on your arm
(20:15) Is that your name?
(20:16) maybe
(20:16) write it
(20:17) Ok, one sec.
(20:29) Attachment: 1 image
(20:29) See?
(20:32) shit
(20:33) u are hot
(20:35) send me one without the trousers next time
(20:36) And the creepy old pervert theory dies.
(20:36) u are still old
(20:36) moved from creepy old perv to sexy grandpa
(20:37) Fine with me.
(20:40) i like the chains
(20:40) are they real gold?
(20:44) Yes. I wouldn’t wear them if they weren’t.
(20:45) so u are rich
(20:45) you should be my sugar daddy
(20:51) Haha. I’d need to know more about you first, sweetheart.
(20:51) I’m not even sure if the word that’s scribbled with sharpie in my arm right now it’s your actual name.
(20:53) its not a no
(20:53) i can work with that
(20:53) yup that’s my name
(20:54) what else do u wanna know? i’m an open book
(20:58) What do you do? Are you a student?
(20:59) yeah
(20:59) a mix of fashion and advertising
(21:02) Sounds nice.
(21:03) it is
(21:04) my dad wanted me to study politics
(21:04) so boring
(21:04) you must do something boring
(21:06) Guess.
(21:07) hmmm
(21:10) id say teacher but we already stablished u are rich
(21:10) i doubt a politician would send me half naked pics even if they don’t show their face
(21:11) ill say lawyer
(21:12) Why not any other profession in the world?
(21:14) u are good w words
(21:14) i had to narrow it down
(21:14) those three sounded fitting
(21:16) You’re quite smart, Rhaenyra.
(21:16) so i’m right
(21:17) Yes.
(21:18) fuck yes
(21:19) im too good at this
(21:19) what do i win
(21:21) Didn’t know a prize was at stake.
(21:23) u are going to be my sugar daddy sooner or later, better practice
(21:23) what do i get daddy
(21:24) Mmm.
(21:27) Give me a minute.
(21:27) fine
(21:41) Attachment: 1 image
(21:41) How’s that, sweetheart?
(21:44) ill take it
(21:44) fuck you are big
(21:44) you got hard by me calling you daddy, didn’t you?
(21:46) Maybe.
(21:53) Attachment: 1 image
(21:53) better think of me if you are touching that hard cock
(21:54) God, your tits are perfect.
(21:55) I’d love to suck them.
(21:56) and i’d love to suck that cock
(21:56) i know it won’t even fit
(21:57) i just want to choke on it
(21:58) Send me a picture of those pretty lips.
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(22:02) They’d look so good wrapped around my cock.
(22:02) You have such a nice mouth.
(22:03) Are you going to let me fuck it, gorgeous?
(22:04) yes
(22:05) pull my hair while you’re at it
(22:05) please
(22:07) You’re such a good girl.
(22:08) Do you want me to come in your mouth?
(22:09) yes
(22:09) i want to be your good girl
(22:35) You’ll be the end of me, won’t you?
(22:38) maybe
(22:39) have sweet dreams daemon
(22:39) You too, Rhaenyra.
FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 11TH
(18:03) im bored
(18:06) I’m busy.
(18:06) ugh fine
(21:04) I’m free now.
(21:04) good im still bored.
(21:05) It’s Friday, why don’t you go out?
(21:05) didn’t feel like it
(21:09) why don’t YOU go out
(21:10) even old people have a life
(21:13) I was going to, but my friend preferred to go on a date with a balding man she found on Tinder than wasting her time having sex with me when it’s not going to go anywhere serious.
(21:13) Her words not mine.
(21:14) aw seems tough
(21:14) you have it sooo hard
(21:15) Thanks for understanding, my cock is crying too. I knew I could count on you.
(21:15) don’t u have anybody else who wants to sleep w you
(21:16) Yeah, I’m talking to her right now.
(21:16) lol
(21:16) seriously
(21:17) i can’t be the only one
(21:17) No, you’re not.
(21:18) I’m just tired. Long day.
(21:20) want to hear about mine then
(21:21) Sure.
(21:22) okay first i had a class about data recollection and analysis
(21:22) it was 8am and i had only slept like 3 hours
(21:22) Why?
(21:23) im an insomniac
(21:23) i literally fell asleep like 10 min in
(21:23) this girl that sits next to me woke me up
(21:24) so i left
(21:25) How rebel of you.
(21:26) yeah im such a naughty girl punish me
(21:27) Careful.
(21:27) right ur old ass can’t handle a boner right now
(21:27) i’ll behave
(21:29) Thank you.
(21:29) anyways i left and i took a nap
(21:30) and the nap resulted in me waking up eight hours later
(21:33) Productive day.
(21:33) yes
(21:34) i texted my sugar
(21:34) he ignored me
(21:34) He was BUSY.
(21:35) he IGNORED ME
(21:36) i watched a shitty recording of a concert of my favourite band
(21:36) and my sugar came back
(21:38) Sounds like it was an eventful day.
(21:39) u can see why i was bored
(21:39) how was your day?
(21:42) Believe me, that will only bore you more.
(21:42) try me
(21:45) I had a meeting with some people my company is trying to seal a contract with. It went well. I reviewed a lot of papers, signed some, sent some back to get reviewed. Had another meeting.
(21:46) Uh, yeah, I think that’s it.
(21:48) pls there must be at least something that’s not corporate shit
(21:51) I yelled at some new intern who’s been annoying me for a month and still can’t make a coffee I like.
(21:52) oh yes
(21:52) i bet u look hot angry
(21:55) Are you always horny?
(21:55) obviously
(21:56) im 21
(21:57) Right. Such a lovely age.
(22:01) do you usually go for girls my age?
(22:03) Not really. Last time I slept with someone under 25 I was 28 myself. And she was 23, so not that big of a gap.
(22:03) Girls your age get attached too easily.
(22:04) I don’t have time for that.
(22:05) and older women don’t
(22:07) When you reach 30 you usually know what you’re looking for. You want to settle or you don’t. The ones who want to settle don’t bother with ones who are not looking for settling, they just keep searching until they find the one that wants to.
(22:08) so you’re part of the group that doesn’t want to settle
(22:10) Not at the moment. Like I said, I don’t really have much time for that. Dating requires energy and effort that I prefer to put to work. It’s like a part time job that doesn’t pay.
(22:11) that’s such a cold way to see relationships
(22:15) It is what it is, sweetheart. Most people don’t marry because of love, they marry because it’s convenient. It’s just two people who have a common interest in having a family and think they’ve found what they think is a decent match who’ll do it for them. Same reason why people cheat so much. Same reason why so many divorces happen.
(22:16) i see you have strong opinions about the subject
(22:17) You become 35 and is all people ask about.
(22:19) Do you want to get married?
(22:22) i don’t know
(22:25) maybe
(22:25) definitely not to criston
(22:26) but it must be nice if you really love the person. they’re there for you, you’re there for them. you know they chose you and you chose them, out of everyone in this world
(22:27) and you also have somebody you can have sex with every day
(22:26) That’s the actual dream, isn’t it?
(22:28) that’ll be on my vows
(22:28) no till death do us apart, till lack of sex does
(22:30) That seems like a better deal.
(22:30) I reckon that’d be nice. Having someone to eat out every morning before I go out to work and to fuck every evening when I come home from work.
(22:32) heyy
(22:32) you don’t need to get married for that
(22:32) you just need to say yes to be my sugar daddy
(22:32) and i’ve got you
(22:35) I’m starting to feel you just want to call me daddy so bad and this sugar business is just an excuse.
(22:36) i don’t have a daddy kink okay
(22:36) i just have this fantasy of having a hot rich partner that takes care of me financially while i follow my dreams
(22:37) it’s silly
(22:38) It’s not.
(22:38) I wish someone would have done that for me.
(22:39) What’s your dream? Becoming a fashion designer?
(22:41) yeah
(22:41) i want to create my own brand
(22:41) i already have some plans for it, i just need the money to start
(22:42) i don’t even think i need to finish uni for it, a lot of it it’s just academic bullshit
(22:42) but my dad’s paying for it so might as well finish it
(22:43) Wouldn’t your dad help you with your brand?
(22:43) nah
(22:44) he made it quite clear that if i wasn’t interested in taking on the family business i had to work for what i wanted
(22:44) Bit shit if you ask me.
(22:45) If I had kids and had the money to help them achieve what they wanted, I would give it to them. It’s a bit pathetic to expect your children to want to follow your same path or fend for themselves if they don’t.
(22:48) yeah i think so too
(22:48) he just has this weird obsession with legacy and as i don’t have any siblings i’m “the heir”
(22:49) i did try working there once, the summer after i graduated, and he got mad anytime i dared to criticize anything he did, just sent me to listen his stupid meetings but shut me up whenever i commented on anything
(22:49) so i decided to stay the fuck away from it
(22:50) Some men have such big egos they cannot conceive being told they are in the wrong. And a boss that doesn’t let anybody tell them they are in the wrong, dooms their company to failure sooner or later.
(22:51) he does let his right hand tell him anything he likes
(22:51) fuck i hate that man
(22:51) Letting a stranger instead of his daughter. Hilarious.
(22:52) i know right
(22:52) fuck
(22:52) im sleepy
(22:52) Go rest, sweetheart.
(22:53) We can keep shitting on entitled men another day.
(22:53) hahah
(22:53) i really like talking to u
(22:54) Me too
(22:54) Goodnight
(22:54) nighty night
SATURDAY, NOVEMBER 12TH
(13:04) what’s your favourite song?
(13:12) I don’t think I have one.
(13:13) please tell me it’s because you can’t choose and not because you don’t like music
(13:13) Can’t choose.
(13:14) Are there actual people who don’t like music?
(13:15) tragically yes
(13:15) Their loss.
(13:15) I have a favourite album, though.
(13:18) which one?
(13:20) The Soft Parade by the Doors
(13:21) can’t say i’ve heard it
(13:22) Most people consider it their worst album, as Jim Morrison didn’t write most of it which made the lyrics a bit simpler than their usual stuff.
(13:23) why is it your favourite?
(13:26) Sentimental reasons, I reckon. Someone I cared about gave the record to me and it stuck with me.
(13:27) The songs are beautiful, though. They lack the poetry filled with metaphors that Jim wrote, but they are soothing.
(13:28) i’ll listen to it
(13:28) Enjoy.
(13:35) any plans for today?
(13:37) Got to run some errands later.
(13:37) You?
(13:37) have to see criston
(13:38) Have to. Interesting choice of words.
(13:39) yeah
(13:39) he gets annoying if i don’t see him on the weekends
(13:42) Can I ask you something that might be a bit personal? You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to.
(13:44) okay
(13:45) Why are you with him?
(13:45) It’s clear you don’t like him very much.
(13:50) to be honest, i’ve been asking myself the same question lately
(13:51) How long have you been together?
(13:52) five months
(13:55) i like him, i do
(13:55) it’s just…
(13:56) You don’t love him.
(13:56) yeah…. i don’t
(13:57) i tried to convince myself that i did, i mean he’s everything i should want in a boyfriend, caring, supportive… but i feel like there must be more to it than just that, you know? my heart doesn’t quicken when i see him, i don’t long for him when he’s away, my chest doesn’t ache at the thought of not having him
(13:58) You said it yourself. He’s everything you should want, doesn’t mean he’s everything you want.
(13:58) Society has led us to believe there’s certain requirements that a person must have to be adequate. But not all of us wish for the same things, that notion that you should want a bloke because he’s doing the bare minimum for you it’s ridiculous.
(13:59) Should you love him just because he listens to your problems? Because he remembers your birthday? Because he gives you gifts? That’s what he’s supposed to do, Rhaenyra, it doesn’t make him special.
(14:03) it really is the bare minimum, isn’t it?
(14:03) my friend alicent is the one always telling me i should be more appreciative and i’m lucky to have a boyfriend who cares
(14:04) it’s not my fault all her boyfriends have been arseholes who treat her like shit
(14:04) you know what she said when i told her i’m thinking of breaking up with him? “rhaenyra you know it’ll be ages before you find someone who’s willing to put up with you like he does?”
(14:06) she’s always saying i should be “thankful” because he doesn’t argue with me, or he doesn’t complain if i’m a bitch, or when i get mad at him he lets it be his fault just to avoid having us being mad
(14:06) what if sometimes i want us being mad? is it really that bad that’d i’d like us to fight and have crazy make up sex after? instead of getting a bloke saying he’s sorry for everything even if there’s nothing to be sorry about
(14:07) shit this makes me sounds like i’m a horrible person
(14:07) You’re not a horrible person for wanting that.
(14:08) If you wanted someone who’d obey everything you say and never contradict you, you’d get a puppy, not a boyfriend.
(14:08) i guess i was trying to give it time, see if the love came eventually… but it hasn’t happened yet and i don’t think it will
(14:08) how did we go from the doors to me venting about my relationship lol
(14:09) You just love to talk that much.
(14:10) does it bother you?
(14:10) No
(14:10) not even a little?
(14:11) If it did, I wouldn’t answer. It’s quite simple to do.
(14:11) it is isn’t it
(14:11) well i better get ready
(14:12) Me as well.
(15:59) Attachment: 1 image
(15:59) how do i look?
(19:45) Delectable.
(19:45) Sorry, I was busy.
(20:53) its ok
(20:53) im home now
(20:54) i think ill sleep early
(20:55) Rest well.
(20:55) thankyou
(20:55) u2
SUNDAY, NOVEMBER 13TH
(15:01) the mask that you wore
(15:01) my fingers would explore
(15:01) costume of control
(15:02) excitement soon unfolds
(15:03) Ah, you listened to the album.
(15:03) call the queen nowww
(15:04) be my bridee
(15:04) RAGIN DARKNESS BY MY SIDE
(15:05) Seize the summer in your pride
(15:05) take the winter in your stride let’s ridee
(15:06) Hahah
(15:06) Easy Ride is an underrated song. I’m glad you liked it.
(15:07) it’s a good album
(15:07) you have good taste
(15:07) You should listen to the rest of their albums they are great too.
(15:08) i will
(15:08) also jim morrison?
(15:09) total hottie
(15:09) That he was
(15:09) How did the rest of your Saturday go?
(15:11) fun
(15:11) i fought with criston
(15:12) What about?
(15:12) you actually
(15:12) Care to elaborate?
(15:13) well we went out
(15:13) i went to the loo and left my phone on the table and you texted me that very moment
(15:13) he knows my password so he just went through our convo and when i came back he was crying
(15:14) Wow
(15:14) mhm
(15:14) he didn’t even get to us sexting, he was just reading what i said about not loving him
(15:15) then started saying you were ruining our relationship, to which i said don’t be ridiculous i’ve been talking to him for less than a week
(15:15) he even asked if i loved you
(15:15) all this while still crying
(15:16) and we were at a restaurant
(15:16) it was a total shit show
(15:16) He sounds pathetic if you ask me.
(15:17) i got angry that he was looking through my phone without permission
(15:17) like who the fuck does he think he is
(15:17) so i told him it was best if we broke up and left
(15:18) Good riddance
(15:18) How do you feel?
(15:19) relieved?
(15:19) i thought i would feel bad, but i don’t feel much of anything honestly
(15:20) That’s good.
(15:20) Life is too short to force yourself to be with someone you don’t want.
(15:25) you know…
(15:25) this will sound stupid
(15:26) Tell me anyway.
(15:27) texting you felt like a sign
(15:27) like the fact that i couldn’t even remember his number correctly and was happier talking to you than to him was quite telling
(15:28) Well, I’m glad it was worth it.
(15:28) me too
(15:29) now send me a nude i’m sad
(15:33) You are not sad.
(15:33) But I’m a good daddy.
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(15:36) fuck
(15:36) you are