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Going to school was already a hard thing. But... They have Rui. They have An. They had Ena.
" It's not like he tries to hide it!"
"I thought you were a normal girl."
Of course Ena is normal. She doesn't have anything to hide. Ena is a good person, she was so patient when talking about my secret.
"Mizuki! Wait!"
In the middle of the hallway. During the school festival. At the end of the day. The day Mizuki finally gathered courage. The courage to tell Ena their secret. This courage they had built for years, with the help of so many. With the trust of so many.
"Ena… Ena, you're... You're so kind."
"But... Why! Why with me... It's disgusting. I can't just accept it!"
If only I had told her sooner.
If only I was normal.
If only I could be a normal guy.
"Ena... I'm sorry. To you. To Nightcord. To everyone. Everyone treats me so kindly, so patiently. I don't deserve it… You should just give up already."
"If you walk with me... If we go out together… People will just look at us weirdly, and you don't deserve this."
"Mizuki, this... this..."
"I'm sorry, Ena... Please, tell Kanade and Mafuyu I'm sorry..."
If only I told her sooner…
If only I told her sooner…
"It's all my fault."
"I'm the only one to blame."
They couldn't go home. It would be a shame. So excited and talking about it non-stop at home. Their mom would, of course, be worried. They can't stand affection and sympathy like this. Why would people be nice about something that is completely their fault. They're the one to blame. Of course, those guys could have kept their mouths shut, but still...
"Ahh, this is too much..."
I'm just a useless kid who likes skipping school and stays all day on Nightcord.
If only I would be a normal son. If only I could be a daughter. If only Yuuki wasn't so understanding.
Mom, dad... I was just this problematic and good-for-nothing child.
Yuuki... I'm sorry for always giving you a headache.
Rui… Such a genius. You deserved a much better friend.
An... This is just one of thousands of times I missed school.
Ena... You could just forget me. It would be easier for the both of us.
Nightcord... They can just find another editor.
Shibuya feels colder than usual. They should find somewhere else to stay.
Oh, poor Mizuki. Being a victim of their own self. How pathetic.
"I thought you were a normal girl."
"This..."
I could just buy a male uniform. Considering my situation, the school would be thrilled. I also could just stop wearing extensions and cut a bit of my hair.
Giving it a week. Just sort out thoughts and know how to approach the others.
Oh, well. Just take this like a videogame! Like an anime! I'll just need to hide for a while and come back like nothing happened!
Ahh…