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The rain had not stopped since sunrise.
It slicked the stones of the old Warden outpost, turned the muddy paths into mirror-dark rivulets, and soaked the travel-worn cloaks of the two figures stepping through the threshold. Rook and Lucanis had barely spoken since leaving Davrin in Lavendell. If they were being honest, since they had almost kissed in the pantry weeks ago. The air between them held the kind of weight that came not from silence itself, but from all the things unspoken beneath it.
The Warden who greeted them barely looked up from his parchment. His eyes were ringed with sleepless shadows, the grey of exhaustion painting every line of his face. He muttered something apologetic about limited space, gestured vaguely down a corridor heavy with damp, and left them to find their way. The room they were led to was small—just wide enough for the narrow bed pressed into one corner and a modest table with a cracked basin. A single chair sat beneath a fogged window, its cushion threadbare and pale with dust. The hearth was cold, a pile of ash slumped in its belly, and the only light came from a lantern swinging gently on its hook, casting long, wavering shadows across the stone.
Rook took one look at the bed and blew a soft breath through her nose, half a laugh, half surrender. Lucanis said nothing.
They stood in the middle of the room, the weight of the day dripping from their cloaks, their boots, their bones. The smell of wet earth clung to them both. Rook turned to face him, her curls damp and frizzed at the edges, the corner of her mouth tugging into something almost amused.
"You're brooding again," she said lightly, the barest thread of teasing woven through her tone. "I bet they can see that frown from Lavendell." She stepped closer towards him, forcing his eyes to meet hers as her voice softened, "It's fine, Lucanis."
His name sat heavy in her mouth, but heavier still was the weight in his chest as he heard it. Ever since the pantry—since that split-second moment when her breath had mingled with his, when she'd looked at him like she saw through every wall he’d built—he’d been spiralling. Not outward, not visibly. Inward. Collapsing into a cage of cold professionalism, where distance was safety and silence a form of penance. He had tried to treat her like any other teammate, to push the memory of her closeness into the dark. But she was not forgettable. She was in every silence, every glance, every too-long pause when they were alone. And now, in this too-small room, with her voice light and dangerous in its casualness, he felt himself unravelling again.
Lucanis dragged his eyes away from hers, away from the too-small bed. He kept them fixed on the far wall, where a spider had spun a fine web between the lantern and the cracked plaster. "I'm not brooding."
Rook shrugged off her cloak and tossed it over the chair. Rain tapped gently against the glass. "Whatever you say. Like I said, it's fine. We're both professionals, right?"
Something in the way she said it—not sharp, not mocking, just too casual—made his jaw tighten. Like she was daring him to say otherwise. Like she knew exactly what she was doing.
He turned away, reaching for the buckles of his cloak. "I’ll take the floor."
Rook, halfway through unfastening the leather bracers at her wrists, paused. Her brows lifted. "You’re serious."
Lucanis unhooked the clasp at his shoulder. "It’s not a problem. I’ve slept on worse."
"Oh, come on. Don’t be ridiculous," she said, pulling her bracer free with a sharp tug. "The floor is freezing. And you’ll be useless tomorrow with a crick in your spine."
"I’ve managed before."
She let out a short laugh, exasperated. "Why do you do this? You always default to self-denial like it’s some kind of virtue."
He glanced at her. "It’s not self-denial. It’s courtesy."
"No," she said, undoing the straps of her chestplate. "It’s childish. And stubborn."
Lucanis scowled as he tugged off his gloves. "It’s professional."
Rook said nothing for a beat, slipping the armour from her shoulders. Her shirt beneath clung to her in damp lines. She peeled a strand of hair from her cheek and arched a brow at him. "Yes. You are a consummate professional, Lucanis. Now get into the bed, you're not the only one who knows how to draw a line."
"I'm drawing one now," he muttered, unbuckling his sheath.
"No," she said, voice rising just slightly, "you're throwing it like a shield. There's a difference."
He snorted softly, not meeting her eyes. "You always think you know what I'm doing."
"I don't have to think, I can see it. You're twisting yourself into knots to avoid the fact that we're two people, alone, sharing a bed, and maybe you're scared of what you'll want."
He turned sharply, the strap of his greave snapping free. "You think this is easy for me?"
Rook looked at him then—really looked as she unstrapped the holster around her thigh. "No. I think you're making it harder than it has to be. You don't get a prize for martyrdom, Crow."
The room filled with the rustle of damp leather and the soft clink of buckles. They undressed in tandem, each movement sharper now, more purposeful, as if the tempo of their disagreement kept their hands moving. The argument served as a cover—something to keep their fingers from hesitating, their eyes from lingering, the heat under their skin disguised as irritation rather than unbearable want.
Until Lucanis stilled.
His gaze caught on her side—just above the waistband of her trousers, where a steady patch of red was blooming through the soaked fabric. Not vivid, but dark. Steady. Fresh.
"You're bleeding," he said, voice lower now. The edge of frustration was gone, replaced by something sharper. Quieter. A note of alarm wrapped in steel.
Rook glanced down, then hissed softly as she pressed her fingers to it. "Must've reopened. It's nothing."
Lucanis was already moving. He crossed to his pack, pulled out the small bundle of salves and wrappings. When he turned, his expression had shifted—calm, focused, implacable. The same face he wore when blood was already on the blade.
"Sit."
Rook hesitated, then did.
He knelt before her, unwrapping the clean linen with the same reverent precision he gave to his weapons. When his fingers found the hem of her shirt, he paused. Looked up at her.
Permission. Always, permission.
She lifted her arms in quiet assent. He peeled the damp fabric upwards, exposing the wound—a raw, angry gash, the skin surrounding it inflamed, puckered. Blood welled up at the edges, bright and wet and defiant.
Lucanis sucked in a breath through his nose and set his jaw. His hands were steady, but his stomach clenched at the sight of her hurt, at the way she barely flinched. He dabbed at it with a cloth first, and her breath hitched—so quiet, but so close. Then the antiseptic: it bit into the wound like fire, and Rook’s fingers twitched against the sheets. Still, she didn’t pull away.
He worked slowly, carefully, like he was afraid to break her. His fingers brushed bare skin in the process—just the edge of her ribs, the hollow of her waist—and each contact echoed with too much meaning. She smelled of rain and salt and something faintly metallic, something vital.
Rook watched him, her voice low. "You’re angry."
His hands paused, briefly. "I missed it," he said eventually. "You were injured, and I missed it."
She had been walking beside him all day, bleeding, and he was furious with himself for not noticing. For letting his pride, his restraint, cloud the sharpness that should never have dulled. He was angry at how easily she bled. At how easily she accepted pain. At how close she was now, and how much it cost him to keep his hands measured and clean.
He wrapped the bandage around her slowly, carefully. Not too tight, but firm enough to hold. His knuckles grazed the curve of her spine as he tied the final knot.
When he finished, he didn’t move away.
The air between them thickened. Close. Charged. Her breath stirred against his cheek, and still he didn’t move.
He could feel the warmth of her skin through the space that barely separated them, could see the slow rise and fall of her chest, the sharp green of her eyes locked on him with something unreadable and vast. Something inside him coiled tight. Hope, or fear, or hunger. Maybe all three.
Then, as if the thread between them had pulled too taut—
"I’ll take the floor," Lucanis said, too quiet. Almost a whisper.
He stood, abruptly, retreating a few steps. Grabbing a cushion from the chair and a blanket from the bed with more force than necessary. She said nothing, only watched him with an expression like smoke.
The distance reasserted itself with a sharpness neither of them acknowledged.
But it lived between them anyway—louder than words, heavier than silence. It threaded through the scrape of the chair against the stone, the slow drag of the blanket from the bed. His back was turned, shoulders taut as a bowstring, but she could see the fight still living in his spine. Not anger. Longing. The kind that aches like a bruise when touched. And she felt it, too—sharp and aching and impossibly tender—as she watched him make a bed on the floor he had no business on, putting inches between them as if that might stop the weight of what they both refused to name from pressing down between the sheets.
The room had long since fallen into stillness. The fire never caught, and the last time Rook tried to rely on her magic to do so, she had set fire to the curtains of the dining hall, so the cold remained, sinking into the stones and the marrow alike. Lucanis lay on the floor with a blanket too thin to ward off the chill and a cushion that flattened the moment he put his weight to it. His body ached—not from battle, not from blood, but from the quiet punishment of proximity and denial. The bed creaked now and then above him, her shifting weight a reminder of everything he'd refused.
He kept his eyes shut, willing his limbs to be still, his breath to remain even. Spite twitched beneath his skin, unsettled, restless. It grumbled low in his chest, a twitch of phantom wings against his back, a ripple of irritation along his spine. The floor was stone. Unforgiving. The blanket smelled like dust and old ash, and every sound Rook made above him sliced through the dark like a spark.
She turned again, with a frustrated huff. Rain tapped against the window in a slow, steady rhythm. Wind moaned softly through the cracks in the wall. Lucanis gritted his teeth and pressed deeper into the chill, as though the cold could chase away the heat rising in his chest. The shape of her silhouette above him, the way she'd looked at him after the wound, the weight of her breath when he'd tied the bandage—it all hovered in his mind like embers refusing to die.
A long breath, another shift of the sheets as Rook huffs. Even in the pitch dark, he can see her in his mind's eye, running a frustrated hand through her hair. "This is ridiculous."
Her voice floated down from the bed, soft and dry with tired amusement. Before he could open his mouth to respond, something soft and light hit his shoulder. A pillow. He blinked.
"Come on," Rook said, voice clearer now. "Get up here."
Lucanis didn't move. Didn't speak.
He felt her sigh, could almost hear her roll her eyes. The bed creaked again as she pushed herself up. The rustle of covers, the muffled thud of her bare feet on stone. A soft groan of discomfort as she lowered herself beside him on the floor, gathering the blanket around her shoulders.
He turned her head, barely daring to look at her. She sat beside him, cross-legged, curls a shadowy halo around her face. Her arms were tucked close to her chest, and she shivered once before settling.
"You're absurd," she murmured, not looking at him. "And proud. And needlessly self-sacrificing. And your floor manners are abysmal."
Lucanis blinked again, then exhaled—short, sharp, nearly a laugh. Something warm cracked open in his chest.
She tilted her head towards him, eyes flicking over his expression. "Come to bed, Lucanis. I promise not to bite…" her face split into a teasing grin, and he knew he was done for. "Unless you ask."
It broke whatever was holding him in place. He sat up, slow and careful, the blanket sliding from his shoulders. She stood without another word and stepped back towards the bed. He followed.
They didn't speak as they slipped beneath the covers. The sheets were thin but warm from her body. He kept to the edge, careful not to touch, his muscles taut with restraint. She lay facing away from him, curls a vibrant tumble on the pillow in the dark of the room. Her breathing slowed, steadied. Still, the warmth between them pulsed like a live thing.
Lucanis stared at the ceiling, the dark painted with flickering shadows from the lantern's final, dying light. For the first time all night, he didn't feel the cold, just the burning heat which he couldn't quite bring himself to dim entirely.
The dark wrapped around them like a second blanket—denser than the thin linen sheet they now shared, heavier than silence. The only sound was the pulse of rain against the windowpane and the slow, uncertain rhythm of two people pretending not to exist within arm’s reach of each other.
Lucanis lay on his back, rigid, eyes wide open in the dark. The ceiling was just a void above him now, featureless, but it didn't matter—he wasn't really seeing it. His every sense was attuned to her. To the way the mattress dipped just slightly towards her weight. To the rustle of the sheet as she shifted. To the steady, maddening warmth radiating from the space she occupied. It reached for him like smoke. Like a tide.
He inhaled slowly, carefully, like even breath might betray him.
Spite stirred faintly inside his chest, the faintest shimmer of wings along the inside of his rib cage. Displeasure. Restlessness. A silent snarl coiled in his gut. The spirit loathed this kind of half-measured self-control. So did deep, clawing part of Lucanis. But he couldn't move. He wouldn't.
The bed creaked.
Rook was too close, the warmth of her was a living thing, leaking into the inches between them. The bed dipped subtly toward her weight, a gravitational pull that his body noticed even as his will refused to respond. The blanket between them was inadequate armour. Her scent lingered—jasmine, citrus, rain—and the air held the faint electrical hum of her magic, as if a storm had passed and left its ghost behind.
He clenched his jaw, forced stillness into his limbs. His body was a clenched fist beneath the covers, muscles taut, breath shallow. He could feel her shifting beside him—slow, tentative. Not asleep.
The quiet stretched, elongated. The kind of silence that said too much.
Then, finally, she broke it.
"It's strange," Rook said, voice soft, no more than a breath in the dark. "To feel safe here."
Lucanis didn’t answer. At first.
Then, after a pause so long it could have been mistaken for absence, he murmured, "I don’t think I remember what safe feels like."
She exhaled, not quite a sigh. Not quite agreement. The kind of sound that wanted to curl inward.
"Maybe it’s just... the quiet," she said. "The knowing someone else is listening. Even if they don’t say anything."
Lucanis closed his eyes. He could feel her words, like fingertips brushing the edge of something buried in him. Something old. Something afraid.
"I hear you," he said, barely audible.
The quiet that followed wasn’t hollow this time. It was charged. Gentle, but thrumming.
Then: the faintest graze of her hand against his under the covers. Accidental, maybe. Maybe not.
He went still. Breath trapped in his chest. The place of contact buzzed with awareness—skin to skin through the lightest touch, as if her fingers had pressed a brand into his.
Nothing moved.
Then it happened again.
Deliberate.
Her fingers brushed his again, slower this time. Lingered. She didn’t say a word. Didn’t apologise. Just left the touch there like a question.
Lucanis turned his head toward her. The room was too dark to see her expression, but he didn’t need to. He could feel it—the careful watching. The waiting.
And still, he didn’t pull away.
Instead, he turned his hand, slowly, deliberately, until their palms met. His fingers slid between hers, interlacing, holding. The contact was full, unflinching. A silent answer, trembling with the weight of everything he couldn't yet say.
Rook’s thumb brushed lightly along his. He felt her breath catch—barely there, but real. Her grip tightened, just a little, just enough.
They didn’t speak. They didn’t need to.
In the dark, they simply held on. Their hands remained locked together, quiet and unmoving beneath the covers—but neither of them slept.
Lucanis turned slowly, the brush of linen whispering against his skin. He didn't let go of her hand. Rook turned too, meeting him in the halfway dark, until they lay facing each other, their joined hands a bridge between them. The space was nothing—barely a breath. He could feel the heat of her exhale when she breathed, could see the faint outline of her features in the silvery wash of moonlight that had finally pushed its way through the clouds.
Her eyes were open. Watching him. Just as wide and restless as his.
The tension between them crested—no longer a quiet thread, but something taut and trembling. A wire drawn tight, one spark away from snapping. It pulsed in the space between their lips, in the grip of her fingers around his, in the beat of his heart suddenly too loud in his ears.
Rook's voice was a murmur in the dark, soft but certain. "Don't run from me again, Lucanis."
He closed his eyes, as if it might help. As if it could shield him from the rawness in her voice, the way she laid herself bare so easily, so fearlessly. It was a kind of bravery he'd never mastered.
"I'd rather the silence," she said, "the aching distance, the pretending—than you running from me again."
Lucanis inhaled sharply through his nose. His throat felt thick.
The moment stretched long enough that she might've thought he wouldn't answer.
When he did, his voice was low, raw with all the things he hadn't said.
"I don't want to run. I didn't then, either."
His fingers flexed around hers, the smallest motion—barely a tremor.
"I wanted to kiss you."
"I know," she whispered. "But you ran."
Another beat of silence fell, dense and cruel, and Lucanis felt the sting of it like a blade—sure he had shattered something delicate and irreplaceable. The one bright, impossible light he had dared to want, slipping through his fingers like smoke.
Then her voice broke through the quiet—soft, aching.
"I wanted to kiss you, too."
It was all the permission he needed.
He leaned in slowly, as if the movement itself might undo him. As if she might vanish. His lips hovered a breath from hers, close enough to feel the shape of her anticipation, the way she held still, waiting.
The moment cracked.
The space between them gave way, caving to the ache they had both carried like armour. No words, no final hesitations—just the slow, aching lean across the inches that had always felt like miles.
His mouth found hers in the dark, and he felt the brittle wall of his restraint shatter like untempered glass.
Soft, at first. Cautious, like the beginning of something fragile. Her lips were warm against his, and the contact sent a shiver through his chest so sudden, so consuming, it left him breathless. She tilted into it gently, mouth parting, seeking. It was not a claiming, not yet. It was a meeting.
Then deeper.
The second kiss held depth, want, hunger held too long beneath the surface. His hand left hers only to find her waist, the line of her spine beneath the sheets. Her fingers slid up to his jaw, thumb stroking the scar there as if to say: I know you. Still, I choose this.
Desire spilled in—not in a rush, but like a tide that had been waiting. Quiet but urgent. All the restraint from the past weeks bled out between their mouths. Every stolen glance, every silence filled with what they did not say, every touch avoided—all of it burned now, igniting along their skin.
Words became meaningless in the face of it. There was only breath, the press of mouths and hands, the trembling weight of finally letting go. They found each other in the dark, not with desperation, but with a kind of reverence born of restraint held too long.
Outside, the rain had broken into a storm.
It battered the outpost with sharp gusts and lashing sheets, wind curling through the shutters with a low howl, rattling the wooden frame of the window. But neither of them seemed to notice. The world had narrowed to the heat under the sheets, the weight of breath shared in the space between them, the shape of a body longed for and finally allowed.
Their mouths parted only when they had to—when breath became a necessity, not a choice. Lucanis drew back just enough to look at her. Her lips were kiss-bruised and soft, her eyes half-lidded and glinting even in the dark. She was so beautiful it hurt. He pressed a kiss to her cheekbone, reverent. Another to her temple. Her eyelids. The hollow beneath her jaw. Each one slower than the last, deliberate, as if he could memorise her skin with his mouth alone.
Rook laughed, low and bright and quiet, the sound blooming between them like starlight in the darkness of the room. Her fingers threaded into his hair, curling there, tugging gently as she brought him back to her lips for another kiss. This one was less frantic—less the dam bursting, and more the flood that followed: inevitable, deep. His hand slid to her waist, fingers splaying against the dip of her side, holding her as if to anchor himself.
Her own hand moved then—slow, almost absent-minded in its curiosity, leaving sparks along its path against his heated skin. Her fingertips brushed his abdomen, traced the ridges of old scars along his torso. One at a time. Each pass made his breath stutter, ever place she touched lighting up with sensation. Maker, he hadn't been touched like this in years, if at all. He had certainly never been touched like this by someone who mattered.
Lucanis exhaled shakily against her mouth, then lowered his head again, this time to her throat. He kissed a slow line along her neck, following the pulse beneath her skin, then down across the curve of her shoulder. Her breath hitched when his tongue flicked lightly against her collarbone, her body arching into him.
He wanted to touch her everywhere.
One of his hands slid upwards beneath her shirt—slow, tentative. His fingers trembled slightly as they followed the curve of her rib cage, pausing just beneath the swell of her breast. He didn't move further, waiting for permission once more.
She arched against him, a breathy moan leaving her lips, and he swore he felt it all the way down to his spine. That sound—soft, unguarded—nearly undid him.
He moved.
He cupped her breast, gently, thumb brushing over the nipple in slow, deliberate strokes. She gasped, her fingers curling against his shoulder, nails scraping lightly across his skin. Her hips shifted, pressing against him with aching precision, and he sucked in a sharp breath, burying his face against her neck as he tried to hold himself together.
Lucanis had never felt anything like this.
He could count every sexual encounter he’d ever had on one hand, and none of them had meant what this did. None of them had felt like standing on a precipice, hoping the fall might be worth it. None of them had been Rook.
So he focused. Paid attention.
He learned the way she gasped when he rolled her nipple between his fingers. The way her back arched when his kisses dipped lower, teeth grazing skin just lightly enough to tease. The way her body trembled—not from cold, but from want. He watched her. Listened to her. Let her guide him with every breath, every sigh.
Lucanis had always been a quick learner. And now, with Rook trembling beneath him, he gave himself over to learning her. The sounds she made when he kissed just below her ear. The way her body arched when he rolled her nipple between his fingers, slow and careful. The way her breath hitched, turned ragged, when he slid his knee between her thighs and pressed just enough to make her gasp again.
She guided him with her body, her hands, the arch of her spine and the tilt of her hips. And he listened. He worshipped. He devoured. The storm outside howled, but in this bed, Lucanis was lost in the storm of her.
He wanted more. Needed more.
His mouth trailed lower, worshipping a path down her torso. He kissed every inch of skin as he bared it, lifting her shirt with care, with reverence. His hands steadied her as he pressed his lips to the dip between her ribs, to the soft skin above her navel, each kiss earning a new sound, a new tremble.
When he reached the waistband of her trousers, he paused. Looked up. Waited.
Rook’s gaze met his, heavy with heat, and she nodded, her hands already moving to help him.
He undressed her slowly, drinking in every revealed inch of her as if memorising it to sketch later in shadow and silence. She was luminous, even in the dark. Moonlight kissed her curves, rain drummed a rhythm against the roof, and Lucanis felt like he was praying.
He returned to her body with mouth and hands, reverent and insatiable, his own arousal now a throb beneath his skin, insistent and impossible to ignore. Rook’s legs parted for him without hesitation, the heat of her welcoming him with a trust that made his chest ache. Her breath caught as he kissed the inside of her thigh—first one, then the other—slow, wet presses of his lips against the silken skin, dragging his mouth higher with maddening care.
He buried his face between her legs like a man starved, his hands gripping her thighs, anchoring himself there as he kissed her folds, nuzzling into her warmth. His tongue flicked out, slow at first, tracing the seam of her, teasing her open. Her moan was soft, strangled, her hips lifting instinctively to chase more.
Lucanis gave it to her. He licked into her with slow precision, savouring every taste, every tremble. He circled her clit with the flat of his tongue, then sucked gently, pulling another gasp from her lips that sent heat flooding through him. She was slick and sweet, her pleasure blooming under his touch like fire catching on dry grass.
Her fingers found his hair again, tightening with every moan she couldn't swallow down. She rocked her hips against his mouth, chasing rhythm, chasing release. He adjusted to her, followed her cues—flicking, stroking, then flattening his tongue again, dragging it firm and slow. Her thighs clenched around his head and he groaned into her, the sound sending a vibration through her that made her keen.
Her cries became breathless, broken things, each one sharper than the last. Her hand clutched at the sheets, her body a taut bow beneath his mouth. He sucked her again, circling the swollen nub with increasing urgency until her whole body went rigid.
Rook came with a gasp that shattered into a cry, hips arching, thighs trembling, every muscle seizing with the force of it. Her climax rolled through her in waves, shuddering and raw. He held her through it, never letting go, licking her gently through the aftershocks, murmuring soft, reverent things into the heat of her skin—words he didn’t know he was saying, only that he meant every one.
Her fingers loosened in his hair, and he pressed one last kiss to the inside of her thigh before crawling back up her body, slow and thorough. He kissed her lips again, letting her taste herself on his tongue, and she kissed him back without hesitation, drawing him down into the cradle of her body, already reaching for the ties at his waist.
The storm outside raged on, wild and relentless. But inside the bed, Lucanis surrendered—entirely, hungrily, to her.
Lucanis didn't stop her. He let her undress him, her fingers clumsy with urgency and lingering tremors. When his trousers slid down his hips and she wrapped her hand around him, he groaned—a low, unguarded sound that vibrated from his chest. Her touch was exploratory, reverent, stroking him with the same unhurried intent he had shown her. Every movement was deliberate, and he swore the heat of her hand alone could unravel him.
He caught her wrist gently and leaned in, kissing her again. This time the kiss was slower, molten with promise. Their bodies pressed together, bare skin meeting in a rush of warmth and friction. His cock brushed against her thigh, slick with need, and she shifted her hips beneath him, opening for him with a breathless invitation.
Lucanis guided himself to her entrance, pausing—always asking. Rook met his gaze, her voice barely a whisper. "Please."
He pushed into her slowly, inch by aching inch, until he was buried to the hilt, surrounded by her warmth. Her breath hitched, eyes fluttering closed, and he bit down on the inside of his cheek to keep from losing control too soon. She felt perfect—tight, hot, and welcoming. He braced his arms beside her, watching her face, memorising every flicker of sensation that crossed her expression.
They moved together, finding a rhythm built on soft gasps and long, drawn-out moans. Lucanis moved slowly at first, savouring the way her body responded to each thrust, the way her legs curled around his hips, holding him closer, deeper. Every glide of skin on skin, every clutch of her fingers in his hair or his back, pulled him closer to the edge.
He buried his face in her neck as he moved, kissing her skin, whispering her name like a prayer. Her nails raked lightly down his back, and she moaned his name, breathless and breaking.
"Lucanis..."
His pace faltered, hips stuttering as he pressed deeper, slower. She clenched around him and he swore, forehead resting against hers. Their breaths mingled, their bodies slick and trembling. He was so close, so desperately close, but he wanted to fall with her.
Her hand found his cheek, her thumb brushing his lower lip.
"Don’t hold back anymore."
He didn’t.
Lucanis thrust into her harder now, chasing that peak with a hungry, reverent desperation. She matched him, rolling her hips up to meet every movement, their bodies slapping together in a rhythm that felt like the only thing anchoring them to the world.
She came again with a cry, back arching, her walls fluttering around him, pulling him with her. He buried himself in her one final time and came with a groan that sounded like it had been torn from his soul, shuddering with release as he buried his face in the crook of her neck, trembling, undone.
They clung to each other through the aftershocks, their bodies tangled and slick with sweat, their hearts thudding and cacophonous in the aftermath.
Their bodies remained tangled in the hush that followed, the air thick with the warmth they hadn’t dared admit to until now. The storm still whispered at the windows, a ghost of its former fury, but inside the room, everything had stilled. Their heartbeats no longer raced—but beat in slow, synchronised thuds, as if finding a rhythm together for the first time.
Lucanis breathed deeply, forehead pressed to Rook’s temple, her scent wrapped around him like smoke and rain. His hand still rested at her waist, fingers splayed as if to remind himself that she was truly there—that this had happened, that she was still letting him hold her.
Rook shifted slightly in his arms, the motion smooth and slow. Her hand trailed up his chest, fingers brushing over the rapid thrum of his heart, then stopped.
“This wasn’t how I imagined the night ending,” she murmured, voice barely above a whisper, not teasing but raw with something that edged too close to real.
Lucanis let out a breath that almost resembled a laugh, roughened by exhaustion and something deeper. “You imagined it ending with me sleeping on the floor?”
Her nose scrunched softly against his jaw. “Something like that. Maybe with a bit more sulking.”
He huffed quietly, the sound warm against her skin. “I was trying to be a gentleman.”
“You were being a coward,” she said, but there was no bite in it. Only fondness. Truth dressed in gentleness.
He didn’t argue.
Rook tilted her head back enough to meet his gaze in the dark. Her eyes searched his face, and he let her. He didn’t look away.
“So what now?” she asked, the question so quiet he nearly missed it over the rain.
Lucanis was silent for a long moment. Then he tightened his arm around her waist, his thumb brushing soft circles into her side. “Now,” he said slowly, “I stop pretending I don’t want this.”
Rook smiled—small and real—and laid her head back against his chest, her hand slipping to rest over his heart.
“Good,” she whispered. “Because I’m tired of pretending, too.”
Outside, the storm faded into drizzle. Inside the bed, wrapped in warmth and the weight of something new, they both finally slept.