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Misha woke up to see Jensen in his arms sleeping peacefully his back was facing him, but they were cuddling like puzzles fit together perfectly.
They were both in Canada — Jensen for a shoot, Misha for a campaign, so they decided to share a place.
So for the past month they have been together and they loved it, Misha kissed Jensen's shoulder and moved to get up but was stopped by Jensen holding his arm.
"Stay", he muttered and turned burying his head into Misha's shoulders pulling him extremely close so that they were like one person.
Misha chuckled, but hugged Jensen close, softly stroking his hair, "I'm gonna make us coffee and breakfast honey, you take some rest", Misha said but Jensen pulled him closer if possible.
"No", Jensen muttered, "What's wrong Jen?", Misha asked sensing something wrong, "I missed you", he replied.
"I am here, love", Misha said softly, "I know, but you weren't with me for few months and it was painful", Jensen said moving closer, their bare chests crushing against each other.
"I know", Misha replied, "Our bond could have broken", Jensen muttered opening his eyes, but not moving away to face his love even.
"But it didn't, I won't let it", Misha promised and that's when Jensen pulled away to face his partner.
"I know, but being like this makes me happy", he said and Misha smiled and kissed his forehead, "It makes me happy too", he said.
"What time do you have shoot today?", he asked, "At noon", Jensen muttered smiling contendly as he moved to keep his head on Misha's chest.
Misha looked at the clock on the table, it was 8.00 in the morning now, "Then we need to get up now", Misha said and Jensen whined.
"You stay in bed then", Misha again said laughing, "You made me tired", Jensen said, "Excuse me I didn't think buffing up and having a beard would turn you on so much", Misha said and Jensen blushed and hid his face in Misha's chest, but his hand found Misha's beard, he loved it.
In lockdown, Misha taught his kids woodwork and metal/steel work and that buffed him up and he also had a beard and heavens Jensen was a wreck since he first saw Misha in video call.
That's why every night Jensen would kiss and give Misha hickeys till they got tired and Misha loved it.
"Someone is blushing", Misha said laughing and kissed Jensen's head, who hugged him, "But I am serious, you need to get ready", Misha said and Jensen moved but didn't get up.
Misha got up, freshened up and was in the kitchen making breakfast when Jensen trudged in and hugged Misha from behind.
"I love you", Jensen muttered kissing Misha's shoulder up to his ear and Misha groaned, "I love you too Jen", Misha muttered wounding his hand into Jensen's hair.
"At what time are you coming home today?", he asked, "Probably for dinner, why?", Jensen replied.
"Well Rob and Rich asked us to join the podcast today, today is the episode where Cas becomes God", Misha explained handing Jensen his coffee and turning around.
"We can do it at dinner", Jensen said and Misha smiled, "We might make the others question what is going on with us", Misha said.
"Let them, then they will know you are mine", Jensen replied and Misha blushed washing his cup.
Jensen chuckled and the two moved to the dining table sitting opposite each other, "I wish we could always be together", he suddenly said and Misha looked surprised.
Misha had sold his house with Vicky since she moved out and now he was at their home, he was alone, he wasn't planning to date anyone and since they bought the home together he decided to stay there.
He loved it in a quiet way, now, he spent his time with his kids, and with Jensen — and finally, some of it for himself.
Jensen comes to stay with him every month for a few days, or a week and this was the first time they were together for nearly a month without separation.
"You don't mean that", Misha said and Jensen shrugged, "I love Danneel, but sometimes I just want to come home and quietly cuddle and sleep", he explained and Misha understood what he meant.
"Last week I had the worst shoot day, and when I came home, you just looked at me, gave me my dinner and cuddled me to sleep, all of it in silence and I am so grateful to that", Jensen said and Misha smiled softly and took his hand, kissing it softly.
"You give me everything I need", he continued, "You give me everything I need too, Jen. But please — don't ask for a divorce. Don't even think about it, for your children's sake at least", Misha said and Jensen nodded.
"Besides Danneel is your best friend too, for her - be a husband because she is your best friend", Misha said softly.
"You are my best friend", Jensen replied and Misha chuckled getting up with their plates, "You'll need more than just cuddles, honey", he said.
"You didn't", Jensen said getting up and following Misha, who hadn't been with anyone since his divorce, 3 years ago.
"I'm satisfied with your love, I don't want sex", Misha said putting the dishes to wash and when he turned around, Jensen had already locked him against the kitchen counter, Misha just smiled, arms wrapping naturally around Jensen's waist, letting him talk.
"With you, I don't have to pretend I'm okay, I just... am", he started his ramble, "And you never have to pretend with me, you being you, and even happier is all I want", Misha said and Jensen gave his fondest smile.
"You gave me all of you — completely. I want to be yours fully too", he said and Misha kissed his cheek, "You are mine, you are my soulmate fully right, so you are mine, if you separate from Danneel for that reason, you won't be the one I fell in love with, you won't be my soulmate", he explained.
"What if-", Jensen started and Misha kissed him stopping him from talking more, "I will always be here, if you really want that life, I will be here, but don't choose this just because you are tired of that life, I chose this because Vicky needed more, she wanted more than what I wanted to give in my relationship with her and mainly because I love you and that's enough", Misha said pulling away and Jensen kept his head on Misha's chest.
"I can't breath like this anywhere else", Jensen said wrapping his arms around Misha's neck, "Then stay here as long as you need to. No expectations. No pressure. Just peace", he said.
"It's not about sex, or thrill, or escape. It's about home, and I don't know where that is anymore," Jensen said, and for once Misha didn't have an answer because Jensen was the answer to this question—from Misha's point of view, Jensen was Misha's home.