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007n7 didn’t really know why he was doing this, his mind blanked and he was at the desk holding his blade.
He set the blade down and shimmied out of his pants, pulling them down to his ankles before he sat back down and admired his thighs.
They were so fucked up, the dark lines fading. It made him feel really good, like.. aroused.
He picked the blade back up and brought it down to his thigh and pressed it to his skin, applying pressure for a few seconds before swiping.
He swiped a few more times, watching the blood bead up. He felt his own face flush, he was getting excited.
He moved to his other thigh, doing the same thing. 007n7 knew this was fucked up, he knew he shouldn’t like it.
But he did. He liked the pain, he liked seeing the blood. It made him feel all warm, and tingly, and embarassingly made his cunt ache.
He had to stop cutting for a moment, biting his arm.
It felt too good. The sting felt good. He shuddered, pulling back from the bite and going back to cutting.
Each swipe was something 007n7 could never say outloud.
“I’m sorry.”
“I hate you.”
“Fuck you.”
He felt himself smiling, from what? He had no clue. Maybe from pleasure or maybe from the pain.
He wondered what’d it be like if Noli caught him, would they be upset or as equally turned on as him?
He glanced down at his thigh, looking at the blood pooled on both thighs.
His mind blanked again, pure relief flooded through him as he shakily breathed.
It took him a moment to recover, his thighs were shaking. Did he just cum? He think he did. He wasn’t sure.
He grabbed the towel he kept near his bed and applied it to the still bleeding cuts and let out a sigh.
Was he ashamed of this? Yes. Would he do it again? Yes. Will he do it again? Absolutely.