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I stood there for a moment after the door shut.
Too long.
Staring at nothing, mouth still faintly warm, heart still doing whatever the hell it wanted without asking permission.
Then I exhaled and rubbed a hand over my face.
“Get it together,” I muttered.
I turned and walked down the hall, boots quieter now, like the house itself had softened. The bathroom light flicked on with a gentle hum, bright but not harsh.
Familiar.
I grabbed my toothbrush.
Mint hit my tongue a second later—sharp, grounding. I leaned forward, hands braced on the sink, watching my reflection move through the routine like muscle memory had taken over.
Up.
Down.
Side to side.
And that’s when it hit me.
Not sharp.
Not painful.
Just… there.
Daisy.
The way she used to stand in doorways while I brushed my teeth, arms crossed, smiling like she’d caught me doing something adorable instead of painfully mundane.
You look so serious, she’d tease. Like you’re gearing up for battle with plaque.
I snorted around the toothbrush before I could stop myself.
The memory came warm.
Gentle.
No sting.
I pictured her laugh—soft at first, then full when she really let it go. The way she tilted her head when she was curious about someone new. The way she loved people quickly, openly, without guarding it.
She would’ve loved Seven.
That thought landed so easily it startled me.
She would’ve clocked him immediately—his patience, the way he listened, the way he cared without needing to announce it. She would’ve cornered him in the kitchen with a cup of coffee and a thousand questions, then declared him “a good person” like it was official policy.
She would’ve smiled at me after.
That I see you smile.
I felt warm.
Really warm.
Not in that sharp, chest-burning way grief sometimes came in—but a steady heat, spreading outward. Like something inside me was loosening instead of breaking.
I rinsed my mouth, wiped the sink absently.
And then my phone buzzed.
Once.
Twice.
I glanced down.
MOLLY lit up the screen.
I sighed.
Not annoyed.
Just… bracing.
“Of course,” I murmured.
I let it ring a second longer than necessary, watching the name pulse like it had something important to say whether I was ready or not.
I straightened, shoulders squaring by habit, warmth still lingering in my chest even as reality started creeping back in.
“Alright,” I said quietly to my reflection.
And then I reached for the phone.
I picked up the phone.
“Molly,” I said, already moving toward the door. “I’m almost done.”
There was no greeting on her end.
“You said that ten minutes ago,” she snapped. I could hear movement in the background—papers shuffling, footsteps, that familiar edge in her voice that meant she’d been wound too tight for too long. “I’m still waiting. You need to hurry.”
I paused with my hand on the doorknob.
“Molly,” I said calmly, “I’m walking out the door right now.”
“That’s not the point,” she replied immediately. “This is important. We don’t have time for you to drag your feet.”
I closed my eyes.
Just for a second.
The warmth in my chest dimmed—but it didn’t disappear.
“Hey,” I said, firmer now. “Relax. Take a breath.”
She scoffed. “I don’t have time to take a breath.”
“That’s exactly why you need to,” I shot back, not sharp, but solid. Grounded. “Nothing’s on fire. No one’s bleeding. I’m on my way.”
There was a beat of silence.
I stepped outside, the door closing softly behind me. The morning air hit my face—cool, clean, real. I locked up out of habit, phone tucked between my shoulder and ear.
“Molly,” I added, gentler, “you’re gonna burn yourself out if you keep this up.”
Another pause.
Then, quieter—still tense, but less sharp—“Just… don’t be late.”
“I won’t,” I said. And I meant it. “But breathe. I’ll see you in a minute.”
She hung up first.
I slipped the phone into my pocket and stood there for a moment on the porch, staring out at the street. The world looked the same as it always did.
But I didn’t feel the same.
I exhaled slowly, shoulders loosening as I headed down the steps, the echo of Seven’s laugh and Daisy’s smile sitting warm and steady in my chest.
I started the walk.
And this time, I didn’t rush.
The walk wasn’t long.
But it felt different this time.
The small base came into view the way it always did—low buildings, reinforced walls, antennae jutting up like they were listening to secrets they weren’t meant to hear. The hum hit me before anything else. That constant, low vibration of power running through the place. Generators. Servers. Life support systems for a world that never really slept.
Home.
That’s what they called it now.
I passed through the outer gate, nodding once to the guard on duty. He nodded back. Familiar. Automatic. The kind of exchange that didn’t require words because we’d done it a hundred times before.
Inside, the hum deepened.
Screens flickered along the walls—maps, data feeds, status reports scrolling too fast to read unless you were trying. People moved with purpose, boots echoing against the floor, voices overlapping in clipped conversations that all sounded vaguely urgent even when they weren’t.
Someone laughed down the hall.
Someone else swore when a tablet slipped out of their hands.
Life went on.
I rolled my shoulders, adjusting to the noise, the movement, the weight of being here. The warmth from earlier hadn’t vanished—it just tucked itself somewhere deeper, steadier. A quiet thing I carried with me instead of something that threatened to spill over.
I caught my reflection briefly in one of the darkened screens.
Same face.
Same scars.
But my eyes looked… different.
Less braced.
I exhaled and kept walking.
The briefing room door was already open. Light spilled out into the hallway, voices bleeding through—Molly’s among them, sharp and unmistakable. I slowed just a fraction before stepping inside, letting myself settle fully into my body.
This was work.
This was real.
And for once, it didn’t feel like the only thing holding me together.
I crossed the threshold, the hum of the base wrapping around me like a second skin, and took my place—grounded, present, carrying something soft and human with me into the noise.
The room was smaller than I expected, but somehow felt heavier.
Molly was already there, standing near a screen that flickered with details I didn’t yet recognize. Her posture was rigid—professional—but her eyes flicked to me as I entered, and I caught that familiar spark: impatient, calculating, no-nonsense.
Captain Richard was beside her, leaning slightly against the wall, arms crossed. His expression was neutral, but the way he scanned the room made it clear he noticed everything, everyone, all at once.
And then there were the others. Faces I’d never seen before. Some younger, some older, all carrying a certain tension that told me they were used to being measured, evaluated, tested.
I didn’t try to read them too closely.
Not yet.
I let my gaze sweep the room once before lowering it to an empty chair near the table. My boots made a soft sound against the floor as I slid into the seat, careful not to draw too much attention.
The hum from the base outside the walls felt distant here, replaced by low murmurs, the click of pens, the faint whir of a projector spinning up.
I pulled my hands into my lap, fingers interlacing, trying to still the pulse in my chest.
It was strange. Familiar enough to feel like I belonged, alien enough to remind me I wasn’t really home.
I glanced at Molly again. She gave me a small nod—acknowledgment, reassurance, or warning? Probably all three.
I exhaled.
I was here.
And whatever was about to happen, I’d face it. Sitting down, waiting, letting the room settle around me.
I nodded once, settling back in the chair as the room quieted.
Molly didn’t waste time.
She tapped the screen, and the map behind her shifted—territories highlighted in uneven blocks, some flickering like bad reception. Red markers clustered where they shouldn’t have been. Gaps showed where pressure had eased.
“They’re getting sloppy,” she said, blunt as ever. “The Bacon Army’s been pushing too hard, too fast. Raids without cover stories. Influence campaigns with holes big enough to drive a truck through.”
A low murmur rippled through the room.
“They’ve lost traction in three key departments,” she continued, flipping to the next slide. “Transportation, Energy Oversight, and—briefly—Public Health. For now, their grip on the government isn’t holding the way it was six months ago.”
“For now,” Richards echoed quietly.
Molly shot him a look, then nodded. “Exactly. This isn’t a win. It’s a stall. They’re used to moving clean—quiet pressure, plausible deniability. Now they’re rushing. Which means they’re either desperate… or reorganizing.”
My jaw tightened slightly. I kept my face neutral.
“They’ll adapt,” Molly said. “They always do. Once they realize how exposed they’ve been, they’ll tighten ranks and switch tactics. And when that happens—” she gestured at the map, “—it won’t be sloppy anymore. It’ll be surgical.”
The room absorbed that in silence.
I leaned forward a fraction, elbows on my knees, eyes on the screen. Everything she was saying lined up with what I’d seen out there. The overreach. The mistakes. The cracks that only showed if you knew where to look.
Then my phone buzzed.
Once.
Sharp. Loud in my pocket.
My body reacted before my brain caught up—muscles tensing, shoulders locking, hand twitching like I was about to reach for a weapon instead of a phone.
I stopped myself.
Slowly, deliberately, I leaned back and shifted just enough to glance around the table. No one was looking at me. Molly was mid-sentence, pacing slightly as she talked. Richards’ attention was on the map. The others were focused forward, pens moving, brows furrowed.
Good.
I slipped the phone out beneath the table, keeping it low, screen angled toward my thigh.
Seven:
So. On a scale from “mildly boring” to “actively world-ending,” how’s the meeting going?
The tension in my chest eased without asking permission.
I huffed silently and typed back.
Me:
Somewhere around “impending disaster, but with PowerPoint.”
The typing dots appeared almost immediately.
Seven:
Ooo, fancy. Are there charts? Codes?
I glanced up as Molly’s voice sharpened slightly, emphasizing a point about projected timelines. I nodded along like I was fully locked in, thumbs moving again.
Me:
Too many. One of them has arrows. Never trust arrows.
Seven:
That’s how you know it’s serious.
My mouth twitched despite myself.
Molly stopped pacing and leaned both hands on the table. “The point is,” she said, “we have a window. A small one. And if we don’t use it, they’ll close it for us.”
I lifted my gaze fully then, attention back where it belonged—at least on the surface. I slid the phone back into my pocket, letting it rest there like a quiet secret.
But it buzzed again.
I waited this time. Counted three breaths. Then, when Molly turned to answer a question from someone on the far end of the table, I checked it once more.
Seven:
You still alive over there?
Me:
Barely. If I don’t make it, tell Charlotte she still owes me a rematch.
Seven:
You can’t be serious.
I bit the inside of my cheek to keep from smiling.
Me:
She cheats.
Seven:
She’s eight.
Me:
Exactly. No honor.
I could almost hear his laugh.
Molly’s voice cut back in, sharper now. “—which is why we need experienced field insight on this. Not just data.”
Her eyes flicked to me.
I straightened immediately, phone forgotten, warmth settling back into that deeper place in my chest where it didn’t interfere—just steadied.
“Guest,” she said. “You’ve seen how they operate when they’re off-balance. What do you think they’ll do next?”
I met her gaze, grounded, present.
“They’ll stop trying to control everything at once,” I said evenly. “Pull back. Let the noise die down. Then they’ll pick one pressure point and hit it hard enough that everyone forgets the rest.”
Molly nodded slowly. “That’s what I’m afraid of.”
I sat back, hands folding together again.
The meeting rolled on.
Plans.
Contingencies.
Too many unknowns.
But beneath the table, my phone was warm against my leg. And for the first time in a room like this—full of strategy and tension and looming threats—I didn’t feel hollow.
I felt… accompanied.
And somehow, that made all the difference
Molly’s gaze lingered on me a second longer than necessary.
“Do you remember Jez?” she asked.
The name landed softly—but it echoed.
I nodded once.
Yeah. I remembered.
The room blurred at the edges as my mind pulled backward, uninvited but not unwelcome. Jez’s smile came first—crooked, too earnest for the world he’d been raised in. The kind of smile that belonged to someone who wanted to believe things could be better, even when everything around him said otherwise.
Jez.
The Bacon General’s son.
Trained from childhood to be an elite leader. Tactics drilled into his bones. Obedience framed as honor. Power disguised as duty. He’d been molded carefully, deliberately—his father’s sharpest weapon forged from blood and expectation.
And then he’d learned the truth.
Not all at once. Not cleanly. Just enough cracks to let the rot show through. Enough to realize the prisoners weren’t enemies. They were guests. Captured, controlled, erased. Pieces in a system built on cruelty and fear.
He’d broken after that.
Quietly. Bravely.
With Zara at his side—steady, brilliant, fearless—Jez had turned everything he’d been taught against the man who taught it to him. Security locks overridden. Transport routes sabotaged. Cells opened one by one in the dead of night.
I still remembered the sound of doors unlocking.
The disbelief in people’s eyes.
The way Jez had stood there, bloodied and shaking, saying, Go. Don’t look back.
He hadn’t run.
He’d stayed.
Allied himself with me—not because it was easy, but because it was right. Because stopping his father meant ending the cycle, no matter what it cost him.
The room snapped back into focus.
Before I could say anything, the briefing room door opened.
The sound was soft—but it cut through the space like a blade.
Every head turned.
He stood in the doorway.
Older. Broader in the shoulders. The sharp edges of youth worn down by time and consequence. There were scars now—real ones. A faint limp in the way he shifted his weight. His uniform was darker, plainer, lived in.
But his face—
That scar.
The one that cut along his cheek was still there, but healed. Taken care of. No longer angry or raw—just part of him now. Proof he’d survived.
Jez’s eyes met mine.
And he smiled.
My chair scraped back before I realized I’d moved.
“I—” was all I managed.
Jez was already crossing the room.
He didn’t hesitate. Didn’t ask permission. Just wrapped his arms around me, solid and real and very much alive. The impact knocked the breath out of me for half a second before I laughed—an actual laugh—and hugged him back just as hard.
“There you are,” I muttered.
Jez huffed against my shoulder. “Still standing, Mr. Guest.”
I snorted and ruffled his hair on instinct, fingers catching in it the same way they always had. “You’re still calling me that?”
“Habit,” he said, pulling back just enough to grin. “Respectful habit.”
Around us, the room had gone quiet in that stunned, private way people get when they realize they’re witnessing something they weren’t meant to interrupt. Molly cleared her throat once, pointedly, but there was no real heat in it.
I glanced at her. “How did he get here?”
Before she could answer, Jez straightened, rolling his shoulders like he was bracing for a report instead of a memory.
“The remaining Bacon Army cells found me,” he said calmly. Too calmly. “Took them longer than I expected, but once they did…” He shrugged. “They figured I was useful.”
My hand stilled in his hair.
“They knew who my father was,” Jez continued. “Knew what my name still carries in some circles. They wanted me to lead an uprising against the government. Said it would ‘restore order.’” His mouth twisted. “Funny how they all use the same words.”
“They tried to take him,” Molly added. “Almost succeeded.”
My chest tightened.
Jez nodded. “If Zara hadn’t tipped us off when she did, I wouldn’t be standing here. We moved fast. Burned the trail. This was the safest place left.”
I let out a slow breath, the kind that empties more than just air.
“Of course they did,” I said quietly. “Of course they tried.”
I looked at him—really looked this time. The scars. The steadiness. The fact that he was here at all.
I reached up and ruffled his hair again, firmer now, grounding myself as much as him.
“I’m just glad you’re okay,” I said. “That’s all that matters.”
Jez’s expression softened, just a little. “Yeah,” he said. “Me too, Mr. Guest.”
For a beat, the briefing room didn’t feel like a war room or a planning hub or the center of something dangerous.
It just felt like a reunion.
Then Molly stepped forward, all business again—but her voice was gentler than before.
“Alright,” she said. “Now that everyone’s caught up… we need to talk about what this means.”
I dropped my hand, shoulders squaring, warmth settling back into that steady place in my chest.
Molly wrapped it up quickly after that.
Timelines summarized.
Assignments delegated.
Warnings issued with that sharp look that meant she expected everyone to listen the first time. Chairs scraped back, voices picked up again, the room slowly shedding its tension as people filed out in clusters.
“Dismissed,” Molly said at last. “We’ll reconvene tomorrow.”
I stood, stretching out the stiffness in my shoulders.
Jez fell into step beside me without thinking, like he’d done it a thousand times before. We moved down the hallway together, the hum of the base settling back into something familiar.
“So,” he said after a moment, glancing around like he was trying to memorize everything at once. “This place is… bigger than I imagined.”
“It grew,” I replied. “Everything does.”
He nodded, then hesitated—just a fraction.
“And Daisy?” he asked. Gently. Carefully. “Is she still—”
I slowed.
Just enough.
I exhaled through my nose. “No,” I said quietly. “She… she died. About three years ago.”
The words sat between us, solid and real.
Jez stopped walking.
“Oh,” he said. His voice dropped instantly. “I— I’m sorry. I didn’t know.”
I turned to face him. He looked genuinely stricken, like he was replaying every memory he had of her in his head all at once.
“Hey,” I said, shaking my head. “Don’t be. Really.”
He frowned slightly. “But—”
“I mean it,” I continued. “It was hard. It still is sometimes. But I’ve been… doing better.”
I thought of the warmth from earlier. Of Seven’s laugh. Of memories that didn’t cut anymore.
Jez studied my face for a second, then nodded slowly, like he believed me.
“I’m glad,” he said. And then he smiled—soft, sincere, the same way he always had when something mattered. “She would be too.”
Something eased in my chest.
“Yeah,” I said. “She would’ve liked you. Still.”
He ducked his head a little at that, smile lingering.
We started walking again, side by side, the base stretching out ahead of us.
Different.
But not unfamiliar.
And for the first time in a long while, the past felt less like a weight…
and more like something I could carry without it pulling me under.
Jez kept pace with me, curiosity bubbling over now that the adrenaline had settled.
“So,” he said, hands tucked into his jacket sleeves, “how did you end up here? I mean—last I knew, you were halfway to disappearing off the grid.”
I let out a quiet laugh. “That’s… a wild story.”
“Oh, I’ve got time,” he said immediately, grin flicking into place. “I survived my childhood. I can handle wild.”
I opened my mouth—
—and my phone buzzed.
I paused mid-step, instinctively checking the hall out of habit before pulling it out. Empty. Quiet. Safe enough.
I glanced down at the screen.
And felt my whole chest soften.
It was a photo.
Charlotte was asleep, her head tipped gently against Coolkid’s, her taller frame curved protectively even in sleep. Coolkid was out cold, mouth slightly open, one arm slack at his side. A blanket was pulled up over both of them, tangled and uneven like someone had tried to cover them without waking them. The glow of a paused movie reflected faintly off the screen behind them.
They looked peaceful.
Normal.
Loved.
Below it, Seven had texted:
Seven:
Movie night knocked them out. I’m starting dinner now, then I’ll take them back to the Children Center before curfew. :)
My smile came easy. Real.
I typed back without thinking.
Me:
They look perfect. Thank you for tonight. Tell them I’ll see them soon. Don’t let Coolkid pretend he wasn’t asleep. ;)
Seven:
Too late. Already snoring.
I slipped the phone back into my pocket, warmth settling deep and steady, the way it had earlier—like something quietly anchoring me.
Jez had slowed too.
He leaned in just enough to have caught a glimpse of the photo. Not invasive. Just curious.
“Who’s that?” he asked. “And… who’s Seven?”
I hesitated.
Just a bit.
Not because I didn’t want to answer—but because I didn’t quite know how.
I knew what Seven wasn’t.
We weren’t officially anything. No labels. No declarations. Maybe a kiss or two. A lot of almosts. A lot of quiet understanding. The kind of closeness that didn’t rush to define itself.
I exhaled softly.
“Seven’s…” I started, then stopped. Tried again. “Someone important to me.”
Jez studied my face, then smiled—gentle, knowing, no pressure in it at all.
“Got it,” he said simply. “That kind of important.”
I huffed a quiet laugh. “Yeah. That kind.”
He nudged my arm lightly as we kept walking. “I like that answer.”
I glanced down the hall, the base humming around us, and for the first time the story of how I got here didn’t feel heavy waiting in my chest.
“Alright,” I said. “Since you asked…”
I looked over at him.
“Let me tell you how I ended up here.”
And this time, when I started talking, it didn’t feel like reopening old wounds—
It felt like sharing a life that was still very much in motion.
Jez walked with me all the way back, hands moving as he talked, the edges of his usual sharpness softened by easy laughter. We traded stories—some heavy, some stupid, some half-finished because we were both laughing too hard to get the words out right.
For a while, it felt like old times.
Different base. Different war. Same rhythm.
When we reached my place, Jez slowed, rocking back on his heels. He looked around once, then back at me, that familiar grin settling in like it had always belonged there.
“I can’t wait to work with you again, Mr. Guest,” he said, voice light but sincere.
I smiled despite myself and reached out, giving his hair a quick, familiar ruffle. “You’re still calling me that, huh?”
“Always,” he said, laughing. “Gotta keep you grounded.”
I nodded, the feeling mutual. “Yeah. Me too.”
We stood there a second longer than necessary, then I stepped back.
“Get some rest,” I told him. “Tomorrow’s gonna be a lot.”
He saluted—lazy, exaggerated—then turned and headed down the walk, still smiling to himself.
I watched until he disappeared around the corner.
Then I turned, unlocked the door, and stepped inside.
Warmth greeted me instantly.
Not just heat—but a smell.
Something sweet. Soft. Familiar in a way that tugged at my chest before I could stop it.
I paused in the doorway, boots still on, breathing it in.
And just like that, whatever the day had been—briefings, memories, ghosts, and reunions—faded into the background.
Home, for tonight at least, smelled like something made with care.
I shut the door quietly behind me, toeing my boots off by habit.
The smell hit stronger inside.
Vanilla.
Sugar.
Something warm and slightly overcooked.
I followed it toward the kitchen.
Seven stood at the counter, sleeves pushed up, a cookbook propped open and dusted with flour like it had already been through a minor battle. He was holding a mixing bowl against his hip, stirring with serious concentration, lips moving faintly as he muttered to himself.
“…okay, but fold gently doesn’t explain how gently,” he murmured. “That’s subjective.”
I leaned against the doorway, watching him for a second before speaking.
“What are you doing?” I asked.
He startled just a little, then looked up—and smiled when he saw me.
“Oh—hey,” he said easily. “You’re back.”
He gestured vaguely with the spoon. “Uh. Cake. I think.”
“I think?” I echoed.
He huffed a quiet laugh. “The kids asked if we could make one next time, and I figured I’d practice before I poison them.”
I stepped farther in, resting my hand on the counter. “How are they?”
“Dropped them off at the Children Center just before curfew,” he said, returning his focus to the bowl. “They’d already eaten. Coolkid was half-asleep walking in. Charlotte pretended she wasn’t tired but fell over anyway.”
I smiled. “Sounds about right.”
Seven stirred again, slower now, careful like the batter might judge him. “They were good tonight,” he added. “Really good.”
“Thank you,” I said quietly.
He shrugged like it wasn’t a big thing—but didn’t deny it.
I watched him mix, the light catching the dusting of flour on his knuckles, the way he leaned his weight comfortably into the counter like this space already belonged to him. The scene felt… domestic. Easy. Too easy.
Jez’s question surfaced uninvited.
Who’s Seven?
I didn’t have a clean answer for it.
I thought about the shower—steam, quiet, the way Seven hadn’t rushed me or filled the silence. The comfort of his presence when my body had been too tired to pretend I was fine. The kiss—brief, unforced, lingering just enough to mean something without demanding anything back.
The way we talked.
Like this.
Natural.
Unguarded.
Seven glanced up again, catching my stare this time. “What?” he asked, amused. “Do I have flour on my face?”
“No,” I said quickly. Then softer, more honest, “Just… thinking.”
“Dangerous,” he teased, stirring again. “You want a spoon to lick or are you judging from afar?”
I stepped closer, close enough to feel the warmth of the oven, the quiet hum of it filling the space between us.
“I’m reserving judgment,” I said. “But it smells good.”
His smile lingered a second longer than necessary.
“Yeah?” he said. “Guess we’ll find out.”
I stayed there, leaning against the counter beside him, the sweet smell thick in the air, the quiet stretching comfortably around us.
And for the first time, I didn’t try to pin down what this was.
I just let it be.
I leaned against the counter, elbows resting lightly, fingers brushing the cool surface as I tried to think through… how even to ask.
How do you…?
The words wouldn’t form.
Not yet.
Not when it was Seven in front of me, humming quietly to himself as he swirled the batter.
My chest tightened slightly, the memory of earlier flooding back—the shower, the quiet, the warmth of him leaning in, the kiss.
And I wanted to ask. I needed to ask.
But my brain… my brain was staging a rebellion.
What if I mess it up?
What if I say the wrong thing?
What if this… whatever this is… disappears because I open my mouth?
I drew a slow breath, trying to ground myself in the kitchen instead of the storm inside my chest.
And then—suddenly—I felt something cold and sweet hit the tip of my nose.
I froze.
Seven grinned at me, flour dusting his hair and cuffs.
“You know,” he said, barely suppressing a laugh, “you look like you could use a little taste test.”
He’d taken a tiny dab of icing from the bowl and carefully, deliberately, touched it to my nose.
I blinked, caught off guard.
And then I laughed.
A little sharp, a little relieved, a little melted.
“Seven—” I started, trying to sound stern, but it failed immediately. “I—don’t—”
He leaned closer, playful, and I felt the warmth radiate off him again. “Relax,” he said lightly. “It’s only icing. Unless… you want it?”
The words tumbled out before I could stop myself, and somehow, the nervous tension that had been knotting my chest loosened just enough for me to breathe.
I swiped the icing with my finger and tasted it.
Sweet.
Soft.
Comforting.
“Okay,” I admitted, voice low and unsteady, “that’s… good. You’re… dangerous.”
He laughed, soft and warm, and I felt that laugh sink into me, pull the edges of my thoughts together.
Okay, I told myself. Just ask. Don’t overthink. Just ask.
The words were there, waiting, fragile but real.
I looked at him—Seven—hair sticking up at odd angles, smudges of flour on his sleeves, a small smirk tugging at his lips, eyes bright and steady.
I swallowed.
“Seven…” I started, letting the words fall slowly, careful not to trip over them. “…can I… ask you something?”
His smirk softened into a patient, small smile.
“Of course,” he said. “You know that, right?”
I nodded, trying to steady the fluttering in my chest.
Okay.
Just ask.
Just ask.
Don’t think.
Just ask.
And for the first time in a long time, I felt like maybe I could.
Because he was here.
Because he was real.
Because maybe, just maybe… he already knew the answer to the questions I hadn’t even spoken yet.
I took a slow breath, fingers brushing his arm lightly, grounding myself in the moment.
And I asked.
Not fully formed yet. Not perfect. But honest.
My voice was soft. Trembling. Fragile.
“Seven… what… what are we?”
The words hung between us, warm in the kitchen air, sweet like the icing on my nose.
And I waited.
For him.
For whatever came next.
I didn’t pull away.
Instead, I reached for him.
My hands found Seven’s almost without thinking—warm, steady, dusted faintly with flour and sugar. His fingers curled around mine easily, like they’d been waiting for permission more than certainty.
He looked at me for a long moment. Not searching. Not guarded.
Gentle.
“Okay,” he said softly. “Then let me ask you something.”
I felt my pulse pick up anyway.
“What are you comfortable with?”
The question wasn’t heavy. It wasn’t a test. It landed like an open palm instead of a closed fist.
I swallowed.
The words didn’t rush out this time. They came slow, careful, honest.
“I…” I started, then paused, grounding myself in the feel of his hands. “I like this. Being close. Not having to explain every silence.”
Seven’s thumb brushed lightly over my knuckles. Encouraging. Patient.
“I like how we can talk,” I continued. “Calmly. Like nothing’s about to fall apart if I say the wrong thing.” I huffed a quiet breath. “That’s… rare for me.”
He nodded, eyes never leaving mine.
“And you,” I said, voice lowering without meaning to, “you make things feel steady. Warm. Like I don’t have to brace all the time.”
I realized then I was sweating a little—palms damp, shoulders tight—and let out a breathy laugh.
“Wow,” I muttered. “I’m—sorry, I don’t usually—”
Seven giggled.
Soft, surprised, fond.
“Hey,” he said, squeezing my hands gently. “You’re doing great.”
That just made me laugh too, tension finally breaking through the surface. I dropped my forehead forward for a second, still holding on to him, breathing.
When I looked back up, his expression had changed—not playful now.
Something deeper.
“Guest,” he said quietly.
I stilled.
“I like you,” he went on, no hesitation in it. “A lot. I care about you. About the kids. About… us, whatever shape that takes.”
My chest tightened—not painfully. Just full.
“And,” he added, voice warm, steady, certain, “I’m not in a rush. I don’t need labels or timelines or answers tonight.”
He squeezed my hands again, grounding me.
“I’m willing to wait,” he said. “For whatever you’re comfortable with. As long as we’re honest. As long as we keep choosing to be here.”
I searched his face, looking for expectations, pressure, something sharp.
There was nothing there.
Just care.
Relief washed through me so strongly my shoulders sagged with it.
“Thank you,” I said quietly. “For asking. For… not pushing.”
He smiled—soft, real.
“Anytime,” he said. “We go at your pace.”
We stood there like that for a moment longer, hands linked between us, the kitchen warm and sweet-smelling, the world outside quiet for once.
And for the first time, the idea of later didn’t scare me.
Because right now—
This was enough.
Seven blinked like the thought had just occurred to him—then his eyes widened.
“Oh—oh no,” he said, glancing toward the oven. “The cake.”
He gently disentangled one hand, already moving, peering through the oven door like it might confess if he stared hard enough. “If I burn this, I’m going to have to explain to Charlotte and Coolkid how their cake became a learning experience.”
I leaned beside him, squinting at the cake through the glass. “Looks fine to me.”
“Looks are how it start,” he muttered.
I tipped my head, pretending to consider it seriously. “So,” I said casually, “does watching the cake involve me being allowed to eat, say… half the icing?”
Seven froze.
Slowly, he turned.
“Half,” he repeated.
Then he stepped closer—deliberately, teasingly—close enough that I could feel the warmth of him, smell sugar and vanilla and something distinctly Seven. He leaned in, eyes bright, voice low and mock-accusatory.
“Are you,” he asked softly, “trying to take away the children’s happiness?”
I felt my mouth tilt upward before I could stop it.
Instead of answering, I lifted my hand and brushed my thumb gently across his cheek, wiping away a streak of flour he hadn’t noticed. He stilled completely at the touch, eyes flicking down for just a second—then back up to mine.
“If I said yes,” I replied, just as softly, “would that be mean?”
For a heartbeat, neither of us moved.
Then Seven laughed—quiet, breathy, fond—and shook his head.
“You’re unbelievable,” he said. “Absolutely horrible.”
“Yet,” I added.
He smiled wider. “Yet.”
The oven timer chimed suddenly, loud in the small kitchen.
Seven startled, then groaned. “Saved by the bell. Cake truce—for now.”
He reached for the oven mitts, still smiling to himself, and I leaned back against the counter, warmth settling comfortably in my chest.
We worked carefully at first.
Seven smoothed icing across the top of the cake with focused precision, tongue just barely pressed to the inside of his cheek the way it always was when he concentrated. I handled the piping bag, trying to make the edges look intentional instead of… whatever it was they kept turning into.
It was quiet. Comfortable. The kind of silence that didn’t ask for anything.
I felt his eyes on me before I saw them.
Not heavy. Not invasive.
Just… there.
I glanced up.
Seven was staring—openly now—like he’d drifted off mid-thought and forgotten where he was. His expression was soft, unreadable, almost surprised, like he hadn’t meant to look but didn’t want to stop.
“What?” I asked, a small smile tugging at my mouth.
He blinked, color blooming faintly across his cheeks. “Nothing,” he said too quickly. “You just—uh—missed a spot.”
“Oh yeah?” I dipped my finger into the bowl without breaking eye contact.
He didn’t even have time to react.
I flicked a small splash of icing onto his cheek.
Seven gasped.
Actually gasped—hand flying to his face like I’d committed a crime. “You did not.”
I grinned. “I absolutely did.”
There was a half-second where he just stared at me—processing, shocked, offended—
Then he dipped his own fingers into the icing and swiped it right back onto my cheek.
“Hey—!” I laughed, startled.
We froze.
Icing on both of us. Hands still raised. Eyes wide.
Then it broke.
We burst out laughing at the same time—real laughter, the kind that bends you forward and steals your breath. Seven laughed so hard he had to brace himself against the counter, shoulders shaking, eyes crinkled and bright.
“Oh my god,” he managed between breaths, “Charlotte is never letting me hear the end of this.”
I wiped my cheek with the back of my hand, still grinning. “Worth it.”
He nodded emphatically. “Worth it.”
We settled after that, laughter fading into soft smiles, the kitchen returning to its gentle rhythm. We leaned in closer without really thinking about it—shoulders brushing, hands occasionally bumping as we finished the decorations.
Not rushed.
Not careful.
Just… together.
I stepped back to look at the cake, icing a little crooked, sprinkles uneven, but unmistakably made with care.
And standing there beside Seven—close enough to feel his warmth, close enough that it felt natural—I realized something.
I felt lighter.
Like I wasn’t carrying everything by myself anymore.
Seven glanced at me again, this time smiling like he knew.
And I smiled back.