My Heart -- Faylen's fics
Fics that hit me in the heart so hard that I cry because of them. Angst in the purest form (Mainly abuse, self harm etc)
Both finished and unfinished works.
Read again when in the mood to read how I feel
Pain Flutter tag goes with it, as that's what I feel in my stomach when reading most of them
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The sound of the Quiet Wolf by Shinings_Moonlight
Fandoms: A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin, Game of Thrones (TV)
24 Oct 2021
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Three-year-old Eddard Stark never talked. Not one word came from his lips. His Lord father is at a loss but Lyarra Stark tries not to worry. The Quiet Wolf didn't get his name from nothing.
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- Part 8 of Stark Family short Stories
Bookmarked by FaylenLupus
27 Sep 2025
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Transmutation of the Soul by HermesSerpent for LiraBuswavi, Sarnai4
Fandoms: DreamWorks Dragons (Cartoon), How to Train Your Dragon (Movies)
09 Aug 2025
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Hiccup and Dagur have rejected adoption and fled back to their home island for isolation. But it seems that the outside world refuses to let them remain in isolation. Something lands on their island and something lives within the island itself.
Can these boys learn to trust?
Can minds be changed?
Can souls be transmuted from that which they once were?Series
- Part 2 of Stolen Heir AU
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- English
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- 50,590
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- 45/45
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Bookmarked by FaylenLupus
09 Jun 2025
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Transmutation of the Soul by HermesSerpentCh 34
Sigh I already know imma be heartbroken cus this fic is unfinished and it seems like it won't be updated if what the author said is true 💔
Which sadge because this fic, this series, the concept is so cool and good and due to a certain someone (cough
Vespera21cough) I've come to really like the idea of Viggo and Ryker taking parental/older brothers roles in Hiccup's life. And here it's also with Dagur and it's just... Better? In their fics Oswald isn't shit so while the two are close friends/cousins, he remained in Berserker island
Aight I'm done whiningLOL
Not them both secretly behind each other's backs befriends dragons roflNooooooooo not my heart breaking as we see the Grimborn pov 😭
Gobber :) :(
But... Is it wrong I kinda want Gobber to stay away? I love him don't get me wrong, but I feel like him being there would take Hiccup and therefore Dagur away from Viggo and Ryker
I guess in a way I'm possessive too as in I want Hiccup and Dagur to be under Viggo and Ryker's care, not Gobber. I like him buttt I want them to be cared for by Viggo and Ryker
- maybe it's okie. Seems like it's adoption squared. Dagur and Hiccup adopting one another. Viggo and Ryker attempting to adopt Dagur and Hiccup. Toothless adopting Hiccup. Gobber being adopted and adopting the Grimborn. And finally Toothless also slightly adopting Dagur who then also gets adopted by Haelan who also just slightly adopts Hiccup. Okay so maybe a lot of the dragons adopt them. And Toothless gets adopted by the other dragons too cus Hiccup and Dagur might be his hatchlings, but he's still a fledgling himself.
So maybe it'll be fine (who am I kidding it ain't cus there's only 34 chapters < /3)nnooooooooo
The first official meetup with them not knowing it's Hiccup and Dagur
My heartttttt
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Summary
The signs of death are as followed:
-Respiratory arrest (no breathing)
-Cardiac arrest (no pulse)
-Pallor mortis, paleness which happens in the 15–120 minutes after death
-Livor mortis, a settling of the blood in the lower (dependent) portion of the body
-Algor mortis, the reduction in body temperature following death. This is generally a steady decline until matching
ambient temperature
-Rigor mortis, the limbs of the corpse become stiff (Latin rigor) and difficult to move or manipulate
-Decomposition, the reduction into simpler forms of matter, accompanied by a strong, unpleasant odor.And what comes after that? Well, come on and find out!
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Bookmarked by FaylenLupus
28 Mar 2025
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Negligible Senescence by Just_Mad_EnoughNo tags explaining, but refers to the Chloe poisoned episode in s 2 where Lucifer goes to Hell for her
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5.16 AU in which Lucifer fails to reach Chloe in Heaven and bring her back, and the life that follows.
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- English
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- 2,150
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Bookmarked by FaylenLupus
23 Mar 2025
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I'll dream you (wide awake) by cjdecker -
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Finally, he’s pulling up to the curb near the restaurant and movement catches his eye: the Detective. And she’s leaving.
When Lucifer shows up late to his dinner with Chloe, his entire world shatters right before his eyes.
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- Part 27 of WordRunner's Luci-tober 2024
Bookmarked by FaylenLupus
21 Mar 2025
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Eternal Flame by WordRunner-
She did this. She took Chloe away from him. And she will pay. She will be punished.He doesn’t notice the manifestation of his Devil face, but he does see his mother’s reaction to it. Her eyes widen and her mouth falls open in horror. “Lucifer...”
“You did this,” Lucifer breathes, his voice trembling with wrath. “You took her from me.”
Mum lifts her hands, trying to soothe him. “Lucifer, I can explain.”
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Shoving off of Amenadiel, Lucifer crosses the room, not to his mother, but to where he hid Azrael’s blade after Uriel. Stone explodes beneath his fist as he retrieves it. “How could you?” he half-sobs, half-growls. His cheeks feel wet and somewhere in the back of his mind, it surprises him; he didn’t know this form was capable of tears. “I loved her, Mum. How could you take her from me?”Vaguely, he sees some emotion that might be remorse flash through his mother’s eyes. But she's lied about everything else; if she truly loved him, she wouldn’t have hurt him like this. Hurt Chloe.
No. She didn’t hurt Chloe. She killed Chloe.
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One moment he’s watching detachedly as his fingers wrap around Azrael’s blade and the next, he has his mother pinned against the bookshelves, the edge of the blade at her throat. There’s a strange ringing in his ears growing louder and somewhere buried in that, a duo of voices—one pleading with him, the other shouting at him to stop. He ignores them both.Meeting Mum’s gaze, he can see the reflection of fire from his own eyes in hers and her fear—of him or for her life? It doesn’t matter. Her lips are moving, but he can’t make out what she's saying, he doesn’t care. The grief and the rage are fighting for dominance. He sees his hand tremble; he could end this...but then, what would be the point? Nothing he does, no amount of punishing his mother or anybody else is going to bring Chloe back.
Another thought crosses his mind. Shoving himself back and releasing his mother, Lucifer studies the blade in his hands.
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Looking down at his red, clawed, monstrous hands—first at the keychain, then at the blade—he knows what he needs to do and vaguely wonders why he didn’t consider it before. The only thing that will stop this agonizing pain. With detached interest, he watches the hand with Azrael’s blade lift, the tip turning towards his chest, his heart. It feels as if he’s watching it from the outside—an out of body experience. Huh. He didn’t know he could do that, either.“Lucifer, don’t—!”
“Luci, stop—!”
Voices start shouting again, begging him to not...do something. He doesn’t obey. He just wants it to be over. Not just this, with Chloe, but all of it. The excruciatingly long, miserable, hopeless life he’s led. It’s no less than he deserves—a monster and a brother killer. Someone who couldn’t even be there for the woman he loved.
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This is all his fault. If he had been there for Chloe, he could have saved her. If he hadn’t been so bloody soft by allowing his mother to remain on Earth instead of returning her to Hell the way his father and Uriel insisted, Chloe would still be here. Instead, she’s gone. Her daughter will grow up without a mother; her friends will grieve and mourn her for the rest of their lives. The world is already dimmer, emptier without her light to brighten it.With one quick thrust into his heart, he could fade into the nothingness; the same place he sent Uriel. No more boring monotony. No more suffering. No more eternal punishment. His life improved significantly when he met the Detective. He found meaning and purpose and friendship. He found love. Without her, he just...he doesn’t see the point in being here anymore. And if he can’t have Chloe...well, there’s just no point in existing.
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Chloe looks around and smiles when she sees him. There’s confusion in her eyes. “Lucifer? I don’t...I don’t understand. I was...” She shakes her head as her eyebrows furrow. “I thought I was with my dad.”A sob falls from his lips as he crosses the penthouse in a few long strides and wraps Chloe in his arms. He hears her quiet gasp, then she’s hugging him back. “You’re okay. You’re here,” he mutters over and over into her hair as tears fall from his eyes. This time, though, they’re tears of relief. Of joy. Finally, he understands the concept of happy tears.
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