I_R_assbutt
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For some of us, it’s easy, close your eyes, take a breath, and jump. For others, it takes an entire bottle of whiskey, a slow, unreliable internet connection, and years of self-induced isolation on a picturesque mountainside to do what they have to do. What they need to do. Many years after losing his own pack, his family, an act he blames himself for, Alpha-Were Castiel is skilled at not giving himself even the smallest of pleasures, including that of a pack. An alpha needs a pack. It’s written into their DNA. It’s so much more than just having a mate. It’s the pack bonds that make an alpha whole, and the longer Castiel denies himself one, the more he loses of his humanity.
When a drunken, desperate act brings a beautiful, vibrant omega to his doorstep with a disastrous winter storm nipping at his heels, Castiel knows he does not deserve the gift. Sending Dean back down the mountain would be certain death for the young were, but allowing him to stay will undoubtedly change Castiel’s life forever. Maybe it’s time for Castiel to leave his darkness in the past, where it belongs. With Dean standing next to him on the precipice, there’s nothing left for Castiel to do but close his eyes, take a breath, and leap.
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01 Feb 2026
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The same beautiful man sits next to Castiel on the subway every Tuesday morning. There's always plenty of space in the car, and yet they always sit together.
Until one day, the car gets crowded and they have to stand.
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- Part 1 of ZYX's
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30 Dec 2025
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The new colleague at Dean's work was driving him up the walls. Sure, he was hot at hell (Dean was not lusting after him) but he was also an asshole with an attitude. That didn't stop Dean from wanting him but it wasn't like Cas was gay. He wasn't. Totally not. Nothing would come of this.
Then one day, Dean sees Cas drinking from a mug. "I'm not interested in being polite or heterosexual." What could that mean?
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17 Nov 2025
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The constant moving around and general lack of real connections were never great. But being stranded in Lawrence, forced to stay in place until his dad comes for him, is worse. Especially once someone starts hunting him.
Going to the police is in every conceivable way a terrible plan. Accepting personal help from a severely overinvolved cop is quite possibly an even worse one. Above all because Dean is up to his neck in illicit activities and police-related trauma. But maybe, just once, it would be nice to have someone look out for him.
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- Part 1 of Paper Tigers
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11 Nov 2025
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Dean has been in love with his best friend for years, but Cas doesn't even know he's bi.
Now it's just the two of them on an epic cross-country road trip to start their first year of college. It's their last summer of youth, and the clock is ticking down. Dean has to either fess up about his feelings, or risk drifting apart in the tides of time.
Turns out, there's a lot he didn't know about Cas either.
**story is finished, chapters post weekly, there are 8 of them**
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22 Oct 2025