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    All Shane wanted to do was to play hockey.
    He knew he was pretty much the best at it.

    What he didn't know, being the best was not enough.

    Being a gay Asian-Canadian hockey player didn't help anything at all.

    Nor did the fact that he got drafted to Ottawa, the team where Ilya Rozanov was already the biggest star.

    Or,
    An alternate universe where Shane is openly out as gay. Ilya is still closeted bisexual. And they both play for the same team- ie, Ottawa Centaurs.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Ilya breaks it off with Shane after Marlow’s hit thinking it was the right thing to do. Years later, their paths cross again. Will bitterness overcome the sweet taste of a first love?

    Or: After their breakup, neither can handle it well. Shane Spirals, and Ilya wished he knew how to grieve them differently.

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    31 May 2026

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    Shane doesn't realise he's pregnant until he's already lost the baby unknowingly conceived during the night he and Rozanov spent together before the Olympics - the night that he chose to trust Rozanov with the most vulnerable, secret parts of himself, a trust that was shattered by Rozanov's cold, callous treatment of him in the months that followed.

    Ilya doesn't realise he's fallen in love until he's faced with losing Shane to the six months of his unanswered texts, the incidental cruelty of Ilya’s desperate, last-ditch attempt to protect and distance himself unknowingly compounded for Shane by the secret grief at his loss of a baby nobody but he even knows existed.

    By the time Ilya realises that there's something very wrong with Shane, he's terrified that it's too late - not just to save any possibility of a relationship between them, but to save Shane's life.

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    28 May 2026

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    After a viral photo outs Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov while they're still busy pretending their years-long situationship is mostly just sex, the fallout gets complicated fast. The world reacts badly. Their teams react worse. Ilya's future in North America starts to look alarmingly fragile, and Shane, who has never met a disaster he didn't try to control into submission, throws himself into fixing what can still be fixed.

    Ilya has spent his whole life being wanted for the wrong reasons and discarded for the right ones. Shane has spent his whole life believing that if he is careful enough, good enough, controlled enough, he can keep disaster from reaching the people he loves.

    A practical solution emerges, then a house, then rings.

    Somehow, by the time they say their vows, both of them are certain they are the only one who means them.

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    25 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is eighteen, second overall draft pick, and quietly, a father. He's learned to carry both versions of himself with practiced ease.

    Then there's Ilya Rozanov: first overall, unbothered, and already taking up more space in Shane's head than he has any right to.

    Their rivalry is the story everyone wants to tell. Shane is starting to suspect the real one is something else entirely.

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    24 May 2026