WhyDoIStillExist



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    [Both names start with S and both are smart. But while Spencer throws himself into work at the start of his journey, Shikamaru does the opposite.
    Hence I decided I wanted to throw Shikamaru into the “real world” as Spencer!

    This series will be decided into at least two works. The first one is up and finished until further notice. It’s basically only like a layout. A prequel if you will.]

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  1. Rec 39

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    Shane experiences a time loop. Ilya experiences that same time loop. Ilya then, months later, goes through his own loop.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    "Dude," Steddy skated up to him, "if we really have a gay teammate, which, given what you and Pikey have been up to, is likely, they probably don't trust us for shit."
    "Yeah," his fellow D, Gagny, piped up, "that's gotta impact play."
    "We have got to get our shit together if we want another cup," Steddy continued.
    "Gentlemen, gentlemen, don't you worry, I have a plan."
    "This is why you are the best, JJ."

    what if the metros were a bunch of confused straight dudes trying to support the mysterious gay teammate they suspect exists on their team? what if jean-jacques boiziau was leading the charge? cue hijinks, call-ups from minors, bisexual awakenings, coming out, and bear nights.

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    12 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Jane Holeader

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    What if Scott Hunter was waiting for an elevator in Vegas?

    What if Shane and Ilya had an emotional support Old Man and his Art History Twink?

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    11 Mar 2026

  4. Rec 33

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    “Don’t let go!” Ilya shouted as Alexei struggled to hold onto the end of the bike, his legs moving quickly to keep up with the pace as the road turned downhill. 

    “I’m not going to let go. Calm down!” 

    “You sure?” 

    Alexei was starting to pant heavily but his legs kept moving. “I promise.”

    And Alexei didn’t let go — not until a rock got stuck in the front wheel causing Ilya to crash, taking Alexei down with him.

     

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    A recollection of Alexei's life from childhood to adulthood.

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    07 Mar 2026

  5. Rec 18

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    Three different times Ilya’s dad calls, three different times Ilya has to face the fact his father is not the same.

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    06 Mar 2026